A/N: Here is the third part of 'It's A Bumpy Road'. In my mind it was only a one shot but somehow I ended up writing a lot more lol. I hope you enjoy it. BTW seriously if you guys read the story give a comment. It helps a lot and mean a lot.
Pairing: SasuNaru
The Story is un-beta'd.
It's A Bumpy Road
Hinata was seething with rage when she stormed off form there. She felt like crying with the frustration and pain of Sasuke's words and Naruto's hurt. She was running here and there, trying to find Naruto but there was no sign of Naruto and Hinata was afraid to think where he might be if he wasn't at school because the guy's bag was still in the class, as they had two consecutive classes in the same class before the break and after the break. But where was the guy. Hinata's heart started to beat more quickly with each passing second. Before she noticed the bell had already rang and she was forced to go into the class.
While teacher was telling them about the ancient history of world and it's civilizations, Hinata couldn't concentrate at all on any of that. She did had gave a dirty glare to Sasuke and Sakura when they entered and the mere second his burning yet so very cold eyes met Sasuke's black burning and bitting gaze. Hinata didn't know how the hell, rest of the day passed. When the last bell rang, she quickly took Naruto's bag and her and then just rushed out. She quickly started her silver bike, kicking harshly and the engine roared, only to leave a trail of smoke behind her. Some people did stopped and stared in awe to see one of the most famous beauty of their high school, riding her bike more ruthlessly than ever.
Hinata drove her bike to Naruto's home, fully knowing that Naruto's mother would be still at the law firm she worked at. She knocked at the door and was startled when she saw that the door wasn't close. Hinata rushed inside and rushed into the room right beside the stairs and barged in Naruto's room, panting. Naruto was standing close to his large window, unmoving even on the sound and Hinata felt her heart beating even more erratically and her palm sweating profoundly.
"Naruto?" She called out gently yet Naruto didn't move an inch. Hinata's heart ached with pain and she softly dropped both bags on the rug before moving closer to Naruto, who was still looking outside the window. She gently placed her hand on Naruto's shoulder, who didn't even reacted at all on her touch.
"Hey, Please look at me. Naruto please." The soft plead made Naruto exhale a soft breath before he turned to face Hinata. Naruto's face looked so still and calm that Hinata was afraid for a moment. There was no sign of once sunny and sweet boy she loved so much. Before her stood a guy who had been pushed to his last limit and who looked as if he was just a human doll and not a living breathing person. But she couldn't give up on him. Yeah she knew that Naruto's heart would never be her's but at least she could have a small part of Naruto as her friend right. She wasn't going to lose that no matter what.
"I know...Or may be I would never know how much you are hurting right now but.." Hinata stared into those stilled blue mesmerizing eyes, looking at her with such flatness it made her heart physically hurt,"But I know things would turn out better sooner or later so Naruto please you have to.."
"Go out with me." The small statement left Hinata gasping for air and she looked into Naruto's dark gaze.
"Na..Naruto?" She stared her eyes widened and body softly starting to tremble.
"He wouldn't understand my pain until I make him feel it. Can you do it?" The question was asked ruthlessly and at that moment Naruto looked so much more mature, cold and hauntingly beautiful. Hinata felt her breath hitching. Such a cruel, cruel, cruel man... Yet.. Hinata felt warm tears prickling on her eyes but she blinked..
"Yes, If that's what you want. That's what friends are for. No?" The small soft small was all she could offer and Naruto nodded before closing the distance and pulling her into a strangely cold embrace. But Hinata hugged back, hiding her face into that tones chest, inhaling deeply, Yes.. Such an alluring yet cruel man.
He wanted to erase his memory. He really did. His body was a trembling mess while he slid down on the floor between two library book racks. His breath was coming short due to all the running he had done. He squeezed his eyes shut to clear his mind and to control his suddenly trembling body before someone saw him yet closing his eyes turned out to be a mistake because the second he closed them. He was hit with that scene again.
Naruto's lips on Hinata's hands in the morning...
Naruto's lips on Hinata's cheek when the calculus ended...
Naruto's lips on Hinata's shoulder in cafeteria...
"I asked Hinata and she said they had started to date. Looks like the forever singles want to graduate that department." Ino had said it on the lunch table chirping in that annoying voice and Sasuke felt like throwing up and excuse him self.
No. It was a lie. It couldn't be. Naruto wouldn't do that. Naruto wouldn't cheat on him! Sasuke gasped for air but his lungs were crushing. His body shook when he remembered Naruto's words.
"I'm breaking up with you."
Those venomous words rang in his mind and he just wanted to bash his skull on the wall but controlled himself.
'Just because Naruto said he was breaking up didn't mean they had broken up'. No! He refused.
'It's your own fault. Your were pushing him to this.' Someone sneered on him inside his mind and Sasuke's mind raced back to yesterday when he had made out with Sakura to just push Naruto's buttons. But never in his wildest imagination he thought that Naruto would start dating and of all people date Hinata.
Sasuke wrapped his arms around himself, trying to control his body's reactions.
The logical part of him knew that they were no longer together. That it was him who pushed Naruto to this. If Naruto didn't try to break the ice neither did he. Yet... He couldn't bear it. The pain was too much to bear. He only had Naruto and now he had lost him too. He hadn't tried to reason with blond. Naruto deserved to be happy. Sasuke should be happy yet he couldn't.
