A/N: I love my story so much! It makes me very happy to know how fast it is proceeding! I'm also happy to know it will have a whole lot longer chapters! Yes I am so happy! And your reviews make me happy too! When I read them, I was extremely happy to know you guys liked it! This is the only story I actually would love to write! My other stories are beginning to feel blah...but this one actually makes me happy to write! And as long as I'm getting reviews, I'll update! And hopefully with even longer chapters too! You know what, I may make a chapter that's 20 pages long if I get to 100 reviews before this story ends. But I have to make it an extra good one too. Oh, and this story is dedicated to Kukai for turning...um...well...I think he's turning 14 but whatever...but today is his birthday so yup! Enough rambling, enjoy the story!
Disclaimer: I don't own Shugo Chara. If I did, things would be better and so would the fillers! But Peach-Put owns it so whatever! I should license it though! xP
Tell Me This Feeling
"Hinamori-san, keep that up and you'll be better in no time! Tsukiyomi-san, what do you think you're doing? You're going to rip the net! Yuiki-san, no time to be eating candy! Mashiro-san, get up and actually do something for once! Nadeshiko-san, good job! You're doing the best so far!" The gym teacher walked around and inspected all of the girls' progress.
They were playing volleyball. Nadeshiko wasn't so good at it, but she managed to do well by jumping up high. "Just pretend you're shooting the ball into a basketball hoop…"
I was Nadeshiko's partner. It was pretty difficult for me. I just watched in amazement as I saw Nadeshiko throw the ball over the net. I tossed it back over with the heel of my hand. It was almost like playing catch. Except with a net and we had to keep it going.
"This is getting harder," Nadeshiko groaned.
"Yeah, but you're doing pretty well by yourself," I complimented.
"Thanks, Amu! So are you," Nadeshiko complimented back.
"Okay, gals, you can take a break!" Coach said.
"Fi-nal-ly," I breathed.
Nadeshiko walked over to the bench and grabbed her water bottle. She took a sip out of it. All of these sports were extremely fun to Nadeshiko, but something about basketball just made her heart skip a beat. She felt more familiar with it. The other sports she was also familiar with, but basketball just made adrenaline rush through her blood. It felt…good.
"Did you hear? Tomorrow is Souma-kun's birthday!" one girl squealed.
"Yeah I heard. What do you plan getting him this year?" the girl's friend giggled.
"Tomorrow is Kukai's birthday?" Nadeshiko raised an eyebrow.
"Kukai's special day has come again, huh?" Utau sat down next to Nadeshiko.
"Utau…"
"What're you planning on getting soccer-boy?" Utau asked Nadeshiko.
"I just met him yesterday you know. So how in the world would I know?" Nadeshiko muttered. Kukai was only an acquaintance to her right now. She barely knew the guy. Yeah he showed her the ropes and everything, but she still only met him. Why even bother with a present?
"I know you did. But-" Utau was cut off.
"I don't like Kukai. We're only friends! Okay? Maybe even just acquaintances! I have nothing to do with him!" Nadeshiko said. She stood up and quickly left.
Why were people suddenly assuming such things? She was not in denial! She didn't like Kukai! She didn't like anyone! They just met! She was only making friends! Nadeshiko only just arrived to this school. And already rumors were spreading. She already became popular so fast. So…instantly! Something about Nadeshiko made people like her. But what could that be? There was nothing special about Nadeshiko! Nadeshiko sighed. Couldn't people just understand she was a normal middle school girl?
Nadeshiko kicked a pebble that lay on the ground. She bounded up the steps into the front of the school and made her way up the school stairs to the third floor. She didn't bother taking the elevator in the school. She walked to her dorm and threw herself on her bed, being careful not to hurt her head.
"Why…? Why do rumors spread around the school so fast? So fast in less than three days…" Nadeshiko frowned.
"This school does that," a soft voice said softly.
"R-Rima…?"
"Usually when we get a new kid, rumors randomly spread around. Like for example, they saw you with Kukai, right?"
Nadeshiko nodded.
"They'll start spreading rumors about you two dating. Simple! Rumors haven't been spreading around lately at this school is why."
"I see. But that's still horrible."
"Rumors used to be spread about me when I first moved here. People said I was rude and mean and some thought I was a demon sent from hell to kill everyone."
