Thank you so much for all the reviews. It means so much to me that people are reading this story. I truly hope as this story progresses, it will help others realize how important it is to be able to support an angel parent. And to give you some idea of how stillbirth effects them.

I hope and pray you never have to go through this, but if you do, I want to offer my sincerest condolences and I am so sorry for your loss.

I have decided I am going to write the next few chapters from different points of view, people who are important in Bella and Edwards life.

The majority of this story will be told by Bella, but I think it's important for you to understand how excited the others feel about the impending arrival

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Thank you to my amazing Betas, Fallenangell10 and Zenone

Edward's POV

To say that I had been more than a little shocked when Bella gave me the pregnancy test, would be trivializing it. I was stunned. We had been a couple for just eighteen short months, and had been married for only three months.

We had discussed having children. Agreeing that we wanted to enjoy our time together as a couple, for at least two years before we began trying for a family of our own.

Once the initial shock had worn off though, I was elated. The thought of seeing Bella, her stomach rounded and swollen with my child made my heart expand in ways that I never thought possible.

I began to search the internet, looking through pregnancy sites and forums even joining one for fathers to be. I wanted to know what symptoms she would experience, and what I could do to help alleviate them a little.

I also spoke to Carlisle at length, even though he wasn't an obstetrician. He had worked a little in maternity during his training and could recall some things. Such as: Bella could no longer eat shell fish, pate or nuts. He even explained the pros and cons of both natural birth and caesarian sections.

I seemed to have a never ending supply of questions, and was thankful for the forum that I joined. They answered most of them without me having to ask. I also started looking at what the baby would look like at each stage. When I read it was able to recognize voices and sounds, I stared talking to it.

In the end, I told Bella that I had been asking around , because she couldn't understand where all my knowledge had come from. At first I was a little embarrassed, owning up to what I had been doing. But I wanted her to know that I wanted to support her all the way through. I told her I was curious about what she would be going through and how the baby would be doing .

The fact that I had been prepared to do all this , brought us even closer than before. Even though I was utterly terrified about becoming a parent, not that I didn't want to be, but because I didn't think I would know how to be one. I'd never spent any time around young children and was worried I would fail.

Sitting in the hospital's waiting room for the twenty week ultrasound, was so nerve racking. I was excited beyond belief that we would get to see our baby for the first time. We had discussed finding out the sex and had decided we didn't want to do so, we wanted the full experience of being new parents.

We were called into the room, and Kate, the sonographer, explained she would be taking measurements to make sure that the baby was growing as it should. She also would be checking all the major organs. Kate promised she would point out certain things on the monitor in front of us.

I sat on the chair while Bella lay on the bed. Watching with curiosity as a clear gel was squeezed onto her stomach and a probe was pushed up and over it.

The monitor in front of us grew grainy and grey and I felt my heart swell with pride as I caught first glimpse of our child. I couldn't help but wonder if this was how my parents had felt when they had been expecting me. Had my father sat here wanting to cry, as he saw me for the first time?

I didn't even try and hide the joyous tears that were streaming down my face. I gripped Bella's hand tighter, as the emotions in me threatened to boil over. I felt so proud that we had created this tiny life. I looked at Bella, noticing she too was crying.

I leaned over showering her face with kisses and whispering, "there it is Bella, there's our baby."

She had a look of total awe on her face. It was as though she was unable to believe she had nurtured this tiny life from an egg into a tiny full formed baby nestled deep within her womb.

We purchased two pictures once Kate had told us the scan was clear. Everything had looked normal, I couldn't wait to show them to everybody. This was my baby, and I felt as though I was on top of the world. I don't think that anyone had ever wanted a child like I wanted this one.

Hearing Bella tell me I could go ahead and give my pixie sister the good news about decorating the nursery, made me the happiest man alive. It really was happening! I was going to be a dad!

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sar

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