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Chapter Three: Angel of Loneliness

I opened my eyes leisurely, with the feeling of a heavy presence in the room as the breeze from the bedroom window blew over my body leaving me cold. I rubbed my stomach, the familiar feeling of loneliness taking hold when something woke me up.

I re-opened my eyes at a soft touch on my hand, someone linking there fingers with mine and trapping me to the bed ever so gently. I looked up to see an un-identifiable figure hovering above me. Covered by the shadows in my darkened room, the outline could be seen and I knew this figure was a man, a beautiful man. I didn't scream, and I didn't call for help… I just stared up at him as he gazed at my face… could he see through the complete darkness? "Who are you…?" I mumbled in a dazed matter, a feeling of complete calm washing over me, washing away my loneliness. The man broke contact with my hand and placed a comforting finger to my lips.

"Sshhh, you will wake Akemi." The soft voice hushed. I gasped instantly, the voice sounded like his, and all of a sudden my mind was a complete blur spinning around in circles.

"Tidus…?" I said hazily, putting my hand to his cheek. But how could it be? Tidus was gone wasn't he? Who was this angel? Was I dreaming? "Am I dreaming?" I asked him running my fingers through his hair, which had an un-canny resemblance in softness to Tidus'.

He didn't reply, and stroked my cheek gently. "You're so lonely Yuna…" The man's voice quivered with fear as his hands freely explored my body. I leant back a little, in the farplane, as the in-identified man touched me gently, removing my clothing and placing soft kisses on my pristine skin that had only been touched by one man, he seemed to savour the taste of my skin as much as I savoured the kisses, and I felt myself grow weak. "I am so afraid you are about to break." He said digging into my neck. "Stay strong for your daughter, stay strong." He ran his fingers over my most private spot. My body screaming for more, it had been three years since I had experienced this feeling, and now I remembered why I missed it so much. I had been so tempted to become my own lover, trapped inside my own little world, caring for the little girl that kept me alive, the little girl I loved with all my heart. But I could never bring myself to do it, touch myself, the thought being so dirty and unclean to me.

"Oh Yevon… you have… to stop…" I moaned softly as his fingers moved in and out of my body, making it harder to resist by the second. I gasped few times receiving a chuckle from the man. Fingers? I had never had another man's fingers inside me before, and it felt so wonderful, this mans touch was managing to send a signal to my brain making it impossible to stop, my body was a traitor, his touch could freeze me, make me want to become a puppet, a sexual slave, just like Tidus had made me feel, but Tidus only wanted me, only wanted my love, but the man was so inexplicably charming I felt myself go limp every time he touched me. I had never felt like this… only with Tidus… and what I was doing was wrong, because there was only Tidus, he was the only man allowed to touch me. I had promised myself to him. "Stop please." I cried on the edge of an orgasm, finding it absolutely heart breaking to will myself to stop him. The man pulled his fingers out licking them greedily, before he went down taste me. I moaned this felt so right, yet disturbingly wrong; Tidus would always do that, claiming that he loved to taste me.

"I love to taste you Yuna." The man said in a heated passion licking me forcefully, I moaned again placing my hands over my forbidden spot of pleasure. My damned place of temptation, this was going to haunt me for the rest of my days. How could he love to taste me… unless he had tasted me before… who was this? I wanted to believe it was Tidus, but then if it turned out not to be him... the heartbreak.

"You're not allowed to do this to me…" I said quivering as he ran his hands down my arms. Tidus always did that. Why does this man have to be so much like Tidus it's killing me. "Are you Tidus?" I said simply awaiting the man's reply. He took his hands off me and sighed, and my eyes were starting to grow accustomed to the darkness revealing some outlines of his features. Looks so much like… but can't tell. "IS THAT YOU TIDUS?" I repeated again.

"I can't tell you." He said after a moment's silence.

"I am devoted to Tidus, even if he never is coming back, I can't let other men do this to me, especially not ones that wake me up hovering over my bed, even if this is a dream, I would hate to think another man made love to me in my dream, I just couldn't deal with these things." I said reaching for my long shirt and covering my body. The tingling was still running through me from the man's previous rubbing and I clasped my legs together, wishing that somehow maybe he would force himself onto me. Everything he did reminded me of Tidus, not one thing was yet out of place and I groaned as I shut my eyes.

"I wish he would come back to me." I cried bursting into tears and rolling over. The man immediately put his arms around me stroking my hair lovingly.

"Believe me Yuna, he is trying, and he is going to find a way." He said softly, his voice like a fading dream.

