AN: Every song used for the chapter that is requested is gonna be dedicated to the person who had requested it, for example, this chapter is dedicated to Wolflover595. This chapter is told in Brick's POV.
So remember, you can send in song requests through PM or reviews.
Disclaimer: the song Dagger belongs to The Wanted and Total Drama belongs to Teletoons, not me.
Oh and according to Jo's bio, her favorite movie is Charlie's Devils, most likely a spinoff of Charlie's Angels for copyright reasons.
P.S. this is an updated version. I realized i made some mistakes and it was kinda bugging me so... eh.
P.P.S. I hope you enjoy and R&R!
"Brick I'm leaving," sighed the girl sitting next to me. I glanced at her with widen eyes, She can't be serious! Though she had threatened this before… She is bluffing right? I looked into her eyes for any hope that she was playing me, that what she said was a little game, but I saw no mischievous glint like I'd hoped; just pure seriousness. She got up off the couch, walked upstairs, and stayed up there for about fifteen minutes
I heard her almost silent footsteps come down the stairs as I let her words sink in, "Brick, I'm leaving." Leaving, I never thought we would come to a point in our relationship one of us would have left without much of a warning. I watched as she walked to the door, then stopped abruptly, and turned towards me," You gonna be alright? You know, without me and all?" Her question had caught me off guard. Did she want me to make her stay, or is this her way of saying we could still be best friends just not lovers anymore? Man Jo still confuses me, even after all this time I knew her.
Stay,
Won't beg you to stay,
Go, yeah I'll be okay,
Won't kill me this way, oh oh,
At least that's what I'll say
I forced myself to stare into her beautiful eyes, "Yeah, I'll be fine. I've been through worse before, right?"
No, you don't have to know,
The wounds that hurt me the most,
Cause I'll never show,
Just how deep they go
That's why I'm telling you,
She gave me a look of disbelief like she couldn't believe how much she wasn't hurting me, yet that was nothing, but a facade. Even though she's always been one to show how she loved me by injuring me in some way. One time, it was my pride and feelings, another it was physically. Most would have left her already, but I couldn't do that to her. She was just too precious to my heart and soul, almost like I had found my missing piece, and now she's leaving me and our memories behind for I reason I may never know. "Trust me Jo, I'll always have your back, even if you don't have mine," I tell her, trying my best not to let my voice crack. Surprisingly, it didn't, but that didn't stop my eyes from threatening to tear up. She walked out the door without another word; breaking my heart more and more by the second.
[Two weeks later]
Every time you have to go,
I don't think you even know,
It's like a dagger in my heart
Every time you have to leave,
Can't believe it cuts so deep
It's like a dagger in my heart,
Even after two weeks, I still see her beautiful smile in my dreams, believe she is lying next to me in the night and breakdown and cry when reality hits me. She's gone, she really is gone. I feel as if someone had walked up to me and pierced a dagger right through my heart.
Dagger, dagger, oh oh
Dagger, dagger, oh oh
Dagger, dagger,
It's like a dagger in my heart,
Dagger, dagger, oh oh
Dagger, dagger, oh oh
Dagger, dagger,
It's like a dagger in my heart,
I walked over to our rosewood bookshelf and pulled out a scrapbook full of pictures from Jo and my teen years to a few weeks ago on my birthday. I opened it up and stared at the first picture, it was of the most beautiful girl of my life smirking arrogantly at the camera. I had burst into tears while looking at the picture her and I at senior prom. She wore a light lavender dress that went past her knees, a necklace I had gotten her for her birthday, and black heels. I was smiling happily at the camera with my arm around her waist. That was the second best day of my life. The first was when she actually agreed to go out with a loser like me. Every page I had turned made me cry harder and harder as if that dagger is getting pushed even further into my heart.
Strong I thought I was strong,
These scars would heal before long,
I guess I was wrong,
And I'm too far gone,
I put the book back where she kept it; she was always keeping the house clean without much of a spot left. I fell to my knees and closed my eyes remembering the gentle feel of her pink lips upon mine, the smooth touch of her skin against mine, even her competitiveness on anything and everything. It's funny because before I met her, I thought I was so strong incapable of actually falling in love. Now I think I am so much in love and so hurt; I'm just to far gone for anyone, but her to save me.
