Theme: Bullies.

Isn't it terrible when you look around and everyone you see you know is going to betray you?

I think I have that.

Apart from all the shit that was going around my family life, I still had to go to school. I wanted to be a famous psychiatrist, and maybe talk to kids, and teenagers. I think it would be pretty easy, because maybe some of those teenagers and kids might have been going through what I'm going through now. Cutting, Family, and abuse. And I could help them. I think kids will be 10 dollars, and teens will be 12. I'm not really sure; I want it to be enough for middle class families, like ours.

Anyways..

Yeah, I wanted to kill myself so bad sometimes. But then I think about my life. My future children..How I have to help them. Then eventually I put the knife down and sigh.

I think at my school I have more 'bullies' than 'friends'.

In fact, everyone notices how I am.. Everyone knows that Shiki Misaki is not the girl who you think.

Shiki Misaki cuts herself.

Shiki Misaki is abused.

All that stuff.

Hell, I even think that the teachers know this.

Maybe that's why they give sympathy to me sometimes.

Even though I was anorexic, I still wanted to fit in- To be part of something for saw me trying, and they made fun of me for that.

Is that such a bad thing?

Do they even know what I'm going through? I bet if Aurora was me, she would be dead by now. She's not all that strong for handling this torture.

I am. Well, I know I'm not strong, like Oh-look-at-me-I-can-pick-up-an-advil- strong, but..I guess I'm heart strong. I really want to continue my life, no matter what hurts me along the way.

I wonder sometimes who I'm going to marry. I mean, who would marry me, a girl with anorexia who's been abused since she was little? I guess I have to find one of those guys who I'll be with- forever.

That's going to be one of my tough challenges.

And to be honest with you, the bullies aren't helping.

Aurora, Jasmine, Alice, and Ariel. They all go together in a little group. Mostly everyone calls them "Them." For example, Selphie really wants to be with "Them." I don't. I'd rather kill myself to be a part of them. I know I wanted to be part of them, but not "Them." I wanted to be part of another group, like a club. Not an Emo club or anything.

I'm still trying to figure this 's harder than you think.

One day, when I was walking from school, I ran into "Them.", and a couple of boys- from another school, I think. One of them was Seifer. Ooh, Seifer. I hate him. He knocks up girls. I think he knocked up Yuna, who also was one of "Them.". Who knows where she is now.

Anyways..

Once I ran into them, Seifer gave this weird smile and "Them." started giggling. Some of the boys were chanting "Go get her, Seif!"

I was terrified. Was this dude gonna rape me or something.

Before I knew it, I was pushed to the wall and liplocking with Seifer.

I kicked him in the groin and he and me fell down.

"Get her!"

"Them." and the boys started kicking and punching me.

I would've screamed for help, but suddenly my voice never came.

They were going to kill me.

So yeah..

Bye, you guys.

Hope you liked this chapter.

See ya.