THE BUCKET LIST, HOW TO GET NOTICED

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Both me and Feliciano slid into the seat of the car and Feliciano was in awe at how good in condition my car was. "Do you want to pick the cassette?" I asked pointing to the small cardboard box on the floor. Feliciano took the box without even questioning it as he sifted through the neatly placed tapes. "What's Gilbert's Mixtape?" Feliciano asked holding up the tape that made me blush red snatching the white tape away from his and throwing it in the back. "Hehe, I wanted to hear it~" Feliciano smiled sliding closer to my body. I cursed the God who didn't make a compartment in the middle of the seats to stop him.

"Ve! Pink Floyd, hell yes!" Feliciano gasped looking over the tape. "Good one." I noted, but didn't take my eyes off the road as Feliciano started letting out this odd noise again. It was like a voice tic, but it wasn't. "Led Zeppelin, another mixtape..." Feliciano was murmuring under his breath everything he found and it shocked me how much songs he could name on one album. I didn't give this kid enough credit.

"The Queens, Ve~ They're my favorite!" Feliciano gasped pushing the tape into the slot and Bohemian Rhapsody started playing and Feliciano did the voice tic again and he gripped my arm. The little Ludwigs in my head were freaking out, but only one good guy was working. "I love it, too." I smiled and Feliciano laughed brightly. This kid was going to be the literal death of me, a knife to my heart!

"Your a really cool kid, Luddy~" Feliciano giggled as he shook me back and fourth.

The car ride consisted of us singing very loudly to The Queens, Feliciano giggling adorably and me slowly falling more in love with my crush.

"So this is your house, it's big!" Feliciano noted sliding out of my car and I looked at my house. It wasn't very big, well maybe since I lived here forever, I never thought less of size. We made our way into the house and we were stopped by my mom. She was wearing a literal pants suit. "Hello baby!" She gasped kissing my cheek and a blushed deeply. Feliciano giggled beside me as my mom went back to the mirror in the hallway putting her earrings in.

"Why are you so dressed up ?" Feliciano asked sweetly as she turned around. "Oh! Feliciano! I haven't seen you in years!" She gasped finally noticing the [adorable, cute, my soul mate] elephant in the room. "You grew up so much, I remember when you use to sell us girl scout cookies~" She smiled and Feliciano beamed. "Wait, but girl scouts are for girls." I stuttered and Feliciano looked over with excitement. He had a story to tell, and by hell I wanted to hear it.

"Well when I was little, my Nonno didn't know the girl scouts were only for girls, and I looked a lot like a girl, so they let me in! All the girls in my troops knew I was boy, but the leaders didn't!" He gasped and his beautiful story was interrupted by a knock at the door. "Oh, she's here!" My mom giggled and I uttered a quiet 'She?' as my mom opened the door her facing going composed.

A beautiful woman with curly auburn hair and dark brown eyes with a goofy smile on her face was revealed. Her dress was more party than what my mom was looking like. "Monika? Wow you are the first person who hasn't lied on the internet!" The women giggled and I thought that this lady must be the female version of Feliciano. "Yep, and you are Daisy! Let's go, I have reservations at this nice French restaurant." My mom went on leaving me and Feliciano stunned in the hallway.

"Wow." Feliciano deadpanned. "I agree." I whispered back and turned around heading up the stairs with Feliciano following silently. We went up to my small room and Feliciano was enticed by the room. "I like your room!" Feliciano smiled setting his backpack down as I just shrugged. "It's my room, so welcome." I blushed looking down at my hands. My anxiety was on the breaking meters.

"Is that Call of Duty?" Feliciano asked bending down at the computer.

I'm dead.

I felt like passing out.

God... I'm sorry, i'll become a Christian if you kill me right on the spot.

"You would be correct!" I yelled, ready to cry and Feliciano gasped and looked back. "Ve! I love Call of Duty, well I like Super Smash Brawl a little better and Animal Crossing, New Leaf is in the running!" Feliciano was now rambling, I heard white noise. Oh my fucking God.

"Do you want to play?" I asked handing him my large headphones. I had two pairs when me and Kiku played together. "I do!" Feliciano smiled taking them and placing them on his head as I put everything together. "Beilschmidt, aren't you suppose to be studying." Kiku's voice came through my headphones as I laughed quietly. "Were studying, I promise Kikmyster!" Feliciano said into his microphone shooting Kiku down.

"Feliciano Vargas?!" Kiku yelled and I laughed at the shock in his voice. "You're going to get it!" He yelled and started chasing Feliciano's characters around the level as people shot at us.

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After Kiku announced he had to do homework and shut off his game, Feliciano suggested we actually study. The test was Friday and Feliciano didn't want to fail. Together me and Feliciano sat on my bed going over notes. "Ergh, I can't concentrate!" Feliciano growled as he stood up. "Do you have music?" He asked and pointed at my radio. Feliciano pranced over hitting play on the radio and the Loveshack started playing.

I blushed dark red at my music choice, but Feliciano seemed to dig it. He giggled spinning around and doing the girly thing where you run your uprising hands through your hair as you shake your hips. "Come dance with me, Luddy!" Feliciano smiled, adorably, and I couldn't say no to those beautiful brown eyes. I jumped off my bed and joined Feliciano at the dancing arena where Feliciano tried to out dance me.

We got close to each over as Feliciano was swaying and our faces were inches apart. I was about to kiss this cute son of a bitch when my brother decided to barge into my room.

Fuck him.

Fuck his children.

Fuck his spouse.

Fuck his fucking dog.

A poem by fucking angry Ludwig fucking Van fucking Beilschmidt God damnit.

