Author note: Chapter three… Ah a miracle!

I would like to make clear some things. I have had a few people private message me and ask if Lucia is a demon… O_O…. I'd like to say she is a human. I know her eyes and hair are unique but that will be explained. It all ties together. Think of it as a quilt if you would. For now all you see are the threads being sewn together. But when I flip it over you will see what I hope is a beautifully pieced together work.

Next the "trigger" thing. To explain better on that… She does not change appearance. (It is not a Devil May Cry fanfiction after all and she is just a human.) The driving force behind her actions is her memory loss. Who she is now upon awakening is not the same person she was before she lost her memories.

When she has her memories back, if she ever does, she will end up changing in subtle ways. Because as she is now she is not her full self. She is missing key parts because she can't recall who she is. But she will also be growing in her new life with Auntie and I hope I can show her subtle growth clearly.

Finally I will be editing some things in chapter one. They aren't that big. The sapphire necklace will remain but its importance will be different. I find I want to go in a different path and I think it will fit nicely. Please bear with me and I promise the end result will be worth it.

As always I am more than willing to answer questions and I love hearing from readers be it through reviews or private messages!

Disclaimer: I forgot this in chapter two… I only own Lucia. MCL is an online game that is very addictive. And there is no money in a fan made story. (Drat…)

Chapter three

A week later and she wasn't being called "Little Girl" anymore. Now she was "Shooter." And she really hated basketball. The first day she had been bored to tears as the coach explained the rules to her.

The second day she had been forced to play. She was fast and could pass the ball well enough. Her agility and grace made her be able to keep the ball from the other team. That was all okay. But she couldn't shoot at all.

It didn't matter if she was close or far away. The hoop totally rejected her attempts. Her crowning moment was when she shot and it bounced off the rim and into her face. Castiel made sure she was okay which was sweet enough. It would have been better if he hadn't been cracking up the entire time.

"… I hate you." Lucia muttered crossly.

Castiel handed her the bag of ice and looked away from her swiftly.

"Stop laughing!" She snapped finally as she pressed it to her swollen face.

It had the opposite effect. He cracked up again. She couldn't say she really minded his laughter. It filled her senses and made her relax a bit more. She sighed as she reclined back against the bleachers. The club had ended and she had stayed behind to let Castiel play "doctor" on her.

The pain wasn't all that bad. It was more her pride that hurt. She felt like she should have been able to dodge the dumb thing. Something as simple as a ball was making her irritated. She hated basketball.

"Ah come on Shooter. It isn't that bad. It's just a bit swollen right now."

"If it bruises I'm going to smack a ball in your face and see how you feel."

"You can try. But since I'm bigger I think you'll find it's not so simple." Castiel chuckled.

Lucia dropped the bag from her cheek when it started to feel like a Popsicle. Castiel sat beside her and reached out with his hand. She tracked his movement and tensed. She couldn't explain why she did. But she always tensed when she felt like he was going to touch her. After that dream with her phantom toucher she was more aware of her body when Castiel was near.

He gently made contact with her swollen cheek. His fingers brushed over it before dropping to trace the curve of her jaw. It sent a shiver down her but she hid it. No way was she going to give him the satisfaction of knowing his touch affected her.

"Does it hurt?" He asked after a moment.

Lucia shrugged easily. "I think I'm more injured in my pride. It's not every day I make a fool of myself like that."

"Want me to kiss it and make it better?" He smirked.

Lucia gave him an amused look. "I don't think you can kiss someone's pride."

He hadn't meant for it to go beyond the usual. Lucia was a friend. He enjoyed the sarcasm that dripped from her words. She was a friend and nothing more. If their banter had a flirtatious edge to it then that was just their own similar thinking. It wasn't about making a move.

But when she said that he found himself looking at her lips. He started really thinking about kissing her. What it would feel like.

If Lucia was aware of his new and startling thought she didn't show it. She was glaring at something fiercely. He followed her gaze to the basketball hoop. He could see it in her eyes. She wanted revenge on a hoop of all things. He shook his head and stood again.

He snapped her from her concentration by ruffling her hair in his hand. Her eyes widened and she tried to knock his hand away. "Hey! Knock it off!" She snapped.

"Knock what off?" He grinned and overpowered her easily.

She held his hand away from her as he braced himself against the bleachers.

"Castiel I swear I'll-"

She stopped as he made a sudden lunge for her side. She jerked back and slipped a bit as she tried to stop him from making contact. She failed miserably and found him yanking her up and hefting her over his shoulder.

