Chapter three

(Soul's P.O.V.)

When I get to the party its already raging, I have to push my way through crowds and keg stands to get to the back of the apartment. I lean against the back of a chair and take in my surroundings. This is what I need. A night with no emotions. No regrets. No consequences. A night of distraction. I can drink away everything untill all I am is a hollow shell. I drown my problems in the curve of someones neck. I eye a red head standing by the keg. I'm thinking her. This is exactly what I need. A night without Maka.

I work up the nerve to talk to the redhead, then I hear it. I could recognize that laugh anywhere. Its light and bubbly and seems to float right through me as my stomach drops. I turn in her direction. She's dressed up and has more make up on than usual but the familiar curve of her face is the same as it's always been. She's sprawled out on a couch with Death the Kid, laughing and touching his arm. I feel jealousy bubbling up my gut but push it down. Kid isn't cool enough to flirt with Maka, how he ended up with Liz and Patty baffles me, no there's no way this is anything more than friendly. A wave of relief washes over me.

Kid leans over and whispers something in Maka's ear.

Yep just friends.

Her face flushes.

...Maybe it was something embarrassing.

They stand and walk to a bedroom.

They could just be getting her jacket…

Kid closes the door.

That's the last straw. The jealousy pushes to the surface paired with the betrayal of a best friend.

I push my way through the cramped, suffocating bodies until I reach the bedroom door. I grasp the door handle as I desperately reach my soul wavelength through the door, hoping I get a response.

I find her. She's sitting on the bed and Kid stands in front of her, probably asking her to suck his dick. I want to bust down the door and grab her hand. I want to kiss her and tell everyone she's mine. I want her to be proud that she can call me both her partner and her boyfriend, but that can't happen.

If we were to become more than we are, all the good things we have now, they would be forgotten, pushed down, erased as if they never happened.

I release the doorknob and step back. I care, but she can't know I do. I am her partner, she, my meister. I have to take a step back, I'm getting too involved. I turn and send my fist through the wall across from me.

Thats better, I need to go home. I'm a wreck. I feel a cold hand on my shoulder. Fuck.

"I'm sorry about the wall." I turn to Tsubaki's soft features, she's not mad. She just looks kind of sad. She takes my hand.

"Let's go." She pulls me towards her room, grabbing miscellaneous bottles as she goes. Her room is dark and tidy, the walls are a deep blue and everything pulls me to the lush comforter on her bed. She sits on it formally and hands me a bottle. She motions for me to sit next to her. I sit tentatively. She moves closer to me. She smells like jasmine and when she shifts her black dress moves and i can see her bra.

Is it just me or is it getting hard to breath in here?

I can feel her breath on my neck and my chest gets tight. She makes a sudden movement towards me.

"No!" I shout. She looks startled. "I'm sorry Tsubaki, it's not that I'm not attracted to you! It's just I couldn't do that to Black Star!"

She looks confused. She pulls her arm out from behind me revealing the bottle she was reaching for.

"Oh."

Tsubaki gives me that same sad smile.

"Soul," she says pouring the bubbly orange liquid into a red plastic cup. "What're you doing here?"

I look at her, a void that was at once small in my chest, grows. "It's a party." I say simply, as if that's a good enough answer. I can't say her name. I can't say anything. Tsubaki slides the fizzy orange liquid to me. I pick up the cup and dump it into my mouth, expecting a harsh burning to be hidden under artificial flavoring, but that's not what I get. The liquid slides down my throat with ease, causing me to hiccup. It's orange soda.

I look at Tsubaki with wide eyes. She smiles. "Does this have to do with Maka?"

I hiccup again. What?

"I know you've been into her for a while now," Tsubaki says gently. Stop, please stop. My slowly growing void consumes all that is my soul. I put my head in my hands, feeling the faucet in my eyes rage wild.

"Tsubaki…" I whimper as I pour my feelings to tsubaki just as fast as my tears fall from my eyes. I tell her about Maka, my feelings, why I stay away, all of it. She rubs my back and listens intently. By the time I finish I feel raw. I just coughed up my heart and it's left a lump in my throat and my chest feeling hollow. I look up to meet Tsubaki's eyes. I wait for her to tell me I'm an idiot, stupid for holding on to a fantasy. She doesn't. She gives me her familiar sad smile and simply says,

"Soul, go home."

I walk the whole way home. That was the best thing she could have said to me. By the time I unlock the apartment door I've made up my mind. I can't loose her. I'm going to treat her right. I shower and put on clean clothes. I think about her while I clean the apartment. I scrub the floors, wash the windows, do all the dishes, do the laundry, the whole time I think about what I'm going to say when she gets home.

Today is the day.

I have to stop being a pussy and tell her how I feel.

I make her breakfast and place flowers from the vacant lot behind the apartment on the coffee table in the livingroom. I'm ready. I'm just pouring a glass of water when my phone goes off. Maybe it's Maka telling me she's on her way home?

I fish it out of my pocket.

God Liz not now.

I sit while the image loads, expecting another picture of her boobs.

No.

Fuck no.

Boobs are not what I get.

Maka, my angel is wrapped possessively in the arms of Death the Kid. Her face in his neck, his hand on her thigh and the message simply reads,

Look at the lovebirds!

My soul shatters.

What... What do I do?

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