Author's Note: To be honest, I never knew Ariana Grande was older than Liz. Liz seems to look much older than Ariana. Haha! I thought Liz was. Anyways, this might be a slow chapter as I predict this story will be only 15 chapters. Enjoy. Oh and by the way, giving credit to lyrics of John Mayer's Edge of Desire. Good song. Loved John Mayer since birth.

Don't own Victorious and it's characters...Whatever; I could own Ariana in a heartbeat maybe. LOL NO. I WISH.

Ch. 3; Edge of Desire

It's 2005; The year when Jade and Cat both turned 12 years old and it was the first birthday that neither one of them greeted each other a, "Happy Birthday" Cat is a month older than Jade and I find it kind of funny how the youngest is the most mature between the both of them.

Young and full of running,

Tell me where is that taking me.

Just a great figure eight

or a tiny infinity.

June 26, 2005

Jade awoke from the tenacious East Coast weather. The sun was blazing through Jade's crimson red curtains and Jade laid there motionless, realizing that today would be a terrific day for someone she once knew. She sat up from her bed, smirking at the fact that she wasn't soaked with sweat and went to take a refreshing shower.

As the water runs through her skin and sprinkles down weight upon her secured eyes, she could foresaw an image of Cat and her facial expression of pure joy. Imagining Cat in moments like these felt that Cat was nearby Jade but only outside of Jade's bathroom door, speaking loudly to Jade just about anything that comes into her mind. If Cat was at Jade's place, she could keep chattering about peculiar topics like her older brother, Frankie, or how she thought the character costumes that some of the Disneyland Theme Park employees wore from Disneyland were real; she even tackled down the person who dressed up as Ariel from The Little Mermaid that Disneyland almost kicked the Valentine family out of the theme park. Jade chuckled at that memory of Cat explaining her first experience at Disneyland and then snapped back into reality as Jade's mother knocked on her bathroom door, "Jade honey! You've been in the shower for thirty minutes! I need to shower for work, hurry up please!" Jade didn't realize the reminiscing took over the shower for that amount of time.

It was summer and Jade had no people that she's been acquainted with and she wanted to have a break from Broadway shows for this month so she might as well put her time in waste by cherishing the times of when her and Cat were close. It was New York she was living in and she, just like other people in the world, had 86,400 seconds to use to do whatever she pleases. She decides that since it was Cat's birthday, she was going to dedicate her day to Cat even though Cat would probably never knew she was going to...

"Cat! Kitty Cat!"Frankie charges to Cat's bedroom and collides his body onto Cat's.

"Mmmmfff..."Cat groans. She had another restless night from the cause of the Valentine parent's fights from last night.

"Do you not know what day it is? Do you not?"Frankie screams. She sensed he was having a mental breakdown so Cat sat up and said quietly, "What day is it...?"

"...It's your birthday! Happy birthday little sis!" Frankie gave his little sister a grizzly bear hug while Cat's body got a jerk from this unexpected news. Cat hasn't kept track of her birthday. She use to until Jade's unreasonable departure hit her. Cat would use to call her birthday, "Valentine's Day" and she would always think that she has two birthdays in a year because February had Valentine's Day itself for mushy couples but this year was different. Jade would usually be the first person to wake up Cat whenever it's her birthday and smack her back to say, "Get up! It's your birthday!" like she was forced to do it but she knew Jade was always willing to do something for her special occasion; just didn't admit it to herself and Cat.

"...I don't feel like celebrating my birthday, Frankie. Tell mommy and daddy that I'm going to stay in bed all day today...and don't let Andre and Robbie come in..." Andre and Robbie were Cat's only close friends she made but not as much close to Jade and her was. Andre was a musician and Robbie...just a silly guy that might have some issues with his self-esteem since he always bring that mindless puppet, Rex.

"No! Get up! Let's go to Disneyland! Mommy already set up a birthday party reservation over there!"Cat's eyes lit up and without a thought, agreed to celebrate.

"First birthday without you, Jade.."Cat thinks to herself as Frankie sprinted away...

Jade was strolling around New York City till she found Build-A-Bear workshop. It was Cat's favorite store and despite that she'll feel a bit of secondhand embarrassment, she wanted to dedicate her day to Cat and wanted to pretend that Cat was with her as the day takes it's course. She heavily sighed and went inside to see a mass of the plague of pestering children. "Only for you, Cat...Only for you..."she mumbles to herself angrily as she picks a Cat plush doll animal without the contained cotton and head to the stuffing area. "After this shit, maybe I could go to that disgusting Hello Kitty store across the street to buy some strawberry flavored lollipops..."She thinks to herself. Cat always loved strawberries and was her favorite fruit.

So young and full of running,

All the way to the edge of desire.

Steady my breathing,

Silently screaming,

I have to have you now.

July 26, 2005

Cat awoke from Frankie's wails from this video game he's been losing from and trying to defeat for the past weeks. She didn't happen to realize that she slept all day today due to the sleeping pills finally kicking her to sleep at 6 in the morning. The alarm clock showed it was 7pm and checked her cell phone to see if she hasn't slept in more than a few days. As soon as she saw the date of today, her eyes cast fire as she grasped the matter of what today really is.