While blinking back his tears, Sasuke thought about how Naruto would have felt when he had seen Sasuke with Sakura. Did Naruto felt this searing pain too? Was his heart being torn like this too? But damn.. It was hard.. It was hard to live like this.
Sakura looked at Sasuke bitting her lips and sighed for the umpteenth time. Sasuke was sitting with them on the table but Sakura couldn't help but feel that Sasuke's pale fresh looking smooth ivory skin was turning a sickly pale yellow. That his once shining styled hairs looked messy and that those black eyes which always had an arrogant hint in them looked closed off and just bottomless pits of darkness. In simple words Sasuke looked awful and it felt as if something was eating him day by day.
Sakura couldn't help but notice that the guy wasn't happy with them dating but since the day Naruto and Hinata started to date, Sasuke was slowly crumbling down. Even her gang has noticed and tried to mock and comment on Sasuke. If it wasn't for Sakura effectively shutting them up. She couldn't help but feel protective of Sasuke. More than his 'girlfriend' she felt like a mother hen. She was way too worried about Sasuke. The guy was so damn tensed that it looked like he would snap any second and Sakura feared it.
As for Hinata and Naruto, Sakura noticed. Naruto acted affectionately with her. They had lunch together, worked together on projects and Naruto's touch lingered and Hinata looked at him with so much warmth. They were your normal couple. It felt as if Sasuke never existed between them. As if his existence was forgotten.
Sakura couldn't help but shudder whenever her eyes met with Naruto's blue unyielding eyes. That almost feral and bitting glint in them was so much dark that Sakura would just look away. Sakura never noticed it but now Naruto put an effort in dressing up and in just two more weeks they were the most 'perfect' couple of their school. Sakura caught the whispers so many times of many girls who said that how charming and hot the blond was. That how enchanting and hot the couple was.
It was almost if as Naruto wasn't the Naruto she knew from three weeks ago. The sunny blond with soft smiles and a bit too messy style. The guy who would joke around with her. The guy who laughed and joked was no longer there. Sakura looked at Sasuke who was just pushing the food in his plate. Sasuke wasn't the same either.
Why would their friendship break? Just what the hell happened to make all of them break like this? When the bell rang and Sasuke got up pushing the tray away Sakura looked at that still way too lithe and hauntingly beautiful boy beside him. The guy who was fading away so slowly.
Who do you love Sasuke? Which one?
"How are you and Sakura doing?" On hearing his mother's voice Sasuke looked up from his plate and looked at Mikoto.
"Good I guess."Sasuke shrugged almost nonchalant and Mikoto nodded.
"That's good. At least you broke your record of dating only for two weeks",His mother's tone was almost playful yet Sasuke just stared at her.
"Hn." He gave soft hum and Mikoto snorted.
"Of course this would have happened sooner if you had stopped clinging to Naruto earlier. I mean he is a nice boy but spending all of your time with him wasn't healthy". His mother comment dryly and Sasuke stared down again at his plate, his hand clutching the fork a bit more forcefully.
".." Sasuke kept quite but it was like Mikoto wasn't over yet.
"Thank God you started to date like a normal teenager should. I was so worried that when that Blondie said those things. I was so worried for a second that you weren't normal but you proved me wrong. I really have the best son." His mother said softly smiling yet the words poured like acid in Sasuke's ears and he looked at his mother in utter disbelief.
'Normal?'
What was this normal any ways? What was the definition of this 'normal' his mother talked about? And healthy? Was he healthy right now? He wanted to snort. His mother hadn't even noticed that he looked sick and wasn't eating as much he should be. Yet to his mother he was normal. His this self was more normal than what he was before.
Mikoto kept on talking afterwards too and yet Sasuke couldn't hear the words. He couldn't help but feel hollow. Would his mother even care if he died like this? This time he did snorted. Who was he kidding! His mom would skin him alive by her self if she knew about him being gay. Mikoto scolded him and yet Sasuke couldn't help but stare at his 'mother'.
Was she really his mother? Were mothers supposed to be like this? Or he was just born unlucky? Why couldn't he have more smoother life? Just Why?
They were sitting in a spare room at Ino's with quite a number of empty cans of beers while they could hear the music blaring at full volume. Sakura looked at Sasuke from the corner of her eyes who looked way drunk. It was almost like he was doing this on purpose. Even if it worried Sakura, at least Sasuke's face was flushed and he looked less tensed. In face the way Sasuke's half buttons were undone and he looked so daze made Sakura's heart skip a beat. She admitted again to her self that the guy was absolutely stunning, like a fallen angel.
Now why were they here was simple. Ino invited her close friends to a small party at her place as her uncle and aunt were away for the weekend and she would have the house to her self. So Sakura asked Sasuke to come with her to the party and Sasuke didn't say a thing but when today she came to his house stubbornly to pick him up, Sasuke's mom was home. Mikoto was a nice and sweet woman and she scolded Sasuke softly for saying no to her and Sasuke after some reluctance got ready to go with her.
Sakura stared again at Sasuke who was staring at wall like it was the most interesting thing. She had hoped that Sasuke would loosen up and have some fun. Seriously she had started to feel guilty. Even though Sasuke asked her out on his own yet she felt as if somehow she had forced him to date her. The guy looked miserable.
