Lauren stretched and leaned back in her chair. Volunteering at the clinic was very satisfying, but it wasn't exactly exciting.
Just one last patient, then she was done for tonight. She looked at the file. One more STD check up, what a surprise.
There was only one person in the waiting area. Chin in hand, a big open book in her lap, she was completely engrossed in her own world, her long dark hair falling in her face obscuring it to Lauren. For a moment she paused, admiring the woman. Even sitting she looked stunning in jeans, short leather boots and a soft black leather jacket.
"Miss Dennis?"
Putting her book in her bag, the woman got up and turned towards Lauren, smiling.
"Oh, hello…" Lauren's smile faltered for a second and there was a moment of silence. She felt herself blush.
"Hi… Lauren? Dr Lewis? " Bo smiled at her. A big spontaneous and slightly surprised smile, lighting up her face in the most adorable way.
"This way please." In an attempt to hide her blush she quickly turned and went into the exam room, hearing the woman follow her and close the door behind her.
"So, Miss Dennis…" She turned and sat down, indicating the chair at the end of her table for Bo.
"Please, call me Bo."
"Bo. You're here for an STI checkup?" Lauren tried to keep her face neutral.
"Yes, I'm… eh," she didn't know what to say "I had no idea you were a doctor." It just came out. If she had known Lauren worked here she would not have chosen this clinic. Why did she work at the university if she was?
"No, how would you?" Lauren smiled, finally, grateful for any conversation that didn't address the reason Bo was here.
Bo wasn't easily flustered but this was the second time in Lauren's company. The easy semi drunken flirting from their first meeting had vanished. Why did this woman have such an effect on her? Well besides the fact that it was glaringly obvious to Bo how turned on she was right now.
Lauren studied Bo's face carefully, she seemed so nervous? Almost as nervous, as Lauren felt. Could she go through with this? It was like her worst nightmare and her new favourite wet dream all packed into one. It would be so awkward. Why didn't Bo have a general physician?
"Would you rather have someone else do it?" Please say yes.
"No, no I…" Bo felt like an idiot. The answer was just a reflex, and she cursed herself for not taking time to think about it, of course it would be less awkward to have someone else do it. But on the other hand a little part of her wanted nothing more than spread her legs for Lauren. She became flustered again at the thought, feeling heat spread in her lower body. This was like naughty roleplay… playing doctor with Lauren…
No no no… get a grip Bo! Could this get any worse? It was awkward enough that Lauren was her professor, now she was her doctor too? Fuck!
"Okay." Her voice suddenly sounded high pitched and she cleared her throat, trying to sound professional. She was a professional. And she could do this, she had done this for years.
"Well then. You can undress over there. Just take off your pants and underwear." She motioned towards a bench and a shelf with single use gowns, partially hidden behind a narrow folding screen at one corner of the room and turned away, focusing on preparing for the exam, unwrapping sterile equipment and getting swabs ready while Bo undressed.
When Bo turned towards her and laid back on the examination table, she had her façade in place and pretended not to notice Bo's perfect thighs and perfect sweet scent or think about what she would be doing in seconds.
"Ok, then let's do this." She took a deep breath and rolled her chair closer.
"Could you place your legs in the-" Bo was already moving "Fine, that's fine, scoot a little closer?" She was momentarily stunned by the sight in front of her. Flawless pink skin and darker pink and brown lips spread open before her eyes. Bo really was flawless, her skin had absolutely no marks, zits or scars, no stubble after shaving, no ingrown hair, just neatly trimmed, soft, almost black pubic hair, shaped like a... a heart? Her moment of objective professional observation was shattered at the sight of the little heart and she couldn't stop her eyes from shamelessly ogling the woman before her nor the words coming out of her mouth "My god, you're beautiful."
Shit! She bit her lip and rolled her eyes at herself as she looked up at Bo, who had her eyes closed. Thank god for small favours. A new surge of heat rolled up her neck and her lab coat felt tight and clammy. This must be how it felt to have hot flashes.
"Have you had any symptoms lately? Discharge, pain, itching?" Yeah, just pretend nothing happened.
Bo was so close. She could feel heat radiating off the other woman. She took an involuntary deep breath and regretted it instantly. That smell… She smelled so good… She closed her eyes for a moment… wait… She realized with a mix of horror and excitement that Bo was aroused. Oh god! She had to control this situation before it went to far.