"Who are you…?" I asked turning on my back to look up at him.

"A man, that wants to be with you forever." He told me stroking my face.

"Can you just hold me please? I am so lonely at night, please hold me." I cried hoping and praying whoever this angel was, he would comply.

He wrapped his arms around me tightly, letting me cuddle into his chest. I sighed happily linking hands with him. "Whoever you are, thankyou." I said gratefully before slipping off to sleep.

I woke up in my bed alone. The warmth of a man still lingering in my bed, still lingering on my body. But the actual man… long gone. I sighed sitting up and wiping my forehead carefully. I had to admit how much more peaceful I felt with that man sleeping beside me, but I also couldn't help feel the twinge of guilt for letting him. Even though his resemblance to Tidus was well… he was Tidus, he was for me anyway, he was so much like Tidus I could pretend it was him, and never did he act out of place.

"Mummy…?" The little three year old called pushing the door open and stepping into my room. "Mummy… I'm hungry." She whined putting her hands on her hips, she was still so young, and she only knew simple sentences and phrases, just enough to get what she wanted it was adorable.

"Come here baby." I smiled dangling my feet over the bed and outstretching my arms to get ready for her flyer hug. She ran into my arms as fast as her little feet could carry her, and I fell back onto the bed kissing her locks of golden blonde hair playfully as she giggled into my neck. Squeezing my daughter tightly.

"Mummy, is daddy coming home today?" Akemi asked me resting on my breasts comfortably. I sighed with sadness… the little three year old asked the same question every day, and all it did was pain my heart.

I remembered telling her the stories of her father, how he was a hero, how we were both so in love, that he looked like an angel. She would always get so excited asking for me to tell the next part of the pilgrimage before she went to bed every night. So I told her little by little, filling the story with wonder and awe, and leaving out the horrible cruel parts, loving to watch the happiness in her eyes when ever I mentioned her daddy. It was my fault, I unable to bear the pain in her eyes whenever I said he wasn't coming home, so I had made up a lie, a lie that so far was working for both of us, false hope, that all started when I first saw that sphere… It looked like him but I couldn't tell for sure.

"I don't know hunny, that's why mummy has to go away with Rikku again to try and tell daddy that we miss him." I said sitting her up and bouncing her in my lap. Her bubbly face slowly faded to a frown.

"NO MUMMY, DON'T GO PREASE!" She cried wrapping her tiny arms around my neck.

"You will be with Aunt Lulu and Uncle Wakka, you love them don't you?" I said raising my eyebrows and tickling her violently. She erupted into a fit of giggles and started to roll around on the bed kicking her legs up in the air as I tickled her stomach playfully. "You love them don't you?" I said in a baby voice tickling her under her arms, and placing raspberries on her stomach.

"Yes mummy!" Akemi giggled asking me to stop loudly.

"Good! Now that that's settled, mummy's going to make you something to eat." I said picking her up in my arms and cradling her as we got to the kitchen. I placed her on her favourite seat, the bench… and whipped out the saucepan placing two chocobo eggs into it.

"Mummy, can I see the sphere with Daddy in it?" Akemi asked, as I wiped the bench clean and raised my head. I smiled weakly, hoping I was doing the right thing in showing her the sphere.

"Remember, it looks like Daddy, but something about him…" I said handing her the sphere to play with.

"Is a rittle off?" She giggled in her hardly developed voice.

"You're so smart!" I grinned returning to the eggs and flipping them. I had to admit, for one as young as her she did show incredibly signs of intelligence and maturity and when it came to her curiosity about Tidus, one could only admire her determination to one day meet him. Guess that's what you get when you make love to the most wonderful man in Spira. I grinned salting the eggs and serving them to my cherished daughter.

Akemi hardly noticed and watched the sphere intently, with the screaming man in the cage which was a spitting image of my lover. I sighed cutting the egg into triangles like Akemi liked it and jumped when I heard a knock at my now open front door.

"Lulu." I sighed with relief placing my hand to my heart. I guess after what happened last night I was just a little jumpy.

"Yuna it's nice to see you looking so cheerful for once." Lulu said stepping in with Vidina her child in her arms. I froze at her comment and returned to my usual bored look rolling my eyes playfully. Why was I so happy? Was it because of the man that had taken away my loneliness last night? Lulu raised an eyebrow at me and I stared over at my lovely daughter now digging into her eggs with appreciation, figuring that was the reason why I was so happy. Lulu nodded and smiled, she knew that child had saved my life, kept me living, kept me wanting to take the next breath of air.