"Hey cool kids, what's you up too?" Gilbert asked standing at the doorway as Feliciano turned with a large smile. "Hey Gilbo~ How are you?" Feliciano asked nicely as he swayed back and fourth. "Are you drunk, Feliciano. Ha, wouldn't be the first time?" Gilbert teased and I watched Feliciano face turn to horror. This made my blood boil.

"That was one time, and someone spiked the bowl!" Feliciano protested his eyebrows furrowing. "Sure kid. SO what are you and Ludwig doing?" He asked with a proud, arrogant smile. "Dancing." Feliciano deadpanned and I blushed. "Really? Sounds like fun, can I join?" Gilbert questioned as Feliciano stopped him with a petite hand. "How about no, you aren't cool enough!" He smiled his head turning towards me and I calmed down.

"What?! I'm much cooler than Ludwig!" Gilbert yelled, obviously getting angry of being compared to his dorky little brother. "He is! He likes good music!" Feliciano glared his eyes darkening. "Well, last time I checked, Ludwig listens to cassettes by dead bands. So his music is outdated." Gilbert smiled and Feliciano glared. "Rap is outdated!" Feliciano yelled and Gilbert gasped loudly. "You wound me, sweet cheeks~" He giggled and Feliciano let out a huff. "Gilbert, just leave, we were taking a break from studying. And I don't want anymore shots fired." I snarled and Gilbert just turned around with a growl and disappeared downstairs. "I'm really sorry about him... If you want to leave-" I started, but Feliciano shushed me harshly.

The music on the radio slowly turned to something soft, classical and Feliciano took my hand going into ballroom dancing stance. "You are really something, Ludwig, you would make a wonderful boyfriend." Feliciano murmured fixing my shirt and I smiled softly. "Maybe we can go to the mall and find you a sweet guy~" Feliciano gasped.

This is when the background cracked like in an anime and I let out a choking noise.

WAS I JUST FRIENDZONED BY MY SOUL MATE?!

"I don't know about that, I would just like to wait." I stuttered and my body tensing in shame. "Well that's a shame." Feliciano murmured as he leaned into my chest. My determine side was screaming at me to scoop Feliciano into a dip and kissing him until he sees stars and voice my love. But my shy side wanted to crawl into a hole and cry. Right now I was keeping composer as Feliciano and I swayed.

"Are you hungry, you can stay for some of my cooking?" I asked and Feliciano looked up. "Do you have pasta?" Feliciano asked, his eyes narrowing. "Of course!" I stuttered, Feliciano's eyes lighting up. "VEEEEEE PASTA!" Feliciano yelled cutely as he stood on his tip toes to kiss me on the cheek making me flame up. "I respect you Beilschmidt!" Feliciano giggled pushing my playfully as he started out the room.

I was going die

die

I wanted to cry and die.

This was a terrible idea and I wanted to sit and cry.

I followed Feliciano downstairs and I was greeted to Antonio and Feliciano making out.

I was done.

Literally done.

I walked past Feliciano who pushed Antonio away. The fucking Spanish dimwit leaned on the counter with a smug look. "Oh Ludwig, I didn't see you there!" Feliciano giggled wiping spit away, but I ignored him brushing past him harshly making him stumble as I walked outside and into the woods. I wasn't sure when I started crying, but the tears started fogging my vision at one point.

I reached the fields. This fields was a discovery I made a long time ago when I was little. It was so calm. Just a huge field in the middle of a dark forest. Sun always shined on the honey colored grass and the rain gave the large tree in the middle huge branches and dark green leaves. I sighed jumping up on one of the branches and laid across it as I felt myself cry harder.

This was a bad idea. I was kicking myself inside. How could I be so stupid to think Feliciano Vargas would like me! He would always be better than me, and it pissed me off. But I loved Feliciano for that. He was so... dorky, adorable, feisty, everything rolled up into a cute burrito we call Feliciano.

I fumbled to get out his phone and I pressed 2 on speed dial. "Konichwa, this is Honda Kiku speaking." Kiku answered pleasantly. "I need help." I sobbed into the phone. "Ludwig? What's wrong? I thought you were with Feliciano?" Kiku questioned getting worried. "It's a fluke Kiku, I was friendzoned and then he went downstairs and snogged his boyfriend! I don't want to date, I don't want to do this damn bucketlist either! I was playing with myself!" I sobbed pushing my hair down on my face. Greasing it back seemed so dumb right now.

"Ludwig! Stop this!" Kiku yelled "I was lying to myself and I started believing the lie!" I growled burying my face in my hands throwing the phone into the field as I grunted. Sooner or later I started hearing people shouting my name and my phone went off. I hugged my knees to my body as I glared at the phone. It was getting late and the stars were out and I laid back and tried to count all the stairs in the sky. But there were just to many, to many stars.

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"Ludwig... Dear?" I heard my mom whisper as I jolted awake. I didn't even know I fell asleep. She hugged me tightly and I just laid limp. "Ludwig, baby, what's wrong? I got a call from Kiku saying he was afraid you were about to commit suicide." She asked carefully and I turned my head away. "It's nothing, mom. How was your date?" I grumbled getting down from the tree and she looked down. "It was really nice, but I was worried about you. We couldn't find you!" She protested and I sighed. "I said it's nothing mom! Leave it!" I shouted and she watched me walk into the house.

"Ludwig!" Gilbert yelled trying to hug me, but I dodged him and walked up to my room. I didn't feel like facing anyone, anymore.

Maybe if I lie to myself long enough, these lies will come true...

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Yay positive feedback all around~ So I wanted to get this out because I go on Vacation soon and it's a birthday present! I feel bad for Ludwig in this one. He was having so much fun, but then he got friendzoned :(

[P.S. this story is based off D.U.F.F, #Good eyes]