"She's your patient, she's your patient, she's your patient…" She kept repeating the words as she squirted the now mostly unnecessary gel on the speculum.
"No, no nothing" Bo kept her eyes closed, so she didn't have to see Lauren's head between her legs. Why did she have to think of that roleplay thing?
"Try to relax now..." The words were ominous and just made Bo tense more though she knew what was coming, and she could feel how gentle Lauren was trying to be. She shivered a little as the cold metal of the instrument touched her. Relaxing was very, very difficult. It wasn't so much Lauren's actions… (Though now, with Lauren's one hand on her thigh right beside her probably wet sex and the other inserting a speculum rather slowly, her actions didn't exactly seem to encourage relaxing) It was more the way Bo could feel her arousal.
Lauren pressed the speculum into Bo slowly, watching it disappear between soft, pink, very wet and slightly swollen lips. There was a lot more resistance than she expected. How could she be so… tight? Or was she just tense? Did it hurt? "Relax Bo, please."
"Hmm" It sounded suspiciously like a moan and she tried to camouflage it by clearing her throat.
She stopped moving, "Does it hurt?"
"No, no, sorry," she cleared her throat again, "not at all," It really didn't hurt. At all. Quite the contrary. She was on the verge of lifting her hips towards Lauren. "It's just a little hard to relax, sorry."
By now Lauren would be able to see how much this affected her, wouldn't she? She took a deep breath and tried to think of something gross and unsexy… Maggots! Birds eating maggots... She hated birds… birds in trees… wind in trees… the way Lauren's hair had been tousled by the wind, that night they first met… windswept hair caressing her neck and collarbone... Lauren's beautiful mouth… lips… between her legs… Oh, god… this was not helping.
"Just try, okay. This should not hurt."
Lauren's soft voice was now part of the problem. If she could just muster that personality from her lectures… All business, cold and stern professionalism. Telling her what to do… Spanking her…
That did it. The image of Lauren with a long ruler, telling her to bend over… Without her permission her hips tilted upwards a little and a moan escaped in spite of her closed mouth.
Lauren was mortified. Her only option was to play it cool, pretend not to know why Bo moaned, get this done and over with as quickly as possible. "Are you sure it doesn't hurt? Do you normally experience any pain at penetration?"
"No, no I don't."
"Any pain after? Any bleeding?"
"No." She closed her eyes again, concentrating on control. She was good at that usually.
"But-"
"Lauren, it doesn't hurt!" It came out much more harsh than she'd meant it to and Lauren didn't answer, she just continued with her fiddling and swabs, leaving the silence between them even more awkward.
"Sorry… "
"Okay, we're almost done, I've taken samples for the tests and everything looks fine." She pulled the speculum out carefully and rolled the chair back.
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"Okay… as I said everything looks fine. And I'll send the samples to the lab for testing." She pulled her gloves of and washed her hands in ice cold water, discretely dabbing her face and neck with a wet towel while Bo dressed. "Is there anything you'd like to ask?"
She sat down and looked at Bo as she put her boots on. Even her feet in socks looked cute.
"I presume this is not the first time?" Lauren asked. She was so relieved the hardest part was over she was actually able to relax a little.
"No, it isn't." She wished she hadn't told Lauren about what she did for a living. She wanted to be just a patient, a normal woman taking care of herself because she had a healthy sex life. She didn't want Lauren to know, to judge her.
"I just mean… I don't have to tell you about safe sex?" She was blushing. Again.
"No, I'm always safe… as safe as possible." Her voice had an edge of irritation. She was never irresponsible. She had been when she was younger but she wasn't any more.
"How long have you been an escort?" Lauren just looked interested.
"For just over a year now."
"Do you like it?" She smiled.
"I do actually. You already asked me this." Bo smiled too.
"Oh. I did?"
"Yes. At Joe's… remember?" For the shortest of moments Lauren looked confused.
"Oh god, yes I did. Look I'm really sorry about the other night. Is there something specific I should apologize for? I probably forgot some of the things I said… It's a little fuzzy. I'm not usually so…"
"Cute?" Bo smiled as she watched the blush spread over Lauren's face.
"No seriously, there's absolutely nothing to be embarrassed about; I'm sorry that you don't remember it though, then you would know. I really had a good time." She wondered for a moment if she should bring up Lauren's breakup.
