Chapter Three
The Past Will Always Come Back And Get Me.
Bella's Pov
I heard every word they said and I knew deep down Edward wasn't the type of guy to do something like that but after everything that happened with Jacob, I got scared and chose to believe it was true to save myself some of the hurt I was going to be faced a with but after hearing him say all that and for Rose to say sorry told a lot and I mean a lot.
I'm scared I don't think I can give my heart out again after Jacob it took a year and still to this day I'm still trying to cope and put myself together after everything he did and said. The pain is always going to be here and Edward needs to know, I'm not fixable and that he shouldn't waste his time on me because I am nothing special, even if he thinks that now.
The only reason I'm still here and trying to move on is for Rose and Alice, I couldn't hurt them by hurting myself, there have been days where I wish I was dead and I've told them this and it brought them to tears, I can't stand to hurt the two most important people in my life.
If they weren't around, I don't think I would be here today to be honest.
I moved away from the door and curled into a ball on my bed as my tears fell.
I cried myself to sleep and I woke to the bright sun shining in.
I went into the bathroom and took a look in the mirror. I had mascara smudged all over my face. I got a make-up wipe and wiped all the make-up off I then got into the steaming hot shower.
I washed my hair with strawberry shampoo and I washed my body and shaved. After standing under the hot water for another ten minutes I decided to get out.
I wrapped the towel round me and went back into my room.
After drying my body I put on my underwear and my shorts and band t-shirt with my waist coat, I then dried my hair and a put it in a messy bun, I put my jewellery and black doc martins on.
I added a little bit of blusher, mascara and eyeliner.
I took another look in the mirror. Arrahh I looked horrible but it was the best I was going to look. I made my way downstairs to the kitchen and made a start on breakfast.
"Hey." Edward said making me jump. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you." He said sadly.
"It's okay." I said still not looking at him.
"I'm sorry about last night." He said.
"Me too." I said as a few tears fell.
I quickly wipe them before he saw but I wasn't fast enough.
"Don't cry." He said as he pulled my face up to look at him.
He wiped the other few tears that escaped.
"I hate seeing you cry." He said sadly.
I don't know what came over me but I leant towards him and cried on him.
"Shhh, don't cry love." He said.
He went still after he realised what he said.
"I'm broken, Edward, way beyond repair." I said as I looked down.
"No, Bella, please let me fix you." He said seriously.
"I need time, this is hard for me." I said.
"I know but I'm not going anywhere, I mean it. I will always be here. I will never hurt you Bella, whenever you're ready I'm here." He said kissing my forehead.
"Thank you." I said hugging him closer.
I don't know how long we stood there but it ended all to soon as I smelt the bacon burn.
"Shit." I cursed.
"Let me help." He said sorting the other ingredients out while I sorted the bacon out.
"Morning you two." Rose said with a huge smile.
"Morning." We both said together which cause us all to laugh.
"Breakfast is ready guys." I said as Edward finished setting the table.
Breakfast passed by with lot of laugher and smiles.
"So what do you want to do today." I asked.
"How bout we go to the theme park." Rose said.
"Okay." We all agreed.
"Right we better go get ready, we will be back in about half an hour." Edward said.
"Okay, see you in a bit." I said happily.
After the guys left Rose and Alice went to get ready. An hour later and we had arrived at the theme park.
"This is going to be so much fun." Alice squealed.
"It's going to be great Bellie you're going to love it." Emmett said excitedly.
"When did you start calling her Bellie." Edward said amused.
"Since now." He said grinning like a fool.
"Oh, since now huh?" Edward said joking.
"Oh shut it, I hate it when Rose and Alice call me that so don't you two start okay." I said seriously.
"Oh come on, don't be like that." Emmett said.
"Like what Emmy Bear." I laughed.
"That's my girl." Edward said which made me go a shade of red.
After going on most of the rides we decided to get a bit to eat.
"What do you fancy to eat sweetie." Edward said to me.
"Erm ill have whatever you're having. I'll be right back." I said as I walked away and answered my phone.
"Hello. Who is this?" I asked.
"Ahhh, how that hurt that you don't even remember your own mother." She said sickly.
"Renee." Her name fell from my lips.
"Oh so you do remember." She said.
"How can I not forget you Renee, after everything that you have done." I said angrily as a tear fell down.
"Ahhh, don't be like that." She said.
"Be like what? Mad? Well I am Renee you're supposed to be my Mom and let me tell you something, Mom's don't get it on with their daughters boyfriends. You know what stay the hell away from me and never phone me again. You're nothing to me." I yelled as I ended the called.
I turned around and bumped into Edward he looked worried.
"How long have you been here?" I asked as a few more tears fell.
"Long enough." He replied sadly.
"I'm….. I can't deal with this…. I need to go." I said as I ran off.
"Bella… don't." Edward yelled.
I ignored him and carried on until I got into the taxi.
I wasn't ready to lose him and if I told him I knew I would, I have a really messed up past and I'm messed up and I knew it would all get to much for him and he would leave me and I couldn't not yet I needed more time with him.
As I got out and paid the taxi driver I notice the door to the villa was opened. As soon as the taxi man left, I started to walk forward with my shaky legs. Once I was inside I shut the door.
"H-hell-oo." I yelled shakily.
"Ahhh, Bella how nice to see you and hear you again." He replied.
No, No, it couldn't be. He can't be here. How the hell did he know where I was.
"What the hell are you doing here?" I yelled.
"Ahhh Isabella that is no way to talk to a guess." He said coming closer to me.
"Fuck you." Rose spat from behind me.
I turned around to see them all here Rose, Emmett, Alice, Jasper and Edward.
"No you can't be here he wants me okay so go." I whispered to them. I couldn't take it if he hurt them in any way, it was safer for them to leave.
"Hell no Bellie we are staying." Emmett said.
"Ahhh how nice to see you again Rose." Jacob said as he came closer to me.
"Fucking leave her alone." Edward said pushing him away from me which made him angry.
"No." I said as I stood in front of Edward so he wouldn't get hit.
He punched me in the stomach so hard I fell to the floor in pain.
"Awe, how cute Bella protecting her boyfriend." He said as he bend down to where I was on the floor.
He pulled me up by my hair and I screamed out in pain.
"Let her go." Edward shouted.
"Not a chance this bitch belongs to me." He said as he slapped my face.
"No you lost any right you had when you got caught in bed with her Mother. You're fucking sick Jacob Black." Rose spat.
"Fuck off Rose." Renee said coming into the room.
"You sick bitch, how could you do this to your own daughter, your own flesh and blood." Alice shouted.
"She is nothing to me, that's why I left her and Charlie's sorry arses all them years ago." She laughed as she kissed Jacob's check.
She came closer to me and punched me in my stomach just like Jacob did, I screamed louder in pain. I saw all them staring at me with guilt and sorrow.
Edward came forward a knocked Renee out and Emmett and Jasper helped get Jacob off of me, while Rose phone the police.
Five minutes later the police arrive and I was barely conscious.
"Bella stay with us, the paramedics is here." Edward said.
"What's her name?" The women paramedic asked.
"Bella." Edward said sadly.
"Okay, Bella sweetie we need you to stay with us." She asked.
I couldn't everything started to go black and I couldn't hear anyone as the darkness took me deeper and deeper, I tried to hold onto Edwards face and the others but I was losing them too.