"RURU!" Akemi exclaimed shoving her eggs into her mouth and running towards Lulu with her arms stretched out. She wrapped her arms around Lulu's leg for a hug and smiled.

"We really should help her with her L's Yuna…" Lulu smiled patting Kemi on the head. "She looks so much like... it always gets to me." Lulu said her eyes filled with sadness when I turned away.

"Thanks for taking her Lulu, Kem, give your mum a hug before you leave will you?" I smiled turning around and taking the young girl in my arms. "Mmm Mummy loves you vewy much." I said squeezing her tightly.

"Rove you to mummy." Akemi said pulling away and placing a small peck on my cheek.

"Be a good girl for Lulu." I scolded pointing my finger at her as she grabbed Lulu's hand. I smiled at her as she left feeling empty once again.

I sighed cleaning up the breakfast dishes with my wild thoughts running again. Rikku would be here very soon to pick me up. She got so excited whenever I went to sphere hunt with her again, and even Paine seemed grateful as well, but I just couldn't spend more then a few days away from my daughter, it killed me.

A few weeks after I had given birth to Akemi, Rikku returned with the sphere which looked like Tidus inside, claiming Kimahri had given it to her when they had gone to search for spheres. They called their group the Gullwings, it amused me somewhat, and due to the journey I had been forced to take a complete make over. Rikku picking out knew clothes for me, and I showing patriotism, sewed on the Zanarkand Abes symbol which kept my top together. At first my attire had been a little too showy for my taste, pants that I really couldn't compare to underpants, and a top that exposed my whole middle… it just didn't feel right. But I was happy to get rid of my summoners garments, and I had to change eventually even if I was somewhat forcing it… and I always did wonder what Tidus would think of it.

I wiped the dishes and stacked them away carefully, whistling aimlessly as I skipped to my room. Lulu was right, I was still a child. But what she didn't realise was that I had been forced to grow up that first year I decided to become a summoner. I had never lived the joys of a simple childhood. I dropped my nightgown to the floor, kicking it to the side of the room. It wasn't like me to be messy but I would just end up wearing it again tonight anyway. I pulled on my gunner dressphere coming across my songstress one in my pocket. Lenne. Why did that woman's name always come to me when I wore the dressphere? Oh it was beautiful, a work of art in clothing, something I felt so comfortable to wear. But rarely did I touch it after that time I couldn't control my body and just started dancing, then there was that strange dream I had had of me and Tidus dying in-front of a huge machina once falling asleep in the dressphere. Ever since then I had been scared to death, totally frightened of the vibes that came from that dressphere… what exactly happened.

Shinra had eventually told me that the dressphere records the person's emotions thoughts and feelings, he told me this after I had worn it. It was completely dangerous.

After strapping my guns to myself I hesitantly walked to the bed, the dint of another body sleeping next to me clearly visible on the mattress. I shivered remembering the strange experience what ever it was. It felt like such a dream, but I could smell the man on my skin, a smell oddly familiar to Tidus' but more like the farplane scent of flowers. I had felt the heat in the morning, I had been completely naked under the long nightgown, and there was another person who had slept next to me and completely messed up the bed sheets, I had actually never slept with Tidus in a bed like this, because of the restrictions on the pilgrimage, but I didn't doubt he wouldn't be able to mess up the entire bed, he was a restless sleeper.

I sighed falling back down onto the bed after I had made it. Everything I think about only leads me to you, three years, and yet the hurt grows more and more each day, the fire burns brighter each day with desire, yet dimmer with hope… will it ever go out?.

My daughter was growing up without a father, I was falling to pieces, and I had become a nervous wreck when another man came into my bed at night and tried to seduce me. (Okay so that was highly unlikely, but it happened) Tidus please give me strength!

"LADY YUNA YOU MUST COME NOW!" A worried voice called from the outside of my hut. I rose to my feet, hoping my daughter would never see me when I was focused on killing. I could hear the commotion outside and I ran as fast as my two feet could carry me to the priest waiting outside my door. The man greeted me with the symbol of Yevon and I sighed, despite the fact Yevon had been a total lie, a faith I had followed my whole life which had turned out to be nothing but a bunch of lies and twisted schemes, despite that, Spira still held on to it's traditions. I had told everyone the truth… yet today Praetor Baralai had been ruling well while starting something he claimed to be "New Yevon" But… it really was the same. I guess I couldn't blame them, and all I could do was smile and return their gestures… respect their beliefs… because people did need something to believe in… without it human kind would surely wither and die.