Lucia had to grab his shoulder to keep from falling over. She beat at his back with her fist. Suddenly his hand changed its purchase from her legs to her butt. She stiffened and snapped at him to let her go.

"What was that Shooter? You're the one who likes high places." He laughed.

"CASTIEL!" Lucia grabbed some of his hair and yanked.

"Hey now!" He snapped back. "Fine say please."

"I'll give you a bald spot." She growled.

Castiel laughed and he took her back to the bleachers. He moved her so she was standing on the first row. She had her hands rested on his shoulders and she smiled at him. She didn't seem to mind too much that his hands were against her thighs. Then again that might be because she considered him a friend.

"I win." She said suddenly. "Thanks Castiel, my pride feels much better now."

She looked so smug. It was the most relaxed he'd ever seen her. It was like nothing could ruffle her in that moment. And here he was being very conscious of the fact her skin was soft and firm. He couldn't help but tighten his grip on her slightly.

"Lucia…"

Lucia stopped smiling and looked deeply at Castiel. Very rarely did he ever call her by her actual name. She had learned to recognize that when he did he was either very angry or had something important to say. Or was making fun of her in a way he knew would annoy her.

His eyes held something different that she didn't recognize though. It sent a wave crashing over her. He looked positively animalistic. His eyes burned with something. She felt his fingers flex on her thighs before he brought them up to the curve of her hips. She watched him curiously and wondered what he was doing. His touch was so deliberate…

With a sudden yank he pulled her back to his level and had her in his arms. He was so rough about it that it suddenly clicked in her brain and made her blush. She didn't protest when he grabbed her chin and tilted her head back. Her eyes were wide as she watched him.

This was not her Castiel that she knew. This was a lustful beast and she didn't know if she liked it or not.

Before his lips made contact with hers a sharp gasp sliced into the moment. Lucia and Castiel turned to see Ken standing at the doors. Lucia moved away from Castiel and he let her slip through his fingers.

Ken was looking at her with such sorrow. "Hey Lucia… C-can I talk to you?"

"Sure… Of course Ken. Walk me home." Lucia sighed and ran her hands through her hair. "See you Castiel."

"Later…" He muttered.

When they were both gone from the gym Castiel went for a shower. What in the hell was wrong with him?

Lucia was a friend. And would never be more than that. He didn't like her as anything more. He admired her body, he could admit that but he wasn't the only one to want her under them. That geek she protected was one. But there were others. He saw the way some of his teammates eyed her as she moved.

But he wasn't going to lose her friendship over what would be a one night stand. He wasn't the relationship kind of guy anymore. Not since… He suddenly punched the wall before him before his brain could complete the thought.

Lucia was having as hard a time as him. She didn't think anything could make her feel like she had in that dream. But her skin was tingling where Castiel had held her almost painfully. She didn't love him. No way in hell. Love was stupid and it caused nothing but pain in the end. Someone was always left alone in love. She knew that with certainty. She grasped the sapphire necklace suddenly and without thought.

That dream or memory or whatever… Well if that was a memory… She really had to find out who that guy was.

"So what was it you wanted to talk about?" She asked Ken.

She needed a distraction…

"Well I wanted… To say goodbye… And give you this." From his bag he pulled out a stuffed bear with a heart t-shirt on.

She took it when he shoved it in her hands. Her brow furrowed as she looked at him in confusion.

"Wait… What are you talking about?" She asked.

He sniffed and she wondered if he was going to start crying again. She still wasn't sure really how to deal with tears. And she didn't like the wrenching feeling it caused her to see him in so much pain.

"My Dad pulled me from school. He heard about Amber and said no son of his was going to be bullied by a girl… Or let another girl fight his battles for him…"

She didn't need to be told that the second part was all her. Amber had taken great pleasure in running the rumor of her being a cruel person throughout the school. Lucia barely cared about that.

After all she had Iris, Melody, and Castiel on her side. But Amber hadn't come near her since. And as far as Lucia knew the blond had been leaving Ken alone too. Now she wasn't so sure however…

"Ken is she still bullying you?"

"NO! She just says things about how she'll get me when my guard dog isn't around. T-those are her words Lucia, not mine!" He said quickly.

"So she hasn't stopped messing with you… Ken stop it!"

He immediately stopped hopping on his feet. But his eyes still held the worry he'd insulted her.

"When do you leave?"

"… Tomorrow… I'll really, really, really miss you Lucia."

