Chapter 3
I set my alarm on my phone last night because I stayed at Jess's place and I don't want to be late for Ms. Carlins class. In case your wondering no, me and Jess didn't have sex last night. We just stayed up watching movies, eating popcorn, and hanging out. Sometimes that's a lot better then going out and hooking up with some random girl. Me and Jess have these little sleep over's sometimes and even though we don't have sex we still sleep together. It's just how our relationship is. Just as I'm about to leave she wakes up.
"Hey where you going?"
"I have class in an hour"
"Since when do you care about class…. Oh, is this the class with the instructor your in love with?"
"I'm not in love with her but yes"
"Well then you better get going because I'm sure you want to take a shower and everything."
"Duh ha ha"
"Ok well text me later and you better let me know if anything happens today!"
"Yes ma'am"
I gave her a peck on the lips like I always do and leave her apartment and head back to my dorm room. When I get there I am surprised to see that Chelsea is still there.
"Hey I figured you would be in class by now"
"No this is the only day I don't have an 8 am class. Instead my first class starts at 9:30"
"Well that's an extra half hour"
"Yea. You just now getting in?"
"Yea I stayed with Jess last night"
"Oh, no girls to pick up last night?"
"Actually we didn't go out and we didn't have sex. We just went back to her place and hung out watching movies and shit"
"That's cool"
Yea so I know that I mentioned that Jess is like a sister to me and everything but I don't want you to think I'm some freak or something because yes me and Jess hook up occasionally. She is like a sister to me in the sense I've never had a sister or a brother so I grew up all alone. With me and Jess having similar backgrounds it's nice to be able to share things like sisters would.
"So where you off to so early this morning?"
"I have class at 9"
"Ah nice. Well have fun I'm going to back to sleep for a little bit"
"Kk text me later"
"K"I walked into the bathroom to shower before I went to class.
I only take a 10 minute shower so I have time to do my hair and make up. What I gotta look good. I decide to blow dry my hair straight but I put some waves in it. I go with neutral make up so that it doesn't look like I'm trying to hard. I walk over to my closet to figure out what I'm going to wear.
"You should wear your skinny jeans and one of you tops that hug your body"
"Ok one you just scared the shit out of me and two why would I wear that?"
"Well one I'm sorry and two you never care how you look when your going to class so obviously someone in one of your classes has gotten your attention."
"Ok you got me. There is someone in one of my classes but I don't think anything will come of it."
"Why not?"
"I don't think she is gay, I think she is as straight as they come"
"Well that's too bad but you never know til you ask"
"I know" I'm going to tell Chels about Ms. Carlin I just don't have time for all her questions right now because then I will be late for class.
"Alright how do I look?"
"HOT! You better leave before I kidnap you and have my way with you"
"In your dreams Chels."
Now before you start thinking that there is something between me and Chels, there isn't she just likes to make smart comments like that. She is as straight as they come. Actually she has been dating the same guy since her sophomore year of high school, Clay. They actually got pregnant at the end of our junior of high school but senior year, she lost it.
I left my room and started making my way towards my class with Ms. Carlin. All the way there I kept thinking of ways to talk to her and maybe find out if she is even gay.
I walk into an empty classroom, guess I'm early. I sit down and take out everything I need for this class. I am going to actually try and pay attention today. I was only sitting there a few minutes when others starting coming in the room but there was still no Carlin. I looked at my watch and class was supposed to start in 30 seconds. Just as my watch hit 9 am I heard the door shut and looked up to be met with those blue eyes.
"Good morning class"
"Morning"
"Where did we leave off Monday?" I guess no one was paying attention because no one answered her.
"Can anyone tell me what we were talking about Monday?" I honestly don't even remember what class this is let alone what we were talking about.
"Ms. Davies?"
"What?"
"Care to tell us what we were talking about on Monday?"
"Um… We were talking about whatever this class is about" Everyone in the room started laughing but Ms. Carlin did not look amused.
"Did anyone pay attention on Monday? Or did everyone just drink so much since then that you forgot everything?"
"I didn't drink I just had some personal issues to deal with and honestly forgot"
"That's no excuse Ms. Davies. See me after class"
"Yes ma'am"
"Ok since no one seems to remember what we were talking on Monday I will discuss it again but this is the last time this will happen and I would start doing the work because I am going to start throwing pop quizzes." Everyone groaned because we could tell that she was completely serious.
I finally realized what class I was in when she started discussing what she taught Monday. I was in business law. Why am I taking this again? Oh yea because I'm undecided and taking a little bit of everything. Besides this class does have an advantage, I get to stare at a blue eyed angel.
I actually did kind of pay attention today only because I don't want to mess up my GPA. Class went by fast which sucks because that means I don't get to look at her anymore.
"Alright class that's all for today and please do the assignment tonight I don't want to have to give you guys quizzes every class. Ms. Davies I still would like to talk to you"
"Ok" I packed all my things and sat there waiting for everyone to leave the class. Ms. Carlin was talking to one of the students and walking them out the door. She walked out and a few seconds later walked back in. She walked over and sat down in the seat in front of me.
"So what did you want to see me for?"
"I always get background on all my students so that I know a little bit about them. I was reading your files and I was very impressed."
"Thank you…" I wasn't sure where she was going with this.
"Your welcome. I was very impressed with your high school transcript and your grades. Your lowest grade in high school was 90, and from what I understood your last 2 years of high school you were pretty much on your own?"
