So sorry for not writing anything for the longest time! I just finished with all my exams and everything so now I'll have more time to write. I want to thank all you guys for subscribing to my story and posting such great comments! Hope you like it so far
Finn:
The first thing he felt when he slowly started to wake up was the length and the warmth of Rachel's body as her back pressed against his chest. She was facing away from him yet she never felt closer. Her legs were pushed up as Finn's legs were tucked underneath the backside of her thighs in a sitting kind of position. Finn regretted waking up. He wanted to stay like this, close to Rachel for so much longer than would probably last. He also now realized the warm breath that was hitting his hand. Rachel was holding it, close to her lips. He had no idea how they got to being in the position they were in, but he certainly liked it.
Her hair was out of the way of her long lean neck. Finn's lips were so close. Too close. He leaned in just that inch further and placed his lips on that soft tender surface. He lingered there for a few seconds breathing in her fresh scent. Rachel slowly stated to stir and she let out, what Finn heard, a soft sigh. He felt her clutch his hand even tighter now. Lips still on her neck, Rachel now started to turn around to face him. His lips trailed her neck as she turned. She let go of his hand and placed both hers on his chest and Finn encircled her and kissed her chin. She had her eyes closed still, but Finn was looking at her. She was so beautiful and fragile. Her hair was a mess, all tangled. He brushed his hand over her cheek and moved a piece of hair behind her ear. And now, she opened her eyes and Finn saw them tinkle. A smile lit up on his face, and Rachel returned one to him.
"Hey," Finn said in a tired but happy voice, "sleep well?"
"Mmmm.." Rachel let out, with a stretch. Her stretch led her to push her hands up against Finn's chest. He felt as she lightly and hesitantly brushed her fingertips along his bare chest and he shivered slightly. Then she moved her hands in a more confusing way, feeling the fabric of his shirt. Her hands froze suddenly and she pulled her hands away. In one swift movement, she lifted the covers off of her and looked down at her body.
She looked up at Finn with confused eyes, "Did I fall asleep here, in your house?"
"Yeah, we were working on the song and I guess you just, wiped out. Is something wrong?"
"Well, it's just… I've never slept alone, in a bed, with a boy before.." she smiled up at him, embarrassed.
Finn let out a small laugh, "I'm glad to hear it."
Rachel laughed and hit him playfully on the shoulder, "Oh, this is how it's going to be?" Finn asked with a smile on, "Alright then."
He quickly moved closer to her and, with much carefulness, started to tickle her. Rachel started laughing and kicking her feet underneath him. She tried to push him off but he was obviously too heavy and big.
"Stop! Stop, Finn! Finn!" Rachel yelled and laughed at the same time. She grabbed Finn's pillow and started to hit him with it across the side of his face. "Finn!"
"Alright, alright," he said when he finally started to stop. He grabbed the pillow from Rachel and put it back to his side of the bed. Yet, he felt like he didn't want to get off her, so he didn't. He put his hands on either side of her waist and she slid her hands up his arms to his elbows, still giggling and breathing hard from Finn's tickling. He started down at her and saw her hair like a halo around her perfect face. She smiled up at him, but she still had that cute, shy face Finn noticed on her lately. Was that a good sign? Hopefully. He reached one of his hands and cupped it around the side of her face. He leaned in closer then kissed her forehead.
"I love you, Rach." He looked down at her eyes again.
She slid her hand further up his arm until she encircled his neck with it. She pulled him down closer so that they breathed into each other's mouths. He felt her hand tremble along his neck. He moved his hand down to her waist and waited, waited for her next move.
"I love you too, Finn, so much." She whispered.
Finn suddenly felt his stomach flutter with butterflies and he felt so good inside. He closed the space between their mouths and kissed her with more passion than he's ever felt. She placed her hands on his bare chest again and Finn felt more butterflies. Maybe too much. Oh crap, he thought to himself. He was definitely coming this time, like the time on the stage, like any time. Way to ruin it, Hudson.
He pulled away and hit his back against his side of the bed. God, she just told him she loves him and he totally ruined the moment. He hated himself for this. He turned his head to Rachel and she was holding her hand up to her head, looking straight up at the ceiling. It looked like she hadn't even noticed.
