Collapsed in a heap on her bed, Spencer grabbed her pillow and held it tightly to her body. Loud, violent sobs escaped her lips and her body shook wildly. This time, Spencer didn't even try to stop. There was no chance she would be able to. She hoped that Aria would come upstairs and find her soon, because Spencer didn't want to be like this, her heart was just so delicate she couldn't help it. Everytime she would even think of Toby, it would shatter like a broken glass.

Aria knew she couldn't deal with Spencer by herself, so she called Emily and Hanna to help. Within minutes they both arrived. "Aria, what's wrong?" Emily asked frantically. Aria took a deep breath and quickly told Emily and Hanna what Spencer was feeling. By the time she was finished talking, they were standing outside Spencer's bedroom door, listening to her wail in the background.

The take charge part of Hanna was about to burst, so she pushed the door open to see Spencer lying down on her bed, facing the window. As soon as she heard the door open, she sat up and attempted to gain her composure when she saw Emily and Hanna standing in the doorway with Aria. She couldn't let them all see her crying, so she tried as hard as possible to prove that she was okay.

However Spencer's visible shaking and puffy eyes gave her away, but still, she tried to appear as though she was alright. Emily and Aria saw right through her attempt, and Hanna just stood in the doorway with a half shocked, half sympathetic look on her face. "Spencer…" Emily said, as she and Aria walked closer. Before they could even touch her, Spencer crumbled into a million pieces.

Even though Aria had already seen Spencer break down twice today, this time it hit her hardest. She didn't know if it was because Hanna and Emily were in the room and they also felt Spencer's pain or because Spencer had tried so hard not to cry in front of them, but was utterly unsuccessful. Maybe it was because this was too much, even for Spencer who could never do anything half way. Aria knew Spencer needed to be held. And it didn't matter who was holding her, but she needed to feel protected. As much as she wished Toby could be that person, Spencer would never want Toby to see her like this.

Throughout all she was feeling, Aria was shocked that Spencer was practically reading her mind. Aria sat down beside her best friend, and almost immediately, Spencer wrapped her fragile, shaking arms around her neck. Aria rocked Spencer in her arms and tried desperately to calm her down, but it was no use. Spencer was broken, and no one had any idea how long it would take to put her back together again or if it was even possible to put her back together again.

Emily and Hanna quickly joined Aria on Spencer's bed, all attempts of getting Spencer to stop crying failing miserably. At one point or another, Spencer's little bit of energy had run out and she fell asleep with her head on Aria's shoulder.

Sighs of relief escaped the three other girls lips. As much as they loved Spencer and wanted nothing more than for her to be happy, it was obvious she needed rest. They hoped that when she woke up, she would be in a better mood. Aria, Emily, and Hanna had been sitting with Spencer for close to an hour, so they decided it was time to get up and go do something other than sitting around.

Thankfully for the others, Spencer was completely wiped, which allowed Aria and Emily to go get Chinese food without Spencer even knowing that they left. But as much as they all needed air, they cared for Spencer too much to leave her alone in her large house, feeling so unstable and unlike herself. Hanna stayed behind just in case something happened, but she was parying nothing would until her best friends came back.

She had never seen Spencer like this, so weak and torn, and it scared her to the core. More than anything she just wanted Spencer to spring up from her bed and pretend like nothing happened, like she normally would. Hanna knew better than that. Hanna knew that Spencer's heart was in pieces and no matter how hard she tried to shrug it off, this time it just wasn't possible.

She stood at one of the windows in Spencer's bedroom, counting the seconds until Emily and Aria arrived, thankful that Spencer was asleep. Hanna thought that maybe she spoke too soon, because in an instant, Spencer shot up, tears pouring down her cheeks. Hanna turned around slightly to see Spencer sitting up through the corner of her eye and began speaking "Spence, don't worry, Aria and Em just went to go get food while you were asleep. You were pretty tired but…" "Hanna…" Spencer cut her off, her voice weak, tired and full of sadness. Spencer said her name as more of a question, as if she was asking Hanna to comfort her. She just nodded and sat down on the bed, hugging her tightly.

Spencer calmed down quickly in Hanna's grasp, but she was suddenly overcome with embarrassement. Hanna watched Spencer's cheeks grew red, and she couldn't believe that she was upset at herself over crying.

"Spencer. Look at me." Hanna said "You have no need to be at war with yourself. It's okay to cry! In fact, it is more than okay. You miss Toby and you don't want to be away from him. Your heart is broken, and that's alright. We still love you and everyone else does too. Don't think of it as a weakness, please. You're still perfect, it's just part of life."

Spencer smiled. She loved the way Hanna could be so sarcastic one minute, then be so genuine the next. "Thank you. Really. Thank you." she replied hugging Hanna again. "What happened?" Spencer wiped her eyes and told her "Just a nightmare, that's all." "Are you okay?" Hanna asked, and Spencer nodded, still wrapped in Hanna's arms.

Grabbing a sweater off the end of her bed, Spencer suggested they go down stairs and wait for Aria and Emily to come back. By this point, Hanna was willing to do anything that would keep her happy. After she turned the coffee maker on, there was a knock at the door.

Spencer walked over and thrust it open letting Aria and Emily in. But they weren't the only ones at the door. There in front of Spencer's sore, yet still stunningly beautiful eyes, stood Toby Cavanaugh.