You guys must think I'm horrible! I honestly can't believe how long I am taking with the updates but I'll tell you why, between Junior Varsity volleyball, babysitting my baby brother and trying to get ready for my Alberta trip next week I have found myself completely exhausted at the end of the night, which is when I usually write. I am going to Alberta for a week next friday ( :) first time on a plane!) and I wanted to get at least one more chapter up before I left, is everyone excited for easter? Enjoy :)

I sit dumbfounded in second period as the teacher walks around the classroom, Lissa and Christian try to pull me into their conversations but I can't hold my focus, all I can think about is my feelings for Dimitri, and how wrong they are.

"Rose are you okay?" Lissa's big green eyes stare at me in concern, her and Christian were whispering earlier and I'm guessing it was about me, I can see him glancing at our conversation with a dulled down version of Lissa's concern in his eyes, he'd never admit it but I think he cares about me, well I'll never sdmit I care about him either, the last thing he needs is an ego boost.

"Yeah I'm fine Liss, just quiet today." I hope she will just drop it, usually her caring nature is good but right now I could do without it.

"This morning you were fine, did something happen in detention that is bothering you?" The teacher is now starting to glare at our chatting but otherwise stays silent, guess she has learned something in the past weeks of having me in her class, " Mr. Belikov isn't being too mean to you is he, if he is we could go to the principle privatly, or I could go if you didn't want to. You would tell me if he was being excessivly rude to you, right?" She is so absolutely far from the truth I let a small laugh escape, Christian relaxes but Lissa won't budge, guess she has also learned something from being with me for these weeks. "Why are you laughing, this is serious!"

"Lissa calm down, I'm laughing because your questions are so absurd." she gives me the no bullshit expression but I continue, "You see how Dimitri acts towards me before and after detention, hell you were even there for one of them. You know that he is far nicer to me than he should be, I know I'm a little off today but I promise it's nothing and, if Dimitri ever turns into a ogre I promise I'll tell you" I have her laughing by the end of it so I figure I'm safe for now, I do want to tell Lissa about how I feel sometime but right now I don't plan on doing anything about it so I find no reason to start something over nothing, I will tell her though when th time is right. They both leave me to my thoughts until half way through third period, this is the only class I have without Lissa so I guess it's just me and lover boy, and I'm starting to think I've somehow pissed off the universe when he decideds to take Mason's spot and sit beside me, Mason walks by and raises one eyebrow before sitting beside Eddie in the back of the class, I am starting to wonder if I can avoid the awkward conversation that is bound to happen right when Christian opens his mouth.

"So Rose I'm guessing you know I'm not sitting beside you out of my pure love for being near you," I roll my eyes, well isn't this off to a great start, "and even though I could do without you I have noticed that today you're not your usual self, look I know you're hiding something from Lissa and I thought maybe you might want someone unopiniated to talk to." I do a double take to make sure he is completely serious, which he is. I stutter for a few minutes, stop look at him and then look away before I can even think of a response, I am so confused that I don't know what to say.

"Um Christian?"

"Yes Rose?" He looks sort of hopeful, I can't help but be weirded out by this caring and senstive Christian, he scares me.

"I'm going to try to put this delicately but, are you high?" To my surprise he burst out laughing.

"No I just wanted to see how serious it was by judging your reaction, obviously it can't be too bad, or you would be more awkward. I guess if you wanted to talk about it I could um, yah know talk but ah, I don't know." He is so uncomfortable that I decide to have some fun and get revenge for all of his tormenting.

"Yah actually I would like to talk about it." I look down and my books to try to seem nervous, I took an acting class back home as a slacker period and I'm glad to see it finally go to use.

"Um okay, so what's been bothering you?" He shifts in his chair, I almost start to laugh but I somehow manage to keep a straight face, I can't wait to tell Liss about this later!

"Okay I can't tell Lissa yet but there is this guy I really really like," I try to stick close to the truth to be more convicing, "and I mean he is totally hot but he is not right for me you know what I mean. He and I would be good together but people would make fun of me if I dated him." Or you know charge him with rape, it's an either or situation.

"Well, um, you should just ignore the other people and go for what you want. You're a good person Rose I'm sure you'll find someone." He pats me on the arm and that's when I lose it. I am through into a fit og laughter that I can't control, Christian looks confused which only adds to the humor of it. Watching his face slowly light up as he begins to understand is the best part.

"Is there something you'd like to share with the class Ms. Hathaway?" I hate this social studies teacher and she hates me, this will not go well.

"Not really no, but thanks for asking." Everyone in the class is laughing now but her face goes bright red.

"Do you think you're funny?" She asks her voice raising a few octaves.