Now what was the easiest was to make some one open up? Sakura racked her brain and then bit her lips. You start to talk about your self and then you can expect the other to trust with their secret yet it was a dangerous territory. Granted Sasuke was way too hammered right now yet the prospect of him remembering the conversation afterwards would go way wrong and ruin her but.. One glance at the distressed boy and Sakura made up her mind.
"Sasuke." Sakura called out Sasuke's name who stopped his musing and grunted before turning and looking at Sakura through hooded gaze. Sakura gulped before taking a deep breath. She had to do it. It was the moment of do or die yup almost like that. She had to know the reason behind Sasuke being this way before the guy got sick seriously.
"Have you loved someone before? I mean like real love?" Sakura saw how Sasuke tensed for a moment before relaxing and looking at her with such resigned expressions that it made Sakura's heart hurt. Sasuke didn't even needed to speak. Those usually cold black eyes were enough to answer her question. The hurt, the pain, the suffering. So similar to her's.
"...h've y'u?" Sasuke's tone was slurred and he was resting his head on the sides of bed, arching and exposing the pale column of his neck and Sakura took a deep breath. This guy didn't even know what he could do with his mere presence and this defenselessness ughh. Yet the question was enough to break her daze. She took a deep breath and smiled softly.
"Yes." Her answer wasn't elaborate. She wanted to awake the curiosity in Sasuke and the drunk Sasuke seemed quite curious and almost... innocent looking.
"W-Who?" The question was asked after a long pause and Sakura exhaled relaxing.. It was working.
"Not someone from our current high school. He was a guy back at Florida. Shino. He was a genius and a total sweet heart too." A ghost of small painful smile appeared on Sakura's face. She gulped down another swig of her drink. Sasuke was looking at her like waiting for her to continue. It was difficult than she thought. She swallowed thickly before speaking again."I told you before that me and Ino are childhood friends right? Well we were umm.. uh. screw this. We were playgirls. Total playgirls. Dating hot guys, hooking up and then dumping them for someone else. And then me and Ino had an argument with Konan. The girl was pretty cute but she had a stick shoved up her ass and she insulted us for being sluts and stuff. Ino have been always the impulsive one and she said to her that she would make her pay for this." Sakura sighed and gulped another sip. She was feeling more light and relaxed now.
"The girl was actually Shino's childhood friend and had a crush on him." Sakura softly said and Sasuke sat up straight.
"You started to date Shino, right?" Sasuke snorted and Sakura laughed out.
"You are smart huh? Yeah, that's what I did cause Ino is such an idiot and that's why I made Shino fall for me. I thought that I would make Konan pay like this by being with the guy she couldn't have but..." Sakura stopped to take a deep breath.
"Y'u ended up fallin' f'r him f'r real?" Sasuke looked surprised and intrigued. It seems like the alcohol was doing good for him, making him loose and Sakura smiled. May be if the situation was a bit different she would have become a good friend with guy or even would have ended up falling for him but.. she sighed.
"I couldn't help it. He looked so cold yet it turned out that he was just shy. Sasuke you know I have never ever met a guy like him who could love so purely. Who could be so gentle with a girl like me. It was unexpected." Sasuke mumbled something under his breath which almost sounded as ,'It always is.' but Sakura acted as she haven't heard the small confession and continued,"Ino asked me that I should break up. It had been almost three months. Exams were coming up too. I told Ino that I was serious about Shino and she was furious. That was the first time we fought." Sakura looked at him and Sasuke frowned, possibly remembering about his own friends.
"Shino was there for me. He was so damn sweet and gentle that I was able to stay strong. He told me that Ino would come back and Ino did. She was sorry and all that stuff . I thought that everything was going to be fine. I felt bad for Konan but even she was patient with me but then everything crumbled. A guy from our school was pestering me and well if it was before I would have left Shino because the guy was rich, yes not that good looking but now that I loved Shino. I couldn't accept him but he kept it up. I didn't tell Shino because I didn't wanted to make him worried but then one day after school that guy grabbed my arm and forcefully took me to a park closer to our school. That park was abandoned and I was horrified when he forcefully started to kiss me. I tried to push him away but couldn't. He told me that he had took what he wanted and left. I was confused and scared and I could feel that some thing was going to happen and you know what. I wasn't wrong." Sakura's voice took a painful edge. She looked on verge of tears and Sasuke stopped drinking and stared at the girl.
"Next day the school was filled with the posters of me kissing Suigetsu and even the video of us kissing, every fucking person had it!" Sakura's voice broke and Sasuke felt his own throat going dry. "I rushed to see Shino and when I found him, he was staring at his locker with that picture. He looked at me and I couldn't move. He looked like someone had just killed him. After that for the whole day somehow I couldn't find Shino and then furious I went to Suigetsu who just completely ignored me. I didn't knew what was happening. I called Shino again and again but he wouldn't pick up." Sakura was already crying now and Sasuke felt the stirring in his own heart.
"I went to his home when he didn't come to school for two days and that's when I got to knew that he was at hospital. His mom was furious at me." Sakura sniffed,"Shino tried to commit suicide."Her voice was hoarse and she quickly took a gulp of the beer."Ino's father sent her here suddenly to her aunt because of something and I was left alone to deal with all of this. I tried to talk with Shino but Konan didn't let me. No body seemed to care about it because me and Ino have been doing this for a while. But to me everything ended when I saw Shino with Konan after a week. Konan was hovering around him like a mother hen, giving me dirty glares and Shino... He never looked up to see me." Sakura said in a bitter tone full of self resentment.