"Rach?" Finn cautiously asked.
She turned to face him and looked at him without any trace of disappointment, which surprised Finn.
"Let's get dressed. I want to go visit Quinn and her baby at the hospital." She pulled her covers back and jumped out of bed. She grabbed her bag off the floor and walked around the bed to Finn. She reached out her hand to Finn, lying on the bed. He got hold of it and let her pull him up. He got up and swung his legs off the bed. Rachel was about to let go of Finn's hand but he put a tighter hold on it and pulled her to him.
"What about Jesse?" Finn looked up at her. "You told me you had sex with him.."
Finn was confused. She told him what she had done with Jesse. And now, she's never woken up in a bed with a boy before. Had she been lying to him?
"Finn, I.." Rachel looked stumped and scared, "I- I am sorry. I was just angry at you and I just.. oh gosh, I'm so sorry, I'm such an idiot.."
She started to pull away from him, but Finn kept an even tighter hold on her. So, that would mean she's still a virgin. She didn't sleep with that jackass. Why was she sorry? That meant she didn't give herself to him. She didn't feel comfortable enough to sleep with him. A smile crept on Finn's face. He stood up now and grabbed her around the waist. He leaned down and gently brushed his lips against her. He felt Rachel cautious beneath him, it still seemed like she was scared.
"Thank you," he whispered against her lips, "You're amazing."
And he wasn't. The stupid asshole that he is. His fling with Santana blew into his mind. His first time didn't feel like anything and that was not the way it was supposed to be. He wanted his first time to be with Rachel, but it was too late now. Damn, he thought, he was such a screw up. How would he tell Rachel? He knew it would break her heart. Why had he been so stupid? He didn't deserve kissing Rachel Berry. She was too good. She told him that he was so good to her, when he knew the real truth. He'd have to tell her eventually. It would be way to wrong to let Rachel be in his life, and lie to her.
"Finn?" Rachel asked as he backed away from her and put his hands over his face, "Are you okay?"
He slowly turned to her and put on a big smile. Not today, not yet, he told himself.
"Yeah, let's get dressed. Do you need to use the shower? I know Kurt's got some womanly.. things in the bathroom that might be of some use to you."
"Umm, sure, listen are you sure you're alright Finn. I'm sorry for not telling-"
"Rach, I'm not angry at that," he walked over to her again and gave her a kiss on the cheek, "Of course, it hurt when you told me back in the choir room, but you just healed it. I'm not angry." He repeated.
Rachel smiled at him and grabbed her bag off the floor once again and walked into the washroom, with one last glance at Finn before she shut the door.
Okay, Hudson, don't think about that right now. Breakfast. He glanced at the clock and it read 11:45. Wow, they really slept in, so more like brunch. He jolted up the stairs and went to his mom's and Burt's washroom. He opened a new toothbrush, quickly brushed his teeth, rinsed his face and then returned downstairs to throw on a long sleeve pullover and a pair of jeans. He knew how to make pancakes, so that's what he's get started at. He never did much cooking because his mom did most of it for him. But it was only because his mom made the best meals. He grabbed the pancake mix out of the pantry and took out some milk, eggs and a pan.
When he heard Rachel come up the stairs thirty minutes later, he had made about twenty pancakes. He looked in her direction and saw her wearing a navy blue with white polka dots skirt with a flowery rumpled shirt tucked into it. Finn glanced down at her long, smooth legs and died a little inside. They looked so soft and silky. He then let his eyes drift to her wet, damp dark brown hair. It looked darker when it was wet. She looked breath taking- no, she was breath taking. God, he was stupid for not realizing this earlier.
"Finn.." she pointed towards the pan and laughed slightly, "watch out, I think it's burning."
Finn suddenly felt the gross burning smell hit his nose and quickly reacted, "Shit!" He yelled and tried to flip it but it was stuck to the pan. Soon enough, he felt Rachel's hands take over and scooted him out of the way. Very gracefully, she swept the pancake up with the spatula and tossed it on its other side. Finn stood right behind her and smelled the shampoo waving off her hair.
"There," she said turning around, "that wasn't so hard, was it?" She teased.
