3. State of emergency

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A/N: first of all, thanks to everyone who reviewed last chapter, I didn't have any expectations for this story, but I'm happy so far.

sanfrangiantsfan: who knows, maybe she won't get married, I haven't finish the story yet so I can't assure you that she will or won't become a "trophy wife", or something like that.

She cares, but she is in denial, because of course her situation doesn't allow her to desire him…how long does she have to pretend? Is she turning into a fake?...she is scared, and she doesn't know how to deal with it, mixed feelings. She is not supposed to care about him now, but unconsciously all she wants it's see him, talk to him, touch him, feel him…

She used to think about him as the cold hearted boy who fell in love with her, but now, she is not the only one in his life, maybe deep inside of her, jealousy was taking control. She's supposed to be happy for him, after all he found someone new, moved on. And to tell the truth, she felt threatened, she felt like he had replaced her.

She woke up Saturday morning with the same headache that had attacked her after her mom told her about Jess, but this time there was no wine involved.

She decided to take a bath and go to Doose's to get aspirins. She didn't think that maybe she could be around, so she walked slowly to Doose's because she was concerned about her headache, because it was getting worse and it was blurring her view. She walked into the store and went straight to the "medicine" isle, she got the aspirins, and she went to get a bottle of water, when she was about to leave, she bumped into someone.

Her, nobody else, but her…

Flashback

Rory arrived at her childhood home, and she notice that her mom wasn't there, so she assumed that Lorelai was with Luke and they would come to their home later, probably after the diner closed

So she proceeded to unpack her clothes in her old room, when she felt the door opening.

-"Rory?" – Lorelai asked from the entrance – "Hun, are you home?"

-"In here"

She heard Lorelai and Luke walking into the kitchen and both greeted her, Luke was a little tense, but Lorelai was trying to be normal.

-"Hi, so…been here too long?"

-"No, just got here, why?"

-"um…no reason" – Lorelai was acting suspicious again – "so…do you want to eat or something?"

-"no, I'm fine mom, thanks"

-"ok…well…um…can I talk to you for a sec?"

-"yeah sure"

Luke told Lorelai that he was going to bed, he needed to get up early in the morning, so he went upstairs and leaved the girls alone.

-"So…"- Lorelai started

-"mom if you're going to talk to me about the jessometer or anything related with Jess, just do it"

-"ok…just I don't want to pressure you, you know it's only cause I care about you"

-"yes, I know, but mom I have Logan, and this Jess thing, can't affect me, I won't allow to affect me"

-"Fine, if you're sure…" – Lorelai looked at Rory with the shoe sale face on – "so, now that we cleared that out, gossip?"

-"oh, I'm hooked up, tell me, tell me"

-"how can you be hook up if I haven't said a word?"

-"cause you're looking at me with your shoe sale face on"

-"good point…so…I, know everything about…her, so do you want to know?"- Lorelai said really excited.

"…oh, ok…I guess"- Rory put on a fake smile and listened to her mom talk for about a half hour.

End flashback

She murmured a "sorry", paid for her aspirins and left the market, as fast as she could.

After all her mother was right when she described her as "the pretty dark-haired girl", she had dark hair, and she was pretty…"not prettier than me", she thought, but obviously she regretted it instantly; "I can't be so mean, I don't even know her, what's wrong with me?" she went back to her house, and took "How to breath underwater" and went to the bridge, maybe it was a little cliché, but she knew that no one would bother her there. She took the opportunity to take the aspirins, the headache was getting worse and worse.

After a while reading, she notice that she couldn't focus, that she wasn't actually reading, she was thinking, over and over about her…and him, it always goes back to him.

She remembered the previous night; Lorelai had told her a few things about Marissa, after all she didn't know everything about this girl. But she still could hear her mom's voice inside her head telling her about Jess's girlfriend…

"Well, she is 2 years younger than Jess…um…she studied Literature in UCLA, but she's working in a record store in New York…oh, did I mention that she met Jess in California and moved in with him to New York after he had a huge fight with his dad?"

What took Rory by surprise was that they were living together, it didn't even cross her mind that Jess was so serious about this relationship

Suddenly her cell phone started to ring…

-"hello"

-"Hi, offspring!"

-"Hi mom, what's up?

-"I'm just calling to check up on you, and to tell you that I can't get out of the inn till 9, so you're on your own…sorry"

-"it's ok, I'm fine"

-"oh, ok…so where are you? I called home and you weren't there…"

-"I'm on the bridge, just reading…remember that I came here to relax, to get away from everything"

-"yes, I remember…ok then, I'll see you later"

-"ok, mom, see ya"

Rory didn't want to go back to her house yet, she needed more than be surrounded by four walls all day long, she decided to go somewhere to eat, of course Luke's wasn't an option.

"Deal with Jess in this moment isn't an option"-Rory thought, and went to Weston's.

She sat in a small table by the window, and order coffee and strawberry pie, she relaxed and started to read again.

Twenty minutes and 2 pieces of pie later, she heard someone asking for an apple pie to go, she interrupted her reading to look up, and once again her bad luck resurfaced.

This time she took a closer look to her, she wanted to know if she was "Jess's type", but after all this time, she couldn't tell exactly what kind of girl Jess would like. She saw her, and jealousy took control…her eyes were green, she had dark straight hair, she had pale skin, she looked pretty, and even…nice.

Marissa leaved Weston's, crossed the street and went into Luke's, Rory paid her bill, and leaved Weston's, she was crossing the street…she needed to look at him…she was ready, she needed to face him, no, she needed to see him. Rory could bet that he was in Luke's right now, so what better time than now? Plus she had an excuse; she would say that her mom had told her to meet her at Luke's, the perfect alibi.

She took a deep breath, armed of bravery and walked towards Luke's…

A/N: I finish! Finally I finish this chapter, sorry it took me so long, but here it is, I hope everyone liked it, and if you didn't just tell me, but please review, common courtesy, right, and if I had grammar mistakes, just tell me… I also want to explain that I'm not sure if you can buy aspirins at Doose's, but this is a fan fiction, so I don't want complains about that please ;)