Ok this is sort of a filler chapter but at the same time part of the main story…if that makes sense. I didn't want to make this story go too fast so that's why this is here. Anyway enjoy. Things will get more adventurous and exciting after this chapter promise.

I Still Love You…

"Kakusareta ikari? What the hell does that mean?" Kim says sitting in a chair outside the dressing room with Rosa as I change clothes for the thousandth time.

"Apparently it means: hidden wrath in a different language."

"Well it does sound like something he'd come up with…but still hidden wrath? How did you guys come up with that?"

"Well we were going to go with Docile wrath before but the name just seem to…well not make sense."

"Oh I get it…you being the docile side and him being the wrath side, hah hah that's pretty good."

"Yeah but he thought I was right when I brought up how weird it sounded and suggested instead hidden wrath."

"So how did that come in to play?" Rosa asks listening to our conversation.

"well just by looking at us you can't really tell what we are or how powerful we are just by a glance, at least not until we show it…so hidden wrath. But he's the one who wanted to go with the language thing I chose the language and we agreed. What about you guys; what are your teams names?"

"Kenny and I went with power house since we both pack a punch." Kim says confidently as I hear her punch a fist into her hand.

"Lysander and I came up with Symphonic Light." Rosa says after.

"Ok light I can understand but how does Symphonic play into it?"

"Don't you remember Kim he's in a band; instead of going with his power he went with his likes." Looking in the mirror I can't help but go red in the face as I look at the garment that Rosa has me trying on first,

"Hey Fea how long are you going to take in there anyway? It's just underwear that we're starting off with first."

"But…But I've never worn underwear like this before i-it's so lacy and…the bra is really revealing…can't I put a tee shirt on over this and show you?"

"How are we going to know if it's the perfect match for you if you wear a shirt over it?"

"But…"

"No buts."

"I still don't see why she has to start with underwear first…" Kim says uninterested.

"oh you two seriously don't know anything about fashion; you ALWAYS start with what's underneath. If that doesn't look right then the whole outfit could fail!"

"It's not like anyone is going to see it…"

"oh yes they will; what if she gets a boyfriend and-"

"Rosa! Seriously?!" I poke my head out after Kim exclaims that

"H-how did we get to that kind of topic?!" since I have my head poking I shyly step out and show the matching underwear set I'm wearing.

"See? That light blue and the cute ruffle border on the bra are a good match for you and so does the little boarder on the underwear as well. That brand also seems to help accentuate your curves since you seem to be lacking in other areas."

"You can just say I a cup, I already know their small!" I shout teary eyed from embarresment. I her footsteps coming this way and panicking head back into my dressing room unintentionally slamming the door.

"Everything going ok over here?" I hear a male voice asks.

"of course Leigh, oh, hey the brand of underwear I picked out, Shiphon Cutie, can you get about five pairs of those for Fea please."

"Sure." I poke my head out of the room again,

"W-wait a minute Rosa; I can't pay for that many!"

"Don't worry it's on me today."

"I won't be able to pay you back for all this!"

"You don't have to pay me back; I'm helping out a friend so just think of it as a gift from me."

"Bu-bu-but.."

"Dude I would just take it; trust me she's got it her family's super rich." Kim tells me and I go quiet.

"Well that settles that; can you get that please Leigh?"

"Alright." Rosa's boyfriend walks off with a small smile on his face probably noticing the fun Rosa is having with all this. I can't help but go back into my dressing room and try on the first set of clothes she picked out for me. I guess since we had to cancel our shopping spree three times now in the past two weeks she's probably excited about all this.

The first outfit consists of a pleated skirt and a plain white dressy shirt with a navy blue tie and light blue knee high stockings. I've hardly ever worn skirts and this one being above the knees I find myself holding down the front afraid it would reveal something. I step out and show it to the others,

"well it's cute."

"Yeah but there's no way she can fight in that; just look at her. She'd be so self conscious about what will show her hands aren't going to be free." Kim protests against Rosa noticing my red face most likely.

"Yeah…not to mention it doesn't fit your personality anyway Fea." Earing a no on the outfit I hide back in the dressing room and start trying on something else. The next one isn't so bad: a pair of jeans with a shirt and a black jacket. I like it so much that I end up looking in the mirror in ever direction I can. The blue shirt is clingy but not too clingy. When I step out to show Rosa and Kim two other people are there that I didn't even notice were here nor did I expect them to be here.

"Castiel…Lysander…? What are you two doing here?"