Nadeshiko gasped in horror.
"But Amu stood up for me," Rima said with a little smile.
"Amu's a good friend, isn't she? Her heart is so pure and innocent. It'd be a shame to see it break into a million pieces," Nadeshiko whispered softly.
Rima nodded in agreement. "But Amu is my best friend. I don't recommend sharing her with you," Rima said in a sharp voice.
With that said and done, Rima swiftly got up and headed out the door in a blink of an eye. Nadeshiko sat there with a loss for words. She guessed Rima wasn't the kind of person to share friends. And there Nadeshiko sat, all lonely again.
But maybe she wouldn't have to be so lonely. She could go and see Kukai and play basketball with him. Nadeshiko got up and slipped on a plain red tank top with black basketball shorts.
Nadeshiko looked around the school, clueless as to of where Kukai was. She wasn't watching where she was going and accidentally bumped into one of Kukai's teammates. Nadeshiko looked up to see a boy with green hair and glasses. He wore a soccer uniform.
"Um, excuse me, but do you know where Kukai Souma is?" Nadeshiko blurted out.
"You're looking for Souma-kun? He's over there on the field practicing for the soccer game coming up next week," the boy said.
"Yo, Kairi, coach needs you!" one of the boys on Kukai's team yelled.
"Okay!" Kairi yelled back. He then turned back to Nadeshiko. "You two aren't dating are you? Well, bye!" And off he ran.
Nadeshiko frowned. She didn't like the sound of all these people think she and Kukai were dating. She shrugged it off the best she could and ran up to Kukai who was standing on the sidelines watching the game.
"Hey, Kukai," Nadeshiko panted.
"Yo, what's up, Nadeshiko!" Kukai turned to see the violet haired girl.
"N-Nothing is all! I was just wondering if you wanted to play basketball with me," Nadeshiko asked in a hopeful voice.
"Sure! But after this quick game, okay?" Kukai waved and then ran off onto the field to play.
Nadeshiko decided to sit on the lush grass and wait. She sat criss-crossed on the ground and waited for Kukai to finish up his games. Some girls passing by pointed at Nadeshiko and snickered behind their hands. Nadeshiko ignored the snickering and pointing and continued to watch soccer practice.
A high-pitched sound sounded throughout the field.
Kukai ran back over to where Nadeshiko sat, panting. He sat down next to Nadeshiko. He was almost out of breath. Nadeshiko looked at Kukai in concern.
"You okay?" Nadeshiko asked.
"Y-Yeah, I'm fine. I just need a breather is all," Kukai said as he rested himself on the ground.
"Are you too tired to play a one-on-one game of basketball?" Nadeshiko asked with a hint of disappointment in her voice.
"Course not!" Kukai said, standing up. "What're you waiting for? Let's get going!" Kukai grinned as he raced Nadeshiko over to the basketball court.
"Hey! Wait up!" Nadeshiko laughed as she ran after him.
The two played basketball until sunset. Kukai beat Nadeshiko a couple of times. But Nadeshiko still owned him in basketball. The two laughed and played. They ran around happily as they tried to block each other's shots.
"I've seen you have improved," Nadeshiko said in her melodic voice.
"I've been improving! And soon I will be the one that owns everyone in basketball including you!" Kukai laughed.
"I'm not that good. I still think you're better," Nadeshiko commented.
"Nah, you just need to practice a bit. But so far you're doing great for a newbie," Kukai commented back.
Nadeshiko smiled and gave him a high-five before parting ways to their dorms. Kukai smiled softly and headed over towards his own dorm. He opened the door and sighed.
"Yo, what've you guys been up to?" Kukai greeted his roommates.
"Nothing," one boy said. He was tall and had midnight blue hair.
"I've been planning for the school dance next month," another boy with blonde hair said.
"Kendo," a boy with green hair muttered.
"Did you hear?" Kukai sat down next to the boy with midnight blue hair.
"About the new kid if that's what you mean, then yeah. I heard he's staying in our dorm," the boy with green hair murmured.
"Yo, Tadase, get me some water," the midnight blue hair colored boy ordered the blonde.
"Why can't you get it yourself, Ikuto?" Tadase grumbled.
"Kairi, fetch me some water," Ikuto said.
"No!" Kairi said.
