A/N so I've been sent to a lot of psychiatrists. THEY ARE ALL CRAP. They make you talk about your problems, than say 'That must be horrible' then your like 'I already know its horrible!' Then you leave feeling more horrible than when you came in.
I would have to say, the WORST psychi I have ever been to was the one that said. "Anything you want to say" I would go "Nup" Then she sat there, thinking for an hour.
For an hour, I sat there, watching her think. Than when I asked if I could go, she got cryptic "See if I said yes, it wouldn't really help you, and I don't think it would do any good if you left early, but if I said no you would stay here, being deprived of your free will, but I think you should stay. Personally. It'll be better for your soul."
I sat there staring at her. PEOPLE, refuse to see PREGNANT psychi's!!
I found it better when I was swearing at them in my head, and thinking up some great ways for them to die, or just get lost laughs
I may refer to them as Phschi's, because in real life I do that.
Denial DepressionChapter 3: Insomnia/ Dealing with Phsychi's
Lily POV
It's been a long day, my mum walked me to school today. Their were actually security guards!! At all the exits and entrances to the school. I, for one actually had to go to classes! There was always someone with me!
I was home now, it was 3 am, I hadn't slept. I didn't feel tired at all. I just lay there emotionless on my bed, staring at the ceilings. Every now and then I would look at my alarm clock by the bedside table. The darkness in my room surprisingly felt comforting, I always liked the dark.
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4 am,
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5 am
I JUST COULDN'T SLEEP!
I sighed, turning to my side.
Sleep,
It was the only thing one my mind.
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3rd person POV
With Jonas Brothers. . .
Nick slept restlessly in his bed. It was 11:30 am. His brothers stood there watching him in the doorway.
"Are you sure?" Joe asked Kevin, below a whisper.
"We have to help him" Kevin whispered back. Joe slightly nodded, not taking his eye's off his sleeping brother.
"Nick wake up!" Kevin said loudly-ish.
Nick groaned, turning to his side so his back was now facing his brothers'. "Get up Nick, we are taking you to see a Psychiatrist"
That finally got Nick's attention. He sat up looking up as his brothers in disbelieve.
"There is no way you will get me to see, one of those…. THINGS!!"
"You are seeing one!" Joe said insistently.
"Whether you want to or not!" Kevin finished.
Nick only groaned. There was no way he was going. They can't make him go.
"I'm not going" Nick said stubbornly, laying back down on his bed and getting comfortable again, he pulled his blanket over his body.
"Now either get up and go yourself, or we will drag you!"
Nick turned back to look at his brothers, his eyes were filled with disbelief and hatred.
Kevin pulled the blanket of his brother.
"You're already wearing your clothes" Nick had fallen asleep in his clothes last night…
"So you're going…now!"
Before Nick could do anything, Joe had pulled Nick's hands behind his back and was holding him so there was no chance he could run.
Nick struggled. He tried to break free, but Joe was holding him tightly. Kevin had the door open and Joe, (with Nick still locked up in his arms) led them through the door.
A few swear words escaped Nick's lips as he tried hard to break free from his brother's tight grip.
"Dammit Nick, stop struggling so much" Joe groaned.
"You're not the one being taken against his will!" Nick said through gritted teeth.
"We are helping you!"
"I DON'T NEED HELP" Nick tried to make another break for it, but was held back by Joe. "LET GO OFF ME!"
Did his brothers think he was crazy? He just couldn't believe they were making him do this!!
They had gone round the back, this was NOT something they wanted the press to have a picture off. Joe forced Nick into the car, and Kevin got in the front and drove off, ignoring Nick's screams.
Nick was pacing around the room. The psychie just watched him. Nick was so frustrated by the silence. "Say something!" he screamed angrily. What was the point of her just sitting there?!
"Ok Nick, how is everything?" She asked. Nick stared at her like she was crazy.
"You would know, if it was good, my brothers would not have dragged me here!"
She nodded, writing something on her clip board. "I agree that was very unfair of them, but I'm glad you came" she slightly smiled showing her teeth.
Nick threw his head back annoyed, he was still pacing. "Glad I came" Nick repeated to himself, mocking her. "It's like they don't even notice I have feelings!"
"Is it really your brothers that make you mad?" she asked, then Nick finally noticed her smile for fully of pity.
"YES! …no…well, It's the fame! It's too much, especially those teen girls! They don't respect that I am not just some guy out of a magazine, but now that's it, that's all I am"
"Nick, there is nothing wrong with people you don't know thinking that."
"BUT THERE IS!" He stopped pacing for a second, than started again. "I'M GOING TO END UP IN SOME MAGAZINE WITH PARIS HILTON OR SOMETHING"
"Whoa now, I have talked to Paris, that's not her! That's just what the press tells you" She pushed back her glasses.
"See, what they say makes people believe it! I bet they think I'm on drugs and having sex with Lily!" he yelled.
"So, it doesn't matter. The people you know and trust won't believe it, why do you care what others think? They don't even know the real you."
"It's just….I just…."Nick struggled for words. "I don't want people thinking that about me" he finished, a little calmer.
"So is there anything good happening?"
Nick stopped pacing, his heart stopped for a second. "Yes…Lily, I met her one time when I ran out of the Camp Rock set"
Nick paused looking at the phsychi. "We have so much in common, I really like her. But after we got attacked by the media I don't think she will ever want to see me again. She was telling me that she didn't want any form of attention. And being famous is the biggest form of attention you could get!"
He took a deep breath in. "Now she's gonna be in all the magazines as Nick J's GF"
Nick leaned against the back wall in the corner and slid down into a sitting position.
"Nick you can't give up on her" She comfort.
"I know I can't. . . I love her" he whispered as a small tear drop rolled down his cheek.
A/N awww…im sorry this is a terrible chapter.
And also eep. Whoa now …such a fun phrase. seriously say it to yourself.
Please tell me if my A/N's ruin the mood of the chapter.
Des xx
ps. sorry for the long wait, but I sorta do this thing where I don't update till the next chapter is written. Then I'm like not feeling depressed enough to write it or have homework of something like that.