Chapter 3

Two weeks later…

Erin looked at herself in the mirror, the dress was beautiful, long and flowing yet figure hugging in all the right places, it made her look amazing, her hair was pinned up, make up was flawless, shoes were comfortable, in just over 3 hours she would be married, Mrs Erin Michelle Hackett.

This should have been the most happiest day of her life, marrying the man she loved, confessing their undying love for one another in front of their friends and family, well his family as she didn't have family left, no blood relatives anyway. So why was the only thing she could think about Dean Winchester?

She hadn't even spoke to him in two weeks, she had exchanged a few e-mails with Sam to make sure they were both ok but not a single e-mail, phone call, text message had been exchanged with Dean yet she could think of nothing else.

She'd been distracted at work thinking about Dean, she'd come close a few times to calling Justin by his name, what a disaster that would have been. How would she have explained that to him? more than once she had picked up the phone and half dialled his number before changing her mind and hanging up, not knowing what she was going to say to him or why she was calling him at all?

Someone knocked on the door of her hotel room, Justin had insisted she get ready in a posh expensive hotel, the bridal suite. He would get ready at home, he had made sure Erin went to the hotel two days before to spend two days relaxing and having spa treatments. Erin obliged although she'd have been happier getting ready at home.

"Come in" Erin called plastering on a smile for her visitor; Jo entered the room in her maid of honour dress that was similar to Erin's only in a light peach colour not white, and didn't have a long train. The other two bridesmaids, Justin's nieces, wore a peach silk dress nothing fancy just a simple dress. "Aren't you a vision" Erin laughed knowing Jo hated being in a dress. Erin wasn't to happy about either she'd have preferred to have had a small wedding, a few close friends and family, no big ceremony or huge party after just an intimate day but Justin wanted a big church wedding, horse drawn carriages and white doves, thankfully Erin had managed to talk him out of any kind of animal at the wedding.

"A vision of dorkiness" Jo complained sitting down on the bed as Erin continued to access herself from different angles in the mirror.

Erin had missed Jo at one time they were inseparable when Erin worked and lived at the roadhouse. But once Erin moved away to get away from the life that had killed her family and reminded her to much of Dean they saw each other less and less, yet always found the time to talk on the phone. But Erin wasn't going to get married without Jo as her maid of honour or Ellen as guest, they were the only people Erin knew without Justin knowing them first.

"Yes your butt does look big in that" Jo told her smiling, yes Erin had missed Jo a lot.

"Stop it your splitting my side, pour me a drink, and make it a strong one"

Jo stood up and went to the mini-bar "you now there's nothing worse than a drunk bride"

Ignoring her Erin sat on the chair nearest to the mirror and waited for Jo to hand her the drink "thanks" Erin took a big long sip and pulled a face as the offending Jack Daniels whisky taste hit the back of her throat. How could Dean drink this shit? There she went again thinking about Dean-god damn-Winchester, today of all days. It clearly showed in her face that her mind was elsewhere as Jo asked her "what you thinking about?"

Erin sighed "you don't wanna know" she said standing up and walking to the window so Jo couldn't see her face.

"Dean Winchester then" Jo said standing up, Erin didn't respond "Erin I know the deal with you and Dean and after meeting him a couple weeks ago I understand the attraction, even though Sam's better" Jo's mind wondered off thinking about Sam as she stood behind Erin "but think about this…Dean hurt you, a lot, he left you in a hospital on your own, left you to fend for yourself, told you he loved you and then left. You see him again like 3 years later and he gets pissed at you for getting married"

"I know all that Jo but…" Erin took a deep breath and was about to explain how she didn't blame Dean for leaving her, that she understood that he was protecting her. Erin was never once angry at Dean for leaving her she was angry because she understood Dean had done the right thing, but her phone rang before she had chance to continue. Erin walked to the table on the other side of suite and picked her phone from the tale "it's Sam" she told Jo looking at the caller ID.

Jo shook her head "don't answer it"

"He's probably just calling to say good luck" Erin explained flipping the phone open and putting it to her ear "hey Sammy"

"Hey Erin, er…I need your help"

"What's wrong?"

"It's Dean…I don't want to talk about it over the phone can you come meet me? I'm in New Jersey"

"Is he ok? Is he hurt? In trouble?"

"He's ok at the moment I just need you to come here" Sam sighed

"Ok, ok, give me a couple hours I'm on my way" Erin said hanging up the phone and then rushing towards Jo and turning her back to her "unzip me" Erin told Jo hurriedly.

"What the hell's going on?"