"Ku-"
"No way, man," Kukai said before Ikuto could say anything else.
"So what's up with the new kids? We just got a new girl, now a new boy?" Ikuto said as he got up to get himself his own water.
"I tried researching up on him, but I found nothing. I also tried Nadeshiko-san, but I also found nothing. I did get loads of results on the deceased Fujisaki family though," Kairi piped up.
"Fujisaki, is it? Hey, Nadeshiko was wearing this basketball tank top with Fujisaki on the back!" Kukai recalled that one night they first played basketball together.
"Maybe she's related to the Fujisaki family then?" Tadase suggested.
"Can't be…the site said they only had one son. But he's dead," Kairi said. He shook his head in disappointment.
"Well, then I guess it doesn't matter, now does it? If this new dude or Nadeshiko aren't related to this family, why even bother?" Ikuto shrugged.
"Maybe because when I typed in their names, we got loads of results about the Fujisakis?" Kairi said in a questioning tone even though it was more of a statement.
"Just give up and enjoy life! The Fujisaki family is dead!" Ikuto sighed.
"You're just like your sister, Utau, y'know that?" Kukai chuckled.
"Shut. Up. Or. Else," Ikuto said in a deadly tone.
Kukai yawned and stretched his arms high up into the air. "So who's this new kid and when is he coming?" Kukai asked.
"I heard he's arriving in a couple of months," Kairi said.
"Nobody knows who he is though," Tadase added.
"I see. A mysterious new kid arriving…? Seems pretty interesting; well, I'm going to hit the hay. Good night!" Kukai then headed to the bedroom and fell asleep on his bunk.
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"Playing more basketball with Souma-kun, Nadeshiko?" I giggled.
"Y-Yeah…" Nadeshiko sat on her bunk.
"What did you guys do other than play basketball?" Yaya asked.
"We just talked is all," Nadeshiko said. She laid herself down on her bed and stared at the bunk above her.
"Oh really is that all? I can sense love in the air!" Yaya prolonged.
"Just leave the poor girl alone, Yaya," Rima said softly.
"Okay! But I'm still keeping a close eye on those two lovebirds!" Yaya giggled and quickly fell asleep. Rima climbed into her bed and ignored all the rest of the conversation.
Utau didn't bother to talk to anyone. She seemed rather aggravated. Either she had a bad day or she didn't get what she wanted. Utau also fell quickly asleep. I could see Nadeshiko falling sound asleep. Something was up with Nadeshiko and Kukai. But just what? I ignored it and also ended up falling asleep.
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The three boys snuck up on their brown haired friend. They all shushed each other as they quietly walked over to Kukai's bed. They opened the curtains, making Kukai stir a little. They then hurried back to his bed. They slowly counted the passing seconds before shouting:
"Happy birthday, Kukai!" they all chorused.
Kukai's eyelids slowly opened to see his friends gathered around his bed. He rubbed the sleep from his eyes and sat up straight.
"W-What time is it?" he asked.
"Yo, wake up already, Souma! It's your birthday!" Ikuto poked Kukai's side.
"Ah! Thanks you guys!" Kukai slung his arms around his friends' shoulders and pulled them into a big hug.
"Too bad it's on a school day," Kairi groaned.
"It doesn't matter! I can have the fun of people celebrating my birthday!" Kukai grinned.
"Are you going to spend your birthday with your little girlfriend?" Ikuto smirked.
"G-Girlfriend; you guys I already told you that Nadeshiko ain't my girlfriend! Sheesh!" Kukai groaned.
"Ain't isn't a word, y'know," Ikuto teased.
"Okay, out!" Kukai ordered as he went to the closet to get his clothes to change into.
Kukai changed into a plain white t-shirt and jeans with holes on the kneecaps. On his feet was a pair of black and white converse. He was out of uniform, but he thought since it was his birthday, he could at least get away with it. Everyone at the school knew that today was Souma's birthday due to the fact he was popular.
"Okay, let's get this day started!" Kukai high fived his friends and grabbed his books for class.
The day passed by rather quickly. And just as Kukai thought, he got away with not wearing the school uniform. Right now it was lunch and all the fan girls planned to bombard Kukai as soon as he walked right through that cafeteria door. Innocent Nadeshiko happened to be near that door. And right when Kukai walked in, all the girls trampled over poor Nadeshiko just so they could get to Kukai. Ikuto, Tadase, and Kairi noticed and told all the fan girls to beat it and move.