"And?" Sasuke seemed almost anxious and Sakura gave him a weak smile before finishing her drink.
"Well I left Florida after giving my exams and came here. My dad got transfered here last year and I was staying there in dorms but when that happened, like a coward I ran away." Sakura said and she saw the way Sasuke's face darkened with something she didn't know.
"Y'u shouldn't h've left," Sasuke slowly got up a bit swaying and Sakura was dumbfounded on sudden outburst,"You should have stayed and tried to explain. Do you have any idea how lucky you are?" Sasuke looked at her and spoke slurring a bit but the raw emotions and pain was so evident in his voice that Sakura couldn't say a word.
"You were given a person who loved you and you loved him back and yet you left?" Sasuke pointed his finger at her almost shouting, his words more clear and Sakura was confused, Why was Sasuke so angry? Was he angry on her behalf? Or was it something else? Sakura would have kept her musing but she was beyond shocked on Sasuke's next words,"Do you have any idea how lucky you are to be a girl? You can love the guy you want. You can go after him, pursue him and no one would say that it's wrong. No one would say that you are an abomination because this is the rule of this world. If I had this power, I would have never let go of him, never." Sasuke was breathing heavily and Sakura was just staring at the guy who looked at her with so much pent up pain and frustration.
Sakura wasn't given more time to think about it as Sasuke's face turned green and he stumbled toward the bathroom. Sakura cursed under her breath and quickly got up to help him. While rubbing Sasuke's back while he emptied his stomach Sakura's mind raced and her heart ached with pain. The realization had hit her hard.
Sasuke was in love... In love with Naruto...
And it was all her fault that things had turned out this...
Well, SHIT...
Sasuke slowly opened his eyes and groaned. The splitting headache made him want to just go back to sleep but he blinked his eyes slowly. He couldn't remember much from last night. Just that he was sent by his mom and he had no will to fight so he just came here and then because the music was giving him a headache, he asked Sakura about a more quieter corner and then he drank here and then... Yeah Sakura stayed with him but then? After that? He tried remembering but the headache was too much so he just turned and took a deep breath... which when he let out stank like dead fish... He vomited... Just great.
"Sa-Sasuke?" Sasuke heard the light sleepy mumble of his name and looked at his side to see Sakura's sleepy form."You up?" She asked and then winced a bit and cursed when the headache hit her too.
"Can you do something about this headache?" Sasuke muttered and Sakura blinked for a bit before nodding and slowly got out of the bed. Sasuke stared at his hands for a while and then after that he slowly got up because his own breath was making him feel nauseous. When Sakura entered after a while with a water bottle, Sasuke looked much better with his shirt buttoned up and his hairs looked better too. Sakura took the medicine out of the cabinet and took two of them out.
After they took the medicine Sasuke looked ready to leave. Sakura looked at him quietly. Sasuke looked at her annoyed and raised his eyebrows.
"What?" Sasuke's tone was bitting.
"I'll take you back. Just wait a bit." Sakura got up quickly and Sasuke wanted to just leave but the headache and his empty stomach was enough to make him stay. Sakura quickly took a T shirt out of the wardrobe and a pair of jeans. Sasuke was beyond surprised when Sakura came out wearing a simple blue T shirt and jeans with no make up and her hairs tied with a pony. She took her purse from the nightstand and looked at him. Who was staring at her. It was Sakura who asked this time.
"What?", Sasuke just made a face and told her to be quick. Sakura shook her head and wore her wedges quickly and they left Ino's house or her uncle's house. Down stairs looked like trash and even the hallways looked like a hurricane came last night. She made a note to come back and help that idiot to clean up. While they were driving both were back to Sasuke's wasn't that long distance and in just ten minutes Sakura was pulling the car.
"Here we are." She gave a small smile and Sasuke grunted a he could get out of the car Sakura's words stopped him right there."We need to talk." Sasuke immediately stopped and looked back at Sakura annoyed.
"Can we do it tomorrow?" Sasuke looked annoyed and irritated but Sakura took a deep breath.
"No. We need to do it right now." On Sakura's persistent tone Sasuke looked at her back.
"Well then speak." He looked pissed off and Sakura was quite for a while before she nodded.
"Sasuke I am breaking up with you." Sasuke's eyes shot up and he looked at her with a narrowed gaze."Geez no need to murder me with your eyes." She gave a small weak chuckle.
"Then what is the meaning of this?" Sasuke was angry, so angry.
"I am doing you a favor Sasuke. You don't love me and I can't force you to be with me." Sakura's gentle and smooth tone, instead of that sickly sweet tone was more relaxing and calming but Sasuke couldn't care less.
"Did it stopped you before?" His tone was bitting and Sakura's eyes narrowed too.
"You already know that it was a bet and I was going to stop it but you already called me and asked me out." Sasuke's face told her that he didn't believe her at all but what could she do?,"I am sorry OK. I am sorry for what Ino said to your ... Your mom forced you to date me right?" Sakura's words made Sasuke clench his fists.
"What are you trying to say?" Sasuke tone had a dark edge and Sakura took a deep breath before speaking up.
"Sasuke you.. you are gay. Right?" Sasuke didn't even flinch, instead he just laughed. Yet that sound was way to cold and hollow for being a laugh.
"Was this why you made me drink so much? So I would tell you some thing which will give you power over me? I'm so fucking tired of you women playing with me!" Sakura gulped. Sasuke looked murderous.
