Viking Vampire God Series: Chapter 3
My Viking was not ready to give me complete control of the situation at hand. I could tell by his face that he was used to being in control and had a puzzled look. You surprise me, Sookie. For a breather you are not at all what I expected. Lowering my body down beside Eric I looked into his wonderful blue eyes. I placed his hair behind his ear. I liked Eric's hair before the new style but I was getting used to his new shorter hair do. I turned on my side and stared at Eric now. What were you expecting Eric? I don't know exactly Sookie. You are…curious to me. What would Bill say about the two of us here right now? Eric looked at me with that devious little grin that I had grown to admire. The room lit up when he smiled. Even in the dim lighting of the room, his entire body was glowing. As I stared down the entire length of his body, I could not help myself from staring at the gracious plenty.
Looking up at Eric again, I don't know. I haven't thought about Bill at all today. Good, said Eric. Good, I like it that way. Eric gave a little chuckle at he watched me. In my mind, I figured Bill already knew about us. He must have felt my pleasure and ecstasy in some small way. Bill could sense my emotions. He knew where I was and what I had done. I am not happy with Bill right now, Eric. He and his maker Lorena were entertaining each other while I was being held captive. I know she is his maker but he did not even make an attempt to escape her? Eric was quieter than normal and then let out the biggest laugh. I could feel the entire bed shake from his laughter. I had obviously said something very amusing but had no idea what it was. Turning on his side and placing his head on the pillow and said, Sookie you are so naïve. But that is what I love about you. I am not naïve. I started to get a little hotter and moved away from Eric on the bed. I mean that Bill has no power over Lorena. Lorena is much older and Bill must acquiesce to her every desire. What does that mean Eric? It means that Bill must do what Lorena wants him to do. Sort of like my relationship with Pam. I am Pam's maker. She must do my bidding for me if I ask her. Pam is very loyal to me. Yes, I know, Eric.
What exactly is your relationship with Pam? Now I was sounding like the jealous girlfriend. I have only had sex with the man, well for the past 24 hours. What was I thinking asking that question? As it left my lips, I was already regretting it. Eric looked at me again pushing his eyebrows down further on his face. I had not pleased the Viking with that question. Not like earlier in the evening. Pausing slightly Eric said, "Pam and I are partners in Fangtasia and that is all." "I trust Pam with all of my business affairs but we have not been lovers for many years." Eric looked off in the distance as his voice trailed off. He was not in the Hotel Camilla anymore but thousands of miles away in another century. Eric continued to stare off into the distance. He had been transported to another time and place with my question. A very brief smile came to his face as he started to respond to my question.
When I made Pam 100 yrs. ago, she was very unhappy with her life. She wanted to be a vampire and leave her existence, as she knew it. She asked me to make her a vampire. I gave her the choice. I, on the other hand, had not had a lover for many, many years. Godric and I had long parted ways centuries before. Pam was my first child and …my only child. The thought that Eric had only made Pam over the past 1000 yrs. made me think. Perhaps I had misjudged Eric all this time. I had imagined that Eric had make 1000's of vampire's male and female over the years. From our exploits of the day, he had many lovers to perfect his lovemaking techniques. Perhaps, he was not the monster that I had thought.
He had a relationship with his maker that was based on love and admiration. Sookie, when Godric made me I wanted to be a vampire. I was dying from battle wounds. Godric asked me if I wanted to be a vampire. He gave me free choice in the matter. He could have fed on me and killed me but he didn't. I chose for Godric to save my life. Eric bent his head low and stared at the shirt at the foot of the bed. I was really making a mess with this conversation. I felt bad that I had reminded Eric about Godric's death. The hurt was so real to Eric. I could see on his face that he was still hurting. I lost my father, brother and child this morning, Sookie, Eric said.
Eric, are you happy being a vampire? I figured I was going to learn as much as possible about the Viking vampire even if it wasn't a very smart move on my part. A long silence passed as Eric remained fixated on Godric's shirt. Sometimes, I am Sookie. Eric turned his head towards me; a small tear was falling down his face. I placed my hand on his face and wiped the tear away. Life is so different for me now. Godric and I had not seen each other in almost 100 years but we have always had a strong bond. I had much admiration for him as a vampire, sheriff and maker. He has helped me in so many ways. Eric, Godric can still help you. Eric was confused now. Godric still lives in your heart and in your mind. I have no heart Sookie. Yes, you do. I saw it on the rooftop last night with Godric. You have so much love for your maker. That's why I am here in Dallas. If you did not care about Godric, you would have not asked me to come with you. Sookie, you have such a way with words but you really don't understand. I understand that Godric is your maker and that he helped you learn what it was to be a vampire and how to survive. You owe Godric your loyalty and love.
Eric raised his head and kissed me softly on the cheek. Yes, you are right. I placed my hand on Eric's chin and pulled his face closer. That is why I am here Eric because of your love. I would have not come here if I felt you were not filled with love. Sookie, I don't know how much love I have. You use that word, love, too freely. I am not sure I understand the meaning of the word love anymore. It has been a long time since I have had such feelings. Eric struggled with the word feelings as he spoke. His voiced crackled and sounded weak. Eric, you need to rest. You're bleeding from your nose. What's wrong? I have the bleeds. What? When vampires have not slept enough, we slowly become weaker and begin to bleed. I must sleep now Sookie. Eric lowered his body into the bed next to me. He pulled the sheets up to his chest and placed his arm around me and pulled me closer. I could tell our conversation had taken a lot out of his being. Eric, should I stay? Eric turned his head and stared at me with the face of child. The face of a hurt child who wanted to be comforted stared back at me. I looked into his eyes, and wondered how I would ever be able to leave him. Should I leave him? I had so many questions, emotions and problems to figure out now. I rested my head on his shoulder. Eric brushed my hair with his hand and said nothing. I could feel his long cool fingers as he stroked my face and hair. He slowly closed his eyes and peacefully went to sleep. As I watched him quietly, I could see a faint smile on his lips.
Perhaps, Eric was dreaming. I gently kissed him on the lips and snuggled my body up against his. I pulled the comforter over the top of us and as we both quietly wandered off into our own I couldn't read Eric's mind I could tell he wanted me to stay. He wanted me on so many different levels. I had so many feelings I had never had with Bill. I thought I had loved Bill but now I was confused. Eric had feelings for me but more importantly Eric needed me. I never felt truly needed with Bill. Bill was happy to make love and feed but I never truly felt connected. There was so much I didn't know about Bill. But why was I thinking about him. Here I was lying next to my Viking Vampire God as I struggled with the whole idea of Eric.