"O-Ow…" Nadeshiko slowly got up. Luckily she wasn't hurt.
"Yo, Nadeshiko, you okay?" Kukai noticed Nadeshiko standing up.
"Yeah, I'm fine! I was just going to go and get my lunch from my dorm. I kind of forgot it," Nadeshiko murmured.
"Want me to come with you? I need to get away from all these fan girls anyways," Kukai offered.
"No! It's okay! I can do it myself," Nadeshiko said softly. She quickly hurried off before Kukai could protest.
Nadeshiko limped her way to her dorm. She inserted the key and turned the knob. Nadeshiko knew today was Kukai's birthday. What she didn't understand was why everyone made such a big deal out of it. Sure he was cute and funny, smart and nice. He was really talented and popular. But what was the deal with his birthday? She knew it was rude to think such things, but for some reason she couldn't help let it seep into her mind.
Nadeshiko didn't want to go back to the cafeteria and see Kukai. There was a terrible pang in her heart. Of course due to amnesia, Nadeshiko had no clue what that pang meant at all. Nadeshiko decided to eat her lunch in her dorm.
"I'm such a loner. Why can't I just be a normal girl and ignore it? But for some reason, when I saw all those girls bombard Kukai…I just…I felt…ugh! Kukai is really not making this any easier than it should be!" Nadeshiko was confused.
Lonely.
Sad.
Miserable.
She felt all of those things. Nadeshiko got out her sandwich and quietly ate it. She could hear a knock at the door. Nadeshiko looked up and stared cautiously at the door. Nadeshiko reluctantly got up and looked through the small peek hole in the door to see who it was.
It was Kukai.
Nadeshiko sighed and opened the door. A plain expression was written across her face. "What?"
"What's wrong? You seem so…I don't know…grumpy?" Kukai went inside and took a seat on the couch.
Nadeshiko closed the door and grabbed her food before sitting next to Kukai. "It's nothing."
"I see…"
"What's the big deal about your birthday?"
"Huh?"
"All the girls fawn over you. What's the big deal?"
"I don't know. They just tend to like me I guess."
"I want a proper answer!"
"I don't have a proper answer."
There was silence between the two of them. Nadeshiko tried to hold in her tears. She looked away from Kukai. She could feel her heart beating against her chest slowly. A rhythm began to form.
B-Bmp. B-Bmp. B-Bmp.
Surely Kukai could hear it because he was looking around the room to see where the noise was coming from. He then turned back to Nadeshiko and saw a small tear forming in the corner of her eye.
"You sure you're okay?" Kukai asked in a worried tone.
"Of course I'm okay!" Nadeshiko spat. Realizing her tone, she covered her mouth and lowered her head in shame.
"Nadeshiko," Kukai whispered her name softly.
"Leave!" Nadeshiko demanded.
"What?" Kukai stared at Nadeshiko in confusion.
"I'm just confused right now. I need time to think. Alone," Nadeshiko said and pointed at the door.
Kukai got up and walked towards the door, leaving. How come when all those girls ran over to Kukai, it left such a huge impact on her? It was as if she was jealous! But Nadeshiko didn't know what jealousy was. So she was left confused to ponder these strange new feelings.
"What is this feeling?" Nadeshiko asked herself out loud. She continued to eat her sandwich. The bell rang again, meaning class had to start up.
Nadeshiko grabbed her books and hurried off to class. All she heard all day was about Kukai. If she attempted to talk to someone, they would speak of Kukai. Kukai! Kukai! Kukai! That was all she ever heard!
"That's enough! I've heard too much!" Nadeshiko screamed in gym class.
All the girls stared at Nadeshiko in confusion. What was wrong with Nadeshiko? Everyone watched as they saw her run out of gym class with tears staining her porcelain face.
Nadeshiko sat in a huge meadow. Why did she begin to feel as if this new feeling was called jealous? Nadeshiko wanted to give Kukai a gift now. She saw so many girls give him gifts already. They were all beautifully wonderful gifts too. Kukai thanked them all. Now Nadeshiko had the feel to give Kukai a gift as well. But she didn't want those rumors to start up again about her liking Kukai.