… Here was her proof love was useless. She cared for Ken as a friend. And it hurt he was leaving. But it was a bearable ache. She could live more days with just an ache. If she had returned the feelings he held so highly for her… She would not be a fool for love. Ever.

She never wanted to hurt as bad as Ken now was. Never again…

Again? She shook her head and sighed.

"Lucia I really do… Love you a lot."

"Ken…"

"No let me say this! All you see is that guy… That Castiel guy…"

Lucia crossed her arms. "I don't love Castiel." She muttered. "I don't love anyone."

"Well I'll come back… I'll come back a man and make you love me! I'm not going to cry anymore and rely on your strength. When I come back I'll have enough strength for you to lean on me instead. I promise!"

He suddenly grabbed her in a big hug. She was so surprised that she dropped the teddy he'd given to her. Everything in her told her to shove him away. She didn't want to be held in anyone's arms! Not so soon after her last upset.

Before she could push him roughly however he gave her a swift kiss. It was awkward and filled her with pity. The poor thing couldn't even kiss right… Before she could respond though he had let her go and was running away full speed.

"I'LL COME BACK A MAN FOR YOU!" He shouted over his shoulder.

Lucia watched him go and crossed her arms. What on earth had gotten into him?

She sighed and looked to the ground. She really should just leave the teddy. She had no real use for it. It would just be a useless item that collected dust and it had no practicality to it.

It had fallen onto a small patch of grass that had managed to break through the concrete. Face up. It looked so small and insignificant.

She scooped it up and held it up. A small bear to declare his love… It really was a stupid emotion…

Regardless of her thoughts she was unable to drop it back to the earth. It felt too close to abandonment. So it went on her desk when she got home. Every day she looked at it and was again split by two emotions. An urge to discard the thing and another to protect that fragile thing. She didn't even know what the fragile thing was.

School without Ken was… Quieter to put it lightly. She had collected another shy person to her somehow. A purple haired artist named Violette. She was so shy that Lucia immediately went to her aid when she saw her getting bullied near the gardens. She still didn't know why she was so violent. But she couldn't deny her instinct was to attack rather than take a peaceful road.

She and Nathaniel could finally nod at each other cordially in the halls at least. Or more like she winked and he heaved a sigh and rolled his eyes at her. And when she did step into the council room to see Melody she could chat lightly as long as she remained on neutral topics and avoided Amber talk all together. Melody was just glad they could be in the same room without the air cracking in tension.

She and Castiel had panned out. The almost kiss was never mentioned. It was as though it had never happened. Except she had become aware of him when he ran across the court during practice and he was aware of an urge to beat up the guys who flirted with her. He felt like that was his right only. And she disliked when the other female members of the club talked about him.

Both thought it was stupid emotion.

He blamed it on a growing need to get laid. She blamed the teenage hormones she had learned about in her health class.

Lucia was sitting with him on a bench in the courtyard doing her new favorite pastime. Ditching algebra class. Yes, she hated that class and the teacher and the text books and the numbers… Everything about it actually… mostly the numbers… And the equations… When would she ever have to know the exact measurements of a triangle?

"Oh yeah. Did you get everything worked out with that absentee note thing?" She asked sleepily.

Castiel looked over to her and blew out some smoke. He smoked occasionally she discovered. Iris said it was nasty but she didn't mind. The smoke didn't smell bad or anything and it was his choice in the end.

"How did you know about it?" He asked.

She gave him a droll stare. "You seriously have to ask? Do you know who our President is? I'll have to introduce you to him sometime."

"Very funny Miss Sarcastic." He glared at her.

"You love my sarcasm. Anyway I know because it should be personal information… So naturally the whole student body knows."

"Why am I not surprised?" He grinned.

"Cause you're too cool to be surprised." She teased.

He laughed out loud. "You finally understand!"

"Anyway… Hey isn't that a dog?" She asked and pointed.

He followed her finger and looked at the small thing. Oh terrific… The principal had lost her yappy mutt.

"Ah no. That is a cat." He said with a smirk.

"Oh… Wait, what?" She looked at him "… Oh, ha, ha. Not funny."

The little dog must have heard them because he looked up at them. Lucia had to admit it had a cute face. It looked like a fluffy pillow. Lucia had been nibbling a sandwich. She got down on her knees and held it out.

"Here puppy… C'mon it's a crummy cafeteria tuna sandwich, you know you want it…"

"You make it sound so appealing." Castiel rolled his eyes.

"It's a dog so I don't think it can understand me." Lucia retorted.

