Chapter 3

I looked at the time on my phone for the...well I had already lost counts.

Six , he said they would be here at six , it was 6:02 pm and still nothing. Like I wasn't nervous enough they have to be fucking late, I had spend the last few hours doing anything I could think of the keep my mind busy. I took my phone and called Puck , after a few rings he piked up.

"You better be dying" I rolled my eyes, and ignored him.

"They were supposed to be here like three minutes ago Puck" I waited for an answer but didn't heard anything , I looked at my iPhone to see if the line had gone dead then putted it back to my ear.

"Puck ? " I asked but not answer

"Puck ?" I asked again but still nothing

"Puck are you there ?" I heard some noises and people talking on the background.

"Hey Santana " that was without any doubt Quinn's voice.

"What the hell? Where is Puck ?" I asked her.

"He said something about manning up, he is in a really bad mood" there was some yelling on the background before I heard Quinn's voice again.

"What's wrong San, can I help you with something ? "

"They are late Q, what if they aren't coming ?" I began to look nervously around the house looking for something to concentrate on.

"They who ?" I rolled my eyes at her, I mean, seriously ?

" They..." who else would I be talking about ?

"Ohh they" Quinn chuckled before speaking again "San don't worry about it ma-"

"Don't worry ?! What if-" I heard someone knocking on the door and froze "Quinn there is someone on the door " whispered, why in gods name did I whispered ? Gosh I'm such a idiot.

"What are you waiting for open the door"I could heard the smile on her voice , she was excited.

"Right" I took a deep breath and started walking to the door, I knew Quinn was still talking but I couldn't hear anything so I just putted my iPhone back in my pocket.

When I opened the door my eyes landed directly on the little boy in front of me, he has this forest green eyes and for a second there I felt like I was staring in Liz's eyes, he has her skin color, but in the place of her blonde hear he has bruin,he was looking back at me.

"Miss Lopez ?" It sounded like the social worker was trying to get my attention for a while now, what's his name again ? Nop I can't remember , I cleared my throat and looked at him.

"Everything okay ?" Seriously that's what he wanted to ask ? Asshole! When I didn't answer he spoke again "You've got my number, please call me if you need anything and I see you next week"

"Sure"I said still looking at the kid, I guess we stared at each other for a while cause when I looked up , he was already gone.

I step aside to let him come in, and then I started getting nervous I sure as hell hadn't thought the whole situation through, what was I supposed to do now? Maybe I should call Quinn and ask her she must know what to do or maybe..

"I'm hungry" his voice stopped my train of thoughts and I frowned for a second before remembering that I wasn't alone.

"What ?" I asked looking at him.

"I'm hungry" he repeated, I looked around the place for a minute , I knew that the only thing I had was redbull and alcohol, why the hell hadn't I bought some grocery? I had spent ours doing anything I could think of just to keep my head busy but I hadn't thought that dear God I'm so stupid.

"Sure..ammh.." I giggled nervously , seriously since when do I giggle ? "we can ammh we should buy some, some stuff " Jesus Lopez get you act together. I took a deep a really deep breath before I spoke again.

"We can go out and eat anything you want, what would you like ?" when he didn't answered I made a few seguestiones "Chinese , Italian , Mc Donald's ?" I wait for him to say something but... still nothing.

"amh this is awkward" I thought out loud " okay then ,let me take my jacket" it only took me a few seconds to find it, I look at his little backpack hanging on his back "would you like to leave that here" he shocked his head no , well that was a progress right ? "okay then" I tried to smile at him through my nervousness.

It only took us around 10 minutes walk to get to the little Italian restaurant I love so much. And to say it was an awkward walk would be the understatement of the year of the century, we just walked side by side in silence, he has his hands in his jacket pocket and I was looking at him from the corner of my eye, I didn't know how to star a conversation with him , about what do people talk with kids , Jeez I should have bought a book or something parenting for dummies . I was so glad when we walked in the restaurant. We sat and after a few minutes a waitress came to get our orders.

