Hey everyone, I hope you had a great Christmas. Here is chapter 3 for you! I hope you enjoy it! I'm looking for a beta to help me with my story, so let me know if you are interested!
EPOV
The week flew by - I was still thinking about Bella. Every time I saw someone with brown hair on the street I double checked to see if it wasn't Bella. I was so disappointed that I didn't find a note with her number on it after she left my apartment. I wanted to see her again, I wanted to feel her again.
It was Saturday morning and I was laying in my bed. This afternoon was Noah's birthday party and I wasn't in the mood for it. I already wasn't, but since last week even more. I missed the weekly dinner with my parents, but I didn't want to face them. I was feeling sorry for myself and it was a bit pathetic.
I tried to go to a club yesterday, but when I was there I couldn't do what I usually do. Several women approached me, but Bella was still stuck on my mind. I even went to the bar we met last week and I hoped that maybe she was there again, but she wasn't. I had no idea how I could get in touch with her and I told myself the whole week that I needed to get over her. If she liked me, she would have left something behind.
I was an asshole this whole week, filled with frustrations. My assistant said something about it and I sent her home. Bitch should know better to talk to me like that. I was in need of another assistant and that made my mood even worse.
Yesterday I was at the mall to pick up a gift for Noah and I thought that Bella changed things for me, but I found out that children were still little brats and I wanted nothing to do with them. There was this annoying kid that had a fit, because he didn't get what he wanted. He was crying and screaming and his mother was screaming back. Kids made you do crazy things and there was too much stress with it. Bella hadn't changed my mind about that.
But I do believe that there is a woman out there for me. I know it's weird to be thinking that after one night, but it's how I felt. I wished that I could see Bella again and I don't know what I would do then. I would probably say something about her not leaving something behind so that I could get in touch with her and then I would ask if she wanted to do something with me. Like a date or something. If Emmett could hear me know, he would laugh his ass off. I was thinking about dates and all that crap. This wasn't me.
Maybe she left nothing behind, because the night sucked for her. I panicked a little and started thinking about the things that I did for her. I did the things that I usually do and I even went down on her. I haven't done that in a while and she seemed to enjoy it. Was she faking the whole time?
I couldn't take it anymore and left my bed to go take a shower. I was expected at a party soon and I needed to get my act together. If I acted like a pussy my brother would immediately know and I wasn't in the mood for that. I would never hear the end of it.
I took my time in the shower and then I left for the office. I needed to get a few things done and then I could go to Alice's place. I quickly grabbed the present for Noah and got to my car. I was at the building in no time and went to my office. It was at the highest floor and I was there alone now. I loved the quietness and I could get some work done.
The alarm clock on my cell phone went off and it was time to go to Alice. They lived in a pretty house with a backyard and a dog. I was there too soon and I wanted to stay in my car for a moment, but Alice already had the front door open. I groaned out loud, because I wasn't ready to face the family.
I needed to stop thinking about Bella, I told myself. I was going to see my family and I didn't want them to figure things out. What happened that night was a secret and I didn't plan on telling my family.
"Edward! I'm so glad you're here," Alice said and gave me a hug. I hugged her back, because I loved her a lot. She was an amazing sister and helped me a lot when I started my business. She didn't agree with how I was treating women, but she couldn't do a thing about it and she accepted that.
"Anything for you," I said and that was crap.
"Shut up. You don't mean that," she said and she was onto me. I couldn't lie that good and especially not to Alice.
"Noah will be so glad to see you. Everyone is here already and he's been asking about you," she said and it was like she was telling me that it was a good thing that I showed up here.
"Uncle Eddie!" I heard and before I knew it someone was hugging my leg. I looked down and saw that it was Noah. I petted him on the head, because I had no idea what I was supposed to do.
"Happy birthday, Noah," I said to him and handed him his present. He ran off and I couldn't care. He would love my present and I made my way to the backyard. The weather was good so everyone was outside.
There was a seat between my mother and Emmett. It wasn't what I had planned, but it was the only choice.
Before I sat down I gave Jasper a hand and congratulated him with his son. I sat down next to my mother and gave her a kiss on her cheek. She loved it when I did that. I hoped she forgave me after the phone call last week and missing dinner this week. I called my dad when I knew that I wasn't going to make it to dinner. I was a coward, but I don't care.
Alice gave me a some of Noah's cake and he was playing with Parker. He showed me all the gifts he got and I knew that he was getting spoiled. It was nice that they could play together. Parker was only 3 years old, but they got along.