Finn realized that he was very close to her and couldn't resist, leaned his head down and gave her a swift kiss on her lips.
"You smell too good." He said shyly. "Please don't tell me that's Kurt's stuff."
She laughed louder this time and ran her finger through his hair, playfully.
"No, thankfully, those are my products. I wouldn't feel right taking Kurt's. Luckily, I packed my own." She had a huge grin on her face, "you, on the other hand, smell like pancake mix.."
She reached her hand into his hair once more and placed her lips on his. Finn heard himself groan as Rachel slid her tongue across his lower lip. He hungrily attacked her lips with a stronger force this time and moved his hands down to her waist, and she started to pull away.
"I'm starving, what can I do to help?" She asked, not too far from his face.
Finn stepped away from her and grabbed whipping cream from the fridge. He took out a mixer and placed it on the island table.
"You can whip this if you want. There are also some blueberries and raspberries in the fridge as well you could wash."
Rachel started her duty and once in a while, Finn would peek over at her and watch her as she worked. She looked so concentrated and dedicated, as she always was when she did anything. When she was done with the whipping and washing, she reached up to the cupboards and pulled out two plates. As she did so, Finn noticed how her body elongated and looked so super sexy. He had to look away or he'd regret it. She walked over to the table and set it.
Finn finally finished up with the pancakes and he placed the plate on the table. He grabbed the maple syrup and they both sat down and started eating. Finn ate about ten, but he noticed Rachel only ate three, really small ones. Well, she was pretty tiny, and he had to eat. Once they were finished, the both of them washed the dishes and put them away.
"So, are we going to the hospital then?" Finn asked as he put away the last plate.
"Yeah, I mean if you're up to it. I'd really like to visit Quinn and see how she's doing. I haven't seen her yet."
"Yeah, of course. Let me just clean up and we'll head out as soon as possible"
He rushed down into his room and threw off his shirt and dug through his cupboard to find a clean shirt. He pulled on a blue and white stripped dress shirt and bolted up stairs. Rachel was sitting on the bench near the door, looking straight ahead. She looked over to Finn when she heard him coming down the hallway.
"Okay, you ready?" Finn asked bending down for his shoes.
"Finn," Rachel laughed, "I thought you were going to wash up."
"I did, why? Do I have something on my face?"
Rachel stood up and raised a finger to his cheek. Very lightly, she brushed something off his cheek. She held it in front of his face, "Whipping cream."
She chuckled and put the finger in her mouth and licked of the sweet cream. Oh my god, Finn thought, how sexy did that look. Rachel suddenly turned red. Finn thought she might have realized what she had done was something.. different.
"Thanks." Finn smiled
He grabbed his keys from the key bowl and opened the door, which Rachel went out first. He opened the car and Rachel scooted into the passenger seat and Finn into the driver's seat. Finn turned on the radio and Coldplay started playing. Their ride was quiet for the most part. From what Finn saw, Rachel looked pretty content just staring out the window, observing Lima. He didn't mind it too much, the silence. Times with Rachel were perfect whether it was talking, not talking, making out.. Moments with her made Finn think how he could have ever let her go earlier this year. He didn't want to lose her again. Telling her about what happened with Santana might ruin things but he'd explain to her. He wasn't losing her again. No way.
"What are you thinking about?" He heard Rachel ask.
He turned his head her direction. She had her head leaned back against the window, her hands in her lap. How long had she been staring at him. He hoped he didn't look to worried, with what he was thinking.
"Oh, uh, nothing, you know, just concentrating on the road.."
"Hmm, okay." Rachel replied.
"Why, do I look weird, or.. something?" Finn asked cautiously.
"You just had this… concerned look on your face. Like something was bothering you," she turned her head and looked out the windshield now, "just wondering if you're okay.."
Finn tightened his hands around the steering wheel. So she had noticed. Crap.
"No, I'm okay. I think I maybe ate a little too much pancakes or something."
Rachel smiled and kept looking ahead, "Oh, we're here! I can't wait to see Quinn and the baby."
Finn found a parking spot closest to the door. Rachel and him walked side by side through the maternity unit and asked the receptionist for Quinn's room.