"Good afternoon" she smiled politely and so did I "what may get you ?"

"Coffee " I smiled at her and she nodded and then turned to.. Jesus Christ I didn't know his name, that was a good way to start. I looked just in time to hear him answer.

"Spaghetti please" I smiled I didn't know why but I felt butterflies in my belly when I hear him speak.

"Would you like something to drink?"

He nodded before he spoke "Yes, water please ?"

"I'll be right back"

When the woman disappeared he went back to looking at his hands on his lap. I didn't know how to get him to talk to me, what could I say ? He has just lost her mom and he was in a new place with people he didn't know,it must be a lot to take for a little boy.

"What's your name? " I felt stupid asking that question I should have know what his name was but I guess was too nervous when I signed the papers to ask.

He looked up "Kevin"

"I'm Santana" I smiled at him trying to hold his gaze.

" I know" that surprised me.

" You know ? " I asked just to make sure I heard him right and he nodded " how do you know ?"

He opened his mouth to speak but our waitress choose that moment to come back with our orders. I was going to leave her a nice tip but now she can forget about that, she placed everything down in front of us and we both said tank you , it was clearly Liz had done a good job with the boy, he was really polity.

I let him eat in silence while I was thinking ways to break the ice, after a few minutes I knew what to do , It was going to be painful for me I knew that too.

We were walking through Echo Park Lake in silence and he was looking around with a big smile on his face, I knew he was going to like it, we sat by the water and when I started talking he looked at me.

" Your mom and I loved it here" I looked at him sitting next to me before looking back at the lake as the memories came back and with them the melancholy " we used to come as much as we could and we always sat right there , against that tree" I mentioned with my hand to a tree a few feets away.

"You did ? " I smiled at the sight of me getting somewhere with him.

"We did , we wanted to live here after college but-" I took a deep breath , none of this was easy for me, all the memories I buried years ago were ripping my heart. "things changed" I looked at him to see if he was still following "do you know how I met your mother ?" I waited for him to answer but he only shocked his head no."well it was back in High School we became friends immediately and pretty soon I felt for her, she was the prettiest girl in our cheerleading squad, the prettiest girl in the whole school actually "I looked at him and saw him smiling , so I decided to continue "you know ..I made a fool of myself when I kissed her for the first time" I chuckled at the memory "I didn't know how to tell her I loved her, I didn't have the courage to tell her , I was so scared she'd hate me, so I drank myself drunk and went to her house I forgot my phone so I stood for around 20 minutes trowing little rocks at her window, when she finally opened it I tried to climb up the tree next to her window and felt twice" I chuckled and soon after we were both laughing , when our laugh died I continued "well I didn't break any bones thank God but I did have a few bruises , anyway I kissed her and then I passed out, when I woke up with a hell of a hangover I couldn't remember anything, but everything worked out eventually" I looked at his smiling face.

" Tell me more" he said with a big smiled. We spent around a hour and half talking , well I talked most of the time , he just listened and asked a few questions a while I knew I needed some answers so I went for it.

"Kevin" I called to get his attention, he looked from the ducks to me "do you know who I am ?"

"Mom said you are my other mom" he answered like it wasn't a bid deal at all, well I guess it wasn't for him, it took me a while to react.

"Or so I'm told" I murmured to myself.

"Are you ?" he was still looking at me. I frowned no really getting what he was saying. "I never had a daddy, mom say some people have two mommy's and sometimes two daddy's but I only have one mommy, are you my mom ?" I saw the sadness in his eyes and it broke my heart but I didn't know how to answer his question at least not yet.

"Do you know why you are here? " I decided to changed the subject.

I saw him nod "I'll stay with you for a while cause my mom is a little sick and you'll take care of me till she's better" my heart broke at that moment and the huge lump in my throat was unbearable , he didn't know and I didn't know how to tell him , gosh what came next has been the worst experience of my life.

"That won't happen" okay,I agree that wasn't the best way, his eyes went wide with confusion, I took a deep breath.