"So Eddie, how was that chick last week? Did you nail her?" Emmett asked me and my mother made her way to Emmett and hit him on his head. Rosalie followed after that.
"Don't talk like that Emmett and especially on a birthday party for kids," my mom said and shook her head. She didn't look at me and I knew that she was disappointed in me. That hurt a bit, because I'm a real momma's boy.
"Sorry, I'll rephrase my question. How was it last week?" he said and turned to me. I wasn't in the mood to brag about it, because it was something private this time.
I shrugged my shoulders and didn't look at him.
"Was she that bad? I'm sorry for you dude. She looked pretty good," Emmett said and I was starting to get pissed off. Bella was amazing, but I didn't want to talk about it. And she didn't look pretty good, she was beautiful.
"I don't want to talk about it," I said a little harsh and he got me. He made a noise and turned his back to me.
Emmett didn't say a word to me for the rest of the afternoon. Alice wanted us to stay for a barbecue and I agreed to it, because I wasn't in the mood for some take-out. I can't cook and a barbecue sounded okay.
The kids weren't that bad this afternoon. Noah came to get me to show his presents and his new room, a present from his parents, and that was it. Parker and Noah played and the adults talked. Not Emmett, at least not to me. Jasper was looking at me with a weird look on his face and I didn't trust it. He was onto me, but I didn't want to spill about that night.
My mom was quiet to me, she was still not happy that I didn't show up for dinner. It was important to her, because everyone showed up. That's right, I have to tolerate Noah and Parker at least once a week and that was already too much. My dad didn't care as much as my mother, but he thought it was important too and he wasn't afraid to say it. He called me last Friday to complain about how upset my mother was. Come on, it was just a dinner. They'll see me today and I think that's enough. And I wasn't in the mood to talk about my night with Bella.
I was sitting on a bench and everyone was busy with preparing dinner. The kids were still inside, playing with Noah's new toys and it was quiet.
"What's going on with you, Edward?" Jasper said as he sat down beside me. I knew this was his plan. He wanted me alone so he could talk to me. Jasper was a psychiatrist and knew about people's feelings. He knew that something was wrong and wanted to get it out of me.
"I'm doing good Jasper. What's going on with you?" I asked him back. I wasn't planning on spilling easy. If I wanted to talk to someone about my night with Bella, it would be Jasper. He would keep this to himself and maybe he had some advice on what to do.
"I'm doing perfect, but I'm worried about you," he said and I understand him. I missed one dinner and that was it.
"Because I missed dinner this week?" I asked him.
"Not only that, but you're acting different this afternoon too. You're quiet and look so deep in thought. That's not you, you usually talk with your dad about your work and with Alice about whatever you talk about and you don't talk like that to Emmett," he said and I took a sigh. Stupid Jasper who noticed everything.
"Look, I don't know what you're talking about. I just have some issues at work and that's it," I lied to him, but I wanted him to shut up. Alice kept looking over at us and it looked like she wanted to come over. I wasn't interested in talking about my sex life with Alice. I shook my head at her and she took the hint. She got back to fixing some side dishes for the barbecue.
"You can't lie to us, so you better make up a new excuse," Jasper said and slapped me on my back. I just ignored him and started in front of me.
"Well, if you're ready to talk you know that you can come to me," Jasper said and I started thinking about last week again. I needed to talk to someone about it.
"Wait! You won't talk to anyone?" I asked him and he shook his head.
"So, tell me what happened after we left the bar," Jasper said and I sighed one more time. I was having trouble with this.
"We stayed for a while and her friends left too. I wasn't ready to say goodbye to her, I don't know what was going on. The bar was closing and once again I couldn't say goodbye. I asked her if she wanted to come to my place. At first she seemed hesitant, but I told her that I didn't expect anything from her. Since when do I say that to women? That was probably my first warning sign. We took a cab to my apartment and I showed her around, something that I've never done. I don't take women back to my place, I always go back to theirs. She loved the view and she seemed nervous. I assured her once again that I didn't expect anything from her, she told me she was nervous and that she hadn't done this. I made some lame joke, but the tension was less. I started kissing her and we made out in the middle of my living room. Of course I wanted more and led us to the bedroom. I started doing things that I don't usually do. When I have a one night stand, we are both ready, but this time I took my time with her. Respected her body or something, I don't know what was going on. I even went down on her and that's a big no in the book of Edward Cullen. I was inside of her and it felt wonderful, like I was coming home or something. I wasn't rough with her and we took our time. It was done after a while and I left to the bathroom to clean myself up. When I got back in my room she was already in her clothes. She wanted to go home, because she thought that was the deal. I asked her to stay, another big sign that this was different. She stayed and we had sex once more then. I slept wonderful with her in my arms and when I woke up she wasn't in my bed. I thought she was in the bathroom or maybe the kitchen, but she left. Left nothing behind, not even a note. I only know her first name and that was it. I've been thinking about it the whole week and I can't get her out of my head," I told Jasper and he seemed shocked. He was speechless and he didn't talk for several minutes.
