Choices Are Made

Chapter 3: The Battle Of Feelings

Don't and never will own iCarly

PS: Please read the authors note at the bottom I have a few important things for you to know

Sam's POV

As interested as I am to know what the deal is with Freddie there's a part of me that doesn't want to know. That part of me wants to run straight home, slam my bedroom door shut and plug my ears. A lot of different scenarios are running through my head at this point all leading to one outcome Freddie and Carly becoming happily in love. I have no idea how Carly feels about Freddie because it's not like I could go up and ask her without her getting suspicious.

Then I think to myself 'oh come on Sam, Freddie could be talking about anything' this calmed me down a bit.

"Well today I got a call from Carly..." he looked up waiting for approval to go on. Not wanting to show a reaction to him so quickly I just stare at him blankly.

"...she told me she wanted to talk to me about 'us'. I mean she sounded pretty serious and I'm kind of hoping that she wants to get back together with me." Freddie kept on rambling but I couldn't understand what he was saying after that. My breathing became shorter from my heart beating a mile a minute. The real Sam, the real me wants to scream at him for being in love with Carly and tell him they would be terrible together. I can't be the real me I have to be plain old Sam, the one who is rude and annoying. The worst part about being typical Sam is that I have to be the one to rain on Freddie's parade.

"Oh Freddie, Freddie, Freddie." I say while shaking my head doing my best to stay in character.

"Hey! It's not that inconceivable!" No doubt trying to use big words to make his point.

"I'm not saying it can't happen," He gave a questionable look so I played with it a little bit. "I'm just saying that no matter what happens your little 'fantasy' won't come true."

"And by 'fantasy' you mean...?" I couldn't say that Carly wasn't in love with him because I honestly had no clue if she is. Hey, I fell for the nub didn't I? So that means that there is a likely chance there could be feelings involved other than mine. My head won't stop spinning, I hope I can control myself and not pass out from the thought of them being together.

"Even if for some unbelievably strange reason Carly wanted to be with you, do you really think it's gonna be rainbows and butterflies." How am I supposed to do this? Trying to convince Freddie that life would be terrible with Carly is the only thing I could think of and that's not going to be an easy task.

"You don't know that. Carly is my dreamgirl and I would do anything to be with her and be happy."

"What if she doesn't make you happy?"

"Of course she makes me happy, shes perfect." That got me ticked off. Carly's smart, pretty, sweet, and perfect, shes everything I'm not and apparently to everyone else if I'm not Carly I'm not worth it.

"Shes not perfect! She probably doesnt even feel the way you think she does!"

"Again how would you know if she doesn't feel the same way?" What is wrong with him? He is so blind.

"Because she isn't me!" I blurted out. Oh my gosh I can't believe I just said that out loud, he doesn't get it but I don't think me saying that is going to help anything. I close my eyes and pray that he didn't hear that even if I screamed it at the top of my lungs.

"What?" I could tell he was really confused from this comment.

"She doesn't feel the same way as I feel about you."

"Sam, if this is a joke its not funny!"

"Freddie I'm falling for you! Carly would never feel the same way about you as I do."

"Your lying." Of course he would think that I'm lying, this isn't me but it does hurt that he doesn't believe me.

"Do think i would lie about this?" I said in a quiet tone worried on what his answer would be. He just shrugged telling me he has no clue. "Gosh, do you want me to swear on fatcakes or something? I will." I could tell by the look on his face that he finally got the message I was trying to tell him.

EVERYBODY I WANT TO KNOW WHAT YOU THINK-
I tried a different tactic in this chapter by only using Sam's POV so tell me if you like it better like this or like in other chapters where there are multiple POVs

So I want to do a my first song-fic for Seddie. I was thinking about Battle by Colbie Caillat (I'll post a link of the song on my profile)
So tell me if that idea interests you or if it doesn't, suggest a song and I might make something out of that

SO PLEASE REVIEW!

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