"Yeah. I made you drink on purpose because you looked so fucking tensed that I was sure you were gonna snap any second. I wanted to make you relax. And yes! I did wanted to know why you were just.. kind of fading away." Sakura said a bit furious and Sasuke stared at her coldly
"So now you know. So what are you going to do with this information?" Sasuke leaned back on his seat and looked at her with a chilling made Sakura annoyed.
"Dammit Sasuke nothing! You don't have to be so defensive about this. I don't care what your sexual orientations are and it's not the reason why I am breaking up with you either!" Sakura took a deep breath and spoke again before Sasuke could say something,"You love Naruto right? Then you shouldn't waste your time Sasuke. Even if others think of you as abnormal or abomination, pursue him. Go after him. Because this is your right Sasuke! Even if you don't want to come out, go and explain this to him. Don't let your love go if it means this much to you." Sasuke looked stunned at her strangely convincing and sincere words."I just want to tell you that I am on your side. If your mom... If she is the one you are so afraid of then don't tell her of us breaking up. Hell if you want I won't tell a soul that we broke up. You can stay with us until you make thing right between you and Naruto."
"Why are you doing this?" Sasuke looked suspicious and Sakura sighed before giving him a weak smile.
"Repenting I guess. You don't remember but I told you last night that I lost my love because I didn't tried enough. I don't want this happening to you because of me." Sasuke looked surprised on the sudden vulnerability on Sakura's face. Sakura's words were sincere or not , he didn't know but they were true. A truth which pierced his heart and he slowly looked up to see at Naruto's house longingly. Was their really a chance he could have Naruto back?
Sakura was true to her words much to Sasuke's surprise and to add to it she didn't even pester him about anything. Sasuke was of course still thinking about what Sakura had said the other day. He stole a glance and saw that Hinata and Naruto were having lunch in the cafeteria. His heart clenched painfully when he saw the way Hinata smiled and Naruto chuckled. He looked just like before. Yeah, he looked more mature, detached but he practically lavished Hinata with attention and small kisses. Sasuke bit his bottom lip. He had to do something and do it quick.
After school when Sasuke came out of his school gates. He was surprised to see his older brother standing there waiting for him beside his car. Girls were whispering and Sasuke sighed. Just great.
"What are you doing here Itachi?" He scowled and his brother chuckled.
"Greetings to you too Sasuke." Itachi was smiling that annoying way but Sasuke just sighed. He didn't had the energy to deal with this right now."No need to be so cold little brother. Come with me. We are going to have lunch."
"Itachi.. Some other day OK." Sasuke tried to reason with Itachi in a calm voice but the older male turned and stared at him. The playful expressions disappeared and he looked serious.
"Get in the car." Sasuke opened his lips but then closed. He didn't wanted to make a scene right in front of his school. He hopped in the car with a grim expression and looked away. Itachi didn't made a comment on this and just kept on driving until they reached a McDonald. Sasuke grunted but followed Itachi inside. Itachi didn't asked for what he wanted to eat and simply ordered two triple cheeseburgers with fries, grilled chicken salad with two chocolate shakes. Sasuke was horrified to see all that stuff.
"Are you out of your mind? Why are you ordering so much food?" Sasuke grumbled and that's when Itachi looked at him.
"Because you look like you are going to die on me any second." Itachi's answer was simple yet way to serious and Sasuke scowled."Tell me Sasuke what's bothering you?" Sasuke still ignored him and kept scowling. Itachi sighed and didn't speak until the food was served. He didn't wanted to eat but one look from Itachi and Sasuke was forced to eat while scowling.
While Sasuke struggled to finish his burger Itachi had already finished his and was eating the salad. He did left it for Sasuke too too and Sasuke internally groaned. Sasuke had no idea that Itachi ate this much but he most definitely was going to get sick.
"I will ask again. What's bothering you." Sasuke looked up and stopped sipping his shake. He kept quite and Itachi sighed.
"I know that you don't think of me as an older brother and how can you when all we do is meet at random days at public places but Sasuke always keep this in mind that no matter what I'm still your brother. I know that something is bothering you but I won't ask anymore. But always know that I am right here to take it if it becomes too much for you." Itachi's gentle words made Sasuke's heart ache. He looked at the guy sitting in front of him.
Itachi. His bother. The person who haven't been around him too much yet he was always there. When Sasuke was younger back then he would cry after Itachi had to leave. At that time Itachi and Sasuke's father came to meet him at Sasuke's home. Sasuke's dad too, he would hug little Sasuke and kiss him. Yet after Sasuke started to grow up,his mom started to slowly tell him stuff about his dad and Itachi. She said that his dad cheated on her and then left her and Itachi.. even after knowing everything he still supported Sasuke's dad and chose to live with him in the end. Sasuke never asked his dad or Itachi directly and slowly distanced him self from them. But now when he saw his brother's gentle smile. Sasuke was reminded of the brother who would cradle him in his arms when he would scrap him self while playing with Itachi. Sasuke wanted to tell him. Oh he really did but that was the exact moment his mom called, breaking Sasuke out of his weird mood. So Sasuke just gave a small nod to Itachi.
"I will." Itachi didn't said anything afterward and just smiled, ruffling Sasuke's hairs and Sasuke kept his face composed not showing his inner turmoil.
