Dear Diary,

*sigh* Diary-chan... *sigh* sob* *sob* We lose, we lose the game today...huhuhuhu.. It's all my fault for losing our practice game...*sob* if I just prevent the other team to take the ball after I did the lay-up, we've won...but instead I laughed like a maniac and boasting about what just I did. I'm so stupid doing that huhuhu...

'It's fine.. It's just a practice game' I know. But we'd won if I became more careful. 'Just don't do it again next time.' I know...but still I can help it. I'm so sad to lose my first game.

'It's just a beginning' yeah...just like Oyaji told me. 'Oyaji?' Yes. Our team coach, Anzai-sensei told me the same thing. 'See. Don't be sad' I guess you're right.

'So how's the game. How about that Ouzumi guy?' Huh...that guy well just as I expected he look like an ape. 'Huh..really?' Yeah. And he's taller than Gori, they're look alike.

'And about this Sendoh Akira guy? Is he that good?'

Huh...say that again? 'Sendoh Akira you mean?'

Say that again! 'Sendoh Akira?'

Say it again! 'Sendoh Akira damn it!' *heart pounding so fast* oh my! Oh my! This is it! This must be love! Yes I'm love with Sendoh Akira!

'Eh what?! Are you sure? How about your Kaede?' Yes, hundred percent sure! for the very first time in my life I'm freaking in love! 'You're kidding right?! How about your Kaede?'

Just reading you saying his name makes my heart beats so fast. Just by the spell of his name makes me feel like heaven. ...this is it and I knew it...the moment I saw him I fell in love with him...nyahahaha! 'How about your Kaede?'

Ohmygod! This is true love! I never thought that this day would come I'll able to meet my prince charming.. I couldn't think of any other explanation, my mind was completely shut down at the sight of his absolute beauty in front of me the moment he entered the gym, his sweet bright smile...those sparkling eyes...and very fresh breath... I love everything about my sweet Akira... 'And how about your Kaede?'

At first... I thought he's just a stupid ace player. But once he entered the gym, I can't take my eyes off him. He's goddamn gorgeous. Never saw a handsome guy like him in my whole life. 'What? I thought it's only your Kaede?'

After he changed into his basketball jersey, I approached him. At first I was so damn nervous. I could feel my balls shaking. Surprisingly, he's so nice towards me even after I said that I'm going to beat him. He smiled at me and offered a friendly shake-hands. He's so warm and friendly... I never expected him to be nice to me. God I'm so in love with him. 'How about your Kaede?'

Geez.. Imagine that... He never ignores me at all. His attention at me even during the first half while I'm sitting at the bench. He even motioned me to come out on the court to play even though Ayako-san tied my on my chair. I bet he has a hots on me too nyahahaha. *eyes sparkling* 'How about your Kaede?'

*sigh* Honestly I'm so depressed about losing my first game especially I ruined my gym shoes. Oh...well I have to buy new a shoes anyways...a basketball shoes, but it's worth. I'd rather lose anything on that game but not my sweet Akira. 'How about your Kaede?'

And guess what? He said that if I want to beat him, I must practice to death. And he even invited me to go on fishing sometimes. Ahhhh! Imagine that! It was like he's asking me out. Who can say no to his fuck-me-in-instant voice. Oh My God! I thank all the angels and saints from above for sending me someone as Goddamn hot as him! 'How about your Kaede?'

And after the game he offer his hand and of course I took. Shit! I can't helped it but to blushed. The way he said my name was so sexy! I could feel all the blood rushed in to my veins, my arteries down to my penis! Shit! He's so fuckable! 'How about your Kaede?'

And of course I'm still gonna beat him! Nyahaha! After all I'm Hanamichi Sakuragi, the tensai-baskettoman. No matter how I like him I'll swear I will beat him to basketball until he acknowledge me as his equal. 'You said the same thing about your Kaede.'

And my sweet Aki- 'SHUT THE HELL UP AND ANSWER ME! HOW ABOUT YOUR KAEDE! DAMMIT!' Huh? *sniff* *teary-eyes* Diary-chan will you please stop adding a salt on my already wounded heart? *sniff* I told you just right from my first entry, I'll lose a potential lover isn't it? 'Huh?' *sigh* I knew it from the start that my Kaede won't gonna look at me and never feel the same way like I do.

'What make you say that?' Sorry for sounding like a loser bitch. Sorry if I'm forcing myself to any other guy. I admitted I do like sweet Akira...but it won't never be the same way I like my Kaede... 'I know that. Then why?'

I lose my first game today...and I totally lose my chance to be with my Kaede. I can see that he's not interested in anything. Just basketball. Alone. I can see the way he look at Akira. The way my Kaede glaring at Akira with hatred.

I'm not that dumb... It's so obvious that he's only interested in someone who can beat him in basketball. Someone who's better than him and in one day he can beat too.

'So...are you giving up on him?'Hell no I'm not giving up. But for now, I want to be a better player more than him and even more than Akira. Not just for them to notice me. It's for myself. I want to prove myself that I'm indeed a genius. I want to prove them that I am worth their attention. That I am worth their admiration. I want to proved them that I am worth watching. And one day, the moment they notice me, I will tell myself that all the risks and hardships worth it...to be with one of them. 'You're saying anyone will do?' Hmm...not really. I love my Kaede that's for sure. But sweet Akira has a potential too. 'Tch unfaithful bitch' Hey! I'm not going out with any one of them so don't say that!

'Hmp...what if you saw any other handsome guys from the other team?' Huh? It's impossible... I can't think there's any other handsome guys aside from them...

'You think so? Will see...' Yep...and anyways... Gori told us that next month the preliminary games for Inter High will start. I heard from Ayako and the senpais that we have another team member. They're hoping that he made it on time. 'Member huh?'

And Gori said during the prelim, we won't be able to avoid and definitely we'll face the second best team in Kanagawa, the Shoyo team. So, he tell us to practice more and prepare for that game. 'That so?!" Yeah...thanks...at least this burden in my chest loosen up...Tomorrow is another day. Haruko-chan will go out with me to buy a new basketball shoes. Wish me luck... Nighty! 'G'night Hana-chan'

Strong as ass ever,

Sexy Hana-chan

A/N: Hello guys. Sorry if this one is quite shorter than the other chapters.