She walked into the kitchen to find Emily making coffee and a lavish breakfast on the table, which Eddie took as bribery. She walked over, poured a cup of coffee, and sat at the island, snatching a piece of bacon and looking at her anxious granddaughter. Part of her wanted to hold off on the story for a little while but she remembered the reason she started the story in the first place so she set her mug of coffee down and began.

"Before I start again do you have any questions?" A smile shot across Emily's face as she walked to the counter and grabbed notebook that she had ready. Eddie was not surprise at her granddaughter being prepared so as Emily flipped to the page she had written her questions on, Eddie tried to prepare to answer.

"Okay, first question is if you moved to a different precinct why didn't you just date?"

"Well I was with your grandfather."

"Fair but I mean you were young and obviously I am happy you were with grandpa because I wouldn't be here but why didn't you go with Jamie you both liked each other."

"It was complicated; like I told you before he was the PC's son, his brother a detective and sister a DA every move he made was watched under great scrutiny."

"Okay fair, also; why his brother's precinct," Emily asked.

"I didn't have a choice though in my mind I had hoped it would be Danny's precinct, close to Jamie in some way."

"Final question, what happened next?" Emily supported her head on the heels of her hands, resting her elbows on the table.

"Okay so this next part is complicated and I know some of it may make you think the worst of me but please try to understand." Emily looked unsure but she nodded.

"Okay, so it had been four months since I had seen or spoken to Jamie, I hadn't even really made contact with his brother who was upstairs the whole time." She thought back to it. "I had pushed the feelings back and moved on with a new partner who was wonderful and a whole new set of friends. I had distanced myself and I was proud until there was a scare at the 12th precinct.

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It was a sweltering hot August night when it happened, Eddie and her partner Alex Sanders had just gotten back to the 54th when they saw a few of the officers run past them not even bothering to excuse themselves. Eddie looked at Alex in confusion and his expression matched hers so he grabbed hold of another officer's hand and asked.

"Selena, what's going on?" Charlotte Aplin looked at him shocked that neither of them knew.

"You haven't heard, an officer at the 12 was shot and killed by a gang member resisting arrest and in response his partner killed the perp but the other bangers started a riot near the 12, big gun fight, they called for backup." She resumed her run as soon as Alex let go of her hand in shock. Eddie could feel her heart drop; fear consumed her as she wondered whom it could have been but the worst-case scenario ran through her head that it was Jamie.

"You worked out of the 12th, you should try to get a hold of your old partner, I'll see if we can go and help." Alex ran to the Sergeant as Eddie fumbled to get her phone out. With shaky fingers, she dialed Jamie but she got his voicemail, she didn't realize how much she missed his voice until that moment. She tried again getting the same result, she could feel herself begin to panic and that is when she heard the booming voice, it was a distinct one, she had heard it some many times and that was the person who would have the answer she needed. She turned around and scanned the crowd before she spotted Danny Reagan and his partner, he had his phone to his ear and was barking something into it but then he saw her and hung up.

"Danny, is it him," She said fearing the answer.

"I don't know, they don't know who it is, they are still trying to control the riot." His voice sounded different; as if fear was etched into it then again of course, he was afraid.

"Danny, we gotta go," Baez yelled, her eyes held sympathy in them along with fear.

"Listen, he has to be alright, I mean I'm sure he is going to be okay, you will find out soon who it was, I gotta go Eddie, I'm sorry." She nodded, trying to push back the burning tears on her eyes as Danny and Maria ran out of the precinct just as Alex returned.

"Sarge said that we have to stay here, there are already too many cops here and we have to handle the phones, did you hear from anything from your partner?"

"No," She responded in defeat.

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She nodded off slightly as she sat on the cold linoleum floor, it was 1:00 am and she had been waiting for over three hours. Her fear had drained her and she had even cried in private in the break room, all of this overwhelming her as she waited for anything and it had finally come when her Sergeant came out of his office and notified them that it was Officer Darren Hamlin who had been killed in the line of duty. Eddie knew Darren, her and Jamie had gone out drinking with him and his partner once in a while, he was a great man but now he was gone leaving behind a wife and a son to pick up the pieces. Fourteen other officer's had been injured, one of them being Renzulli but none of them critical and all expected to make full recoveries.

"Eddie?" She shot up and looked Jamie who looked tired and beaten up but he was there alive and shocked at her presents at his apartment. She burst in to tears and ran into him wrapping her arms around him as she sobbed into his shoulder. She could feel him hesitate before he finally wrapped his arms around her and rub her back.

"I thought it was you," She sobbed."

"No I'm fine, I'm okay, it's alright," He reassured her, pulling her away and looking at her with kindness in his eyes.

"No, it's not Jamie, I missed you and I pushed you away," She wiped her eyes with her arm.

"Come on Eddie, come inside, I'll get you some tissues and you can sit." He unlocked the door to his apartment and guided her to the couch, seating her there as he walked into the kitchen and then returned to the couch with a glass of water.

"Feeling better?" He asked handing her the glass; she nodded and took small sips. "Listen Eddie, you had every right to leave, what there was between us was getting too complicated and we couldn't keep pretending."

"I should have called," She said setting the glass on the coaster.

"The phone works both ways Janko, I could have called you too but we needed space that's all, we just needed to get over the feelings."

"I thought I did but then this happened, then I thought about how awful it was that we ended it the way we did and how much I cared about you."

"You're still with Alex though Eddie and you're happy, I know it."

"You're keeping tabs on me?"

"You work with Danny, you don't think he has been giving me updates, I ask about you all the time," He admitted.

"I know but I can't keep you out of my mind, Jamie I really do care for you, it has been driving me insane not talking to you because honestly I trust you with everything." His phone buzzed and he looked at it, hiding it from her.

"Who is that?" She asked curiously, he sighed and put the phone down on his lap.

"I'm seeing someone, her name is Bea Kinsley," She smiled a little.

"I'm glad you are seeing someone Jamie, you needed to listen I have to go."

"Eddie wait," He jumped up and ran off after her. She pressed the elevator button vigorously as a tear slid down her cheek, but he caught up and pulled her close and kissed her, a soft tender kiss the one she had yearned for and for a moment she kissed back falling into him but she stopped and broke away.

"We can't do this Jamie, not anymore, this is the reason we stopped being partners, we agreed it was too messy."

"I know but I can't let you leave again, Eddie, I regretted letting you walk away and I may be with Bea but I think of you too."

"It's not fair to Bea or Eric not even you and me, I just need to know you weren't hurt."

"That's not the only reason why Eddie."

"I know but what are we supposed to do?" She looked at him as they stood in silence and she felt the emotions roll through her, it was to much as she leaned over and kissed him again there was no way around it she was in love with him, and she couldn't fight love.

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"You cheated on Grandpa?" Emily said in shock, Eddie felt terrible but it was part of the story and Emily had insisted on hearing it. She knew that Emily thought a little less of her but it was the truth.

"Yes, I did and I know what you are thinking, but I told your Grandfather about it and obviously we worked it out, it was a horrible thing to do but I was in love with Jamie too and I couldn't fight my feelings."

"I'm going to push past this right now, I mean if Grandpa forgave you I forgive you plus I want to hear the rest of the story.

"Okay well it will have to wait because I know for a fact that you planned a study group plus you need to call your boyfriend."

"I cant call Jake, he probably still hates me."

"You need to try and then I will resume the story tonight, deal."

"Deal," Emily sighed.

"Good now go get ready and I will drop you off at the library."