"Sam needs me; something's going on with Dean I'm going to New Jersey"

"No" Jo told her "no, I'm not letting you do this, if you haven't forgotten you're getting married in less than 3 hours"

"Jo please just unzip me I know you don't approve of Dean but he needs me right now so does Sam he wouldn't have called otherwise now help me out of this damned dress"

Jo folded her arms and looked sternly at Erin, "fine I'll find your mom to help me" Erin said starting across the room to the door

"Yeah right like she'll help you to go see Dean on your wedding day" Erin ignored her and as she reached the door someone knocked it startling her, she opened the door to see Dean and Sam starring at her. "What the hell?" she asked widening the door for Dean and Sam to enter.

Jo saw Dean and Sam and decided this wasn't good, wasn't good at all, this was only going to end in disaster "oh this is just great" she sighed in frustration and sat on the edge of the bed.

"What's going on? Where's the fire?" Erin asked

Dean walked to the middle of the room and turned to look at her "you look amazing"

Erin blushed slightly and Sam asked Jo if she wanted to go and get a drink with him, it was obvious he was trying to get Jo to leave Dean and Erin alone. "No I'm good here thanks"

Knowing there was no way Sam was getting Jo to leave the room Erin asked "guys, what's going on?"

"I…we…" Dean began shuffling from one foot to the other clearly nervous

"Are you both ok?" she asked not noticing Dean's reaction to her question "what was the phone call about? Why did you ask me to go to Jersey when you're here?" Erin looked from Sam to Dean; Sam looked at Dean expecting him to answer the question

"I'm sorry if we worried you, it wasn't my idea" Sam told her taking a seat on the nearest chair

"Your idea to do what? What the hell is going on here?" Erin was getting frustrated neither of them were answering her questions, she wanted to know what was going on

"I didn't know how else to find out…" Dean began but changed his mind about what he was going to say "…I needed to know"

"If one of you doesn't give me a straight answer right now I'm gonna assume you've been body snatched and start shooting at your asses"

"You have a gun here? On your wedding day?" Sam asked her

"Answer. The. Question!" Erin demanded looking from Sam to Dean.

"Well we were driving around after killing a deal making demon and we're talking…" Sam waffled on for about 15 minutes and didn't seem to have any point. Erin stood in her dress staring at him wondering how the hell he hadn't come up for air and how he clearly hadn't thought about what he was saying

Interrupting Sam Dean urgently spat out, "DON'T GET MARRIED"

Erin's attention immediately shot from Sam to Dean; did he just say what she thought he had said? She knew something wasn't right with the Winchester brothers Sam was babbling nervously, Dean's mind was clearly somewhere other than in the room, they had made some random phone call to her about needing help and now Dean was telling her not to get married, definitely been body snatched.

"And that brings me to Dean growing some and coming here to tell you how he feels" Sam concluded

Dean sighed and said softly and quieter "don't get married, you don't wanna marry this guy"

"and how would you know" Jo asked standing up and walking a little closer to Dean "you left her remember, just took off, and now you show up after 3 years and suddenly she's supposed to drop everything for you? who…"

Interrupting her Erin called her name "stop please"

"No Erin, he can't just waltz back in here and expect…"

Interrupting Jo again Erin raised her voice "JO" Jo sat back on the bed and listened "explain" Erin said looking at Dean

"you've never wanted to get married, never! You always said it was a waste of time, what was the point in this huge expensive day to sign a piece of paper to say you love someone, if you needed to get married then you were trying to prove something, so what are you trying to prove? Prove that you love him? prove it to him or yourself?"

"hey" Jo said butting in again "your out of order"

Ignoring her Dean continued "you said it yourself, he's comfortable, you don't wanna marry comfortable, you want adventure, excitement, to be in love not just love someone" Erin looked at Sam guessing he had told his brother about the comfortable remark, Dean realised her train of thought and explained "I was standing outside the door, I heard you"

Erin was silent as she sat down on the chair at the dressing table, which still had the contents of her make up and hair products spread out across it "so you had all this time to tell me, today of all days when you could have done it weeks ago? you heard me that day and you waited till now to tell me? I don't even know what you're telling me"

"I'm telling you" Dean stopped and changed his wording "I'm asking you not to do this, don't marry him…" Dean paused "I'm asking you to come with me and Sam hunt with us…asking you to be with me"

"Too little to late Winchester" Jo announced

"shut up already Jo" Dean spat at her, Jo stood up and began to argue with Dean, telling him he was a fool to think Erin would even think about giving him a second chance, and he was a coward and an ass for ruining the best day of her life, Dean gave as good as he got and told Jo she was marrying Justin for the wrong reasons.

"ENOUGH" Sam bellowed above them "this is Erin's decision to make"

"Erin" Dean said quietly to get her attention from starring at the floor, Erin looked up at him "look me in the eyes and tell me you're in love with him, that this is what you want, a 9 to 5, a white picket fence, himand I'll walk away, you wont ever have to see me again, I'll be gone and you can pretend like this never happened"

Tears filled her eyes at the thought of never seeing him again "Jo, Sam can you give us a second?"