Castiel shrugged. "Anyway I've been meaning to ask you something."

The dog crept cautiously to her. When it was close enough to take the sandwich from her she pulled it to her and cradled it in her arms. It didn't yelp as she climbed back onto the bench and let it eat the food from her hand.

"Hey earth to shooter!"

"What? You wanted to feed it?" She asked.

"Yeah right! I hate yappy little dogs like that."

"And here I had you pegged as a dog person." She rolled her eyes.

"Bingo. But I don't like small ones. I actually have a Belgium Shepard."

Lucia made a small noise in the back of her throat as she read the collar.

She grinned suddenly. "Oh is its name Kiki too?"

"Actually the names Demon." Castiel grinned as she gave him a look of disbelief. "You scared?"

"Oh, petrified!" She laughed.

"Well that was what I had in mind. But he isn't mean."

"You named your dog with the thought of scaring me? I feel so secure in our friendship, really." She murmured.

Castiel pushed her gently. She laughed and smacked his hand away. "You know what I meant.' He said and ruffled her hair.

"Yes but if I don't take the hits I can't win." Lucia said with a small smile.

"You are insane." He muttered. "Anyway I wanted to ask you a question Shooter."

"Shoot." She said as she stroked Kiki.

"Are you anorexic or something?"

'What do you mean?"

Castiel recalled her memory loss then. She probably wouldn't remember if she had been.

"I'm asking if you have an eating issue. I've known you for a bit now. But you never eat at lunch and when you do get something from the vending machine you nibble it before giving it away or throwing it out."

Lucia thought about it. "No I don't think so. Auntie makes me eat before I leave the house. And she buys me this really good pudding that I really like eating. And lots of fruit. Grapes especially."

Castiel felt something relax inside of him. "So you do eat then? You just don't like junk food…"

"I don't like the school food. It tastes old… But I eat when I get hungry. Auntie says I just don't have much of a hunger impulse."

"KIKI!"

Lucia jumped at the shrill voice from around the corner. Castiel swore and quickly put out the cigarette and tossed it away from the bench. From around the corner came a very agitated Principal.

They were so busted…

But instead of being mad she grabbed the small dog and thanked them for capturing him for her.

"Um. Yeah sure… No problem. Glad to help… Really…" Lucia muttered.

Castiel jabbed her in the side as she rambled. They both watched as the Principal went on a rant about how the dog was always running around. With a name like Kiki though Lucia didn't blame the thing. It was a boy dog so of course that name didn't suit it. Though it fit better than Demon…

Suddenly she realized she and Castiel were alone again. She turned to see him reclining in the bench with his legs stretched in front of him. His arms were draped casually on the back.

"Did she really not comment on the fact we aren't in class?"

He shrugged and smiled. "Nothing surprises me about that lady and her dog anymore. She probably didn't even realize. And by the time she does it won't matter really. Detention isn't that big a deal."

"I always slept during mine…"

"Big surprise Shooter. You're always sleeping."

"Am not!"

"Yes you are. You sleep during class and a few times you've dosed off in lunch. Oh and lets not forget you hiding in the bleachers from the coach and you falling asleep."

"In my defense I hadn't gotten much sleep the night before that." It was true. That nightmare pain had flashed through her every time she tried to sleep. It was getting worse.

"Ah ha, the girl who sleeps every chance she gets didn't get enough sleep. Why does that make no sense?"

"Oh shut up."

Castiel lifted an arm to the shoulder she punched. "Ow." He said sarcastically.

Suddenly she yawned and stretched. "See you're about to sleep here!"

"Well you do look comfy." She joked. "Maybe I'll make you my new personal pillow. I don't think Iris minds when I sleep on her shoulder but I'm always worried if she moves I'll fall and die."

Castiel shook his head. "You make no sense Shooter. Anyway come on."

She watched as he stood. She cocked her head to the side. "Come where?"

"I'm leaving. It's not like anything important is going on today so there isn't any point in sticking around."

"You're such a delinquent." She laughed.

"Says the girl who hasn't been to a single algebra class since her first one." He returned and yanked her up.

"Oh fine, fine… And I've gone to it twice."

"It makes such a difference." He scoffed.

He took her to his apartment. As soon as he stepped through the door a massive dog leapt from the couch and went up on its hind legs. It placed massive paws on his chest.

Lucia had never seen such an expression on his face. He smiled widely and his eyes were filled with warmth. His whole demeanor was more relaxed than she'd seen. She was reminded of a kid at a candy store. He looked that happy.