"Mister know it all said you three would be in here and said we should say hi."

"I said nothing like that; you just came in here to pick on Fea. I merely told you they were still here."

"You know I think I have to believe Lysander on this one…" I say flatly staring at Castiel.

"Oh really? And since when do you believe anyone else but me all of a sudden?" he smirks.

"Who says I ever listen to you any way?" I snark right back at him. I've kind of gotten used to his sense of humor now. Suddenly he gets so close to me I let off a squeak and back a way into the mirrors. "J-jerk…!" my heart is pounding so fast that it feels as though it may burst.

"pfft…you really hate it when people get into your personal space don't you?" people no…you…yes… "Why don't you take a look at yourself in the mirror; the clothes seem to do you better than what you had on before." He says before turning to leave. I notice Kim smirking rather evilly out of the corner of my eye,

"Hey Castiel, it's too bad you came now instead of earlier…you know you missed a good show."

"What show?" he turns looking at her one eyebrow raised.

"Fea was trying on quite a few matching sets of underwear earlier…" his whole body immediately as she continues, "Too bad for you…and here Leigh was actually here to help her pick it out and everything. More than happy to actually." Even Lysander is starting to look a bit uncomfortable at that.

"K-Kim…!" wait she's going to give him the wrong idea!

"Leigh huh…?" uh-oh…that tone in his voice is not very promising…

"Kim what are you talking about, I was the one who picked it out. Leigh had nothing to do with it!" Rosa shouts not liking the idea that much.

"I had a feeling he wouldn't…Leigh doesn't show much emotion but he's not the type to actually look at girls so casually…" Lysander says. Although I can tell he sort of let out a sigh of relief. Castiel turns looking at me with piercing eyes making me tense. His eyes move down and up,

"pfft, what bra she's got nothing there." ok…ow…I know it's true but still… I let off a gust of frost at him covering his face. He laughs slightly as the ice melts under his heat.

"You really are a devil you know that?" I say in a huff. He shrugs his shoulders as if not caring,

"So what is your size then?" ok now he's just trying to get under my skin…

"Um I see no reason in telling you."

"Want me to take a look then?" he inches closer just causing mischief now and I retreat into my dressing room yielding him the winner of this round. "Hahahah c'mon like I would actually peak at your bra size." I know he can't see but looking in the mirror my face is so red I could be mistaken for a tomato. Feeling my face my face feels red hot from the embarrassment.

"C-Castiel you can be a real jerk sometimes!" I can hear him snicker outside the room.

"Alright I'll stop torturing you…anyway we have somewhere we have to be. See you guys." Hearing a pair of footstep wander off I know it's safe and I exit the room again breathing a sigh of relief. When I step out of the dressing room Rosa and Kim give me a weird look. They both look at me smirking about something.

"What?"

"Nothing, nothing." Rosa plays it off as there's nothing to be said. Leaving it alone I go back to picking out new clothes.

I wake up pretty late considering it's a Saturday most likely due to the fact that Rosa had me try on literally every clothing item in the store. My eyes don't really want to open but the fact that it's 11 in the morning I force myself to sit up refusing to fall back asleep. Looking at my closet is a bit of a wake up call considering all my old clothes have been thrown out and replaced by my new wardrobe. I choose and outfit consisting of a baggy t-shirt with a pattern of flowers on it with a sweater scarf. Along with it I choose to wear some flashy daisy dukes with some black leggings with lace under them (my own choice) and black slouch boots. (the look you can buy in episode 18.) I still keep on the necklace Castiel gave me but add a silver chain as well and some silver bangles that jingle on my wrists. As I finish combing my hair I place a sliver hair clip on one side to help keep it out of my face but leave it down. back in my bedroom my phone starts ringing and I rush to answer it. Luckily I reach it in time and I pick up to hear Iris on the other end.

"Hey Fea."

"Hi, what's going on?"

"A bunch of us are going to go see a movie right now; we're all meeting up at the Café. I was calling to see if you wanted to come along with us."

"Sure sounds fun!"

"Great, the movie starts at 1, so we'll be leaving the café around 12:30… huh? Oh Rosa says that Castiel will be coming too so you should wear something cute?" why would she say that? I can't help but look down at what I'm wearing making sure it looks ok. Maybe some different shoes? Wait what am I talking about I look fine!

