Hello people sorry it took so long to update but things have been crazy and I felt it was easier to update ITEOAV first because that's kind of a soul story where with this one I write it out then type it so it took a little while but here it is for yall! Xoxoxo

I waited in the car for troy as he gathered his things and my bag after he insisted I not carry another thing from the pain I'd been experiencing through early pregnancy. I rested my hand atop my growing bump and waited for a feeling, but the only that passed over me was nervousness and adolescence. This wasn't a mistake, but it wasn't planned. And it was scary in some ways. We were so young, I seventeen and troy eighteen. Everything was a whirl of emotions right now.

It didn't stop for anyone and it wouldn't stop for me, us rather.

Troy opened the car door and loaded our things into the back. I softly brushed my hand over my barely noticeable stomach and let my thoughts come through and over take my mind.

Troy pulled his door shut and clipped his seatbelt into place over himself but before he started the engine he turned to look at me. Noticing my hand he again, gently placed his over my hand that still rested over the baby. He soothed my thoughts out of the rush and made them come to a potential slow.

"Brie, it's going to be fine" he assured me. By looking at my face, he could just tell I was loosing the control over this. I gulped and attempted to nod towards him. It wasn't enough for him though. He kept boring into my dark eyes, pleading me for an answer that he'd believe.

I obeyed. "I know I'm just still so unsure how everyone else is going to take it" my honest answer made him smile slightly.

"Gabriella Anne Montez, I don't give a fuck what people think about me and you. I love you so much and I know you won't take that because I won't allow you to" he said sincerely. His eyes were sparked and fortunate.

"Ok Troy. I love you too" I smiled at him and he took his hand from my stomach to my cheek where he lightly stroked it and then pulled me into a passionate kiss.

He started the engine and pulled out of our usual spot. Then the car glided along the roads as we talked about our appointment today. The first of this month.

The car entered the East high parking lot and Troy took a spot up front to save me the walk. He pulled the key out and then opened his door. Shutting it behind him he then jogged around to my side and opened the door for me politely. He helped me out and I groaned as I felt the unidentifiable sickness rest upon me again and rise in my newly subtle stomach, to take over. Once I was onto the ground, troy grabbed our bags for the day and we headed inside. He carried mine and his after I reluctantly had to agree with letting him do so twice for the day.

I looked up at the grey skies the covered East high in a reminder that we must fear and hate the other half of our history, destiny.

"I hope it doesn't rain" I stated glumly after feeling the mist and smog around the areas of my exposed skin. It was dark today, not metaphorically dark, even thought that's how it was around here. Most of the time anyways.

"it looks like it might" troy said looking at me curiously.

Sometimes I feel like im dreaming. Like we don't have to go to high school anymore and that the two of us could stay inside our apartment forever. But I knew we couldn't. that fantasy ended when the light struck the sky and we had to get up from eachothers grasps and try to make it through another day without sleep.

We walked into the school. The red and white colors were hard to miss. The front entrance was packed with that stuff. I starred at the flag. It wasn't always red and white. The white had replaced the dark blue. The west high blue. And their gold had replaced our red.

We passed some of our friends until troy made it to our shared locker. He put our things in immediately and then turned to chad.

"Practice today?" he asked.

"yep" chad nodded.

Troy's eyes turned a different color and he nodded. It must be so hard for him. His father was our coach and now he had to carry out the season without him. Troy never practiced anymore. He never left the apartment to shoot with the team like he always had. I rarely saw him pick up a basketball anymore. That was because he didn't. He'd sit on the bleachers and coach the team. But never did he step down and pick up the ball. The team captain.

"You are coming right?" Chad asked eagerly as Jason and zeke came to his sides.

"Uhh, yeah of course" troy mumbled.

"Okay…because we have a game this week and-" troy cut him off.

"I'll be there ok?" he snapped.

Chad shot me a confused look. I shook my head and turned to face Taylor who did the same thing. No one knew. They knew coach Bolten was gone. But they had no idea how much it was eating away at Troy. Which also killed me to. To see him like that.

"Sorry I was just-"

"I know" troy said and pulled my hand towards the classroom. This was coming on so abruptly. It scared me.

"Troy, are you okay?" I asked meekly. Truly concerned.

"Yes. I'm sorry I just, don't really feel like playing today." He answered honestly.

"You don't have to" I whispered back.

"Not if we want to get murdered by the knights" he shook his head but smiled that crooked smile that I loved.

"Come on babe, were going to be late" and we were off.

The rest off the day dragged on and made me feel in a blur. I was freezing and didn't feel to good either.

Throughout class my mind flashed back to various events. One of them learning Troy's father was gone.

Flashback

Troy and I lay across the floor laughing. For once I had gotten his mind off of his dad. Who was currently in the hospital. His leukemia had spread and gotten worse and worse.

For days I couldn't get him to even smile so I was grateful for the moment. Just then his cell rang from the kitchen.

"Don't answer it!' I whined rolling on top of him playfully.

"Oh you will just have to come with me baby" troy whispered "it could be important" he was serious now. But picked me up quickly as I laughed and protested. He swung me over his shoulder and walked into or kitchen. Troy set me on the counter top and grabbed his cell from the table.

"Hello?" he answered while I wrapped my arms around his neck. He smiled and kissed my head.

"Oh hey, mom are you alright?" he asked concerned. I froze and looked at him. Lucille sounded hysterical on the other end.

I heard her talk some more and then heard a long sob. She was crying. Oh no. not this. Please no.

But it happened. He froze as well and dropped his hold on me suddenly.

His blue eyes were dull and grey. I breathed in sharply and closed my eyes.

"No" he said "I don't think, but he…" and then he closed his too. A small tear escaped his eye and dripped down his jaw line. I opened my eyes and wiped it with my small finger tips.

"Ok. I know. I'm coming down there, I just...oh god" he said lower this time. Lucille sobbed into the phone once more and they hung up.

I was confused yet it was so clear.

"Troy. I'm sorry. I love you so much and i-" I couldn't even finish. It was too hard. This was all too hard.

He hugged me tight. Really tight and I felt another cold tear drip onto my shoulder.

"Come on" he said dully and picked me up.

End of flashback

I tried to erase the image of him crying from my mind. I had never seen him cry. That day was so very hard to live through.

I shook my head as if the memory would leave. And I pulled Troy's jacket closer around my shoulders. I was just so cold, all the time. I put all of my effort into focusing on the physics lesson that was written on the board.

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I laid out on the deep blue surface that the nurse instructed me to lie on. And closed my eyes and Troy played with my hand.

The door opened and the nurse stood with her clipboard in hand.

"You can leave now Ms. Montez" she informed me and left the room with a smile.

I sat up and hopped down from the chair. I took troy's hand.

"Let's go" I smiled and led him through the doctors office.

When we got to the car he opened the door for me and helped me in. I studied his face. He seemed distant somehow. He'd barely said a word since we'd left the school.

"Are you okay?" I asked him as he closed his own door.

"Yes. Sorry I was just thinking…" he trailed off.

"About?" I probed him on.

His smile touched his eyes and calmed me down.

"Nothing, just you and me" that was reassuring.

I smiled back and he leaned in lightly to press a soft kiss on my lips.