Hey guys and gals sorry for the wait. i got major writers block then we had a huge test to take at school then my sister was being a hog with the computer. but anyway i am realli sorry for the wait. say no more heres chapter 3. enjoy.

Chapter 3 - Decisions

"Bells, you want me to come with you?" Angela asked. I just squeezed her hand because I couldn't work up the courage to say the words aloud. We slowly got up and walked towards the nurse hand in hand. I wonder what everyone else is thinking about that. I didn't really care at the moment. As we got closer to the nurse she gave us a small smile and led us into a small check up room. She told me to take a seat on the hospital bed and wait for the doctor to come in. Angela stood by my side. I looked around to take in my surroundings. The bed was placed in the middle of the room. There were various next to and behind the bed. There was a cabinet full of medicine, gloves and to my disliking needles.

We sat there in silence as we waited for the doctor to come in. During those silent minutes I began thinking about my future. About how in just under a year my life would be changed so dramatically. In just under a year I would give birth to a baby. I was against abortion one hundred percent. To me that was just like murder. I couldn't murder anyone. Especially the child I had created. I wasn't to sure about adoption though. I would love for my child to have everything I couldn't give him. I would love to know that he would be loved and taken care of but there was a part of me that felt like I would need him close to me. Like I wouldn't be able to live without him. Part of me felt like I would be ok. I would be able to take care of him and raise him myself.

Just then the doctor came in interrupting my thoughts. I felt myself start to shake with nervousness as he flipped through his clipboard and took a seat next to the bed I was lying in. "So Isabella. You think your pregnant do you?" the doctor said putting his clipboard down in his lap. "Um… yeah. Call me Bella please." I told him. "Call me Dr. Morris then." he said with a slight chuckle. He was a friendly guy. Easy to get along with and talk to. He had chestnut brown hair and dark gray eyes. "So Bella, ill just start by asking you a few questions and then ill do an ultrasound to make sure that you are indeed pregnant and figure out how far along you are. Then if needed ill prescribe you some prenatal vitamins and you can go home. Kay. That sound good?" he finished up with a small smile on his face.

"Don't you have to take blood to?" Angela asked. I flashed a worried glance at her. She knew I hated blood. "Would you like me to take blood?" he said with the same funny grin as before. "NO." I screamed to fast. "No blood. Please. No blood." I said feeling my insides turn. He just looked at me and laughed. "Don't worry Bella. I can be able to tell if your pregnant by just taking the ultrasound. Although you should know, there will be blood in the future. Most likely at your next check up im afraid. Sorry to break it to ya hon." he said with another laugh. Oh great. Blood. I was positive I was going to pass out when that happened.

"Ok Bella, lets start with the questions. When was the last time you had sex?" "About two months ago." I said hesitantly. He wrote it down. "When was the last time you had your menstrual cycle?" "About two months ago." I answered. He wrote it down. "Do you smoke, drink?" "No" I said. He wrote it down. "Have you been experiencing any nausea, headaches, tiredness?" "Three out of three." I said. He wrote it down. He closed his clipboard and pulled one of the machines towards him. "May you lift your shirt for me please Miss Swan." he said playing with the buttons on the machine. I did as I was told. " The gel is gonna be a little cold against your skin ok." I just nodded my head. I was filled with fear now. I could feel my heartbeat accelerate.

When he put the gel on my stomach I cringed because of how cold it was. He put the little monitor thingy on my stomach and began moving it around. I was surprised they couldn't hear my heart beating because I was afraid it was gonna jump out of my chest. He didn't say anything for a while. Just stood there looking at the monitor and playing with more buttons. I was getting anxious. I could tell Angela was to because she was impatiently tapping her foot at my side. I guess he found what he was looking for because he turned to us and said "Miss Swan, id like you to meet your baby." I stared wordlessly at the monitor screen. It didn't look like a baby just yet. It just looked like a circle from where I sat. but of course I didn't know how to read these things. I was in shock. I couldn't believe there was a baby in there. I couldn't believe I could see it.