"O-Ok I'll be there in a bit." I hang up and for some reason I feel my cheeks get hot. Does Rosa think I "Like" Castiel? I mean yes when we were little I did…but now? We're just friends. "Right…friends…really good child hood friends…no more no less…so then why do I feel so depressed saying it like that? What ever." Pushing my thoughts aside I head downstairs grabbing my purse and heading out the door.

…

At the café I find Rosa, Kim, Kenny, Iris, and Violet waiting as I head over.

"Hey guys." I say cheerfully.

"WOW! Fea you look awesome!" Kenny says really enthusiastically. "T-That outfit looks really cool!"

"Uh…thanks Kenny." Unlike Kentin, Kenny is actually really sweet he can just be a bit over the top about it sometimes. Other than that he's really pretty harmless. "Is that a new sweater? I don't think I've ever seen you wear that one before."

"Wow you actually noticed?!"

"OOF!" he suddenly bear hugs me binding my arms at my side and I can tell he's the personality that does have super strength.

"I can't believe you noticed; no one has said anything at all."

"Hey I said I noticed." Kim says walking up to us.

"But you're my partner; of course you would notice. But she's the first out of any of anyone else to say something." in his own weird way…Kenny's like the awkward little brother…

"Heh, okay I get it but remember what we talked about. Personal space, not every one likes to be as sociable as you." Kim Gently yanks him off holding him up in the air dangling for a couple of seconds before setting him down.

"Oh right…Sorry Fea." I can't help but pat his shoulder.

"That's ok, if anything I think it's one of your good points."

"Whaaaa?!" he looks at me cheeks slightly rosy and tears at the corner of his glasses…he somewhat reminds me of a chibi or something.

"Yeah a good point your really friendly." He seems to go off in his own world for a few minutes and Kim and I stare at him. He starts to mumble something looking back at us before turning back around. Every so often I think I see his cheeks or rather his whole face has gone red. "Hee hee…is he ok?"

"Yeah, yeah he's fine you just made his day is all."

"Oh."

"Hey Kenny come on… we're heading out now!" After Kim gets him in line we head to the theater. Once there we run into Castiel, Lysander, Leigh and two others I vaguely remember. Their the twins that go to our school but I'm so bad at keeping them straight I always end up on edge talking to them. I know one of them is Armin and the other is Alexy. Rosa immediately runs over to Leigh and latches onto his arm.

"Get a room you two." Castiel pokes fun at them. Then he stops looking at me like he's stunned for a moment. It's a rare sight to actually see him shocked about something. what do I look bad or something? I'm about to ask just that when I feel someone latch onto me, "Wah?!"

"Hey Fea can I sit with you during the movie?" Kenny slings himself over my shoulders still clinging like a kid to me. I smile at him but it suddenly goes away when I feel something like daggers stabbing into my entire being and a chill runs up my back. I'm too afraid to even look so I can't really tell who it is looking at me so harshly.

"Um…s-sure Kenny I don't mind." Ok…now I feel like I'm on fire…!

Suddenly Kim comes over and pulls him off me "Kenny…personal space."

"Oh right sorry…" she ruffles his hair like an older sister to a younger brother

"No worries…" Whew…it stopped but I still…what was all that just now.

"Um by the way what movie are we going to see?" I say turning my attention back to the others.

"We should totally see that new scary movie that just came out!" I look over at one of the twins that I think is Alexy. S-scary…?

"Yeah! I think it's called Dead Ones Walking."

"Sounds good to me." everyone starts voicing their opinion except for me. But I hate scary movies.

"Don't tell me you're still afraid of scary movies?" I turn to see Castiel looking at me with a smirk.

"If I say yes…will you make fun of me…?" I ask doubtfully.

"When it comes to you that's kind of my specialty." Of course…

"Then no I'm not!" I say folding my arms and turning away from him. "Why do you like bullying me so much anyway…?" I don't get it why can't he say just one nice thing…compliment me on my out fit or something…do you always have to tease me?

"I'm a demon; it's in my nature to mess with people."

"Hmpf…well I'm not scared ok? Um…"

"What?" I start fidgeting going quiet, "Look if you have something to say spit it out already."

"Um…earlier you kind of froze up when you saw me. was it because I looked different or…?"

"No you don't look any different…" really but then… You just look less like a helpless little girl is all." What?! I couldn't stand it any longer; for some strange reason that comment snapped my last nerve into pieces. The next thing I know,

"Ow!" I punch his shoulder as hard as I can, teeth gritting and every muscle in my body tense. "the hell was that for?!"