While he pet the dog that she assumed was Demon she looked around. It had nice furniture but it was pretty bare. An electric guitar and case were set up in a corner with an amp. A TV sat up on a stand. A couch and a coffee table were a little away from it.

The kitchen wasn't far. Unlike in her apartment there didn't seem to be a table to sit and eat. It was pretty apparent to her that people weren't lying when they said Castiel lived alone.

… Mostly alone, she corrected when Demon finally turned to look at her. He growled a bit and she held his gaze. She wondered if she was about to get attacked. But the dog just sniffed her hand before barking. Suddenly he lunged and nearly knocked her to the floor. He clawed at her to try and get her low enough to lick.

"Shoot!" She cursed as she stumbled into the wall at an odd angle.

"Demon get down!" Castiel suddenly ordered.

Demon sat back on his haunches and then ran back to a bed that was beside the couch. He returned with a rope thing. He sat down and dropped it before her. He seemed so proud of himself as he picked it back up before tossing it into the air and catching it.

Lucia had no idea what the dog was doing.

"He wants you to play tug of war with him." Castiel came to the rescue. "Want a soda?"

"Sure, thanks."

Lucia reached down and grasped the toy. She was prepared to jump away if the dog started to attack. When he growled she dropped the toy and looked at Castiel. He was laughing at her as Demon nudged her reproachfully.

"I am not taking that toy from him. He sounds like he'll kill me if I do." Lucia said with a small glare. "I like breathing."

"You obviously haven't had much contact with dogs. C'mere Demon." Castiel snapped his fingers after he set two cans of coke on the table.

Demon took the toy over to his master. As soon as Castiel took an end of the toy the dog lowered itself and began pulling. It snarled violently as it shook its massive head around to try and jerk it from Castiel. She couldn't help but admire the muscles that bulged from his shoulders as he played with the dog.

"See Shooter? It's just how he plays." Castiel told her.

Lucia snapped her eyes up to look at him. She felt embarrassed to have been caught staring at him. He had removed his jacket and she could see just how fit he really was.

Normally she saw him with the jacket on. Or in his team uniform but that was a loose shirt that hid the muscles of his chest.

"Cop a seat Shooter." Castiel told her.

She went around the table and sat beside him. She crossed her legs. Demon dropped the toy and launched over Castiel as soon as he saw the chance. Lucia found her arms full of dog and her face under attack. The wet tongue rasped over her cheek as she pushed herself into the couch to try and avoid it.

Castiel laughed as he watched the scene before him. Lucia was laughing even as she tried vainly to push Demon from her. It went through him. Normally she laughed, yeah. But he felt like this time her guard was completely down and she was perfectly at ease even with Demon so close. As for Demon his tail was waging a mile a minute as he went on his licking spree.

"Castiel seriously!" She finally yelled at him.

Castiel laughed again. "Enough Demon."

The dog leaped from the couch and retreated over to an armchair that looked chewed up. It was very obviously his spot. A ball and a chewed up Frisbee were on it.

Lucia sat back up and wiped her cheek clean with her sleeve. "Ew I'm covered in slobber!"

"Hey it means he likes you Shooter." He responded easily, completely at ease in his home.

With some ease they talked together. Neither was fully comfortable though. They were both aware of the fact they were alone together. And that there was a bed in the other room. That they were on a comfy enough couch. Both were aware of the marked differences in their words from how they were at school.

It was a fine line they both walked in their minds. The need to stay in a safe and friendly zone with each other. A zone that they knew how to navigate. They kept flirting together and pushing each other around. It was normal for them. But now was the distinct knowledge they were trying to push the other to break first.

Both weren't dumb enough to think their lust equaled love. Both would never fall in love. Castiel had been colored skeptical of the very word. Lucia knew that somewhere in her past she'd been crushed by that emotion and was determined to never be so again.

Castiel just knew it had been awhile since he'd been intimate with a girl. And Lucia knew that she liked the sensations he caused and wondered if there was more.

When he found himself staring at her lips again and her at his hands he suggested they go for a walk. She quickly agreed and they took Demon. The dog was more than eager and hardly aware of the undercurrent between his Master and the girl he'd brought home.

Castiel let her hold the leash for a moment. Demon sensed the new laxity in the hold but for a moment he ignored it. He was a well trained and good boy after all. It was going great until he saw the cat. Then he growled fiercely and Lucia could detect the difference in his playful growl and the real snarl. Before Castiel could take the leash however the dog lunged.