"Well obviously everyone else does." I say adding in my "above the rules" smile, I don't know which one it is that pushes her over the line but I can't say I'm surprised when she "politely" asks me to leave the room, I get up with as much dignity as I can but I have to stop myself from slamming the door, I have a feeling I will be here for a while so I take a seat on the floor with my back against the lockers, I am actually starting to dooze off when a voice startles me awake.

"Rosemarie Hathaway what are you doing in the hallway?" It's Dimitri who is towering over me, from my spot on the floor he looks almost eight feet tall, he squats down until he is at my eye level. "Why are you in the hall Rose?" He is trying to be open minded but I can tell he already knows I've done something.

"Well, I started to laugh at Christian because he was being unintentionally funny, and the the teacher started talking to me and one thing lead to another and then she told me to go out in the hallway." His laughter is surprising but welcome, I just realized how much I love the sound of it.

"And let me guess, you are completely innocent?" His playful banter raises my dark mood and I being to let go of my earlier confusion. It is so easy to be with him, I feel like I can be myself and don't have to worry about anything.

"I'm glad I've got someone on my side Comrade." He smiles then stands up, I consider staying on the floor but can't refuse taking his hand to help me up, I also can't ignore the rush of heat I feel go through me when our skin makes contact, I'm not sure but I think he feels it too. I can't believe how insane this all is, I shouldn't be feeling these kind of things for an older guy, let alone my teacher!

"Back to earth Rose." Dimitri laughs while waving his hand in front of my face, it's hard not to get mesmerized by his stunning looks, even if I can't accept my feels for him I will admit he's the hottest thing I've seen.

"Sorry just kind of zoned out there for a minute." I shake my head ot get rid of my lightheadedness, it's impossible to thinnk that one person can effect you so much, we are both just standing staring at eachother when th sound of clicking heels interputs our moment.

"I better go Rose, you really don't need anymore trouble and I could go without a lecture." A turns to smile at me as he walks away, people might think he looks good when he is serious but to me he is the most handsome when he smiles. I think mayeb part of the reaosn I like them so much is becaus ethye are so rare, or well at leats they were until a few days ago, now it seems like we spend all of our time joking around. I am so deep in my thoughts that I just barley notice Ms. Richard come out of the classroom, some of her anger has died down since our last encounter but she is nowhere near happy.

"Look Rose, I'm not sending you out here because you aren't smart enough to get the lesson or because you are incapable of doing the work, you are! That's what frustrates me, you could go so far with your knowledge but you waste your school time goofing off, don't you see what your doing?" It's the teachers like this I find it the hardest to be rude to, she doesn't mean anything by her words, she isn't even being harsh with me so that's why for the first time in my life I give a authority figure the answer they want to hear just to make them happy.

"I know school is important but it really doesn't have much to do with my job, or at leats what I want to be." I've wanted to help people all my life, wanted to protect the ones I love from harm. It's for that reaosn I decided to go into the crime field, if I have any luck I hope to get a job doing undercover work or gaurding someone.

"And what would that be?" She has a slightly sarcastic look an her face which doesn't surprise me at all, she actually is like a more respectfula nd mature version of me.

"A special agent," she laughs at first but I keep going, "I want to protect people just like you liek to help people gro and learn, it's what we're born for." I say this because the first day I walked into her room I could tell that she was one of the good ones. Not the teachers that keep glancing at the clock waiting for 3:05 but the ones who take pride in their job and actually care about how the students are learning, these are the type of teachers I have a slight respect for. Not that that means I don't have a problem with mouthing off when the time comes, just that I'd rather not.

"I understand, now would you please come back quietly into the classroom and try not to cause anything else for the last fifteen minutes of class." To my great surprise she smiles as she opens the door for me, I feel a shift in our relationship, not a big one btu it's there. Christian is caught between laughing at my misfortune and glaring at me as I take my seat beside him when I catch him looking at me I just stick out my tongue, and shockingly staying almsot silent for the rest of the class, guess some miracles do happen. Lunch is very welcome though when we are released from the class, Lissa got out before me and has both of our lunches waiting for me, we know eachothers lock combo's and have made it a custom for the one who gets out earlier to be waiting, with food, for the other. It works great for me because I'm almost always late, good thign Liss doesn't mind too much.

"Don't you have somewhere to be?" Christian asks as we walk down the stairs to the cafieteria, he is still obviously not happy with me.

"Oh now stop, you know you love me." I go over the top with the extra bright smile and batting my eyelashes. Appaerntly Lissa figures it's better to not ask and stay out of this one, and for that I am grateful. If Christian brought up that I have a secret, or even made up one for a prank it would make her wonder. I really do hate keeping secrets from her. Partly because she is so caring and also becaus ehse keeps almost nothing from me, I tell myself I'm just waiting for the right time to sooth my consious but I really have no clue what will happen.

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