Try, I know I should try,
To just get on with my life,
But I'm staying awake tonight,
There's some loves you can't survive, No~
Everything about her drove me insane maybe that's why I felt myself fall even closer to depression every day, but I still have a small flicker of hope. Maybe she just wants a cool down from our relationship. Yeah that's it! We must have moved a bit too fast for her liking! I think with a slight smile as I trudge upstairs to our-no my bedroom. I lie there and close my eyes imagining her next to me sleeping soundly, but then she gave me a glare and disappeared, my eyes shot open faster than Lightning. Why do I even try? I know I can't survive without her, the fastest and strongest woman I've ever met, so why really try to keep caring on? Is it because I would feel so guilty if she came back and I was gone?
That's why I'm telling you,
Every time you have to go,
I don't think you even know,
It's like a dagger in my heart
Every time you have to leave,
Can't believe it cuts so deep
It's like a dagger in my heart,
My mind starts to wander back to when she left, "Brick I'm leaving." I want-no NEED to know why she left. I closed my eyes and held her pillow close to my body, it still faintly smells like her, I thought as a tiny smile crossed my lips, lavender. I breathed in the scent as if my life depended on it.
Dagger, dagger, oh oh
Dagger, dagger, oh oh
Dagger, dagger,
It's like a dagger in my heart,
Dagger, dagger, oh oh
Dagger, dagger, oh oh
Dagger, dagger,
It's like a dagger in my heart,
The tears fell silently as that invisible dagger took another stab at my heart. Why? That question keeps popping up in my head every day, why did she leave me?
The last words I would say
Is, there ain't anyone else,
Can take this pain away
[Two days later]
I woke up at six just like we did before and turned to tease her when I realized I'm alone now. I glanced downward getting lost in my thoughts. My thoughts were stopped abruptly by some knock on the door downstairs. I ran down the stairs hoping and praying that it's Jo. I open the door excitingly just to see Zoey, Mike, and Cameron on the porch, "Hi," I say sadly. I open the door wider ushering them in and I slowly close my door and sigh.
"Oh Brick, are you still down about Jo?" Zoey asked gently, while putting her small hand on my broad shoulders. All I could do was look down and nod slowly as she pulled me into a small hug.
"Dude, I know you love Jo," Mike started, "But there a plenty of strong woman out there, ya just gotta find her."
Cameron nodded in agreement as Zoey let go of me, "Brick, Mike is right; it's ok to miss her just give some other girl a chance."
I shake at him, "No, I can't. No one could ever make me fall again! It's Jo, or nothing!" I said more harshly than planned. "I-I'm sorry," I began to apologize, "It's just…. I-I can't get over her. She was my everything and… still is." Once again tears fell softly down my cheeks; I just let them fall, each tear representing the shattered pieces of my heart.
Zoey grabbed my hand gently, "It's ok, Brick. Just know we are here for you and always will be friends, right?" she looked at me with a sad smile. I smiled back gently and gave her a small hug.
Mike playfully smacked my back, "That's right, friends never give up on one another!" Cameron nodded once again in agreement and silently waved goodbye. I waved to all three as they left, leaving me all alone again. Even with their help, the pain of her leaving would never go away.
That's why I'm telling you,
Every time you have to go,
I don't think you even know,
It's like a dagger in my heart
Every time you have to leave,
Can't believe it cuts so deep
It's like a dagger in my heart,
The loneliness crept on to me again as I staggered to the couch and fell softly on its awaiting confort. I turned on the television volume as loud as it could go, then I put her favorite movie, Charlie's Devils into the DVD player, and hit play.
Dagger, dagger, oh oh
Dagger, dagger, oh oh
Dagger, dagger,
It's like a dagger in my heart,
Dagger, dagger, oh oh
Dagger, dagger, oh oh
Dagger, dagger,
It's like a dagger in my heart,
As soon as the movie started, I felt that dagger worse than ever before. It was constantly attacking my poor beaten heart as I cried harder than I ever had before. The tears wouldn't stop falling down my face like rain.
Every time you have to go,
I don't think you even know,
It's like a dagger in my heart
Every time you have to leave,
Can't believe it cuts so deep
It's like a dagger in my heart,
The tears kept falling down as I clutched the remote harder into my hand. The dagger had finally cut so deep, my whole world swirled around me and finally faded into darkness.
An: *cries* I feel so bad for you Brick! *hugs him* (You can give him a hug too, he might need it after the heartbreak he just went through) No, I did not kill him, he just passed out with so many emotions running through his mind and the fact he hadn't slept in two weeks.