My heart rate hitched again and I could feel the silent tears running down my cheeks. I looked up at Angela. She was crying too. I grabbed hold of her had and she squeezed mine. The doctor moved the monitor thingy around again and said "There's its heart beating." I looked back at the monitor screen. There in the middle of the little circle was a moving figure. It went up and down rhythmically. I felt the tears over come me as they slid down my face faster. I couldn't take my eyes off the monitor screen. It was like my whole life evolved around that machine. And the odd thing was that it did. "Would you like to hear the heartbeat Bella?" Dr. Morris asked. I just nodded my head. I couldn't control the muscles to my mouth just yet. He pushed another button on the machine. It was then that my whole life started to get a whole lot clearer. I heard the sound of my baby's heart beating. It was one of the most angelic sounds I have ever heard.

I began breaking down in sobs as the doctor pushed another button. He wiped the gel off my stomach and told me he'd give me some time to process this and he'd be back in about ten minutes with my prescription. As soon as he walked out the door the sobs erupted from my chest. Angela pulled me into a back breaking hug. She was sobbing to. My left hand drifted its way to my stomach. I couldn't believe there was a human being in there. I couldn't believe I had given a life. It all seemed surreal. The doctor came through the door holding two pieces of paper. I pulled away from Angela but kept my hand rested on my stomach. I lay back in the hospital bed. My eyes were close to red and puffy because of all the crying.

The doctor walked up to me and handed me one of the papers. "This is the prescription to your prenatal vitamins. Get these filled right away. Take one every morning at breakfast ok." he said giving me a friendly smile. "Oh, and Bella, I have a little surprise for you." the doctor handed me the other piece of paper. I gasped when I looked at it. It was a picture of my baby. (Well an ultrasound if were being technical but you get the idea.) I again felt the tears silently making there way down my cheeks. It was then at that moment that I decided that I would make a great mom to the child living inside of me. It was then that I decided I was gonna keep him. I was going to have a baby and oddly I felt excited. I couldn't wait to hold my child in my arms. I couldn't wait to feel the warmth of its skin against mine.

Angela was crying harder than ever as she looked over my shoulder at the ultra sound. I knew she would be there for me whenever I needed her. I couldn't see how I ever doubted her. This proved that she was more a friend to me than anyone had ever been. Except maybe Ali…no. don't think of her. Don't think of them. They left. They don't get to share this excitement with you. Angela does. She's the one that didn't leave. I had forgotten that the doctor was still in the room so when he started talking I nearly jumped out of my skin.

"Bella, you can pick up some packets at the front desk on your way out. You can also get your prescription filled there to. Oh and Bella your about 9 to 10 weeks along. Congratulations. And don't worry the nausea should start to fade within the next couple weeks. You can go ahead and go home now. If you have any questions just call my office okay." I thanked him as he left the room. I grabbed my coat off the coat rack and me and Angela exited the room with huge ear to ear grins on our faces. As we got to the front desk to get my prenatal vitamins and the packets Angela was marveling over the ultrasound.

When I got my prescription filled and my packets from the head nurse we made our way to Angela's car to make the long hour and a half ride home. We were way more excited than we were on the way here. We talked about baby names baby shopping. Anything to do with the baby we talked about. It was weird this morning I woke up miserable but tonight I would go to sleep happier than I've been in two months. All fears I woke up with vanished the moment I heard my baby's heart beating. It sounded like wings. Such a beautiful sound.

It took us longer to get back because I got one of those cravings everyone talks about and just had to have some Taco Bell. We decided to go inside and eat. I had about twice as much food as normal. I felt so fat. I guess that's one of the side affects to being pregnant. We just sat there and talked, even after we were done eating. We mostly talked about the baby though. It was around 6 45 when I looked at the clock. Me and Angela decided it was time to get home because she was supposed to meet up with Ben at 7 30 and we still had a little ways to go before we got back to Forks. I was tired when we got back to the car so I quickly fell asleep.