"You are such a jerk!" I shout inches away from his face before pushing past him to the ticket booth and slam the money down on the counter ordering my ticket. While I wait I can feel the corners of my eyes stinging and from behind I hear Lysander,

"Why did you have to push her button?"

"'Cause he's stupid." Kim says with a nasty tone.

…

I hate slasher films! Ok granted we deal with things much worse in the real world but this…! Ah not he cut of her head! I decided to sit as far away from Castiel as possible so I'm sitting on the edge of the group and I'm sitting next to Alexy. Not even Kenny is next to me to share in my pain and Alexy is sitting here enjoying every gory scene like there's no tomorrow.

"AHHH!" everyone in the theater screams as the main character heads into a dark hallway and a shadow jumps in front of them. My clenched up hands go right in front of my eyes as I flinch at the sounds of yet another gory enthusiast scene. I'm terrified to even look but I make myself look anyways as stupid as I am. I catch it just in the middle of the monster ripping into one of the victims and look down at the floor. My body starts to convulse as my heart goes wild in my chest. Some how I manage to hide the fact that I'm nearly crying as I continue to look away from the screen. Sick…I…I feel sick… Help…please someone…! Castiel…help me Castiel…!

"Ugh…." I clamp my hand over my mouth as I start to lose my grip on my surroundings in an on coming panic attack. Suddenly I hear a strange sound from under me and when I look down ice has begun to stretch around in a small creeping circle.

"He's going to gut her!"

"Alexy! SHHH!"

"You know he is Armin!"

"Shut up, you're ruining it for everyone else!" dazed I manage to look up and catch the sight of the scariest, most evil looking creature with horns and red eyes ripping a girl in half. That was the final straw. Feeling at the color drain from my face I let loose my tears and in a panic I get up from my seat unable to take it anymore. As I dash out of the theater I can hear the ice creeping along where my feet have touched.

"Fea?!" ignoring whoever called my I slam open the door and make a be line for the exit.

"Miss are you alright?" an employee asks me after I bump into them but I still continue running. Outside I continue running as fast as I can until I find a quiet place away from all the noise. I don't know how but I somehow have managed to get to a garden open to the public. There's a bench nearby and I take a seat. I take up most of it laying down trying to get rid of the gruesome sights in my head.

"It's not even REAL…why does it scare me so much…" silently I continue to scold myself as I calm down. then my thoughts turn to something else. Stupid Castiel…would it hurt him to be just a little nicer to me every once in a while…humor me why don't you…you stupid jerk… *Sniff* I don't understand why was I so upset anyway…I should be used to it. But…what ever I don't care right now… my phone suddenly beeps at me and I retrieve it from my purse. Looking at the text it's from ore than just one person.

Where are you?

Where did you go?

Did something happened?

The movie was great. But you disappeared before the best part. Did something come up?

You scared us all! Dude Call me right now! We're all looking for you! At Kim's desperate request I dial her number; after the first ring she picks up.

"What the hell happened?! Where are you?"

"Sorry Kim…I just…"

"You just up and left! what happened?"

"I suddenly felt sick…"

"Sick?!"

"Yeah…I forgot to mention…I'm completely terrified of scary movies…" he passes on the message to the big crowd most likely standing around her.

"You sure that's all it was?"

"Yeah I'm sure…listen I'm heading home right now so you guys should just enjoy the rest of the day."

"You sure?"

"Yeah…My stomach feels really queasy now so…"it's not a complete lie…it still does feel that way but I just want to be alone right now…

"Hey, Lysander wants to talk to you." I wait a minute before hearing his voice.

"Fea?"

"Hi."

"Listen you should call Castiel as soon as you can."

"I'm not calling that jerk!" I say in a huff,

"No Fea seriously you need to call him." my anger disappears at the seriousness in his tone. "He completely lost it when you ran out. I've never seen him panic like that before. He thought there was something really wrong with you. Even I couldn't catch up to him when he bolted." Is he really that worried about me?

"Ok…I'll let him know I'm ok."

"Thanks, and by the way, don't be too mad at him ok? You know how he is."

"Yeah…I'm done being mad…" I say goodbye one more time to Kim before hanging up. then next thing I do is pull up Castiels number. By it there's a picture of Castiel I took catching him off guard with a look of bewilderment on his face. A rare sight I was able to catch. I press the call button and here the first ring go through half way when,

"Fea!" he sounds out of breath and really panicked, "Where the hell are you? Are you-"

"I'm at the public garden…"
"Don't move!"