Nadeshiko pounded her fits against the ground hard. She cursed to herself. Now the rumors were going to get worse and it was all her fault for acting like such a bitch. Usually she seemed so innocent and angelic! Now she acted so snobby. People began to think she really did like Kukai. But she knew she wasn't in denial!
"I don't like Kukai. I do not like Kukai!" Nadeshiko told herself over and over.
It just didn't seem to work. Who knew that in just a couple days a new girl could feel so much pressure already! The drama already began piling up on her. Then again, Rima told Nadeshiko that drama spread a whole lot faster and a whole lot easily around this school.
"Only because there hasn't been drama in years…? Why do people like drama so much?" Nadeshiko screamed into the world.
What now?
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"I wonder what's wrong with Nadeshiko," Kukai muttered to himself.
Kukai was sitting in his dorm after soccer practice. Nadeshiko seemed so sad and angry at that time. He wondered if anything was wrong with her. It seemed like the drama was already getting to the poor girl.
Kukai and his friends were planning a surprise party for Kukai. Of course he found out on accident so it wasn't much of a surprise anymore. But it was still being planned. He just needed to pretend to be surprised.
"Will she come?" Kukai asked himself.
"Poor girl," Ikuto chuckled.
"Ikuto, I thought you were helping with the party," Kukai said, surprised.
"I was, but I wanted to check up on you. So the drama has already gotten to her, eh? Heh, I never knew it would be so soon," Ikuto said as he crawled in from the window.
"This school sure does like to gossip," Kukai laughed.
"No doubt, but hey, don't worry about her. Just have fun on your special night," Ikuto said before disappearing quickly out the window as fast as he came.
Kukai sighed. It was time to go since the party was probably starting already. Kukai left his dorm and walked towards the gym. But on his way, he saw in the distance a small figure.
"Nadeshiko," Kukai breathed. He knew that figure anywhere, even if he only saw it a few days ago.
Nadeshiko was sleeping in the grass. She must have gotten tired and ended up falling asleep. Kukai chuckled and picked Nadeshiko up in his arms.
"Hey, Sleepy Beauty, wake up," Kukai whispered.
Nadeshiko's eyes fluttered open. "Kukai, what am I-" she noticed she was in Kukai's arms. "Put me down!"
Kukai obeyed.
"What are you doing out here?" Nadeshiko asked.
"I was going to ask the same; I was going to my party in the gym. Want to come?" Kukai offered.
"I didn't even get you a present," Nadeshiko pointed out.
"So?" Kukai retorted.
"Fine, I guess I'll come," Nadeshiko caved in.
Kukai grinned and intertwined his fingers with hers before leading Nadeshiko off to the party.
When the two friends got there, all the girls envied Nadeshiko. The envy in Nadeshiko's own heart disappeared. She was able to dance with Kukai and nobody was going to stop her. The whole night everyone danced and talked. Nadeshiko stood by one of the windows at the top of the bleachers. She looked out into the starry night. Now she understood why so many people liked Kukai. He was so awesome and generous. He always tried to help his friends when they needed help. She understood it now. Nadeshiko even understood what that feeling she felt earlier was.
"Jealousy…"
Nadeshiko was still blind to her feelings for Kukai. She was still blind to so many things. If only she didn't have amnesia, she would understand everything. So many things ran through Nadeshiko's head. So much drama was happening. So much had happened in the past few days. And slowly and gradually, Nadeshiko began to understand it all.
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"I'm going to bring back your memories. And I shall not fail…" a figure said in the darkness.
"She needs your help. Things are moving much quicker than usual. Please watch over her. I'm sure doing it this way, things will be a lot easier for you?" another figure said.
"Yes."
A/N: Now what was that very last part? I can tell you this for sure: They may not show up in awhile so you need to remember them VERY well or else you may end up becoming lost! I also need to remember this! But I already have plenty ideas for this story. Anyways, let's give a happy birthday to Kukai! Imma sing the happy birthday song:
Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday, dear Kukai, happy birthday to you! (Cha-Cha-Cha!)
Well wasn't that fun? xD Thanks again for all my reviewers reading this story and reviewing! Please review this chapter and tell me what you think! Any suggestions for future chapters? Have anything to tell me? It would be very helpful! Again, thanks so much and please review! ^^