"But I do, I do remember… most of it, I think. You were nice. I mean, it… it was nice. Not that you weren't… I mean I had a good time. With you." She could feel the start of a nervous ramble coming on and stopped talking.
"And now I'm already embarrassed, I might as well say I'm sorry about my remark, before… You know…? I don't usually comment on my patients looks, so… I'm sorry."
"Oh? Oh… Don't worry about it. I sometimes have that effect on people. And you told me that at Joe's too." She couldn't help the smirk at the deer-caught-in-headlight expression on Lauren's face, but regretted it instantly. Would Lauren think she was smug or full of herself. She said the first thing that came to mind, just to get Lauren off the topic.
"Do you feel better? I mean about…"
"Being dumped? Yeah, thanks. As I said it was just… well it wasn't serious. Thank you for listening."
"Any time. And I still think she was a fool for dumping you."
Lauren could feel the blush creeping up her neck again. Oh god, she kept flirting with her. She felt flustered. And stupid… Bo was affecting her faculties. Did blushing affect your intellect? She should know things like that but right now she was blank.
"Ehhh…"
For a long moment they just looked at each other. Bo snapped out of it first. "Is… Is that it? Can I call about the results or…?" She stood, grabbing her jacket.
"Oh, yes. If you call in a week they should be ready."
Bo reached out and took her hand. "Thanks."
"You're welcome." The touch made her shiver; she didn't want to let go. But she did and Bo walked out closing the door behind her.
She groaned as she dropped into her chair. This was the most embarrassing and unprofessional thing she had ever experienced; she wondered if Bo had felt it to… She should have just referred her to Gwen or Kelly right away. She closed her eyes, immediately seeing images of Bo's naked, aroused, perfect body laid open before her. Well… her fantasies would certainly be more vivid now… Thank god, this day was nearly over.
She put Bo's samples in the box for the lab, finished the journal and tidied up her work-space.
She paused briefly outside the exam room. A door down the hall was slightly ajar.
"Kelly?" she called through the crack, not wanting just to barge in if Kelly was with someone.
"Yeah Lauren. Come on in."
"Hey, you're done?" She leaned against the doorway.
"Just finishing up. On your way home?"
"Yeah, just wanted to see how you were?"
Lauren didn't have much contact with the other doctors at the clinic. It was mostly run using voluntary work and she only had 2 or 3 shifts a week. Kelly, however, she knew from med school. She had been pleasantly surprised when she found out she worked here too. They hadn't had contact since med school and she didn't know if Kelly knew what had happened; she never said anything or asked, what actually made Lauren suspect she knew. They weren't close. Somehow Lauren had managed to keep everyone at arm's length for the last many years; not always on purpose, but still. She really liked Kelly and suspected it was mutual, but they never seemed to get back to the friendship they had at med school. Kelly had a husband and three kids now and rarely had time to socialize alone, but she had invited Lauren to her house several times. Somehow she always managed to decline… though she often wished she hadn't.
Kelly looked at her. "What's wrong? You look a bit out of it. Difficult patient?"
"I wish." She was unsure of how much she should or could tell Kelly. Saying things out loud made them seem more real and she wasn't sure she was ready for that yet. "More like… a really attractive, hot patient." She said it anyway.
"Ohhh." She laughed "I know that feeling. Sometimes I'm extra grateful I'm not a man."
Kelly's reaction was a relief. Lauren groaned and hid her face in her hands. "And it was an STI check up…" Kelly laughed even more.
"… and I kind of met her at a bar last week… and we flirted…" Kelly was laughing so hard she couldn't breathe. The way Lauren was totally mortified by the experience contrasted with her normally cool and controlled demeanor.
"And we got drunk together…" She looked at Kelly "Seriously…? I admit to being totally unprofessional and you're just laughing?"
"Sorry, sorry, it's just hilarious." She dried her eyes, trying to catch her breath "You could have sent her to me, I would really like to see who can shake you so much."
"I know… I really should have. I did ask her though if she wanted someone else, but she said no. I shouldn't have given her an option about it."
"Some girls like to play doctor you know…" Kelly was totally serious now. Lauren looked at her with wide eyes.
"You think? She did it on purpose?" Ohhh… the implications… And she did enjoy it there was no doubt about that.
