I am walking on the street again, trying to get back home. It's getting late at this hour. I feel quite better than I was when I fell into a despair state. I recall the words that I said to Madoka. I knew that my emotional behavior would be so rough on her. I need to forgive her. I'm sure that out there, she is trying to find me.

Oh Madoka. I... I know you care about me and all, but the way that I am behaving really scares you. It would be inconvenient if I run into her. It would be best to call it a night.

"Sayaka! There you are!"
No Madoka! It can't be...Kyouko?
"Man! I have to run so fast just to catch up with you."
What? What do you want?
"Look. I know what you are going through. I can tell by the look on your face. If it concerns you, then let's go somewhere so we can talk about it."
Ummm...ok.
"Trust me..."
Kyouko puts a hand on my shoulder.
"...it will be alright."
I look up at her. Then I nodded.

We arrived back at the abandoned church. This place; where Kyouko used to call it home. It's quiet as usual since the first time I came here.

"Feel much better now?"
Hmm?
"You should thank me for saving your life."
Oh...thanks.
"I sensed that you are going through a lot in life since...whatever day you became a magical girl. Is that right?"
Yes.
"So...about that boy you have interest in. Did you..."
No.
"Hmm?"
No. I didn't.
Kyouko listened.
Someone that I know has taken him away from me. I never had the chance to admit my feelings for him. After everything that I have done for him.
"It's your wish. Your wish helped him to get better."
It did. It really did.
"You're supposed to make a wish for yourself. That's what Kyubey said."
I...didn't thought about that. I did it so that I can help him.
"Hmmph! Like how I made a wish to help my dads church gain visitors. But I have told you how it ended tragically."
You did. Right now, I have no one to turn to. I have no one to rely on. Not even Madoka. I hurt her in a bad way. Everything just crumbles. I don't think I can turn back what I have done.
"Sayaka..."
This is my entire fault. My emotions have changed on me. I felt envious. I felt into a violent rage. I knew that there was something wrong with me. I was not myself at all. Nothing...nothing will repair the damages that affected my life. I am no longer the Sayaka Miki that I used to be. I just lost everything.
"...Sayaka..."
The one person that I have looked up to since childhood vanished from my hands. I will never know what love is. Never...never!

Why? Why me? Why can't I understand myself like this? It's a puzzle I can never solve on my own. What did I do to deserve this?

I am crying now. My emotional behavior got to me again. My life as a magical girl...no, what the hell was I thinking? I am foolish. Ashamed to what choice I have made. Stupid me.

"Sayaka..."
I look up to Kyouko. I felt her, holding me by my shoulders.
Please. You don't want to see me like this.
"Its ok. You need to calm down."
I breathed.
"At least get a hold of yourself. You'll be glad that you're not a witch."
I...thank you.
"Your welcome."
I sighed. Trying to feel more relaxed.
"Look...I understand how you feel about all this. But you shouldn't give your life up and be turned into a hideous monster. I can't imagine you like that."
Hmm...
"Between you and me, we have similar personalities. We have like a connection. A better understanding."
Yes...you're right.
"...uh...umm..."

Kyouko was lost of words. She paused as if she was trying to think of what she has to say. I'm getting the sense to where this was going. Kyouko sighed. I can tell that she looks slightly nervous.

"I... I have a confession to make."
What is it?
"I know that we used to be enemies. I made you understand my past right here, and between you and me, both of us have similar wishes we made."
Yeah. We both did.
"I have no one in this world. I am always alone. Always will be. And my life would never be the same if it wasn't for you. The truth is... I... I..."
Kyouko. It's ok. Just say it.
"... I want you Sayaka. I can't make it in life without you. Even as magical girls, I can't live by myself. I know this is all too much to put it in words, but... I love you Sayaka."
I blinked. Kyouko...
"No. I'm serious. You concern me for the most part. By the moment that I found out you made that wish, I have a feeling that boy wouldn't know that you made the wish. I bet he loved you back after visiting him often. Did he?"
I shake my head.
"That explains why your other friend has taken him."
I don't care about that anymore.
"Hmm?"
Besides, she can have him. I am done with him completely.
"Really?"
Yes.
"I see."
Kyouko. There are similarities between us. And both of know what it means to feel lonely. Despite your tragic lost, you should be glad that you're still here in this world. And I should feel this way since you saved me from being a witch. I am glad that you are there for me.
"Mmm..."
Kyouko smiled.
"Thanks Sayaka. I feel much better now."
I nodded with a smile.

We stared at each other for a minute. We are really close to each other. I am getting the sense that we are having an intimate moment. I can breathe through my lungs. My heart raced as Kyouko was real close to me. I didn't move. I stood there waiting for something to happen.

"I want you...now."

Kyouko pulls me by the back. That is when she did it. She sealed me with a kiss. My lips, connected to hers. I close my eyes, to embrace this moment.

No. I accepted this moment. I held her by the arms and feel her breath. I did not break the kiss in one minute. I went over.

*chu*

That kiss.
It's...new to me.
I didn't expect to be kissed by someone that's opposite from me.
We broke the kiss and glared into each others eyes.
"This is your first kiss right?"
Blushing, I nodded.
"...me too..."
I nodded.
"I want... I want you Sayaka. I want you. And I need you. You're everything to me. That's why I love you so much."
I smiled. The thoughts that I had before, vanished, as I felt comfortable to be in the arms of a magical girl. Kyouko that is.
"So, Sayaka. What are you thinking right now?"
Umm...
"If you want, we can pretend that this never happened."
No.
"Hmm?"
I don't want to pretend. I want to experience it.
"Ah. So do I."
I want to experience this feeling of love to you Kyouko. I want to experience this moment with you. I want to know how it feels like.
"And this is why I didn't want to lose someone like you."
Uh-huh.
"To see someone, starving for love and to suffer through despair. That is something which I can't let go."
If it wasn't for you, I would have let myself go. But to be here with you, after you have saved me, I don't want to die at all. That is something I can't let go.
"...I see..."

Silence. We stare again. Silently. For just a minute. Then, we bring ourselves close to each other. This led us into another passionate kiss. We did it again. And again. We held it for a minute.

Then break.

You're not a bad kisser Kyouko.
Kyouko giggled.
"Oh stop. I'm being serious."
So am I.
"I would never let you go Sayaka. Never."
I feel the same here. I can let go of my past. I can't let go for someone special as you. You look like the only person I look up to you.
Kyouko agreed.
No one will ever understand my feelings. Not even Madoka would.
"But she cares about you."
She does, but...
"Hmm?"
...she needs to leave me alone for now.
"Oh. I see."
Please Kyouko. I want you to love me. Let's end this evening on a positive note. I want to forget about what happened a while ago. Just...just make love to me. Now.
Kyouko smiled.
"With pleasure."

Author's note: This isn't finished since it's ended there, but the next one will follow the scene above and it may lead to a M rating. If its ok, then let me know.