Hopefully this chapter is a little easier to read.. I am sorry about the others.

Please enjoy.

R&R

"Sir we will be arriving at Dorvan V in one hour"

Chakotay looked up from the PADD he was recording on, smiled and said "Thank you Ensign" and went back to work.

"So finally after dancing around each other we finally decided to act. A quick kiss, which turned into a night of pure bliss for both of us. Our big date one we had planned for over a year came up, I had just returned from a mission and she was supposed to be back from hers. I waited and waited, when I thought I heard her coming I was surprised to see Mark her old fiancé he was upset I could tell. Every fiber of my being told me something was wrong, but I didn't want to listen, when he said Kathryn wasn't coming it felt like a knife stabbing me. Then he told me she was dead, I felt like my heart had been torn right out of my chest, My Kathryn, dead it was unthinkable it hurt so bad. Hell it still hurts, and that's why I have decided to leave Earth for awhile and decided whether or not to leave Starfleet."

"Sir I'm sorry to bug you again but we have arrived"

"Already? Fine thank you" Chakotay got up put the PADD in his bag and went to the transporter room.

"Mom?" Phoebe spoke as she went outside to find her mother crying in the garden "Are you okay? Did you cut yourself?"

Through tears Gretchen replied "No.. Phoebe.. I just can't deal with this anymore… First your father.. Then Kathryn.. Then Kathryn's alive.. We had to wait for her to come home… when she does one year Phoebe one year we had her and Starfleet took her away. She should be here with us Phoebe helping me in the garden telling me all about her time in the Delta Quadrant and all about that man Chakotay, her former first officer that she had fallen in love with." She started to cry harder "They took her away Phoebe"

Phoebe knelt beside her mother and hugged her "I know mom they had no right to do it, they should have sent someone else not her, she should have been here on Earth relaxing with that Chakotay and starting her family, late I know but that's Kathryn."

Both women were crying now holding each other and wishing Starfleet had not done what they did.

"Q how long have I been here for?" Kathryn asked as she approached Q and Q2 who were chatting with each other about what they should do for Kathryn

"Kathy how nice to see you. How long? Well it's been... Hmmm... From your understanding of time it will be two hundred in three days

"Two hundred years?!" Kathryn put her hand to her mouth in shock "You're telling me that everyone I loved is dead?"

"Yup they have been for a very long time, by Earth standards, but that doesn't apply to us, we can go to Earth and see your family and they would be alive, you see the Q see the future and the past"

"I can go see my family?"

"Kathryn, don't start this again" Q held up his finger at her

"Q you are keeping me here like a prisoner" Kathryn throw her arms up and looked at Q with anger

"No you can go anywhere in the universe just not to Earth."

"Fine" Kathryn snapped her fingers and flashed away

"Why do you do that? The other Q had decided to let her see her family her friends."

"Junior if we let her go she would stay there and ultimately damage the timeline"

Q2 snapped his fingers and was gone.

"Wait Aunt Kathy, please"

Kathryn was about to make him disappear but she turned and looked at him. She had tears forming in her eyes.

"Aunt Kathy I'm sorry. I know you were hoping for a chance to see your family again, and this isn't what you had in mind for the after life, but think of all the things you can do, all the places you can go."

"Is this supposed to make me feel better? Because it's not Q" Kathryn walked away from Junior.

"Chakotay!" his sister yelled as she came running out of her house to great him, she embraced him in a hug.

"It's nice to see you too"

"Your upset brother what's wrong?" she asked as the walked into the house

"I don't want to talk about it right now okay. Let me get settled and then maybe I will tell you."

"Very well, your room is the second door on the left."

"Thank you." Chakotay pulled the bag's strap higher up on his shoulder and went to his room.

He had been up packing a few things when he sat on the bed and sighed. He looked at the PADD he was using and thoughts of Kathryn entered his mind, without knowing it he feel asleep.

"Chakotay wake up!"

"What?" he said groggily "Sekaya what's wrong?"

"Nothing Chakotay you fell asleep while you were unpacking."

"I guess I was tired"

"I guess so six hours"

"Six hours!" Chakotay got up and finished putting the last items away

"Chakotay what's this?" Sekaya asked as she looked at the PADD that had ended up on the floor

"Please don't read it" Chakotay asked knowing full well that she was reading some of it

"You were in love with..."

"Stop!" he snapped and grabbed the PADD from her "I don't want to talk about it right now"

"Fine dinner is ready if you're hungry" she snapped back and left the room

"Sekaya Wait" Chakotay called after her

He managed to stop her in the kitchen "I'm sorry you're only trying to help, I shouldn't have yelled."

"It's alright Chakotay you're in so much pain. I know you didn't mean to yell, when you feel like talking about it you will. Here eat you need your strength."

"For what Sekaya?"

"You'll see" she turned and went outside leaving Chakotay wondering that she meant.

Chakotay finally went to bed for the night at one am, he was so exhausted that he didn't remember changing for bed. But his dream was unsettling.

He was in a forest of pine trees and birch trees a few maples and a few spruces. It was very foggy, the foggy was eerie and the sounds were not normal sounds of a forest, there was no birds or and other animals, he was alone. As Chakotay walked to what looked like a clearing he could just make out a figure standing in the middle. As he got closer he could see the color the person's hair, it was auburn and it was pulled up in a tight bun. Chakotay's heart began to beat faster and he began to move toward this person. The smell of perfume reached him and he knew who it was. "Kathryn!" he called but she didn't turn to see him, he began to run toward her now "Kathryn it's me Chakotay, Kathryn!" he was almost able to reach her. He stopped as she began to turn around, as she did the fog got so dense he could no longer see her. Groping with his hands to try and find her again he started to move to where he last saw her. "Kathryn!" he yelled as he got to the spot his hands felt the warmth of a body that was turned the other way, he spun her around and pulled her closer as she came into focus he was over come with fear. The person in front of him was Kathryn the Borg Queen. He screamed out.

Chakotay flung up to a sitting position in his bed, sweat just pouring off of him; he was breath fast and was shaking. He looked at the clock near his bed for the time and discovered it was ten in the morning. He pulled back the sheets and took a shower.

"There you are, nice to see you're finally up" Sekaya called to him

Chakotay walked down the back steps and stood over the garden his sister was working in.

"You look terrible. Bad dream?"

"Yes I did." Chakotay replied as he rubbed his hand on his face

"I know. I heard you calling her name all night in your sleep. Thankfully you were quiet enough you didn't wake the baby." Sekaya pointed to the baby in the swing close to her left side in the shade.

"He really is a beautiful baby Sekaya, I am so happy for you"

"Thank you Chakotay, I think father would have enjoyed teaching him a few of his tricks."

Chakotay went back into the house and grabbed an apple to munch on as he went for a walk in the woods around his sister's house.