Jo threw her arms in air in frustration and she sighed loudly "you can't be serious. Erin think about this, something will happen and he'll just toss you aside like he did last time, you'll be…"

"Jo please" Erin pleaded with her

She shook her head "fine, I'll come back when the car arrives, to take you to the church, you know that place where you're getting married" Jo told her walking to the door and leaving with Sam.

The sounds of the door closing seemed to echo around the room endlessly, it was the only sound that filled the room for a long while. Dean was out of words and Erin couldn't find the rights ones, if she had any. She couldn't believe this was happening; she couldn't believe she was contemplating this. Running off in to the sunset with Dean, living happily ever after, it was never going to happen that way, it would be hard, brutal, frightening. Erin stood up and walked to the mini bar and poured herself another large Jack Daniels, after swallowing three quarters of the contents of the glass she asked Dean if he wanted one "I'd prefer an answer but sure" he told her taking a seat on the edge of the bed

"What do you want me to say Dean?" she asked softly keeping her back turned to him as she poured his drink "want me to tell you your right? I'm not in love with him and I don't really want to get married? I'm not going to lie to you Dean, I never have and I'm not about to start…" she turned and walked towards him giving him his drink "I do love Justin and I don't know… maybe if I didn't know you, if we hadn't have had what we did, maybe I'd be in love with him, maybe I'll fall in love with him in time…but what I do know is I can't take the chance of being with you again and losing you." Erin walked to the window and leant against it her back to Dean again; she couldn't handle saying this whilst looking in to his eyes. If she did, she would turn to mush the way she always did, the way many women did and she'd do whatever he asked. Erin couldn't and wouldn't do that right now, she had to be strong "Jo's right what happens if I get injured again, just when we're on the tail of the demon, and its to much of a risk to wait around for me to heal, I can't watch you walk out of my life again Dean…I don't think I could survive it"

Dean stood from the bed, he wasn't going to give up easily, he came here for her and he wouldn't leave without her, he couldn't "you won't have to" he assured her walking towards her slowly "Erin, I almost died, my dad's dead, there's something going on with Sam that I have no idea about, and I could be dead tomorrow and I don't wanna die without spending my life with you"

"But why now Dean? Why do you want me now? Cause your dad's not around to tell you what to do? Cause I'm marrying someone else and you can't stand the fact that I've moved on with my life? If you can't have me or don't want me then no one else can right?"

"no it's not like" Dean told her "my life is so messed up right now, everything is so confusing but the only thing that makes sense to me is being with you" what his father had told him before he died was weighing on his shoulders, he needed someone to help share the load, and he wanted it to be Erin. "Look I messed up, I know that. I should never have left you the first time, I know that but I wanna make it right" he stood behind her, he put his hands on her shoulders and ran them down the smooth skin of her arms. God she feels good. Maybe she was right the thought of another man touching her, being with her made his skin crawl made the hunter in him want to rip his throat out, if only the guy was a demon he could justify it.

Erin didn't move away from his touch, she closed her eyes and bit her bottom lip, why was he doing this to her? Why was he putting her in this situation? Why was he torturing her with his touch? Dean leaned forward and kissed her bare shoulders lightly, he couldn't help himself. "Please. Erin. Let. Me. Make. It. Right" he said between kisses as he moved up her neck to her ear.

"We shouldn't be doing this" she told him softly

"So stop me" he sighed nibbling on her ear lobe, knowing it was something that drove her completely nuts. He snaked his arms around her waist and pulled her body in to him, he just wanted to feel her. He knew it was wrong, knew he was putting her in the wrong situation, it wasn't fair to her but he had to feel her. Wanted to feel her close to him. "I love you" he whispered against her ear.

"I love you to" she said almost inaudible she was too lost in the feeling his kisses were giving her. She turned her head to look at him, he starred in to her eyes for a minute and he knew she wanted him just as much as he wanted her. His lips found hers and before either of them realised the zip on her dress was down and she'd turned in his arms and was frantically undoing the belt on his jeans kissing one another as they stumbled across the room knocking things over.

Erin pushed Dean's leather jacket to the floor and pulled the t-shirt over his head, quickly parting lips. Dean pushed Erin's dress down her body, wanting nothing more than to get it off and fast. With the help of Erin the dress slid down her body and she stepped out of it whilst Dean stepped out of his jeans.

Dean starred at her body, taking in every curve, every imperfection, everything, her body was amazing, toned and tanned. He looked up and down her body and then met her eyes; Dean walked slowly towards her and took her head in his face gently kissing her again.

Dean's touch set her skin on fire, in a good way; she hungered for him even when she was close to him, and kissing him she wanted him more still. But she knew she was going to get exactly what she wanted.

A/N: Hope you enjoyed. There is more to come! And I sort of have a little direction as to where this is going. But it will only be a few more chapters long.

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