I've honestly been depressed but I'm okay. I just got into a creative writing club. I guess I'll be learning new skills (;

A/N Thank you all for the wonderful comments. I luv you all very much And thanks 4 the apology that really made my day 3 (:

Disclaimer: The show may be about Riley, but the real star's Maya (;

You want me to be happy?

Put a gun to my head and

pull the damn trigger...

I slammed my head into the pillow.

Once

Twice

I felt Lucas' hand grasp around my arm and stop me from hitting myself one last time.

"What?!"

He let go of my arm. "Can you stop hurting yourself?"

I put down the pillow. "Can you get me out of this disgusting hospital?"

He frowned. "Maya you need the tre-"

"No I don't! Why don't they just let me die!"

"Maya c'mon you don't mean that."

I rolled my eyes. "Yeah because you would know."

Riley walked in with some treats from Topanga's "Guess what your mom rapped up for us."

I smiled pathetically. "An answer for why she hasn't come to visit me yet?"

Riley frowned. "Maya we know you want your mother to be here but see just doesn't wanna see you like this."

I motioned my arms up and down at myself. "Like what?! I'm the same Maya!"

I put my head under these uncomfortable blankets and started crying.

I could here Riley leave.

Lucas whispered. "Maya can you just talk to me?"

I wiped tears from my face so he didn't see me crying. I peered from under the covers.

"What?"

He held my hands. "Honestly. Please tell me why you''re acting like this. The Maya I knew never let anything get to her. Maya I love you and I don't want to see anything bad happen to you. You're a great friend. And loosing you means loosing myself."

I smiled. "Lucas.. I don't believe in love.. I want to die and I want my mom."

I flopped back onto my pillow and closed my eyes.

"Maya oh you're up."

I looked at the nurse with tired eyes. "Why wouldn't I.." I yawned. "be?"

She looked down at her chart we were hoping for you to sleep through the surgery.

I starting breathing heavily. "Su..Sur..gery?"

She nodded her head.

I gulped. "Where's my friends?"

"Oh I let those lovely kids use some of my money to get some food."

As soon as she said that Lucas walked back in.

I looked at him. "Where's Riley?"

He looked down. "She had to go back to school for the club things."

I looked down at my gown. "She was supposed to hold my hand."

The nurse frowned. "Well isn't he your friend."

I gave him a gross look. "I've been asking him to leave this whole week.'

The nursed shrugged. "Well it's fine. You'll just be there by yourself."

Lucas shook his head. "No. I don't care if Maya doesn't want me their. Riley said to stay by your side no matter what."

I rolled my eyes. "Whatever Huckleberry."

The nurse smiled at us. "You to are just adorable."

I slapped myself in the head. "Oh kill me. Can we just get this over with?"

The nurse smiled. "Alright patient 1095647."

I looked at her confused.

Se giggled. "It's your patient number. Now let's get this over with."

She smiled as she rolled me to the room.

I could tell she was still a teenager. She was so happy and also the same height as Lucas. Great I guess a bunch of kids are going to be operating on me. Just kill me...