"Hey Sasuke~ Over here." Sasuke who had just returned and was going to go inside his home was called over by Kushina who was at home. Sasuke turned to see the bubbly woman who was weeding the plants in the garden. Sasuke gave a small polite smile and made his way to her.
"Hello auntie." Kushina grinned.
"Hey there pretty boy. How are you? Are you OK? You look more pale?" Kushina was touching his face and Sasuke felt embarrassed.
"Yeah I'm fine, just studies." On Sasuke's polite response Kushina nodded.
"Hmm studies. Exams are coming up next month right? I know you must be doing good! Even my little goof ball seems to be serious these days but I do think it's because of your and Hina's influence on him or he would have just failed." Kushina made a face but then smiled again sweetly but she didn't noticed how Sasuke's body tensed on Hinata's name."Oh that reminds me. What college you are gonna choose? Naruto and Hinata are planning to go to Wayland's. Even though I told him to just apply for the closer one's but that boy..." Kushina rolled her eyes and Sasuke was left in almost a shocked state.
Naruto was thinking of going to Plainview? That was like almost six, seven hours away and going with Hinata? Were they already this close? Haven't they already decided to apply in St. Mary? How could Naruto do this to him? Sasuke clenched his fists.
"Is he inside?" He asked Kushina and she blinked before nodding. Sasuke was going inside in a second and Kushina just smiled and started to weed again.
Sasuke quickly came inside and then just barged in without even knocking and he clenched his teeth when he saw that Naruto was laying on his bed and his bag on the rug. Sasuke felt his anger spiking.
"Well well. Aren't you enjoying your self." He spat out and Naruto blinked for a second before he got up and stared at him.
"Sasuke?" Naruto whispered his name but Sasuke missed the flash of longing in Naruto's blue eyes before he asked rather composed,"What are you doing here?"
"You are thinking of going to Wayland? How could you do this?" Sasuke looked livid. He was angry, frustrated and hurt.
"My grandparents live there. That is the only reason I was considering it. But Sasuke, why are you flipping out on me?" Naruto's voice was low and cold and Sasuke glared at him.
"Why am I flipping out? How could you do this? You started to fucking date Hinata and the way you act around her! Do you think I am blind? Even though you know how hard it is for me! How difficult my situation is yet you keep acting like a fucking baby!" Sasuke's breathing was ragged and Naruto's expressions darkened.
"So you can fucking make out with that slut but I can't even touch my girlfriend?" Naruto's tone was mocking and Sasuke's glare intensified. He really wanted to punch Naruto right now.
"Don't talk about Sakura this way when you don't know a thing about her." Sasuke said through clenched teeth and Naruto sneered.
"Oh God. Are you for real Sasuke? You are defending her? You know what Uchiha?" Naruto's whole demeanor changed in seconds and he looked at Sasuke with a chilling gaze,"Get the fuck out of here! I don't want to fucking see you ever again! I regret falling for your stupid ass!"
"Like wise! I can't believe that I dated a loser like you!" Sasuke spat out and he saw the way Naruto looked like he had been punched.
"GET OUT." The words were said with so much hurt and pain that Sasuke almost wanted to tell him that he didn't mean it but Naruto was the one who started it. Sasuke took a deep shuddering breath and turned to leave when Naruto said more, "Be happy Uchiha, In just one more month you don't have to see my face ever again. You can fuck Sakura as much you like and I'll do the same." Sasuke was out in a second. He didn't stopped to say bye to Kushina and didn't responded to his mother when she called out to him and shut himself in his room.
His head was a mess and he felt like he would just die. The reality of the situation had hit him hard. He was losing Naruto. He was losing him for real. But then his mom...
"I was so worried for a second that you weren't normal but you proved me wrong."
Was it worth it? Was he going to live his whole life like this? Hiding and pretending to be someone he wasn't? And Naruto? He was drifting away from him. Sasuke was sure that if he didn't said it, If he didn't said it right now it would become too much for his heart. He clenched his fists. He loved his mother. Even though she wasn't home most of the time yet he loved her with her every flaw. He loved here even when she unconsciously rejected him but that was enough of it because he could no longer hold his feelings in. He slowly got up while the muscles in his body trembled with anticipation.
When Sasuke slowly made his way down stairs in kitchen his mom was cutting the veggies while humming softly. Sasuke's heart thrummed painfully in his chest and he took a deep breath to calm it.
"Mom." He softly called out to Mikoto who looked up and stared at her son.
"Sasuke?" She looked at her smiling and Sasuke swallowed thickly.
"I have something to tell you." Sasuke's serious tone made Mikoto alert too. She looked at her son. Sasuke looked ... tensed. Mikoto's eyebrows shot in annoyance.
"Dear lord help me. Don't tell me you broke up with Sakura?" Mikoto stopped cutting the vegetables and looked at Sasuke irritably."Well whatever. It's a wonder it lasted as long as one month." Mikoto made quite a bitter expressions and Sasuke sighed.
"If it was about my break up then I wouldn't have even told you mom." Sasuke seemed a bit nervous and annoyed too and this time Mikoto halted and looked at her son more closely and attentively. He looked serious but also he looked rather pale and sick. He looked like he had lost weight too.
"Are you unwell Sasuke? You do look pale." Sasuke wanted to snort. Oh God help him. So his mom finally noticed that something was wrong with him.
"No. I am fine just busy with studies." His answer made Mikoto frown. She wasn't understanding it yet she felt uneasy. The light crackle of thunder made both of them flinch a bit. Rain?