"Father…" I said mindlessly mouth wide open as I watched the fiends chase the villagers around the village. Rikku and Paine were here, and were currently taking control… but I didn't know how long that would last.

"Lady Yuna, please we beg for your assistance, fiends pouring out of the temples Lady Yuna… what shall we do?" The priest said worriedly. I bit my bottom lip, not exactly paying attention to the muttering man as I watched the city crawling with fiends.

"I'll take care of it." I said to him smiling confidently and bowing. I nodded to Lulu and Wakka who were staring out their window to let them know I was going to take care of it. They smiled worriedly and shut the curtains, which I appreciated I didn't exactly want my daughter to become a witness to violence yet.

I ran up to Rikku and Paine who looked beat. But I knew this was pointless we had to get to the source of the fiends… they had to be coming from somewhere, and we were going to stop it. They followed me into the temple where I was shocked to see Bechlem, the new trainer for the Besaid Aurochs… he was tough… but the Aurochs... they kind of needed it. He looked down upon us from the cloister of trails entrance and grinned.

"They're coming from in there." He said pointing to the door. What a genius… of course they were coming from there; where else would they come from? "It's pointless trying to kill them all; there must be a larger fiend, something that's leading him."

"We'll get it!" Rikku said confidently running up the stairs only to be blocked by the man.

"It's pointless… you will never beat it, there is not choice but to burn this place down." Bechlem said harshly causing me to take a step forward angrily. "Yuna, you should know better than all, that the temples are an old tradition, as are summoners…"

I shook my head violently, un-able to say much as usual, because if I said something it would surely be rude, and I didn't want to be rude, even when my mind was screaming and telling me to put this man in his place.

"Hey just wait right there buster! Whose calm do you think this is?" Rikku said slapping the man across the face, I felt like silently cheering and blessed Yevon for Rikku.

"The aeons are gone, without aeons, summoners are useless." Bechlem snickered trying to set me off, and he had succeeded.

"You will take those words back!" I yelled angrily, noticing Paine leaning against the statue of my father watching the whole situation with amusement.

"No I wont, you have to prove it to me." Bechlem added.

"Then move out of my way!" Rikku said kicking him in the shin. "You will never burn the temples down, it just isn't right!" Rikku scolded sticking her nose up in the air, Paine and I followed her into the cloister of trials and I glared at the man who had called the power Tidus and I had together when fighting alongside useless. It was everyone, not me, we all beat sin together, and I wasn't going to stand here and let him call that power useless.

"No way…" I looked up at the beast as we reached the core of the temple with fear, frozen to the spot.

"Yuna we have to fight!" Paine said pulling on my arm as I stood there and looked up at my first Aeon towering above me, it was a coincidence we were just talking about the aeons being gone… and now there was one right in front of me. What were aeons doing here, aeons mean fayth, and fayth should mean Tidus.

"I can't… I just can't…" I said stepping back only to be pushed forward by Rikku.

"Yunie, it's the only choice, do you want to die?" Rikku squealed getting her weapons ready, shaking with fear at the evil aeon… the dark aeon eying us evilly. I moved forward with determination, Rikku was right, I had to do this, so holding my guns tightly I raised them with a look of pure hatred on my face, shooting the first round of bullets in my guns. Rikku quickly followed with her two attacks, shortly followed by Paine to create a chain of attacks dealing critical damage to the enemy.

I quickly changed into white mage casting protect on the party before it had time to attack. The creature stood their dumbfounded and began flapping its wings. I made sure I stood behind the shield of invisible magic, feeling the strong wind fly over my head. Luckily the shield had protected all of us and damage was something we had not yet encountered. "We have to finish him off quickly before he uses the overdrive." I said shakily, changing back into gunner and choosing to use on the level as I was quite experienced. Rikku agreed and decided to steal the creature for some items before Paine launched darkness hurting herself in the process. I instantly chucked her a potion running my hand over my sweaty forehead, I had to keep our HP up, it was the only way we might be able to survive this.

Valefor swung down to attack me, and the shield took some of the damage shattering before my eyes. "Someone needs to cast protect again." I groaned loading my guns and shooting the aeon for my life, aiming carefully as the aeon tried to doge the bullets that would inevitably pierce him.

"Light curtain!" Rikku screamed chucking me the item before slashing away some of the creatures MP. I smiled in thanks and threw the item up above me, creating another light shield in front of me.

