Obsession

You ignore me, beat me and abuse me. But I come straight back. You slap me painfully hard across the cheek. I get no sorry or I didn't mean to, I just come straight back. And sometimes it feels as if you barely know who I am. Your golden fists have met my face so many times I lost count at twenty.

You don't remember me, but I remember you
I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
But who can decide what they dream, and dream I do

I see you in my head…pressing your body close to mine in a kiss that's so hard it hurts. Your hands sliding up my chest, the metal of your fingers slowly rubbing over my crimson fur. I see your tail wrapped around my waist pulling yourself closer still. I see myself curling my hands around your waist without you hitting me. But I guess they'll always just be images in my head.

I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you
To live, to breathe
You're taking over me

And the worst thing is that when I muck up, which I do a lot, is that I can never truly get away from you. I know through personal experience that when you get hurt you need some time to think. But you're always at least five paces away from me. That's what makes it painful. We don't get the five minutes apart to think over things and I guess that's why our bond has suffered from so many cracks.

Have you forgotten all I know, and all we had
You saw me mourning my love for you, and touched my hand
I knew you loved me then

We had so much going for us back then. We were younger, nicer and defiantly freer then we've ever been. And then the worm came and everything I'd tried so hard to pull together was shot down in flames. But then you always comfort me, hold my hand and tell me everything's going to be fine. And as soon as I hold your hand tighter you slap me. But that's the thing.

I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you
To live, to breathe
You're taking over me

I love you. Madly, truly, deeply. I can't get you out of my head. Your beautiful voice that rings out like bells, your fur in pristine condition or your heart stopping eyes. They pierce through me and read me like a book. As if making a full emotional scan of me. No matter how hard I try I just can't force myself to look away from your pretty eyes.

I look in the mirror and see your face
If I look deep enough
So many things inside that are
Just like you are taking over

Then I don't think we'll ever have anything because of our love/hate relationship. We'll never be able to get on terms with each other and if we did you'll most probably have a flipping great rule book of what I can and can't do with you. But I guess the main thing ruling us apart is the abuse. I'm close to the point of giving up. Because every day I get a slap, a kick, a punch. I don't think I could take that every day of my life.

I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you
To live, to breathe
You're taking over me

You're tearing me apart. Savagely pulling me apart at the screws. You're tearing at me like a pack of rabid wolves after their kill. All in all: you're killing me. I want to give up…to just say I quit. But that's a weak option in your eyes. I don't want to look bad in your eyes. I'm torn between reality and fantasy, each as twisted as the other. You save me from terrible decisions yet you're the cause of the ideas in the first place.

I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you
To live, to breathe
You're taking over me
You're taking over me
Taking over me

And I haven't told anyone, simply because there is no one to tell. I don't want the team to fall apart at the seams but I guess it already has. I'm the only one who knows I'm dying inside. I try to cover it up with my happy cheery nature but one day I'm sure I'll fail.

I'll keep you my secret, my passion,

My obsession

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A slightly dark look on SprxNova but at least it's done. I was going to go for a happy, sappy ending but I felt like being different. I heard this song the other day for the first time and instantly thought of Sprx. Anyhow please r&r!