Hold Me Till I Die

Chap 03

The afternoon passed uneventful. After a quick and light lunch at home, Jane and Maura went out to do some errands and purchase the groceries for dinner. Maura insisted to prepare something to eat, not knowing if Angela would have come to Beacon Hill and prepare dinner like she always did in the past. Sure, she could have just asked Jane but Angela was a topic that Maura wasn't eager to bring up with her friend. She knew that Jane was already nervous.

They were silent for most of the afternoon. Too wrapped in their own thoughts stirred up by their morning exchange. But it wasn't an unpleasant or embarrassing silence. No, it was nice and comforting. They both were thinking about what happened in the morning. Jane wanted to talk to Maura about it, she wanted to tell her that she loved her too but… She didn't want to talk about this before this dinner. Her nerves were already on the edge. And Maura… well, Maura wanted to reassure Jane about everything, especially for the "You should hate me" part that Jane told her that morning, but she understood that now wasn't the time to do it.

Maura sighed and began to take care of the groceries while Jane took off her coat and shoes and hung up Joe Friday's leash near the front door. She'd just came back after taking care of her dog.

"What do you want for dinner?"

"Pizza!" Jane immediately answered. She washed her hands and filled the tea-maker. Maura loved to have a cup of green tea in the late afternoon so she was going to make it for her.

"We're not going to order pizza for dinner, Jane."

"Pizza makes everybody happy. Pizza makes me happy." She knew exactly what button needed to be pushed to win this argument with Maura. Next step: whine like a child.

"I don't think your mother is going to be happy. What about lasagna…"

Jane stomped her foot in protest and Maura turn to face her, head tilted to one side and one eyebrow raised. Jane noticed that Joe Friday was doing the same, instead of the eyebrow she raised one ear, of course.

"Ok… you two are scaring me." Jane nodded and squinted her eyes to Joe Friday and then to Maura. The word "adorable" crossed her mind but this time she kept her mouth shout. "What if…"

"You know that I don't like what ifs…"

"Oh, for the love of Pete, Maura, just…" She sighed and laughed. "I was going to say… What if we make it? Y'know, home-made pizza? I'll help you. Please, Maura! I really want pizza." She pouted too.

Maura bit her bottom lip. She really wanted to make a good impression with Angela after all these months in which they didn't see each other - only quick glances at the BPD cafeteria. But if pizza was going to make Jane happy… well, Jane was her priority and so was her happiness.

"You're impossible." Maura answered shaking her head and laughing quietly.

"I know!" Jane exclaimed, knowing that she won this silly argument. She handed the mug with the hot tea to Maura with a soft and sweet smile.

Maura took a sip and then began to choose the ingredients to make pizza. She washed her hands and casted a glance at Jane who was plugging her iPod into the dock station. She tapped play and went to the fridge to grab a beer.

"Can I help you?"

"Yes, take care of the topping."

"What kind of topping?"

"Whatever you want." Jane raised an eyebrow and looked skeptical at Maura.

"Really?"

"Yes, Jane, really." Maura laughed and rolled her eyes at Jane who pretended to be offended in a super obviously kidding way. She stood behind Maura and hit her friend's face with a handful of flour.

"JANE!" The ME tried to do the same with Jane. Jane's arms were hugging Maura's waist so tight that she could barely move. Jane was laughing and Maura took advantage of it: she turned in Jane's arms, facing her.

This made Jane stop laughing. The detective felt her heart thumping in her throat. Maura was looking at her with a spark in her hazel eyes and a huge smile.

She's so beautiful, Jane thought to herself.

"Jane?" This time, Maura's voice was confused but also inviting. Jane licked her lips and acted in a very Jane Rizzoli's way: without thinking about the consequences of her actions. She crashed her lips to Maura's and kissed her bestfriend. When Maura began to kiss her back, Jane's world came undone and she was falling hard for Maura - if it was even possible. With her head spinning, Jane tightened her arms around Maura's waist and pulled back from the kiss, needing air. Maura's eyes were still closed and her mouth slightly open. The detective couldn't resist and kissed the blonde again.

"See? You weren't scared when I sneaked behind you!" Jane hid herself behind humor, afraid of Maura's reaction.

"Only because I heard you. You were stomping." Maura deadpanned.

"I do not… A joke? Really? Are you making joke now?" The brunette's eyes were wide with disbelief and Maura laughed, leaning in to kiss her again. But everything stopped when Angela Rizzoli came into the house. Jane stiffed.

"You can't come inside like this! This is not your house, for fuck's sake!" She barked to her mother.

"Language, Jane." Maura muttered and after Jane's glance toward her, she muttered under her breath: "Sorry."

"Ma…" Frankie called her mother to stir a reaction from her, but Angela kept looking at Jane and Maura in shock. Frankie glanced at the two of them too and winked at Maura who couldn't stop her cheeks from blushing.

Angela then shook her head and went to the kitchen counter to place her groceries. "Maura, I thought I could use your kitchen to prepare dinner…" Angela spoke ignoring her daughter.

"Sure, Angela. We were making pizza, but…" Maura smiled timidly. "I'm going to change my clothes." She nodded to no one in particular and then whispered to Jane "Be nice." She wanted to kiss Jane again, but went to her bedroom instead.

Jane sensed that her mother needed time to process what she saw. Hell, she needed it too.

"Beer, Frankie?"

"God, yes, please." Frankie took this opportunity to go to Jane and kiss her cheek. Jane handed a beer to her brother and took a deep breath. "I'll give you two some privacy. Don't worry, Janie." Frankie smiled and sat on the couch in Maura's living room.

Finally they acknowledge their feelings, he thought and took a sip of Blue Moon.

AN: just a curiosity: They were listening "Hold Back The River". I thought it was perfect for their first kiss.

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