CHAPTER THREE
Rory
Later that night, I called Colin and Finn, who shared an apartment down the block from mine.
"So I ran into someone today, actually, Cameron did when she was lost."
"Who?" Colin asked.
"Her father, known to the world as Logan Huntzberger."
"Oh." He said, then got quiet. He was caught and he knew it.
"He said both you and Finn knew he was coming back. Why didn't you tell me?"
"I didn't know how Rory. I mean he is Cammie's father."
"I know that Colin" I said, getting frustrated.
"He deserves to know her"
"I know that too" I said softly "I just don't know how I am supposed to tell him."
"How about I invite him over tomorrow night, that way you could talk to him when you pick Cameron up."
"Thank you." I accepted, that defiantly make things a little easier.
"No problem, see you tomorrow."
"Bye." I hung up and signed. I went to sleep that night and dreamed that I had told Logan when I found out about Cameron. Logan didn't go to California and we were happy, raising Cameron. I went to work that day just imaging how he would react to the news that he was a father for five years. There were butterflies in my stomahc by the time I got to the apartment. I rang the doorbell. Fill answered.
"Hey Love." He said sympathetic.
"Hey Finn" I reconized that look, I had gotten it many times before. "Did you dye Cameron's hair purple again?"
"No, not this time. Cammie is sleeping on the coach and Logan is watching T.V."
"Thanks" I went into the familar apartment.
"I think i'm just going to go in my room" Colin said, pulling Finn into the hallway and into his own room.
"That was weird" Logan commented.
"Yeah well, it's Colin and Finn" I sat next to Cameron on the couch and played with a blond curl.
"She looks like you, you know" Logan told me. I laughed softly. I was reminded of Logan everyday by looking at her. "She looks like her Fahter" We both were quiet for a moment.
"Who is her Father" Logan asked quietly. I knew he had to have been wondering since she found out I was her Mother.
"Logan..." I started to explain, trying to keep it unemotional. He buried him face in his hand.
"I can't believe you didn't tell me I fathered a child!"
"You left Logan. You went to Califonia" I said.
"You still could have told me"
"Why? For you could come back to me and feel trapped? I don't think so"
"I loved you Rory. I would have found a way" If I was going to do this without breaking down, I had to leave, now.
"I have to go. I have to get up early tomorrow"
"We are not done talking about this" He said firmly.
"I need to get Cameron home" I said, picking the girl up.
"Come on honey, time to go home" I comforted the suddenly awaken girl.
"I'll walk you" Logan offered.
"Logan, you don't have to" I told him, giving him a way out.
"No, I want to" He insisted. "Can I carry her?"
"Sure" I said, placing the sleeping girl in his arms.
"She's beautiful" Logan told me. I smiled.
"She is" I said, smoothing the girl's hair. "I live down the street"
We walked together to my apartment. I led Logan to Cameron's room. We stood ackwardly in my livingroom.
"I'm sorry Logan. I thought it was best" I told him.
"I understand I guess, but I do think something should happen though"
"Like what?"
"Like us getting married"
"Your kidding" I looked at him, he wasn't joking. "Your not"
"No, I'm not"
"I can't marry you Logan"
"Why? We used to love eachother"
"Exactly. We used to, we're different people now" I reasoned.
"Your still Ace"
"If you want to be in Cameron's life, I welcome you, but I can't marry you"
"I want to be in my daughter's life, you know" I looked at him, he looked so helpless. I felt sorry for him, I never wanted to hurt him like this.
"I know Logan"
"Can I come over tomorrow to spend some time with Cameron?" He asked.
"It's sure she'd like that" I said while me and Logan were walking to the door.
"Goodnight Ace" Logan said to me.
"Goodnight Logan" I said, closing the door.
Logan
I walked back to Colin and Finn's apartment. Once inside, I sank into the couch. I couldn't believe my day./
"How long have you guys known?" I asked. I wanted the holes filled in.
"Lorelai called to try and help" Colin admitted.
"Help with what?" I questioned.
"She was a mess man. She wouldn't eatt or even leave her room. It was even worse when she found out she was pregnant"
"Why didn't you guys tell me?" I had talked to both of them. They had mentioned Rory a handlefull of times.
"She asked us not to, she didn't want to force you to come back"
"It would not of been like that. You guys know that"
"She made us promise Mate" Finn added.
I got quiet. I hadn't relized how much I had hurt Rory when I left. I hated that I wasn't around through her pregnancy and I wasn't there when she gave birth to Cameron, but at least Colin and Finn were.
"She's beautiful" I said outloud. "She looks so much like Rory"
"She does, but Rory always say she looks like you"
"She's blond" I said, smiling. I had always pictured a child of Rory's brunnette.
"Well, so is her Father" Colin said trying to calm me down a bit. I was still processing all of this.
"I think i'm going to go home, I'm going over Rory's tomorrow after work to spend some time with Cameron" I told them.
"Alright man, I guess We'll see you later" Finn said. I got up and walked to the door.
"Logan?" Colin asked me and I stopped.
"Yeah?"
"You still love her, don't you?"
"I don't think I ever stopped" I answered before closing the door behind me.