"Then what do you want to tell me?" She was growing weary. Why was Sasuke making that face? What was her son hiding behind that nervousness. She had a feeling that whatever it was. She wasn't going to like it one bit.
"Mom. I.." Sasuke swallowed thickly and Mikoto just stared. she could hear the light tapping of rain on the window.
"Mom you know that I love you right?" The rain was softly tapping and making a soft eerie music. Mikoto simply stared at her son. Why was he saying this? What was the meaning behind this?"I love you mom. I love you with all your flaws. I love you even though you are mostly not around. I love you even though you are some times can be so cold and unforgiving but I really do love you and I want you know that I would never do something which would hurt you purposely."
"I...I love you too. But Sasuke why are you telling me all of this? What's the meaning of this?" Mikoto swallowed thickly while her grip on knife tightened."Tell me Sasuke. Tell me what you are trying to hide behind these pretty words." Mikoto's voice was low and Sasuke looked at her with a pleading in his black eyes.
"I'm gay." The words left Sasuke's mouth and it was an absolute silence before Mikoto's form started to tremble it could her grip tightened even more on the knife.
"I-I'm preparing the dinner Sasuke and please you do know I hate in appropriate jokes." Mikoto quickly got up and ignored Sasuke's words. She started to take out the ingredients out of the fridge in a frenzy.
"Mom.." Sasuke softly called out to her with a calm yet breaking voice.
"I am thinking about making some pasta and a steak too? What do you say?" Mikoto wasn't looking at him. Trying to act as nothing had been said and Sasuke's heart clenched painfully in his chest.
"Mom..listen." He said again yet Mikoto didn't look his way.
"I wonder what should I make for desert? We have the ice cream left but how about we both bake a pie? I mean what was the last..."
"MOM!" It was the first time that Sasuke yelled, tears were prickling his eyes but he kept his ground and said once again,"I am gay! For God sake stop ignoring me!" Sasuke stared at his mother whose body was trembling even more. He didn't wanted to see her in that hurt state again but he couldn't do this again. He had been living in the hiding just because he had Naruto and only his presence made all of this bearable but now it was impossible. He couldn't do this anymore. He couldn't.
"Shut up! Shut up! SHUT UP!"Mikoto yelled out and pressed her palms strongly over her ears before she looked at him. Sasuke felt scared. His mother... Her pupils were dilated and she looked ready to murder."You are my lovely son. Let's forget about this heh?" Mikoto tilted her face with a insane and hysterical forced smile on her face and Sasuke felt his throat closing up.
"Please don't reject me like this mom. Please." Sasuke's pain wretched words made the smile disappear from Mikoto's face and Sasuke's eyes widened. If it wasn't for him to jump away. He would have had hit by the knife his mom threw and it didn't ended at that she started to throw the glassware at him shouting hysterically.
"How could you! How could you do this! How could you shamelessly stand here and tell me that you are a fucking fag! I didn't raise an abomination! I didn't raise a sinner! I wish you had died before you said it! I wish you have died in my womb! I wish I had killed you by my own hands! Just DIE! DIE! DIE! GO AND DIE! IF I HAD KNEW IT YOU WOULD BE UNDER THE DIRT RIGHT NOW!" She was crying and throwing everything. Many hitting Sasuke who seems to go in shock.
"I wish you just die. You are not my son! You are not." She was sobbing loudly which a murderous look in her eyes and Sasuke's lips trembled," A FAG LIKE YOU CAN NOT DIRTY MY HOUSE WITH HIS PRESENCE! YOU FUCKING WHORE! I CAN"T BELIEVE MY OWN SON SPREADS HIS LEGS TO OTHER MEN! Disgusting! Disgusting, SO FUCKING DISGUSTING!" She was shouting cursing, and throwing things ate him. Sasuke who looked like he just have been killed.
"GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE! GET OUT! GET OUT! GET OUT! I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE! GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE!" She shouted sliding down on the floor and crying like a mad women.. Sasuke stared at the scene with a far of look and left the house out in the stormy rain.
His mind was hazy and the bleeding cuts were being washed away by the rain. It stung but not more than the words his mother said. Sasuke didn't even looked at his sides and kept walking. The wind was strong and it made him shiver in his half sleeves shirt but he didn't paid it any mind and kept on walking. He felt so numb. His mother's words had cut him deep, a bit too deep. He had known it. He had known that she wouldn't accept him. He had feared that he would be hated but still a small part of him did said that may be his mother would accept him. That may be she would love him. The words she said pierced his heart and he could feel his heart bleeding. He didn't know how long he had been walking when his body started to get heavy and his mind started to become foggy but he ignored this and kept on stumbling and dragging his body forward. Some cars were driving past him. Sasuke kept on walking until a car pulled closer to him. Sasuke ignored the shout of his name and kept on walking and then suddenly his shoulders were grabbed and he was spun to face the person.
"I-Itachi?" Sasuke blinked to clear his suddenly bleary image. His mind was getting dizzy and his body ached all over.
"Sasuke" Itachi looked panicked. Sasuke opened his lips to say something but suddenly he couldn't breath and was pulled into the comfortable unconsciousness.
Sasuke slowly opened his eyes and felt a cold sensation over his burning forehead and moaned softly. He shivered a bit and slowly opened his heavy eye lids. He blinked a bit to get his senses clear and then he heard the gentle whisper.