Kellys face cracked open in a smile again "I'm sorry Lauren, I'm just kidding. My god, she really got to you."
Kelly had a very contagious laughter and suddenly Lauren could see the absurdity of the situation.
"Oh god, it's nice to laugh about it. It's a relief actually. I really take myself too serious, don't I? There's no harm done, right? And I'm probably never going to see her again."
"And she knows where to find you, if she wants to see you again. Maybe she'll be back soon." Kelly smirked at her.
"Ha, I should be so lucky." Lauren found that highly unlikely, Bo would probably never come to this clinic again.
"Do you remember that goth girl from med school with the black clothes? The one we called Lauren's ghost?"
"Ohhh god yes, I had to sneak around campus for months to avoid her. That was horrible." She had almost forgotten about that. Unfortunately, Kelly had a really good memory.
"I never understood why you didn't just talk to her, maybe she would have let you alone?" Kelly didn't see what was so terrible about the girl, not even then.
"I… ehh… I did, actually." She blushed. Again. She didn't exactly share all the details with Kelly at the time.
"Then why didn't she?"
"I probably kind of might have led her on… and then she started following me. I tried to talk to her again… but…"
Suddenly Kelly understood "You slept with her… seriously Lauren?"
"It was only supposed to be a one time thing. She was rather sexy… under all the black and the make up… in a totally obsessive way, as I found out later." They laughed again, and Kelly got up from her chair. "I better go home. That guy who wouldn't leave me alone in med school is alone with the kids."
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Walking home, she decided not to think about Bo anymore. The weather was beautiful. The September evening was crisp and clear, lifting her mood considerably. Kelly was right, there was no harm done and she hadn't done anything wrong… just thought about it… those smooth, soft, firm thighs… her soft sex with dark pink lips and trimmed black hair… her smell… no! She would not go there again.
Next morning was Saturday so she slept in and took the time to do her sun salutations routine. She really wanted to do it more often, but as with so many other things in her life, she didn't. What she intended and wanted to do and what she actually did, were rarely the same.
No matter how much she tried to concentrate on her movements and positions, her thoughts kept drifting to Bo. After a while, she gave up and just let her mind wander… Yoga was more than just going through the motions but that was what she could do now… she hoped she would be able to be more serious about it at some point.
Much later, after a shower and breakfast, her body felt relaxed and alive…very much alive. Staying fit was a double edged sword… it was a good way to pass time and it made her feel much better, but it also boosted her sex drive which led to frustration and some less than healthy decisions, like going out to get laid and getting drunk in the process. A few months ago, she would have spent most of the weekend reading and preparing for the week while waiting for Liv to call… Waiting for a short frantic romp or a whole weekend of exquisite sex. Now she had too much time to think… Maybe her obsession with Bo was just a way to fill the void after Liv… a way to avoid the emptiness she felt recently. But on the other hand… how often in her life had she met someone who she found so attractive… and she was single… they were both adult… and assuming Bo was single too… why not try to see where it could lead? She had promised herself to drop the casual sex, but after Liv had broken up with her, she was beginning to reconsider. Her libido would be much happier with something less definite than complete celibacy. Maybe she could find something between the excessive sex she had immersed herself in before Liv, and the total lack of actual skin to skin contact that had been the last 3 months.
Tonight or tomorrow morning she would go for a run… maybe she would go to Joe's for a beer tonight…?
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Lauren slammed the book shut. She was so frustrated with herself. No matter what she tried to do this weekend she got distracted. After breakfast she sat down to prepare for lectures next week. But in spite of her best efforts, she couldn't concentrate on the book in front of her. After six years of lecturing the same entry level course, she knew how she would present the curriculum, but this year they used a new textbook and she had to get acquainted with any new details there might be. And now, several hours later, she had a bunch of new research articles on free radicals in front of her. If she ever wanted to get back in the game, she had to keep herself updated about what happened in her field.
She might as well give up for today. Thoughts of Bo kept popping up. It bothered her that Bo was an escort. Even though she knew it before, it became a lot more real when she had to give her an STI examination. Bo really was a sex-worker. Thinking of her with random people, pretending to enjoy sex with them but really being disgusted… random people touching Bo… random people allowed to be intimate with her beautiful, perfect body… she felt nauseous. It was so different from what she had experienced in the clubs…? For one there was no money involved… and everybody had the option of saying 'thanks but no thanks' at any point. She realized she had no clue how Bo's situation really was; maybe she only had recurring clients, clients she approved? It was an agency, there would probably be some kind of control, wouldn't there…? She didn't like the fact that it bothered her so much, it seemed a lot like plain jealousy… She groaned and let her head fall into the book in front of her at the table. How the hell would she ever be able to concentrate again?