"Wouldn't dream of it…" I say slightly smiling before I hang up. I wait for a few minutes and wait. Soon thirty minutes pass and finally I see him running towards me as fast as he can. I stand somewhat shocked at the fact that he's rushing like this. He always seemed to calm and collected. As soon as he reaches me he bends over to catch his breath.

"Castiel are you ok?" he shoots up and before I know it he's locked me in his arms unable to break free.

"Idiot…you stupid idiot…! Why did you run off like that?!"

"I-I'm sorry…"

"Why are you so stubborn?! If you were that Terrified you should have said something!" his arms around me tighten, "I…I thought something happened to you…"

his trembling form and shaky voice fill my heart with guilt and suddenly I forget why I was mad at him at all earlier.

"I'm sorry Castiel…" I place my hands on his back gently. "I'm really sorry…" this was a completely different Castiel than what I was used to seeing. It's like I don't even know him at the moment. The way he's holding me is as if he's trying desperately to keep hold of something; like it's keeping him tethered to reality and if he lets go…so does his sanity. This side of him is something I've never experienced even when we were little. "I'm fine Castiel…I'm not going anywhere…"

"Please don't…"

"OK…I'll be quiet…" I try to lighten the mood but,

"No…I mean don't leave ever again…" for some strange reason I can't help but feel an unknown history behind his words and let out a small gasp, "I don't think I can go through it a second time…" I need to do something to get him back to normal…

"You want pizza?" I say making him suddenly hold me by my shoulders with a look on his face as if he's asking if I'm crazy.

"The hell kind of question is that?"

"What it's comfort food…and I figured you would want that considering I made you cry."

"Psh…demons don't cry pixie."

"Ohh really because you really sounded like you were going to." I poke the "Cassy Bear" just to aggravate him just a smidge as I smirk at him.

"You trying to have fun at my expense now or something?"

"Nope…but I am serious about the pizza. I haven't had the chance to eat anything yet. Wanna go back to my place and just hang out?"

"Mine's close; you're paying."

"What?!" I whine.

"Consider it payment for making me nearly piss myself." well when he puts it that way…

…

Castiels home is a giant penthouse on the top floor in the rich neighborhood. It all looks sophisticated and classy…nothing like Castiel in the slightest.

"My parent's idea in decorating; not mine."

"Yeah kind of figured…"

"My room's this way." Following him he leads me to a room that looks just like his style. All decked out in rock posters and grunge atmosphere. His bed is big enough to fit three people in and right across from it there's a large television screen. In one corner there's a few electric guitars and an amp. Yep this is deeeffinitely more his style. He orders the pizza one for each of us since we have such different tastes in pizza and I browse the movie selection picking out something for use to watch. Castiel disappears for a moment before he comes back changed into a sweatshirt and pants and a different pair of clothes that weren't the ones he had on before. Tossing them at me they land in my face. When I look closer at them, they're his clothes but something he would most likely wear around the house.

"You can change into those; make yourself more comfortable."

"Thanks." I to the bathroom and change and once I come back out the pizza's here. We used to do this all the time when we were kids. He would sneak out and come over to my house and we would spend the whole night staying up either watching television or playing some game. I can't help but smile at the thought as I take a bite of my pizza. This movie is much better than the slasher we saw today. So much so that I kind of forget where I am or the time being until Castiel lightly taps me on the head.

"You hear me?"

"Sorry no…I was watching the movie."

"I said…I'm sorry…for you know…making you mad." His cheeks are so red that I have to hide my smile behind my hand. "Don't laugh, damn it!"

"I-I'm not I promise…"

"Liar…"

"Sorry…anyway don't worry about it I'm over it now so don't worry." I go back to focusing on the movie when he suddenly hugs me again; rather gently. My heart starts to beat wildly as I unintentionally cling to him. "C-Castiel…?"

"I hate it when you're mad at me…can you just say you forgive me, please…apologizing like that was really hard you know…" my chest feels warm as my eyes begin to feel heavy. Without saying anything I leave the comfort of his arms and lay my head on his lap. Now I think I understand…the reason why Rosa was looking at me like that the other day…why I was so nervous hearing Castiel would come to the movies today…why I got so upset…everything…it's because…

I close my eyes falling asleep, "I…forgive you…" I'm able to mutter that much before my body shuts down on me… while my consciousness remains awake I can feel him place a hand on my head and comb his fingers through my hair making me feel safe.

I'm still in love with you…aren't Castiel? Yeah…that's what it is… I don't think I ever stopped…so that's it then…I'm still in love with you…