"Jade's birthday..."she whispered. She shrieked as the door was knocked and out came Mr. Valentine.

"You've been sleeping all day. Your mother and I are going to go out for dinner. Take care of Frankie and remember to give him the pills in thirty minutes. We already gave him one today; your turn to."says Mr. Valentine, strictly.

Cat nodded and laid in bed till the Valentine parents were gone. Thirty minutes has passed, she gave Frankie one pill and informed him that she's going to go out to have some air. Frankie understood and said he'll call her if he needed anything if he can only find his phone. Probably up in the air vent from the time he said that he wondered what living in an air vent would be like. The result of that was failure and he came crashing down to the dining table with no serious injuries, shockingly.

Cat went outside to the humid air and walked to a place that she hasn't been in for years. It's the tree house Jade and Cat made from third grade with their own bare hands. There was a swing right next to it as it was installed on a tree branch. She couldn't possibly climb up to the tree house since it was on the verge of breaking. They both left it that this was their own land and since it was all ancient looking and looked as if it's going to collapse any moment now, she only went on the swing. The crickets were chirping and Cat started to talking to herself as if Jade was there.

"So...Happy birthday, Jade!"She beamed. Only the crickets responded.

"...I wish you can hear this...where ever you are...but I miss you. I have to say that my birthday from before wasn't really great without you. Sure, I went to Disneyland and you should be thankful that this time, I didn't tackle down Ariel like last time but really...I miss your smile and your rude remarks you would make to the people you hate. I miss your laugh and your nice chocolate hair! Everything! …...Uhmm...and especially, I love you. I love who you are, Jade. I love your bravery. I love your how caring you were to me. I love how loving you were even if you didn't show it; I felt that you did! I love you..."Cat starts to feel the tears and a screech coming from her throat. She sobbed and sobbed till she couldn't sob any more.

"Where are you? I needed you! Everything about my life is so lifeless without you! I don't feel any love anymore! My parents never has! You were the only one who did! You're my best friend, right?...Where are you?", she wails quietly. Sometimes, Cat has the anxiety of Jade forgetting all about Cat. She creates random scenrios of where Jade is at and what she's doing. Then later, she assumes all of the negative and blames herself for not being such a friend to Jade...not being loving to Jade.

I want you so bad, I'll go back on the things I believe.

There I just said it; I'm scared you'll forget about me.

Jade awoke and she already knew it was her birthday. She didn't seem to strain to anybody that she needed a present. Only Cat and Jade's mother. Cat would usually give Jade red velvet cupcakes, a animal plush doll per birthday, and kiss her on the cheek. A kiss on the cheek was something Jade loved the most. Jade rubbed her cheek to try to regain the warmth of Cat's lips on her cheek.

"Whoa...wait..."Jade said to herself.

"Is it wrong to feel a bit of some sensation when I think about Cat's lips..."she fidgets with her fingers and just shook the thought.

"Hey Honey. Happy birthday!"Jade's mother exclaimed as she went inside Jade's room and gave Jade her present.

"Better be that new toolkit or drill that Home Depot was selling for sale a few weeks ago."Jade said coldly. Jade's mother rolled her eyes and gave Jade a peck on the forehead. Jade tears the gift wrapping and figured that it was only new clothes to wear. She's thankful that it wouldn't be like what Cat dresses up like. Nothing vibrant; just dark. As Jade's mother sets the candles onto the Red Velvet cake, Jade got three plates; one for herself, one for her mother, and one...supposedly for Cat. Jade's mother set the cake on the table and sang, Happy Birthday, and as she ended, she said, "Make a wish!" Jade focused on the candles and then, closed her eyes.

"I wish someday, whatever my passion for cinematography leads me into, that Cat would be in it..."Jade then blew the candles. Jade's mother applauded and cut the cake. She sliced only two till she glanced over at the third plate. She sighed and sliced another slice

"Red Velvet was Cat's favorite cupcake/cake flavor, right?" she said. Jade nodded slowly and they both ate as silence takes over them. For the rest of the day, they went around New York to shop and met with some of Jade's other relatives. As the night kicks in, Jade massages her temples as she felt the drowsyness coming. She thinks about how Cat would probably make her birthday better as it was. She turned over at the side of the bed and stared at the picture of Cat and herself.

Don't say a word.

Just come over and lie here with me.

Cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see.

"Love you..."and her eyelids start to drop down ever so slowly.

Man, have you guys ever had the anxiety exactly like Cat does in this chapter? You miss someone so much but you're much afraid to know what's on their mind and lives now. The person could forget about you, or do something hurtful behind your back, or has changed their perspective on you, etc. Your anxiety leads to over analyzing and then assume everything that has a negative effect. I hate anxiety. It kills every inch of me. Sometimes, I wish humans doesn't have the ability to feel this horrible emotion. You and anxiety causes so much trouble for yourself and others. Blah. Anyways, review if you like.