"Wow, this wasn't what I expected," Jasper said and his mouth was still open. Yeah, I was thinking that too.
"I'm just so confused," I said.
"I thought it was about something totally different. Like that she wasn't that good or that she did something else or something had happened. I had no idea that you were that interested in her. I knew that she was different, because you didn't act like you usually do, but this is a complete surprise," Jasper said and I just nodded. I had no words for this.
"So you don't know her last name or did she mention something about work?" Jasper said and I already thought of that. I thought hard about our conversation in the bar, but we talked about non-personal stuff and at that time I was okay with that. Now I wished I had asked her more, maybe asked her about her job.
"No, I don't know anything about her. Just that her name is Bella and that she's beautiful. We didn't talk about our personal lives so I have no idea how to get in touch with her. I even went to that bar again yesterday in the hopes of seeing her again," I said and Jasper looked deep in thought.
"Then I have absolutely no clue about how you can find her. I'm sorry, I guess you have to let fate decide if you are meant to be," Jasper said and I was a little angry at that. Fate was crap and I didn't believe in that. I just had to get over Bella and go back to my old life, the one I had before my night with Bella.
"Dinner's ready!" Alice announced and Jasper and I made our way to the porch and sat down in some chairs. He didn't mention a word about what we talked about and that's why I liked Jasper so much. Alice would understand too, she trusted Jasper that he would tell her things that were important, but he wasn't going to talk to her about things that he had sworn not to mention.
We ate and had fun. I acted more like myself and talked with everyone. After we were done, we all went home. The kids were exhausted and it was time for them to go to bed. Emmett had asked what my plans were for tonight, while wiggling his eyebrows, but I told him that I was going to be home… alone.
He seemed shocked after that, but I didn't care. I wanted to get my thoughts in order and figure out what I was going to do. Bella screwed everything up, but I didn't hate her for that. That's just a strong word, but I also didn't dislike her for it. She showed me what I could have in my life and I'm glad that I know that there's someone there for me too. Someone who could accept me for what I am, preferable without children. I know it seemed weird that I knew all that, just from a night with a beautiful woman, but my feelings weren't deceiving me. I just felt that way.
That weekend was spent in my apartment. I got some work done, even cleaned my apartment a little and that was it. I was looking forward to go to work again. I tried so hard to get Bella out of my mind, but I was having trouble with that. I made my mom happy by showing up on Sunday for dinner and I was forgiven. I was just getting lonely in my apartment and wanted some company. Someone who had brains and I could hold a conversation with. My dad had a shift at the hospital, he mentioned that on Saturday. Maybe it was a silent hint from him that I should go see my mother.
She didn't notice anything different about me and I was glad by that. We talked and watched some television. It was nice to have my mom alone for an evening. That's the only number one woman in my life at the moment.
It was a beautiful day outside and I decided to walk to my work. I did that more when the weather was good. I liked the feeling of walking around on the streets, getting fresh air and look at people. You could see a lot on the street and there were walking some pretty crazy people on the streets in Seattle. My mind was drifting off to Bella once again and every time I saw a woman with brown hair, the butterflies were going crazy in my stomach. But then I got disappointed again when the woman wasn't Bella. I had to accept that I wasn't going to see her again.
It was a month ago since that one night with Bella. I was getting back to my old life again. Although I didn't go out that much, I still had my fun with women. There weren't that many since that night, but I had my needs. Jasper and I never discussed that afternoon again, because we both knew that it was a hopeless case. I wasn't going to find her and I accepted that, a little.
I was walking to my work once again. The leaves were starting to fall and I loved this time of the year. Everything looked really good and I wanted to enjoy it as much as I could.
Sometimes I caught myself looking at a woman with brown hair, hoping that I would see Bella once again, but I never spotted her. There was a woman with brown hair and a body similar to Bella across the street. My nerves were going crazy and something told me that I had to go over there, to see if it was really her.
I crossed the street and my heart was going crazy. There she was, I finally saw my Bella.