I do not own nothing that has to do with Twilight and as I said before. I wished I did. Life would be great and everyone who added for alerts and left reviews , Thank You. I haven't written anything in a very long time and the urge hit. So if I am a little rusty I am sorry about that beforehand...

"This is just the Beginning"

Well people I am here to say that today has been one of exhaustion. After contemplating about my dream all morning and actually trying to get some cleaning done, I was ready for a break. I gathered my things and made my way out my door with my umbrella in hand. Of course, it is raining and I seem to always have to fight rain when I am on a mission. I was mentally dreaming about the Starbucks that had been craving all morning. I was running to the little coffee shop that I usually frequent. I popped my head in the door to see my friend Nessa. She was waiting in line for her coffee to be made. I slid in beside her and tapped her on the arm. Nessa turned and smiled when she realized who was tapping on her. Otherwise she would have been ready to bark some nasty comment about being touched, but hat story is for a different day. So I smiled happily.

"Hey there Ness! Whatcha doing?" She smiled.

"Ah, nothing. Waiting for my morning fix. What are you doing out this early in the day? You don't usually make it out until your evening classes." I nodded in agreement.

"You know me the usual. I have to have my fix. Can't live without the caffeine. Say Ness , what you doing tonight I was think about going out to do something? I would have called but I have had a rough couple days. I have been having dreams of "them". She knew whom I was talking about immediately. I could read the reactions on her face. There was worry, nervousness and something I couldn't read. To lighten the mood and since she had not said a word I decided to make it known that I was okay with the dream that I had.

"You know Nessa, it is okay to speak. I feel like an idiot just standing here and talking to myself." I guess she had snapped out of whatever land she was living on at the moment and shrugged.

"I am sorry Bells. You just surprise me sometimes. I know you well enough that when you dream about Edward you are always in this haze and sadness. I don't want to see you like that."

I felt bad for saying anything now. I know that Ness was the best friend that I have ever had and there is nothing in this life that I wouldn't do for her. She has worried about me the whole time that we had been friends. I have got to know her pretty well over the last few months. I know I was a awful friend at the beginning and I can't change that but I can be the best that I can be to her. She understands me and knows that there are times that I don't feel like moving but I am working on that and as time goes on I get just a little better.

I guess I have a lot to owe her for all the shit that I have given to her. In the beginning I acted like I always knew what was best, but thinking about it now. I know I was wrong and I wouldn't change a hair on her head. She is the greatest. I guess I had continued to float through the last of Oz when the bell chime on the door rang as it opened. Then I realized that I had not answered Ness, shaking the thoughts away.

"Sorry Ness I was thinking, but no, I wasn't dreaming about Edward. I was actually dreaming about his brother Jasper." I shook my head again. Still not understanding why it was Jasper that was in my dream instead of Edward. Ness still stood there looking at me like I had grown another head. She always looks at me like that. I often wonder if it is something that I said. I laughed at myself for that thought...

We still stood there for a few more moments before she thought to talk to me.

"Bells I don't know why I am so surprised at anything that you say, but no I really don't have any plans for tonight. What do you want to do?" I knew she didn't want to touch the thing about Jasper so I let it go. Looking back at my friend I responded.

"Well I was thinking about going to Coley's tonight? Wanna hang with me?" I stood there waiting.

"Sure. What time?" I thought for a second and then answered.

" How about 7:00? That's an ok time?" She nodded and smiled.

"Fine by me girl. I haven't been out in a long time. I need to get out. Sometimes I think we are getting to old to go out anymore." She laughed for a few minutes until the server called her number and she turned to me and said.

"I will be by your apartment at seven be ready." I shook my head and walked up to the counter and placed my order. I don't know what this feeling is that I am feeling but I do know something is going to happen to me tonight...