"Yuna I think its overdrives coming on… its doing it's twitching." Rikku panicked jabbing her weapons into its side. Valefor fell a little looking almost drowsy, and I knew it was almost the end of the battle, but for which side, I had no idea. Rikku was right, she had observed the twitching my Valefor always used to do before I commanded it to use energy ray. We didn't have much time left. I held my guns getting ready to shoot more furiously then I ever had. Tidus, please… I began shooting, time stopping as my fingers worked at the speed of lightening pounding bullets into the aeon, and I found before half of my time was up before the guns would cease, that Valefor had fallen to the ground in defeat, erupting in Pyreflies. I sighed letting myself fall to the ground shakily, it was over. Rikku and Paine were also panting heavily and we waited a while before taking that step into the cavern of the Fayth.

"Let's see just what exactly is going down Gullwings!" I said with determination, running up the stairs and into the room which opened for me, since I guess I still was a summoner in my own way. The two girls stayed close to me, hoping to get through the door as well before it fell back to the ground with a thud. Upon entering, we all fell silent. Looking down into the bottomless depths that were the hole. The room was filled with pyreflies and I bent down leaning dangerously close to the edge of the hole staring down it with wonder. "I can't see the bottom." I said with amazement placing my hand in the hole to feel it had a dense and cool atmosphere.

"Well neither can I Yunie…" Rikku said bending down closer to me. "What do you thinks down there?" Rikku asked, I shrugged mesmerized by the beauty.

"It's obvious; there is only one place it can lead to, the farplane." Paine said bending down to our level. We stared at down the whole for a little longer when a ghostly figure appeared above the whole.

"That is correct, this hole leads to the farplane."

I gasped, falling back onto the ground as I saw the fayth hovering above us. "You…" I said holding my hand over my mouth.

"How did it get here?" Paine demanded to know standing up and folding her arms. Didn't anyone else find this strange? The fayth were gone, why was Buhamut here? Why?

"Leave us." The fayth said to Rikku and Paine. They stared at me in disbelief and I begged them with my eyes, also wanting to have a private conversation with the fayth. There were some serious issues we had to discuss. Rikku pulled Paine out of the room in an understanding matter and the door shut behind them, leaving nothing but the faded vision of the fayth, and the eerie silence of the room.

"Why?" I said lowering my face to the ground.

"There are some problems, an unbalance, some-one has caused this, we have to get to the bottom of it, we need your help Yuna… the fayth have arisen."

"Are you dreaming?" I asked in a coldly.

"No."

"HOW SELFISH!" I screamed running as close to the edge of the hole as I could. I wanted to lash out and kill him, did he even know what this was doing to me. "So you want me to save you again! He saved you! And you couldn't even repay me with keeping his presence, he is one person… ONE! I won't help you again! Now I am going to ask for something, I want him back!" I said in a furious outrage. "Where is he?" I asked trying to calm myself down.

"On the farplane…" The young fayth said, looking ashamed of himself.

"What is he doing?" I said dropping my hands to my sides, letting them hang lifelessly, my eyes bottled with tears and I stared at the fayth awaiting his answer.

"He never leaves us alone, everyday he comes up with new theories, and he won't let you go either…" The fayth sighed. "It was a dream Yuna, it wasn't real… we try to tell him that every day" The fayth told me harshly.

"Wasn't real? That has to be the stupidest thing I have ever heard. I felt him inside of me, he made love to me, we went to the farplane together, did you dream that? DID YOU? Was everything Tidus did part of your dream, or is it just he needs you to be alive? Tell me!" I screamed.

"He… was his own person… but Yuna, if one needs another to dream them… it isn't real, don't you see that?"

"If it isn't real, how come I gave birth to his child? I am raising Akemi on my own! I… need him so much." I fell to the floor in tears holding myself tightly. "All I have is myself… please dream him for me, one person as a favour." I looked up at the fayth hopefully "Dream that dream that ended your dreaming." I knew it wouldn't happen, it would never happen… but I wanted it, it's what I wanted, I wasn't used to getting what I wanted, but I wanted it… and I was going to fight for it.

A silence passed over the room for a long time and I sobbed uncontrollably in a heap on the floor. Time was slipping through my fingers, and the wait was unbearable.

"Why dream him, when we can make him real?" The young voice said in a mischievous manner. I looked up in a daze and my eyes widened.

"Ehhh?" I said in confusion wiping the tears from my cheeks.

"Of course, we can't promise anything, but we'll try our best."

It was with that sentence, that I really started living. This was our story, it would be a good one.

Saturn Stars