Chapter Three (He Cried For His Best Friends Lost Love)

After the funeral everyone went to the Cullens house, where the wake was held. For most of the people it was there first times in the Cullens house, other than my classmates who had attended my graduation party, only weeks ago. I sat on the couch next to Esme and Carlisle, who were getting condolences. They told them to me too.

" I'm sorry for your loss."

" Edward was such a nice boy."

" We'll all miss him dearly, I'm so sorry."

They were all the same in some way. 'I'm sorry for your loss.' They were sorry, sure, but they would forget in a couple of days, putting Edward in the back of their minds and never thinking of the poor boy who was mauled by a lion. Jasper was constantly sending me calming waves, and I was grateful for them. I was prepared to attack anyone, at any moment.

" Bella." I looked up from my hands to see Mike, Jessica, Lauren, and Angela. It was Angela that had spoken, she was crying and her eyes were al puffy. " How are you holding up?"

" I'm… horrible." I whispered, my voice was rough from crying and not talking. " I miss him so much, Angela. I don't think I can stand a world without him." My face puckered up and I bit my lip to keep from crying out.

" Oh, Bella." Angela sat down next to me, and wrapped an arm around me, and pulling me into a warm hug. " It's going to be ok. Think about what Edward would have wanted for you. He'd want you to prosper and go on without him. I didn't know him well, but one thing I knew was that he loved you madly, and would do anything for you."

" I know that's what he wants. I know he wants me to live life and forget about him, but I can't! Angela you were there when he l-left me, I knew he was alive, and yet it tore me apart. Now that he's… gone I don't think I can survive." I cried. " Angela we were planning on getting married. Just days before he… left I said yes to him. We were going to get married and live life together forever." I confessed to her.

" I lost more than just some boy that I was infatuated with. I lost my soul mate." We were quiet for a while. Mike, Jessica and Lauren stared at me, while Angela hugged me. " His last words to me were that he wanted me to move on, get over him, find a new love and have a bunch of babies."

" You should do what he told you to." Angela whispered to me. I shook my head.

" I have to go." I stood up and rushed up the stair to Edward's bedroom. I slammed the door shut and threw myself onto the bed. I snuggled into the sheets and smelled them. They still smelled like him.

That was how Jacob found me, ten minutes later.

" Bella." I looked up from where my head was tangled in the sheets. He had a frown set on his face.

" Jacob." I croaked. He came over and sat on the floor next to my head.

" You two were going to get married?" He asked, his voice was gentle. He didn't seem mad, or even disturbed by that fact.

" Yes. We were. And he was going to change me into an immortal so we could live together forever." I said, my voice was detached and robotic.

" I know I never approved of you and him, but Bella… I never wanted this to happen. I- I really am sorry that he's dead. I'm so sorry that I never bother to get to know him. I think back on it now, and I really think I could have been friends with him."

" Oh, Jake. I know you're sorry. I know you are. So am I. I wish I could have convinced him to stay with me, then maybe we wouldn't be in this predicament." I touched his face lovingly. Then, what happened after that, I never thought I'd see Jacob do. He cried… over a vampire. No. Not a vampire. He cried over his best friends lost love. He cried for my Edward.