"Sasuke? Thank God you woke up." Sasuke's body ached yet he tried to get up and stared at Itachi a bit surprised and shocked.
"Itachi? Where am I?" Sasuke felt like crap and his body was burning.
"You have fever. Just rest for now and you are at dad's house. You haven't been here before, right?" Itachi 's voice was smooth and gentle but to Sasuke slowly things started to rush back into his mind and he squeezed his eyes shut before he was getting up.
"Sasuke." Itachi's worried voice made him stop for a second and he looked at his brother before giving a small smile.
"I'm Ok Itachi. No need to be worried. I have to go home though." Itachi shook his head and frowned.
"You are going no where Sasuke. You have fever, way many cuts and rain haven't stopped. I'm not letting you go until you tell me what the hell happened with you." Itachi' serious voice made Sasuke sigh. His body temperature was spiking up a bit too much an some of the cuts were hurting too and not to mention his body was aching too much but he couldn't just stay here.
"Itachi please I.."
"Itachi is right. You are going no where." Fugako's calm and commanding tone made Sasuke bit his lips and looked away sulking. Fugako sighed and then spoke up.
"What happen Sasuke? Tell me?" Sasuke bit the inside of his lips and tried to compose his face.
"Nothing happened." He said calmly but the persons in front of him were his father and his older brother.
"Did you get in a fight?" The question was asked and Sasuke wanted to snort.
"Kind of." He shrugged and frown deepened on Itachi's face.
"With mom?" Sasuke closed his eyes for a moment on Itachi's question but then looked at his brother.
"No."
"You are lying son." The statement made Sasuke want to groan,"Mikoto called me and what she was saying made it quite clear that you two fought." Fugako took a seat on the bed and looked at Sasuke with his piercing gaze,"Tell me."
"It was just an argument. Nothing serious." He swallowed thickly and gave a smile to his father but he could see that Fugako wasn't buying it.
"The only thing I absolutely resent is lying Sasuke. Speak the truth!" Fugako's tone turned a more serious note and Sasuke felt so weak and frustrated. He clenched his fists and seethed with rage. 'Truth?' The shitty morals! Why ask him to speak the truth when you can't accept it.
"Please dad. Just leave it be. It's not like you and Itachi would be any better than mom." His tone was full of resentment and hurt and Fugako nodded before speaking up.
"Try us." Sasuke did snorted now rather rudely and stared coldly at his father and Itachi. Itachi looked concerned but Fugako just stared back at him.
"Well dear father I gladly inform you that I am gay. Are you happy now?" Itachi's eyes widened a bit but Fugako only raised his eye brows. They were quite for a while and Sasuke even though he had acted so brave now felt anxiousness building in his stomach. He didn't had any more strength left to bear the temper tantrum of an other angry parent. Yet on the other hand may be it was better to speak up now. He might be in rain again in few more minutes but at least he would have the satisfaction of telling them the truth to their faces.
"I...I always thought that you were more of Mikoto's son. I mean that you had more of her genes dominant in you but now I have changed my mind. You are really her son but you do have quite a number of my genes too." Fugako's tone was calm and his words only made Sasuke confused more.
"What are you trying to say?" Sasuke looked at his father and on his brother then. They were hiding something. Itachi looked at their father and Fugako nodded before Itachi sighed and gave Sasuke a small smile before speaking up.
"Sasuke do you know the real reason behind mom and dad's divorce?" Sasuke frowned and shook his head,"I figured mom would tell you some messed up story and I won't ask what she told you but the truth is that mom wasn't fair with dad. She didn't cheated on dad of course but Sasuke our mom... she is lesbian." Sasuke was shocked beyond belief. What the hell was Itachi talking about. It can't be true, right?"Mom married dad out of fear. The girl she was dating got found out by her family and she was killed. Mom was devastated and horrified so she took in hiding. She married dad and acted as a good wife but she was cold with dad and then I was nine when we returned from a party and mom was hammered and when dad tried to touch her as in to take her out of car she stumbled away and yelled at dad to not touch her and well you can imagine... Mom said everything she was holding back." Sasuke felt frozen in time. This was lie. It couldn't be. His mother was homophobic. His mother couldn't.. She couldn't be one her self...
"I asked her the next day when she was sobered up. She first lied but then when I kept asking she finally gave in and told me that she married me because she didn't wanted to share the same fate as her girlfriend. I loved Mikoto but I could no longer live with her when she had used me all those years and never really tried to make us work. She was never loyal and fair to me. So I divorced her because that's what she wanted." Fugako's smooth voice made Sasuke throat go dry. If she suffered so much then how could she do this to him?
"But mom.. She.." Sasuke stared at his arm at the bandage and Itachi's eyes narrowed.
"Mom did this to you? How could she? She has always been like this. Accusing dad and everything but I just.. OH God Sasuke.." Itachi was hugging him the next instant and this time Sasuke let his tears flow. He clutched the front of his brother's shirt and let him self go.
"It's enough. You will no longer live with her. Once you have recovered I'll take you to there to get your stuff and then you'll live here with us." Fugako's voice was bitter and Sasuke just nodded in Itachi chest."Rest and don't think too much." Fugako's voice was soothing and Itachi's hold on him made him feel all over like a kid and he felt protected. 'Can't believe that woman.' Fugako muttered while he left the room and Sasuke was lulled into a dreamless sleep by Itachi's soft whispering...
TBC...