Apparently she needed to get this out of her system… process it… how very lesbian of her. Unfortunately, she only had herself to process with.
Maybe she should call someone? But there was no one to call… she had made sure of that herself; always keeping people at a distance… It was a skill she had acquired and perfected in school, when she was a child, and she had gotten very good at it. She was so good at it that she had a hard time making friends even when she tried. The only one she could think of was Kelly, it was really nice to talk to her… but if she talked to her about Bo again, she would have to tell her far more than she was comfortable with… so, there was no one to call.
To read or not to read? And what to do if she didn't? These were the questions for now.
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Lauren took a sip of her beer and looked around the room; she had taken a seat at one of the booths in a back corner at Joe's, giving her a good view of the door and the bar while remaining a little hidden. This was the only place she knew, where she might have a chance of meeting Bo again. She had no idea what she would say if she actually saw her. It wasn't like her anymore not to have a plan. A couple of years ago she would have thrown herself headlong into this just for the possibility of good sex and distraction from her poor excuse of a life. She would have gotten Bo's number to put in her little black phone-book. But that was then, and this is now… that's not what she wanted anymore… until now? She wasn't sure what she really wanted from Bo.
She took a few swigs of her beer while she thought about it, for the umpteenth time today.
Sex, absolutely, she wanted that… there was something extremely sexy about Bo in a very unassuming and down to earth way. No heavy makeup, no high heels and no long nails… and thank god for that. But she was assuming to much now, Bo could be the picture of over the top hetero sexy when she worked, there was no way of knowing that. The thought of heavy make up, fake nails and to much hair product made her shiver and not in the good way she had come to associate with her thoughts of Bo.
But even more she wanted to get to know her. And why shouldn't she? Bo might not be interested but that was ok… she wouldn't find out if she didn't try… Her own indecision about this confused her… It was more than just Bo potentially being her patient. If she referred her to Kelly or to another clinic, it shouldn't be a problem. But would an escort be interested in a casual hook up? Wasn't there enough sex in Bo's life? Maybe she just wanted to have relationships that were not all about sex? And Lauren wasn't sure if she herself wanted sex or a relationship… But if she didn't give it a chance she would go crazy thinking about what could have been… Maybe she would actually meet Bo and it would end with terrible, awkward disappointing sex… what if they weren't compatible sexually? Maybe then she would be able to resume normal service… but how could sex with Bo be disappointing? In her fantasies it was always amazing… It probably couldn't be anything but disappointing, when it was so amazing in her head…
And why would Bo even be interested in anything, sexual or not, with her? She probably had a lot of friends already… She was probably just naturally friendly… And what if Bo wasn't feeling anything at all between them? Maybe it was only in her head? But she had flirted with her the first time they met… and at the clinic… in spite of her totally unprofessional behavior. And Bo had been turned on in spite of the situation, no doubt about that. She still didn't understand that part... But even when Bo had obviously been uncomfortable she had been sweet and friendly… and sooo very, very sexy… She wished she hadn't seen Bo like that… now she had an idea what she would be missing if they didn't meet again and that was pure torture…
On the other hand, at least she had something to fantasize about… and she had fantasized about it so much… The only way to deal with this was to try to give it a chance… She would never be able to get Bo out of her head if she didn't... and for the umpteenth time she was back where she started. Maybe a more rational and systematic approach would help? She listed the possibilities in her head:
If she left now she would speculate about this for the rest of her life. But…
If she left now she would not get shot down and think about that for the rest of her life.
Or, if she stayed and met Bo again, they might have terrible, awkward disappointing sex. But…
If she stayed and met Bo again, they might have mind-blowing sex at some point in time.
And this was as far as she got. She couldn't get past the 'mind-blowing sex' part.
When she looked at it this way, it was really simple. Especially because there were two important facts that made all her considerations kind of superflouos: She was single and she had absolutely nothing to lose. She just had to find out how much courage she had. Or maybe it was just too complicated for such a simple approach and she couldn't see it? She was too confused now… She needed another beer.
