BPOV
8:45 pm
It was 8:45 and fucken Jacob was nowhere to been seen. He told me he was just gonna be a little bit and damn I knew the fucken meeting lasted for a maxim of an hour but he has been gone for about 5 hours and yet not even a phone call or and stupid text. What the hell I was carrying his baby didn't I deserved some type of notice to know he was at least still alive and breathing. He knew how much I hated not knowing if he was ok, and yet the kid couldn't be bothered with any type of communication what so ever!
I was going crazy and I couldn't even smoke a little to relive the stress. I took another look at the clock and it read 9:03pm. I was going crazy not knowing anything and I knew I couldn't call him because with my lick he could have been send on a hit and his phone ringing could give him away and then shit would end up being my fault if something went wrong. So I did what I did best and I waited…and waited…and waited, until at some point I dosed off.
I woke up to someone wrapping their arms around me and I didn't have to open my eyes to know those arms belong to my Jacob I couldn't even master any anger towards him. I was just happy he was save in my bed at least for another night.
"Hey I know your awake…ugh I'm sorry baby but Sam was pissed about the weed and shit and he told me that I needed to stick around to go on a hit with Paul and Seth, and you know since Seth is knew and so young he couldn't go just with Paul" he whispered.
He started to kiss my neck in that delicious spot that I love so much where my neck meets my shoulder. A soft moan escape my lips and he knew he was forgiven, but still I stayed silent he had to at least grovel a little bit more before I totally gave in even though we both knew I wouldn't stay mad at him for long.
"I would've called baby but everything happen so quick I had to get read and shit I didn't have time to call you baby, I know that's no excuse but I promise you that tomorrow you have me all day and we can go and look at baby stuff…*kiss*….and make a doctors appointment…*bite*…and even go get baby books"…*lick*…he didn't play fair and damn who was I to tell him his way didn't work for me.
I turned around in his arms and kissed him full on the mouth.
"I love you…but you know how worry I get when you don't call and you promised all on your own that you would call if anything like this happen" I whispered because I just couldn't bring myself to yell at him he looked so tired and worn out. I knew what this missions did to him and special now that we have a little baby coming soon he was more worried of something to happen to him then he let on. I knew it was probably and bad time to bring this up but maybe tonight would open his eyes to the dangers of all of this. I mean yes his gang brought him a sense of family but we could be a family and now more then ever since our little baby was going to join us, so fuck it what did I have to lose if I brought it up now. I mean the worst that can happen if him getting mad and damn me if that was going to stop me.
"Baby why don't you just give it up, honey I need you with me these next 8 months are going to be difficult and I need you Jake to be with me every step of the way. Honey why do you just get out we can even move somewhere else baby where no one knows anything and your past wont follow you, we can start fresh no one will know about the pack Jake or that you were any part of it". I said kissing his neck and biting lightly trying to sell my point across with a little bit of tiny pleasure. " baby we can have our little family away from all of this, you wont have to worry about hits and hustle you don't have to worry about Sam being on your ass or teaching the new foot soldiers the ropes wolfy" I whispered using his nickname for good measure. He stiffen a little at the mere thought of not having his gang or "pack" behind him but he had to know that the sooner he got out the more light weight he would feel I just knew he would be more happy without a care in the world. He just had to do it to know that he would be ok that everything would be ok. He wouldn't be alone because he would always have me and our baby and he had to understand that would be enough. He could get a job and make friends there, people that weren't involve in the gang or knew nothing of the drug trade and the killing that went on. She was brought back form her thoughts of all that they could have if Jacob just got out of the gang by his voice.
"Bella we've been through this honey their my family, Bella they need me and before you go and interrupting me I know you need me to honey but it doesn't mean that I cant take care of all of you. they've been with me through a lot and I know you've been with me through all that shit too but I cant just leave them honey. And besides I told them about our little surprise and they are all so happy for us and the new edition to the family Bells and I know honey that you worry but I promise you I'm always going to be here honey I'm never going anywhere and I'll put you first from now on ok you and our baby mean so much to me if you don't want me to go when they call me then fuck it Ill take a violation for the both of you, you both are my first priority now". he said kissing my temple.
But I pushed him away what the fuck was going through his mind when he told his fucken homies he knew how much I hated that he was a part of it, why in the hell did he think it was ok for him to share this with them. She didn't want their baby to have any part of the gang world it was bad enough that Jake already didn't even give it a thought to leaving that world but now he wanted to involve their baby in that fucked up world. Jacob didn't realize but in doing that he had just started one of their most biggest and ugliest fights that they had ever had…and she prayed he was ready.
AN: I know I haven't updated this story in a long time but I was having trouble writing anything and since I'm writing this story as I go along none of my notes make any sense but I promise you that I will at least try to post a new chapter ever week.