Three years later in Kili's diary, is his relationship still going strong? x
Dear Diary,
Today is mine and Y/N's three year anniversary! Well I mean we're not actually married yet, but as a special surprise I'm going to propose to her. She said she was seeing her family today, and has been a lot recently. She says her mothers quite ill and that she needs to look after her quite often. I'm so excited, I love Y/N so much, even though Fili always acts weird around her.
Fili keeps telling me that he'll be there for me whenever I need him, if things don't work out between me and Y/N. But it will, she's the one, I know it, even if Fili doesn't. The last three years have been amazing, Y/N's so beautiful and I can't wait to marry her! Wish me luck for tomorrow, I've got so much planned. I'm going to take her for a ride through the forest and the chefs have agreed to cook us a romantic meal! I can't wait!
Love Kili
Dear Diary,
I HATE HER! I CAN'T BELIEVE I WAS SO STUPID! THIS IS THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE!
When I went to pick Y/N up for our date, I found her with... with another dwarf! SHE CHEATED ON ME! I HATE HER SO MUCH! Apparently she's been cheating on me for ages, that she never went to look after her mother, but instead was fucking another dwarf. Why did I ever think I would be good enough for her, I'M SO STUPID WHY DIDN'T I LISTEN TO FILI! I thought she cared for me, that for once I was like Fili, that someone loved me! I'm so humiliated, she didn't even apologise.I'm such a pathetic excuse for a dwarf, I don't want to see her again, ever.
Kili
Dear Diary,
I didn't leave my room today. Fili and uncle tried to make me but I couldn't. I don't want anyone to see me, I wish they'd all leave me alone. Fili heard me crying today and tried to make me feel better by giving me the last piece of his cake. But we just ended up fighting. I HATE HIM, AND I HATE HER, AND I HATE MYSELF! Why can't I be like Fili, he always does everything right and his girlfriends have never cheated on him. I hate being me.
I still have the ring I made for Y/N, I don't know what to do with it. I don't want to throw it away because it took me so long to make it and... and I miss her. I want to hate her but I can't, I love her too much, even after what she did. All I want to do is eat cake and cry.
Kili
Dear Diary,
Last night I had another nightmare. It was the same one. Except this time, instead of Smaug killing me it was Y/N, I kept seeing the image of her and the other dwarf. I ended up waking up and screaming, but it was okay because Fili came and sang me back to sleep. I think he stayed with me all night to make sure I was okay. I'm so glad I have Fili for a brother, he is always so kind to me but I just end up shouting at him. I don't hate him really, he's helping me get through this rough patch. I love Fili with all my heart and I've always wanted to be like him, but I can't, I can't because he's perfect and I'm just a stupid boy that never does anything right. I hate living.
Kili
Dear Diary,
Uncle is sending me and Fili to go and spend a couple of days with Gloin and Gimli. Apparently it's too help me and too get my mind off things. I want to go and I'm excited but I'm worried that they'll take pity ono me and I don't want that. I want to be able to look after myself and not having people constantly check if I'm okay. I'm fine, at least I keep telling people I am. I'm trying to get over Y/N and I'm finding it hard but I don't want to ever be with a girl again, I'm worried that it'll end badly like this one did. I know it sounds stupid because she was my first, but I thought she was the one and clearly she wasn't.
I'll just have to wait I guess, unlike Fili who just doesn't get emotionally attached. I just don't know if I'd be able to do that, because I don't want to hurt anyone and it's called making love so I think you should do it with the person you love. I think I'll just concentrate on whats important at the moment and making my family proud.
Kili
I hope this chapter was okay because I really struggled to write it, mainly because I wasn't sure how to get across what was happening in diary form. If people want me too I will probably write three more chapters (one for every Hobbit movie) so his age will jump up. If I do write one for BOTFA *cries* It'll probably come out after the 20th of march because I'd need to re-watch the film. Alternatively if people want me too you can send in requests of his age and a situation and I could try and write them. Thanks for reading, I hope you enjoyed even if you felt bad for Kili, which I did.