By the time she took the first sip of her fourth beer, she began getting seriously cold feet. What would she even say to Bo? She knew she had been okay with not having a plan earlier, but right now it felt like not one single coherent sentence was left in her brain and she doubted she would even be able to speak… and they had very little in common as far as she knew. Last time, here, there had been a few awkward moments when they didn't know what to say until they both had been slightly drunk… And that clusterfuck of awkward at the clinic... would she even be able to look Bo in the eye? She didn't think so.
The more she thought about it the more she suspected that she did this because it took her mind of her usual train of thoughts about Nadia and Liv and all the rest of her meaningless life, and right now it was very efficacious…
This would never work. It was just stupid. She took her purse from the seat, grabbed her jacket and backed out from the booth… just to turn right into Bo…
"Leaving already?" Bo smiled.
"Eh… hi… yes… I was just… eh" Standing so close, looking into her eyes had her speechless. She could feel the blush rising already and suddenly she was desperate for the cool air outside.
She could tell just how much she affected Lauren. It was such an unfair advantage but it didn't stop her from using it, even if she felt a little bad about it. She leaned an inch closer to Lauren and looked at her lips, feeling the responding spike in Lauren's energy and the rapid intake of breath. They stood still like that for a seemingly endless moment until Lauren blinked and broke away.
"I really have to go." Almost a whisper. She closed her eyes and took a step sideways before she turned and walked towards the door. Bo looked after her for a moment and then followed her.
"Lauren, wait…" She caught up with her just outside the door and reached out to touch her arm but thought better of it and just walked beside her.
"Are you walking home?" It was the only thing she could think of to say, though she already knew where Lauren lived.
"Yes, I walk. It's just a few minutes." It was dark now and Lauren realized that she'd been at Joe's for longer than she thought. She could really feel the beer and wished she had just had one or two.
"Oh that's practical."
"You're going the same way?"
"Well it's a little further for me but in the other direction. I usually take a cab…"
"Then you shouldn't be going this way…?" Why was she following her?
"I just feel like I should be apologizing for something." And she didn't want to say goodbye yet.
Why would Bo think she should be apologizing? She wasn't the one being unprofessional. "No, no I should be apologizing. But I guess you're used to people getting all doe eyed over you?" Neither of them mentioned the incident at the clinic though that was what they were talking about.
Bo didn't know what to say, she was used to it but…
Lauren didn't look at her. Just kept walking until she stopped in front of her building.
"So… thanks for walking me home…"
Her voice held a tinge of sarcasm; Bo thought it might be to mask her insecurity. Again Bo looked at her lips. The pull of the aroused woman was almost magnetic.
"Lauren…" She looked into Lauren's eyes, almost getting lost in them. It felt like there was no way back from this. They both took a step forward and almost crashed together.
"Sorry…"
And then they kissed. At first the kiss was soft, sweet, almost chaste but then her lips were teased open and Lauren's tongue was in her mouth, hot, licking, tasting her. Lauren tasted like beer and everything fell away, only the feeling of her mouth was left. Bo almost felt like she was drowning but she didn't care. Suddenly Lauren broke away for air and Bo noticed that her hands were in Lauren's hair.
She slowly opened her eyes. "Shit"
"Oh" Lauren moaned. Her hands had placed themselves on the small of Bo's back, pressing their bodies together. She let go and took a step back, suddenly realizing that they were standing on a busy street among other people, attracting some attention.
She looked at Bo, a lot less insecure than she had been only a few moments ago. The buzz from the beer and the kiss giving her courage.
"Would you like to come up?" Her sole focus was getting to kiss Bo again. She had forgotten how this could be. Had kissing ever been this good before?
Bo let her hands slide from Lauren's hair and neck down her shoulders.
"Yes…" She still looked into her eyes. "No, no… I have to go. We… I don't think it's a good idea if we…" She took a step back, letting her hands drop to her sides. She couldn't be involved with Lauren, and she had to tell her why.
"Were you going to Joe's for a beer? Cause I have beer…" Lauren smiled. "I would really like to continue this but there are way too many people down here…"
"Okay, I could drink a beer…" They could drink a beer and she would tell her.
