Kara looks at Lena with concern: "What is wrong? What happened?" Lena made her way to the couch by now and lets herself fall onto it. Kara sits down next to her and keeps looking at Lena. Trying to get her to speak. After a long time, while Kara doesn't let Lena out of her sight Lena finally gives in and starts talking.
Lena: "How did you manage to get past security?"
Kara: "I have my ways. What happened?"
Lena surprised: "You haven't heard?" She looks at Kara as if she should know. But Kara has no idea what Lena talks about, since she can't mean the fire, because that happened this morning and whatever made Lena so upset happen yesterday evening from the looks of it. When Kara shrugs her shoulders, Lena says: "You don't know that my mum was murdered in prison? It is probably all over the news by now."
Kara looks at her shocked: "What I had no idea, no there was nothing in the news this morning, when I got to CatCo! How are you feeling?"
Lena slowly and quietly starts talking: "I shouldn't feel anything my mum was a monster and constantly tried to drag me into her mess. She didn't ever care about the things I accomplished at LCorp. She always kept pushing me away and chose something else over me. Why am I so upset? I should be glad that she is gone."
Kara: "Your mum wasn't a good person your right and from what I can tell she wasn't a good mum either but she was still you mum. The person who was responsible for you for many years. And even if she couldn't show it she still cared for you in her own twisted sense. I think you know that."
Lena: "How did you do it? Cope with your parents' dead I mean."
Kara putting her glasses in place: "I didn't. At least not at first. After I lost my parents I was alone for a long time. During that time, I was so worried about surviving that I didn't have time to grief. Since I didn't get to bury them, I think I didn't realise what had happened until the Danvers adopted me." She wipes a tear from her eyes and counties. "When I first came to them I was sad, so alone and so terrified. At first Alex and I couldn't stand each other. But after a while as we got close she started to fill the hole in my heard. Even though I brought a lot of craziness to her life, made her life so much more complicated and harder, she always stood by my side and protected me." Kara wipes another tear from her eyes.
They sit in silence for what feels like eternity.
Than Lena brakes the silence: "I am just so mad at the person who did this. I am so conflicted because a part of me thinks that she got what she deserved and another part of me wants revenge. And then I feel guilty because I know no matter what someone does no one deserves to die. I just want some peace."
Kara: "When my parents died I could have blamed the entire world, but the truth is that it was mostly their one fault. They made a wrong decision and it blew up in their faces." Even though Kara now knows that her mum is still alive, she understands Lena, since she thought for fifteen years that both her parents were dead and she can't tell Lena that her mum is still alive without raising suspicion. "It didn't just kill them but also many others as well. Your mum made a lot of mistakes but she was still your mum. So, if you want to be able to grief, you need to find some forgiveness for the things she did."
Lena: "But how can I forgive someone who created so much hatred, so much pain even murdered others just because she didn't like what they did or who they were."
Kara: "Forgiveness isn't about downplaying what she did. It's about accepting the things that happen and making peace with the fact that you can't change them anymore. You are not responsible for her action and not to blame for them either. Forgiveness is also about realising that she did what she thought was best and that she acted to the best of her abilities, even when it didn't seem so." Kara pauses for a while to consider what she says next. Then continues: "You are allowed to grief, you are allowed to be sad, upset and even mad for that matter. But you can't fall into that, you have to fight to fill your heard, to come out stronger. After Mon-El left Cat told me that we have the ability to feel the depth of your emotions and we know the we will walk through it to the other side. And I know that you will find that strength within you." Kara moves closer to Lena and put her arm around her. "I am always going to be there for you. Keeping me out won't work." Lena gives Kara a sad smile and leans into the hug. She quietly starts crying.
After a while Lena calms down and looks at Kara. "If you didn't know that my mother was murdered, why did you come?" Kara looks at her, her heart heavy, knowing that she has to deliver more bad news. Finally, she answers slowly: "Mmmh… there was a fire at L-Corp. The police are looking for you to coordinate the investigation. Snapper sent me to get an exclusive and I couldn't find you, so called and you didn't answer. When the police ask me were you where I came here." Lena looks at Kara in shock: "What a fire? How did I not hear about this?" Kara finds Lena's phone on the coffee table in front of them and picks it up: "22 missed calls" she shows Lena the phone. When Lena goes through the number she sees mostly news outlet, her security form L-Corp, police and Kara was the last one. She listens to Kara's voicemail:
"Hi, here is Kara, where are you? I am at L-Corp and can't find you anywhere. Snapper wants me to do an interview with you about the fire at L-Corp. Please call me back! I am a worried!"
Kara finds it strange to hear her own voice. She says: "The police talked to me afterwards. I don't think that it is a coincidence that L-Corp is on fire the day after you mother was murdered." Lena answers in consent: "Year, I think so too." She doesn't want to leave her apartment, but she has at least assign someone to coordinate the investigation with the police. Kara feels that Lena doesn't want to face the world outside right now. "Why don't you get ready while I go and get some breakfast and we meet downstairs. What do you want?" Lena finally gives in: "Fine, get some doughnuts. I am going to need sugar and a strong coffee to make it through the day. There is place just one block south from here." Kara answers happy: "Yes, I can definitely get that." She stands up to leave and makes her way to the front door. Lena unwillingly follows her. Kara asks her: "How long do you need? Are thirty minutes ok?" Lena yawns: "Make it 45 minutes?" Kara smiles at her: "Ok, I meet you in the lobby in 45 minutes."
