Brennan's POV. I don't own anything

Chapter 3 – Memories - Brennan:

I was quiet on the way down in the elevator. After that conversation with Hodgins and Agent Foley, I started noticing all sorts of little things. Booth's ever-present hand on the small of my back guiding me everywhere. I notice that he stands closer to me when we're talking than he did anyone else. I even caught him watching me with that goofy smile that I adore so much on his face.

I even caught myself smiling when I heard him coming up behind me, or watching me. That I could lightly touch his arm in Sweet's office to calm him down when the therapist made him angry, and it would work. And when my phone would ring, I would be mildly disappointed if it wasn't him.

Then there was the sheer panic that I felt when he had been kidnapped the various times and how I would do anything to get him back, including dragging his bother into it and my father when he was a wanted felon, lying to the FBI and stealing a body. And when I had been kidnapped he broke out of the hospital to save me, kept looking even after he thought we were dead and god knows how many people he terrorized in order to save me. Hodgins told me it was faith, he was right.

There were moments I knew that if he left I wouldn't be able to go on, and moments where spending time together was the most natural thing in the world. When we were solving my mother's murder, he was there to comfort me and hold me as a proclaimed that I was not Joy Kennan but Temperance Brennan forensic anthropologist and bestselling author. He flew to New Orleans to prove my innocence when I had amnesia and was suspected of murder. And he was waiting to comfort me after I watched Sully sail away. He held me when I cried about Zach being Gormagodons apprentice. He assured me that there was someone for everyone, and that one day I would believe in transcendnt love.

Then there was when he told me about the father he killed as a sniper, something that he'd told no one else, I was touched that he trusted me that much. Or when I made mac' n cheese for him. We had discussed earlier that I wasn't a good cook and I said something about how Carly had said you have to cook with what you feel not just the recipe, and when I cooked for him it worked. I was elated when he said that it was the best mac'n cheese he'd had. He gave me a pig named Jasper as a pet, yes, it was plastic, but it helped me remember I would be ok. And he got me a Brainy Smurf, I had been so embarrassed by that as a teenager. But he gave it to me telling me that I was so much better than Smurfette because she only had her looks and he said I've got just not my looks but my brains and so much more. When he "died" I couldn't function anymore, I didn't want to go to the funeral because that would make it real. But he was alive and I was so angry, how could he have not told me, he made it clear he wanted me to know though, I forgave him. How could I not have.

I had been crushed when I learned about his relationship with Cam, not only that he had a relationship with her, but he didn't tell me. Then that day in the park after Epps died and he said that his relationship with Cam was over my heart soared only to be crushed mere seconds later when he drew that dam line. A line, that looking back, we danced around for another two years.

Then there was the case after Sully left, we couldn't do anything without fighting and I mean fighting not bickering like usual. We were having an impossible time together, so we saw his shrink, even though I disagree with psychology. Gordon Gordon, as Booth referred to him told us that we were both concerned over the fact that I had stayed for him instead of going with Sully. Rather, according to the shrink, I stayed because I couldn't live a pointless life at that time, and Booth was glad I stayed because I could help him solve the cases. It was bullshit; I stayed for him, not because I loved him but because I couldn't lose him, as my friend. He was always saying he wouldn't leave me. I couldn't leave him.

Angela and I were walking to the car when she looked over at me and asked, "What's on your mind Bren, your awfully quiet?"

"Nothing much I was just trying to figure out how we end up here?"

"Do you remember that day he got Homeland Security to detain you?"

"Yeah that was when are partnership was made official, he made a reference to Molder and Scully when I demanded full participation, which at the time I didn't understand, why?"

"Well you were wondering when it started I was telling you. You to have been dancing around each other for years even if you didn't see it."

I didn't answer, I knew she was right.

Then she asked, "Are you happy?"

With a smile on my face I answered, "Impossibly so." And she returned the smile.