Lauren's apartment was at the top floor; the walk up the stairs was mostly silent. Bo spent most of the time unsuccessfully trying not to stare at Lauren's very nice ass in her tight jeans. The fact that Lauren's energy had spiked when Bo had agreed to come up, made it even harder. She had gained so much control of her hunger that she had been able to make a living of being in sexual situations with other people for more than a year, and now she suddenly felt like it was slipping.
Once inside the apartment Lauren put her jacket and bag down. "Come in" she said though Bo was already in the room.
"Sit down if you like" Lauren pointed towards the couch and smiled at her "I'll get you a beer. Or would you rather have wine?" She went towards the kitchen looking back at Bo.
"A beer would be fine, thanks" Instead of sitting down she slowly followed Lauren. It wasn't a large apartment, the kitchen was just a corner of the living room. The white walls had quite a few paintings of naked women. Along one wall, a huge bookcase was taking up most of the space.
Lauren took two beers from the fridge. Leaning against the table she extended one towards Bo, forcing her to step closer to take it. To close. Almost against her own will she leaned even closer.
"So…" Lauren was still smiling. A mischievous, sensuous smile that Bo could see herself be addicted to. Her energy flared; her body looked so sensual, hard nipples obscured by the layers of clothing, lips parted, pupils dilated, pulse beating rapidly in her neck. Her scent warm and intriguing. Lauren was looking at her lips. She put the beer down on the table behind her.
"I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable last week..." She had to get this out of the way.
"You didn't. But I made you uncomfortable. Sorry I couldn't…" She felt flushed and confused about it though it was rather straight forward situation. A situation she could have fixed with a little flirting and some sexual persuasion, had it been anyone else but Lauren… this was the third time they met and she was just a mess each time.
"Couldn't what?" That was what she wanted to say but it wasn't the words she heard coming out of her mouth. "I'm so attracted to you, I…" She was leaning in a little more, her eyes still on Bo's mouth.
"I know…" She licked her lips slowly and Lauren's breath hitched.
"I guess you're used to it?" She looked into Bo's eyes and time almost seemed to stand still between them.
"I sometimes have that affect on people." It was almost a whisper. There was a little regret in her voice. And then they kissed again. Like before the kiss started out slow, almost hesitant for a moment but then things quickly progressed. Lauren's hands again had a will of their own; tangling in Bo's hair, running over her scalp, one caressing from her neck over her shoulder, down her front, finding the outside of a breast. They kissed for so long that Bo almost forgot where she was. Lauren was caressing her breast through her top and doing exquisite things to her mouth with her tongue. She felt her hunger stir with the arousal, almost taking over, but she managed to turn her head a little, kissing along Lauren's jaw line, down her neck.
"Ooohhhh" she moaned slowly and let her head fall back to expose more neck for Bo's delicious kisses. This was sweet torture; she wanted Bo so much. Pleasure was moving over her skin. Never, with any of her lovers of the past years, had she felt like this from just kissing. "Ohhhh god…" Lauren was breathing heavily "Bo…"
Bo knew she had to stop now before this got out of hand. Using all her willpower, she stopped kissing Lauren's neck and just leaned her head against her shoulder.
"Lauren… Lauren?" She almost pleaded. Lauren was still caressing her and moving against her until the tone of Bo's voice penetrated her haze.
"Unnggh?"
"I don't think this is a good idea. We have to stop. Lauren… Lauren please." She took Lauren's hand that was doing things to her breast and stilled it.
"We can take things slow. If you like…? We don't have to stop. I want you so much. " Lauren whispered against her ear, the warm breath sending shivers down her back.
"Yes we do. I can't… I…"
She moved away from Lauren "I can't Lauren… I'm sorry" Lauren's energy was almost blinding her. "I should go" She grabbed her jacket from the chair and fled out the door.
Lauren couldn't believe it, she had never been so frustrated in her life... Her skin was tingling, all of her senses in overdrive. She could still taste Bo's lips, hear her moan and feel her move against her body. Her sex clenched in anticipation of a touch that didn't come. After a few moments she reached behind her and took the beer from the table. She pressed the still cool bottle to her neck… maybe a cold shower would be good?
Later, lying in her bed, a million thoughts running through her head. Why had Bo pulled back? It had been sooo good. Did she have a lover? They shouldn't have kissed… if they had just talked like last time? Maybe Bo didn't think it was good? She would have to go back, she had to see Bo again.
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