Author's Note!!

Beware that this chapter made me increase the rating. I guess my mind was kinda physco today. But there is a part where glass and skin is involved. Enjoy you guys and gals and thanks for getting me over 247 views! You guys freaking rock!! Oh and of course please read and review. Kisses and apples for everyone!

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Carlisle stared at Esme's beauty. She didn't look like the other vampires. She had something special about her that made her seem like a fairy tale. He smirked and gazed and she gave a loving look back. If he could ever feel his heart again just for one moment in his life, she would make it clench.

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"My baby died a few days after he was born. I was so devastated. I couldn't live with myself anymore." Esme whispered.

"I am sorry Esme, about your child. But you do not deserve to die." Carlisle looked her in the eyes.

Esme bowed her head and put her hands on her cheek waiting for the blood to rush to them. But she was forever cold like an ice princess. They had talked about what she just had become. She was only grateful that the burning was over.

"Why? Why should I live if my child died? I can always have another but it would only remind me. And who with?"

Carlisle took a seat in a chair. He ran his fingers along his ring and took a deep breath. He did not want to tell her that she is forever frozen. No baby, blood, or love. But maybe she could be his love.

"Esme, I didn't want to tell you this. I do not intend on hurting you again after all that's happened to you," He let out a breath again. "You can no have children since you have changed. I know that having a child is the most important thing to you but we can not have a child. I mean you can not." He added.

Esme got up off the bed very quickly. Carlisle could have sworn she was about to run. Her eyes flickered everywhere until it landed on a window. She ran to the window and busted it open. Pieces of glass flew everywhere and she snatched on as it was falling. She put the blade to her wrist and slit it. But the glass only broke in her hands. She got another piece and tried to do it again and again and repeatedly but it didn't work. She threw the last piece of glass on the ground and slid to the floor.

"I can't do that. I need something worth living for."

Carlisle had let her vent out her pain and he went to sit next to her.

"Esme there is so much out there to live for. There's the love that can bring you happiness."

"Who can bring me love? No one! I AM A VAMPIRE! I don't deserve love. I never had love." She stopped and held her throat. The thirst started again.

"I've never had love and I'm surviving. Me and my son are."

"Your son? I thought we couldn't have children?"

"Well, I created him. He was like you, dieing. So I saved him and he has become my son. But not technically yet he has only been in his words "my companion". I want to adopt him but I think that he needs to have a mother."

She looked at him. "How old is he?"

"He's forever seventeen."

She sighed. She had pictured a young boy who he could live with her. They could both enjoy everything that any young boy would. They would play hide and go seek and run with the dog. But she quickly snapped out of her vision because she knew it wasn't possible.

"Tell me about him," She sat closer to him. She closed her eyes listening to him. She still could not cope with the fact that she could never have a child in her womb. She could never hold on to her stomach and smile with sunshine. That could never be her. Her thirst came back again.

"His name is Edward and he is very gifted…."

Carlisle went on talking about Edward. He could feel that Esme was hurt and he wanted to heal her. He didn't want her to feel that she had nothing to live for because she could become what he wants to live for. He wrapped an arm around her and pulled her closer.