"Yes ma'am"
"You don't have to use manners with me Ms. Davies"
"Then call me Ashley please"
"Ok I will"
"Thank you"
"So why were you on your own for the last 2 years of high school? If you don't mind me asking."
"I don't. When I was 13 my parents got a divorce, I was happy they were. My dad is Raife Davies, the rockstar."
"I thought I recognized your last name, my dad is a huge fan of him and his band"
"Doesn't surprise me lol anyway when him and mom got a divorce my mom didn't want custody of me so he gave up his career for me. When I was 17 he asked me how I would feel about him rejoining his band. I could tell he missed it a lot so I told him to go for it. He gave it up for 4 years for me and never once complained about it. So he rejoined his band but always told me that if he I wanted him home all I had to do was call him and he would be right there. I'm not selfish and I was old enough to take care of myself so I never had a problem with it. My aunt actually looked after me a lot while he was on the road. She would call everyday to make sure I didn't need anything and she would actually call the school to make sure I was attending and keeping my grades up. But she didn't have to worry because I actually didn't mind going to school, it gave me something to do. Even though my mom didn't want custody of me she stayed around until my junior year. I had discovered something about myself and when I told her, her response was to tell me she loved me and walked out the front door. I haven't seen or heard from her since."
"What did you tell her?"
"Can I ask you a personal question Ms. Carlin?"
"You can ask but I won't promise to answer, fair enough?"
"Fair enough"
"Ok, what's your question?"
"How do you feel about sexuality?"
"I think that you can love whoever you love. As long as your happy with your self then that's all that matters"
"You speak very passionately about that"
"Well I have my reasons"
"And what would those reasons be?"
"I shouldn't discuss my personal life with one of my students"
"But yet you want to know about my personal life?"
"Touche'"
"So are you going to answer my question?"
"I might have personal feelings on the matter"
"I might have personal feelings on the matter as well"
"So your saying your gay?"
"Are you saying your gay?"
"Do you always answer a question with a question?"
"Only when my questions aren't being answered" Yup I'm definitely flirting with this girl. She is totally gay I'm just trying to get her to tell me she is.
"Hmmm well what question did you want answered?"
"Are you gay?"
"Yes ok I am gay"
"I knew it"
"Did you?"
"Yup it's a little thing I like to call gaydar"
"Don't worry I have it too and knew as soon as you walked into my classroom that you were gay too"
"Well we seem to have something in common"
"Yes we do"
"So Ms. Carlin, are you single?"
"Yes"
"Really? That's good to know"
"Don't get ahead of yourself there Davies, I never interact with my students outside the classroom"
"That's good, I don't have to worry about you failing me now because I don't want to sleep with you"
"Exactly" She said laughing.
"Anything else you wanted to know about me?"
"Yes back to seriousness, why haven't you picked a major?"
"Well honestly because I can't figure out what I want to do with my life. I know I want to help people I just can't seem to figure out how. What made you decide to become an instructor?"
"I love teaching people. I remember being in school and always having teachers and instructors that seemed like they hated there job and didn't really care about teaching. Since I was so good and enjoyed school I decided that's what I was going to do"
"Just out of curiosity, how old are you?"
"Well, how old do you think I am?"
"You can't be older then 25"
"Ha ha I'm 26"
"There is no way"
"Yup way"
"Damn"
"If you want I wouldn't mind sitting down with you sometime and discussing opportunities with you. Based off your file I think you have some serious potential and honestly could do anything you wanted."
"Thank you Ms. Carlin"
"Your welcome"
"Can I ask you something?"
"Sure"
"Why me?"
"What do you mean?"
"Well are you going to be helping all your students like this?"
"Honeslty no, every semester I find someone with potential and that looks like they could use some guidance. Out of everyone in all my classes, I was most drawn to you and your file."
"I see"
"Yea"
"So does this mean that you will be watching my every move to make sure I'm living up to my potential?"
"No it's nothing like that. What I'm saying is that if you ever need someone to talk to, if you are struggling with any thing in school or in your personal life then I am here. If you want help with deciding about your major or have any questions about it then you can come to me"
"Wow you actually do that for your students?"
"I told you that I care about my job and want to help people."
"Oh so you found someone that looks like they need a lot of help?"
"No that's not what I meant"
"That's what it sounded like"
"Well I'm sorry if it sounded that way, I didn't mean for it to be that way." I looked down at my watch and noticed I had 10 minutes to get to my next class.
"Ok well I have to go to my next class"
"Ok well here, this is my card with my email and my phone number. If you ever need anything just let me know"
"Ok thank you Ms. Carlin"
I really don't know how to take the conversation me and Ms. Carlin just had. I mean I got the answer I was looking for, she is in fact gay. But she clearly stated that she does not interact with students outside of her classroom other then if they need help with something. I don't know if I will ever be with Ms. Carlin in the way I would like but I think I might find a very nice friend in her.
Soooo how was class? Yes that would be Jess texting me.
Ugh don't you have a life?
Yea but yours is better
Cant argue with that! ;)
Alright Davies, spill. Did anything happen?
Yea, I'll call you later
You better!
My other class today was accounting, so basically just a lot of math. I always do extremely well in math, it's my strong point. So as you probably already know I won't be paying too much attention in this class. Once class is over I call Jess like I said I would and told her everything happened. All she said was that Carlin was in to me. I don't believe her though. I don't want to believe that she does like me and then be disappointed. Wait she said she doesn't date her students so does that mean that once I'm done her class we can date?