As Rachel was about to walk through Quinn's door, Finn tangled her finger with his. Rachel stopped and looked down at their hands. She smiled. Finn smiled back. He wasn't ashamed of having her as a girlfriend, and he wanted people to know it. So as they walked in, hand in hand, they saw Puck sitting in a chair near the side of the bed that Quinn and her baby were laying on. Quinn was up in a sitting position, pillows up against her back and she and Puck were talking to the baby. Quinn was tickling her chin while Puck was brushing her toes. When they heard the door squeak, they both looked up and smiled at Finn and Rachel. Rachel let go of Finn's hand and went slightly faster to Quinn than Finn did.
"Hey!" she quietly said to Quinn and Puck. She approached the baby and started down at her, "Oh my goodness Quinn, she's adorable. Hey Beth, how are you?" She gently grabbed Beth tiny finger and played with them in her hand. She looked amazing, so gentle and caring. She asked Quinn if she could hold her and Quinn placed the baby into her hands. Rachel rocked her while walking around the room and then glanced up at Finn. She started walking towards him and she showed the baby to him.
"Isn't she just perfect?" Rachel asked Finn
"Yeah, she is." Finn smiled and touched the baby's head.
Rachel smiled at him once again and then walked over to Quinn, "How are you feeling?"
"I'm fine. You know, still just a little tired and shocked at this whole situation, but she makes it better." Quinn nudged at her baby.
Puck got up and walked over to Finn, letting Rachel sit down, after handing the baby back to Quinn. They started to engage in a conversation.
"Hey man, how're you doing?" Finn asked Puck as he approached him.
"Ah, fine. I've been here all night and that chair is not comfortable, I'm telling you." They stared at the two women for a second and the Puck started again, "You know who came by yesterday? That Vocal Adrenaline coach, what's her name? Shelby, Rachel's mom."
Finn looked confused, "Why would she be here? Does she know someone who's sick?"
"More like someone who just gave birth to a baby." Puck looked at Finn in a hinting look.
"Quinn? She's adopting Beth?" Finn asked, with as much containment of surprise as he could so that Rachel wouldn't hear.
"Yeah, Quinn decided she'd be a good parent for Beth. Listen, I don't know if Rachel's cool with this. Don't tell her. Her whole mother-quest didn't go so well, and if she finds out that her new stepsister is my daughter, she might flip. You know Rachel."
"Yeah, I do. No I won't tell her. She'd be crushed if she found out though." Finn replied, staring at Rachel's angelic face. Gosh, she was such a good person. How would she react to this? Not that he would tell her. He didn't want to hurt her.
"What was that whole hand holding thing back a few minutes ago? Are you guys like, a thing now?"
"She's special and I need her. Yeah, there's something there." Finn turned back to Puck and gave him a grin.
"Sure, whatever, dude." He slapped Finn on the shoulder and started walking back to Quinn. Finn followed and stood behind Rachel's chair.
"Hey, Quinn, how are you feeling today?" Finn asked.
"I'm fine, thanks Finn." She smiled at him and Rachel reached up to hold Finn hand.
"Do you want me to get anything for you Quinn? Coffee, tea?" Rachel asked sympathetically.
"Ummm, yeah actually, could you get me and orange juice? The doctor said I should keep up on my vitamins for the milk for the baby."
"For sure, Quinn," Rachel smiled and started getting up, "Puck do you want anything? We can get it if you want to stay with Quinn."
"Yeah, could you get me a black coffee? I hardly got any sleep last night."
"Coming right up. We'll be right back." Rachel held Finn's hand tighter and pulled him toward the door.
Rachel looked so happy. She was smiling and leaning into Finn's side when they were walking down the hallway to the hospital cafeteria. God, she was such a good person and she had no idea of all the hurt there was around her. Even Finn would cause her pain one day, he knew it.
"Did Puck tell you when the adoptees were coming for Beth?" Rachel asked and Finn froze, "Finn? What's the matter?"
Finn shook his head and cleared his mind, "No, uh, I have no idea, I'm guessing probably later today since Quinn's getting out tomorrow. Do you know who the parents are?"
"No, but Quinn told me it was a single mom and she seems very kind and loving so Quinn's happy with the choice." Rachel smiled and looked up at Finn.
