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The new year had come and gone. JJ's resolution had been simply to end things with her long-term boyfriend. She had put it off for much longer than she had anticipated. The fact that it happened to be Valentine's Day and Will had mentioned none to subtlety that he had planned on asking her something very important, only helped to push her conviction along that she and Will just wasn't what her heart was into any longer. JJ stood there, with an opened red card with two matching red ribbons in her hand. The card that simply said to her that she was a terrible person. The card, in actuality, told her in what she figured was supposed to be read in a heartwarming tone, that Will was madly in love with her and hoped this Valentine's day would be life-altering for them. Will had left rose petals strewn about and candle lit in their shared bedroom. Any girl would be so lucky at the care and thought behind this gesture. JJ just bit her lip, hard enough to draw blood, as she waited for his impending arrival. She hadn't meant to tell him tonight. She just kept putting it off and now she was going to end up breaking his heart on one of the worst days to do it. Henry was already asleep, snug in his bed, after gorging on holiday candies, mainly red suckers. She heard someone opened the door, she could tell it was Will, even if she hadn't been expecting him, he always smelt of sandalwood and old spice deodorant. JJ tried to smile at the man she was had tried so hard to love the way she should for so long now. It wasn't as if she didn't or hadn't loved him, it just wasn't the kind of love she should be feeling for him. To use Hotch for example, even just a brief touch of the hands in a very formal handshake, gave her tingles to her spine than a supposedly passionate kiss with Will. It wasn't Will's fault. It was all JJ's. Always JJ's fault. She was always running, and here shortly, she would be doing it again.
Will walked towards her, snapping her out of her never-ending though process. He gathered her in his arms and pulled her into a sweet kiss. JJ immediately felt guilty. Will did not waste any time, he got down on one knee and held out a ring box that JJ somehow had missed seeing him pull out. Will started talking, an earnest look appearing on his face. JJ tried to follow what he was saying, but felt she had no right to hear his sincere proposal since she was going to say no in the end. She felt like she was always saying no to him. JJ took a large gulping breath. It was now or never. She told Will to stand up and whispered that she was sorry. Will stood as he was told and looked at her a mixture of hurt and concern, for JJ already had tears streaming down her pretty face.
"JJ, what's wrong? Love, did I say something to offend you? I've practiced this speech for months now. I've actually had the first draft on hold since I met you. I'd hate to think all the effort was just to make you cry." Will said, hoping against hope she was crying happy tears, but knowing deep down inside he was in for a severe let-down.
JJ tried to calm herself, wiping her eyes furiously every few seconds. "Will, I'm so sorry. The proposal was beautiful, any woman would love to hear you say it to them. " JJ said, nearly kicking herself as she saw the crestfallen look on his face.
"Any women? What about you JJ? You're my girlfriend, we have a son together! I thought we had a good, no, great thing going here. Baby, what happened?" Will asked, he himself close to tears. His dreams were crashing all around him.
"Will, I hate that I'm doing this to you. It's nothing you did. You've been a great boyfriend, in fact, the best boyfriend I've ever had. You're a perfect father to Henry, he idolizes you." JJ said, straight from the heart, hoping she could make him smile, just a little, with her praise.
Will shook his head. "If that's true, JJ, why don't you want to marry me? Do you need more time? I've waited this long, I can wait longer." Will said, once again hoping for the best.
JJ wiped more tears. "Will, it's not that I don't want to get married to you today, it's that I don't want to get married to you any day. I'm not in love with you anymore. I've tried so hard to feel the same way that I used to about you, believe me I've tried. I just don't. I'm so sorry." JJ said with a heavy heart, finding this much harder to be than she had imagined.
Will was silent for a long time, when suddenly he spoke again. "Is there someone else?"
JJ's eyes jumped to his and saw no accuation there, only saddened curiousity. JJ didn't find mentioning her crush on Hotch to be relevant. He wasn't the reason for things not working out with Will.
"No. There's nobody else. I'm sorry I waited so long to tell you, and ruined your Valentine's day. It was really beautiful, Will." JJ said, reaching for his hand. He let her place her hand in his, savoring the moment, until he pulled it away, as if in pain.
"JJ, I can't say I'm not utterly crushed right now, because I am. I'm devastated. As much as I hate what's happening between us right now, considering I'm the one here who doesn't have a problem with our relationship, I can't fault you for telling me how you feel. I wish you didn't feel the way you do, and I wish you had told before I poured my heart out to you in the proposal. Thank you for being honest with me." Will said, diplomatically.
JJ didn't hesitate and only hoped he wouldn't push her away when she pulled him into a tight hug. After awhile of the two former lovers pulled away from each other, both devastated for different reasons.
Will looked over at the mother of his child. "So, what are we going to do about living situations and Henry? We've never had to discuss any of this before."
JJ frowned. "You can keep the apartment, I'll get a place closer to headquarters. You know you can see Henry anytime you want, but while we get everything settled and worked out, I'd like him to stay with me." JJ said quietly but assertively.
Will nodded in return. "That sound fine, JJ. I'd like to see him as much as possible."
Will placed a soft kiss on JJ's cheek and walked out of the room, saying he was going to sleep on the couch tonight, leaving JJ to set on the bed, wiping the tears that never quite stopped flowing.