Lucia wasn't prepared for it. She held on for a moment and found herself being dragged as the dog tried to jerk away, snarling and barking with every inch he achieved. After a particular violent tug she stumbled and would have face planted if Castiel hadn't grabbed both her and the leash in his strong grip.

"DEMON DROP!" He snapped.

The Dog paused in mid lunge and then dropped low to the ground, his belly pushed into the ground. He whined and his tail wagged in apology.

"Stay still." Castiel ordered with a sigh. "You okay?"

"Yeah. Well that was an interesting trip. He about tore my arm out of my socket."

"Sorry about that. He normally isn't so aggressive but him and cats don't get along."

"I held on." Lucia shrugged. "Really though? He hates cats just like his owner."

"Yeah he does. Probably more than me actually."

They went back to the apartment. Demon curled up on her lap as she sat down to rest her sore arms. She absently caressed his ears in her hand. Castiel put in some movie about a house filled with ghosts that said house had eaten. She didn't find it scary. In fact she and Castiel had a grand time picking out the bad special affects and little oddities that appeared.

He gave her a look when she pointed out the fact that a music box had moved to complete different sides between shots. He couldn't believe she had caught something so small.

During the last hour she found her eyes growing heavy. She had no energy left it seemed. She found that she had cuddled against Castiel. Her head was against his shoulder. He didn't seem to mind. His arm had come around her shoulder.

She didn't want to sleep though. The dreams were there in the dark. They had been chasing her sleep for the past few nights.

"I'm so sorry that I exist." She murmured.

"Ah…"

She could make out the face this time. It was not her phantom lover. It was the man with the sad eyes. The one she had hurt so badly somehow. She knew she had hurt him; she had done something so terrible.

"It would have been so much better if I'd never been born. Then none of this would have happened. He wouldn't have done what he did. And I… I'm a monster just like you said before. I can't be allowed… If my control is so bad…"

"… So you… Do understand then why I…" He murmured.

His hand reached out to touch her. Before he made contact she flinched away. She pushed herself against the wall and curled in on herself both mentally and physically.

"Lucia…" He dropped his hand. "Why don't you try to run? You don't even struggle when the others are rough with you…"

"There isn't any point. He was all… And I don't have anything left to run for. Even if I did I can't keep it up forever. I'm not that strong. I can do a little sure but… Not enough to stay alive. And if I ever… Did something again then I…"

"Lucia…"

"I hate myself so much anymore… I really, truly, regret even living."

"… Ah…"

He left her alone.

She heard his voice right outside her door however. He talked to someone. This new man had a voice of ice. As though he didn't know how to be anything but cold and cruel.

"You can't be regretting what you did now son."

"No…"

"She is a menace. Her kind isn't meant to be alive. It's mercy to put them down like this." The voice sent a chill down her. She feared that voice so badly…

"But she isn't… the reason she did what she did… We were the cause of her recent actions…"

"So you want to just let her go? Can you forgive what she took from us all, especially you?!"

The sound of fading foot steps. She thought they were both gone. Then she heard a sigh that wrenched her apart.

"Lucia… Just be a monster… So I can understand again."

It was very warm… She moaned a bit and snuggled closer to the source of it. It was like being held in a warm bubble. The weight of it had settled around her stomach.

Sleepily she opened her eyes a bit. She could slightly make out another body. Messy red hair… Instead of seeing Castiel she saw the bleary outline of someone else. With a small sigh she snuggled even closer and her eyes drifted shut again.

End chapter three

Author note: So, finished for now. This chapter was more me wanting to show the growth between Castiel and Lucia. I am currently waiting to gather up enough AP to go through episode 5 in one full swoop.

Also I wanted to soften her up a bit. Like with Ken. She wants to reject him but she isn't cruel to the core and therefore she can't ignore him. I also kept Amber out of this chapter because when they meet… Bad things happen. So let's just think that Amber is on vacation.

Don't worry she will still be confrontational and emotionally unstable about certain things.

Now a question for anyone who wants to be super nice. The way I have her regaining her memories, with the dreams and random sentences in her head… Is it too confusing? Or does that make the story better to do it like that?

I like to think of it like she is trying to fit together a puzzle but she doesn't have all the pieces so it can't be finished. And eventually she will be on the active chase for her memories…

Also I am thinking on renaming this "Awakening" since I can't seem to stop naming my chapters that... I'd adore some feedback on the name.

Well as always I hope you enjoyed and… Be kind and leave a review of whether you liked or hated it!