She didn't know. So I guess this was a secret he couldn't share with Rachel, no matter how much he loved her. But keeping it away from her wouldn't hurt her. Rachel walked up to the cooler and grabbed an orange juice for Quinn. She returned to Finn and took his hand where she led him to the counter.
"Can I get one dark coffee, please?"
The man went to make the order and Finn paid. They sat down and waited.
"What time is it?" She asked after awhile.
"Umm," Finn looked down at his watch, "it's 2:30."
"What time do your parents get home tonight?"
"I think at like, around 11:30. We still have some time to ourselves before I have to get home and make sure everything's tidy for their return."
"We should call the Glee members and show them the song you picked out. We could get started on it today and then quickly get the band together tomorrow to rehearse before we perform it for Mr. Schuester. Do you think you could get a hold of Kurt and get him to gather everyone up at my place? My dad's won't mind."
"Yeah, I can totally do that. Here, I'll text him right now." Finn got out his cell
Hey, Kurt. Gather the Glee Club and meet at Rachel's 4:00.
Only 5 minutes later, Kurt received the text,
Got it. See you there.
"Okay, all set."
"Here's your coffee miss." The man set the coffee on the table and Rachel grabbed it and they both took of to Quinn's room.
"Thanks." Quinn said when Rachel handed Quinn her orange juice.
Puck took his coffee eagerly and Finn thought he could hear him sigh when he took his first sip.
"Okay, you guys, listen, we're singing on last song," Finn started to announce, "for Mr. Schue. We're going to get started on it today at Rach's place at 4:00. Quinn, when do you get out of here?"
"Not until Sh- the mother comes and gets Beth." Quinn stopped herself, "That'll be around 6:00"
"Okay, you know what; you two should probably go home after that and get some rest. We'll fill you in tomorrow before we sing it."
"Yeah, that's probably a good idea. Okay, well I guess we'll see you two tomorrow at school."
"Get some rest, Quinn." Rachel smiled and squeezed her hand
"I think I will." Quinn smiled back
"See you, guys" Finn told them as they were walking through the door. He caught one last glimpse at Quinn and saw her eyes as she looked down at her baby. They were eyes of sorrow and sadness. Finn guess it was probably because Beth would never be hers. But it's the choice she made.
Finn and Rachel arrived at the car and drove towards Rachel's house. Finn remembered the last time he was here, when Rachel dressed up for him singing that Grease song. It brought back odd, but good memories. When Rachel opened the door, her scent hit him even stronger. It was just the smell he loved. It smelled like peaches and vanilla.
"Hey Dad! Daddy! I'm home!" She yelled
Nobody seemed to answer. Rachel opened a door, which led to the garage. Finn noticed both cars were gone.
"They probably had a late night shift or something. Come on in."
They walked into her kitchen and she asked him if he wanted anything to eat. It was 3:40 now. They realized they were both hungry and Rachel heated them up some spaghetti from yesterday's dinner. Once they were finished, the doorbell rang and Rachel ran to get it.
"Hey girl. So what's this whole Glee Club meeting about?" Mercedes walked through the door and Kurt, Brittany, Santana, Matt, Mike, Tina, and Artie came right behind her.
"Finn had a perfect idea. We're going to show Mr. Schue how much this club meant to us by singing him a song. To Sir With Love, by LuLu. What do you think?"
Kurt and Mercedes looked at each other and the others behind them started mumbling.
Kurt broke it, "K, let's get started."
The entire evening, they worked on separating solos and voices. They corrected each other and sang the song almost fifty times before almost everyone was tired. By the end of the night, they had it perfect. Now all they had to do was get the band involved. At around 9:30, Rachel's dads got home and everyone started piling out the door. Finn was last to leave.
At the door, Finn put on his shoes while Rachel watched him. As soon as he'd got them on, he put his two hands on Rachel's waist and pulled her closer. He kissed her beneath the jaw and then ever so lightly on her lips.
"See you tomorrow." Finn whispered in her ear.
"Goodnight." He heard he smile.
He started walking to her car, but had one last glance behind him. Rachel was standing in the doorway, gazing at him. She raised her hand in a wave and slowly started to close the door.
Finn was never so happy to wake up for school tomorrow morning.
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