Don't Let Me Get Me
Chap 3
A/n: Weird story!!!! Let's go!!!!
The feeling you get something's wrong is in my stomach. It's the middle of the night and I'm tossing and turning. Something's wrong! Something's happened to Lani! I grab my cell and press his speed-dial number. It rings out. I dial again, it still rings out. I'm scared. What if the house has burned down? His appendix has burst? He's had his tonsils out? He's been kidnapped? He's been murdered? I dial again. This time I'm answered.
"Missy?" a panicked voice asks.
"Lani?" I reply.
"Wh-why-why are you phoning?" Lani stutters.
"I got a huge not in my stomach, I thought something was wrong!" I explained.
"Nothing's wrong! I'm all right!" Lani whispers soothingly.
"Hang up!" I hear in the distance from his end.
It's a girl. Wait, it's Talia! She's in his room in the middle of the night! Oh my god! I risked everything for him. I'm here coz of him.
"Missy? You still there?" Lani asks nervously.
I hang up. I don't think they miss me at all. He's sleeping with my best friend. My very best friend. I want to scream, scream until this whole school falls down. Scream until I die. I don't wanna risk waking Quinn up though. I lie back and look at the time on my cell. 1 Am. I can't believe him. He slept with my best friend. She slept with him. He's my step brother. What was I thinking?
"Missy? What's wrong?" Quinn yawns, all my tossing and turning must have woken her up.
"It doesn't matter! Nothing!" I lie.
"Goodnight, then!" Quinn mumbles.
I want to scream. He can't have. I love him. I risked everything for him. And her. I don't know where to start. How can someone I trusted so badly sleep with someone I risked everything for? Now I know why she told me not to do anything not because she didn't want me to get hurt, but because she wanted him for herself.
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I'm so tired, but all I can do is make up excuses as to why she would have been in my boyfriend's room. There are none. None as to why she would have told him to hang up. None as to why she would have been there at 1 am. I can't be bothered to meet Dana. I can't be bothered to eat. I can barely be bothered to go to class. I need to know I'm loved. I'm not loved by my dad, I have no mom and now I'm not loved by my ex-boyfriend or my ex-best friend. Hannah and Katya never loved me they just liked to watch the soap opera I call my life. Talia, Lani, how could you? With my best friend Lani, why? What have I ever done to deserve this? Nothing that's what. Nothing.
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Dana keeps trying to catch my eye. So does Logan. Quinn keeps looking at me nervously, and then whispering to Zoey, Nicole and Lola. It's so embarrassing. I must look awful. White skin, tatty hair, no make up, baggy clothes. God, just imagining myself is murder. I'm not gonna do anything about it though. Who cares!? So I look a state, that's to be expected as I have been cheated on by my boyfriend with my best friend! I don't even care anymore. I could go on staring at the desk all day. Or not…..
"Missy, would you mind paying attention?!" Mr. Bender shouted at me across the room.
I snap back and look up. He sees my dark circles under my eyes, my tear stained cheeks and knotted hair. He suddenly looks guilty. I can feel everyone else's eyes burning my skin. I hate being centre of attention. I hate fusses.
"Would you mind stepping outside?" he asks quietly.
The room falls silent as twenty pairs of eyes follow my every move.
"Carry on!" Mr. Bender orders.
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Outside the room he faces me. He looks into my eyes.
"Missy, what's wrong?" he asks kindly.
I can hold it back any longer. I burst into tears. My face floods.
"Would you rather talk to a psychiatrist?" he bites his lip.
I shake my head.
"Then, tell me!" he half orders.
"The whole reason I'm in this hell hole of a school in a first place is because of him! So what does he do? He cheats on me with my best friend! It's not fair! I loved him!" I spill everything.
Mr. Bender looks startled. A fresh flow of tears floods my face.
"Would you like to see Nurse Krutcher?" he asks eventually.
I shake my head roughly. He opens the classroom door and gestures for me to walk in.
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I've been avoided like the plague since I talked to Mr. Bender. Every time someone's about to walk my way, another, from my class, grabs them and whispers something stupid to them and they divert their travels. Dana's tried to talk to me, but when she comes towards me I walk away. I don't know what the rumor is about me, but I'm sure about one thing, it's wrong. I just turned on my cell and there are twenty-five text messages, fifteen from Lani and ten from Dana. All of Lani's say 'We nd 2 tlk.' And Dana's all say 'Tlk 2 me.'. Only I'm not up to talking to anyone. Really I'm not. Every teacher has taken me out of class to ask me if I needed to see the nurse or the psychiatrist. I just politely say no thanks and walk back in the class. I get odd looks form everyone. Anyone who doesn't give me odd looks soon does as someone tells them something idiotic. Great, I just got two more texts. One from Talia and one from Dana. Talia's says 'Tlk 2 Lani. Lst nght was a mistake.' and Dana's says 'I'll kick ur ass if u dn't tlk 2 me!'. How nice to know you're loved! Psych! I text Talia back, 'In ur dreams! I ht u + Lani! Go shoot urself for all I care!'. There's no point texting Dana as she coming over.
"What is with you?" she demands.
"He cheated on me with Talia!" I whisper.
"Oh! Everyone thinks you're a psycho who tried to kill yourself, but didn't succeed and so every teacher has to take you out the class to check you're still alive!" Dana explained.
"That's why they're avoiding me! Although the suicide bit does sound inviting!" I semi-joked.
"Don't be stupid! I don't expect even Logan to do something like that! I can't believe you!"
"All I said is that it's a good idea!"
"If you attempt suicide, I will kill you!"
"Wouldn't I already be dead?"
"You know what I mean! Ever since I've come to PCA you're the only person that's ever got me for me! I couldn't bear to lose that or you!"
A/n: An eventful and repetitive chapter I'd say, but what do you think????? What do you think will happen next????