It only felt like I was asleep for 5 minutes when I heard Angela's voice. "Five more minutes Charlie." I said not fully awake. I heard her giggle and then shake me. "Bells, come on your home. Bells, hello. Wake up." I finally gave up on going back to sleep and groaned as I took off my seat belt and searched for the door handle with my eyes still closed. I began to stumble out of the car when Angela called my name. "Bells, you left the ultrasound." I turned around and grabbed it from her. I said thanks and told her good bye. As I began to close the door again she called my name. "Hey Bells, when are you gonna tell Charlie?" damn it. Forgot about that. Cant I just not tell him till the baby's born? I cant stand to have to see that disappointed look on his face.

"I don't know Angie. Im too scared. Ill tell him when the time is right I guess." I said yawning. How could one person be so tired. "Bells, I think it'd be best if that time was soon. But its up to you hon." "Thanks Angie. For the ride and everything. Ill see you at school tomorrow." I said on my way into a peaceful sleep. "Umm...Bella. Tomorrows Saturday." "It is? Hmm. Guess ill see you Monday then. Bye Angie." "Bye Bells. Call if you need me." I just nodded my head to tired to talk. I slowly got out of the car and made my way up to the door. I quickly glanced over my shoulder and noticed Charlies cruiser in the driveway and remembered that I was holding the ultrasound. I hurriedly shoved it in my coat pocket and proceeded to unlock the door.

I tried to run as fast as I could without falling to my room in hopes that Charlie wouldn't see me. Of course since luck wasn't on my side anymore he heard me come in and called me into the living room. Very reluctantly I made my way into the living room. "Yeah dad?" sleep still heavy in my voice. He turned around in his chair to look at me. He had the strangest look of mixed emotion on his face. "W-Where ya been Bells?" he asked oddly. I was confused. Charlie was never one to hover but it felt like that was what he was trying to do now. I wonder what brought this on. "Just out with Angela. We went out to Port Angeles and looked around for a little while then we stopped and ate and came home. Are you ok dad?" I asked truly curious. "Yeah Bells. Im fine. You look really tired, maybe you should head up to bed." he told me dropping his eyes from mine. I was really confused by this but I obeyed and turned and headed for the stairs.

When I got to my room I shut the door and lay on my bed. Today had been a really long day. I cant believe im going to be a mother. How am I going to supply for us both? What college is gonna want me when they figure out I have a baby? Will I even be able to handle college and a child all at once? I gave my thoughts a rest knowing I wasn't going to get an answer anytime soon. I got up and picked out the most comfortable pair of sweat pants and a t shirt and headed for a shower. I let the burning hot water run along my body. It felt great. I stood there for a while just enjoying the peacefulness.

As I was washing my stomach I let my hand rest there for a minute and let my thoughts wander. I really hope I make a good mother. This baby may be coming way to early and at the worst time possible but I am determined to give it all I've got. It deserves everything in the world. Its just a small innocent child who did nothing to hurt anyone. I finished washing my hair and wrapped myself in a towel. I stepped out of the shower and brushed the tangles out of my hair. It smelled like cherries. My favorite shampoo. After I brushed my hair back in to a lose ponytail, I gathered up my belongings and headed for my room.

When I put up my stuff and picked up the few shirts that were laying around on the floor I was suddenly overcome by a craving for honey covered strawberries and double chocolate fudge cake. I laughed at myself. These craving things are really weird. I quietly went downstairs to get my food. Charlie was to busy in the living room to notice I had come down. I stole a glance into the living room to see what Charlie was doing. Something must really be bothering him. He was watching the news. Charlie never watches the news unless he's deep in thought and forgets to change the channel after the game.

I let it go figuring he was an adult and he would tell me about if he wanted to. I walked back up the stairs silently. When I got to my room I thought about telling Charlie while I ate my food. He is my father. He does take care of me. He deserves to know. But is now the right time for him to know? Will he forgive me? Somewhere between me worrying about telling Charlie I fell asleep. Tonight's dream was different.

I was leaning over my babies crib. I was admiring my baby. He was smiling back up at me. Then a ray of sunshine found its way through the window. It illuminated the crib. My baby changed from a normal kind of pale which it probably inherited from me to a ice cold pale white. His eyes changed from beautiful sparkling green to frightening bloody red. He leaped up from the crib and began demolishing the house. Then he turned on me. He let out a fierce growl and leaped unto me. As he sucked the blood from my body all I could think of was, What has my child become?

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