Chapter 2

She had fallen to her knees.

One hand covering her eyes the other holding onto the wooden railings as tears fell freely down from her chin.

She was prepared but it wasn't enough.

She didn't want to cry, but she couldn't stop the tears in their path down her cheeks.

All of her previous resolve was obliterated, blown away, vaporized like ash in a sea breeze.

How did she happened to do this?

She had crippled one of her dearest, a sword would never be enough to tear such a wound.

Only the curse of a onesided battle, where demons were victorious, remained.

It had been a long time since she felt so cold, so alone, like she was the only being under the sky where crying couldn't help neither could laughing.

She tried to laugh like Saul had told her, leaving the totally absurd picture of a crying beauty forcing bitter laughs to form in her throat, but it worked jack.

Only time can heal these wounds and after a while which felt like an eternity the crying ceased to a mere sobbing and finally transformed into heavy breathing.

She was slowly coming back to her senses, but remained with her face covered in both of her hands as she tried to gather the strength to stand up.

After some time she pulled herself up on the railings and was finally back on her feet again, still trembling.

"calm down, control yourself" she thought with her head still bowed down.

She inhaled deeply and forced her legs to start walking, as she headed for the library she considered to grab a coffee beforehand but dismissed the thought relatively fast.

Too much was going on in her head, somehow she realized everything that has happened even though it still seemed like a horrible dream.

"I need some time now" she said to herself and just reached the door that somehow felt heavier than normal and shoved it open.

Robin had no real idea why she was here so she looked around the room as if trying to find a reason in it, sighing as she headed for one of the seats next to a window.

She sat down pulling the legs close to her body and wrapped her arms around them while her head rested sideways on the knees.
She could feel her heart beating softly against her thigh when she gazed over the seashore outside the window, but she was distantly staring into emptiness while the room was flooded by the golden light of the setting sun.

What was the meaning behind this? she wondered.

Especially Zoro's words didn't made much sense to her.

Why was he apologizing?

It wasn't just something that slipped out it sounded too honest for that, so why was he saying it?

Did he knew she would suffer?

For sure he knew but still as she had messed up he had no reason to pity her.

She expected him to be angry and the longer she kept thinking the more her curiousness started to kick in, she wanted to ask him directly.

"Some things only happen once in a lifetime and when one of these moments strikes you, you need to hold tight at all if it pains you, if it seems impossible even if it tears the flesh from your bones, hold them as close to your heart as you can for they will bring you joy for more lives still to come."

She had never thought about it, but these were the words from a book she had read a long time ago.

Now that this notion had manifested in her mind she realized her whole story with this pirate crew was nothing less than a twist of fate.

That Luffy saved her in one of his whims, that they journeyed together with the same dream to fulfil their dreams, that she had finally found people she could trust.

She smiled a little bit when she quietly said "I see, so this is how fate wants to be played" while a small tear was running down her cheek.

She didn't move an inch when Nami opened the door.

"Robin what are yo..." she stopped at the sight of her friend.

Call it female intuition or just stating the obvious either way she understood immediately.

"You told him?" was all she asked with a soft voice.

It took Robin some time until she just nodded without making eye contact.

"And...how?...he..." Nami squirmed not knowing how to put it, Robin just shook her head and it was silent again.

Nami let out a hesitant laugh "hey it's not like you love him anyway, we will..."

She hit a sensitive spot right there and she turned her head around, Robin really liked the Navigator but didn't wanted to listen to her plans to make up for it right now.

"Please stop" was all she said but Nami continued "Yeah I know we will arrange for him..."

Robin felt anger rising sometimes Nami was just a simpleton.

"Just stop it now" she said louder than before however Nami rambled on

"Oh I know you will be..." that was the point when Robin lost her temper.

"Just Stop it already " she yelled with a whit of cracking in the voice.

"This is not a game anymore! so please stop it before things will get ugly"

Nami had no idea things were so serious for her friend, she remained calm as Robin continued.

"I just need some time to do it myself, I must do it alone no one else can help me with this I owe that to him, ..really to all of you so please just leave me alone for now"

Nami heard the determination in these words which would never allow her to argue any further.

She inhaled deeply and just nodded "tell me when you need something" she spoke softly and closed the door.

She slowly sank down to the floor burying her face in the hands just muttering "Shit" she really had no clue it worried Robin so much.

The archaeologist made a notion to apologize to Nami for her sudden outburst however she found truth in what she had said.

It was her burden to get everything straight for the crew, for Zoro and for herself.

Maybe it was a trial, given by fate to test her will and wish.

She had to do it on herself like always, but different this time for she really wanted to do it for her Nakamas.

She chuckled when a short thought came to her mind "You don't love him anyway" ….she pondered

"We'll see"

So that's it im currently almost finished with the next chapter but I don't really know what to think about it, so I may rewrite it, I'm not so sure yet.

Dunno if you're interested in that anyway.

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