" She..." I couldn't find the right words to tell him "she died"

"What you mean ?"

" She di-"

" Like Mr Ruff ?" he interrupted me "he was my dog , but one day we ware in the park and he ran away from us and a car came and mom said he was in the dog heaven and he has wings like angels and he flies around and eats a lot of clouds" he rambled without pausing to breath.

"Well yes like that " I tried to smile but my smiled fade when he suddenly stood up with his fists tightly closed.

"No!" he yelled angrily "don't say that" and with that he start running away from me, I was shocked and when I came back to reality I started running after him , I found him hitting a tree with a branch he must have found on the ground, I smiled softy genetic can be strong.I let him few minutes he was angry I understood him.

I took the branch away and knelt in front of him "I'm sorry Kevin" he refused to look at me and just shock her head no.

"No , don't say that" he whispered I could see the tears forming in his eyes.

"I'm really sorry" I repeated again.

" I don't want her to be an angel , I don't want her to go away , she is my mom she has to take care of me" by the time he finished speaking he had started sobbing "why ?" I didn't know what to do or what to say , I felt my own tears cascading down my cheeks , I pulled my hand around him and he buried his face on my chest, I felt his little hands griping the back of my shirt and we sat there just crying.

When I finally stopped crying I looked at him to see him sleeping against my chest , I carried him back into the car and all the way up to my or our appartement. I took his shoes off and laid him down on my bed , I felt his gripping the front of my shirt when I was about to get up. I didn't have the energy to protest so took my shoes off and laid down next to him.

I woke up by an irritating sound coming from everywhere, I sat at my bed till I knew what the sound exactly was, it was the fire alarm. I looked at the bed besides me and when I didn't saw Kevin there I freaked out immediately in seconds I was out of my bedroom looking for him, the place was full of smoke and I started coughing. I saw him in the kitchen and when I looked around and didn't saw any fire I let out a sigh of relief , I opened up the widows and saw what has caused the whole thing, it was a baking pan with ... Well only God knows what was in it.

I turned to Kevin " what the hell do you think you are doing ? "

I saw the fear in his eyes and immediately regretted my words.

"I-" he sobbed " I-I'm sorry" he finally said.

"What were you doing?" I asked more calmly. I arched an eyebrow as I waited for his answer.

"Breakfast" he paused " I tried to wake you up but you wouldn't"

"Breakfast ? " I asked in disbelief, I don't know why I was surprised he is a kid , and normal people do eat breakfast at a normal hour. I sighed, I had a feeling my days of sleeping till noon where coming to an end.

" Yes, mom always makes my breakfast" he said sadly.

I sighed again, wait a minute I didn't have anything you could actually eat in my house.

"What did you put in here?" I took the baking pan and tried to figured out what was in there, I came out with nothing.

"Flour" he answer more calmly.

"Flour?" I frown

" Yes , and water, I was making us pancakes" he said proudly and I burst out laughing.

"Who taught you make pancakes ?" We were walking back to the bedroom.

"No one" he shrugged.

"So , how can you make them if you don't know how?"

" I couldn't know that I didn't know if I haven't try it , right ?" I started laughing again. I knelt to his level.

"I'll make you a deal" I wait for him to nod , when he did I spoke again "I'll teach you how to make them , but you can never do it alone, you like that ?"

"Yes!" he yelled enthusiastic, how lovely his innocence so enthusiastic about something like that, it made me smiled.

"Calm down before you break something" I chuckled. " now , we'll go out for some breakfast , we'll go buy grocery and some new cloth for you, cause I don't think you have much in there" I mention to his backpack and he just nodded.

We were at the grocery store , with a half full cart.

"San?" I turned around and saw Quinn with Beth walking towards me. "I have been calling and texting you" she kissed my cheek and so did Beth.

"Hi barbie" I said to Beth and then turned to Quinn. "didn't got them"

"Look at your phone" I huffed annoyed and took my phone out.

9 missed calls from Bitch and 7 text messages

" Jeez Quinn give me a break" I said still looking at my phone , I opened te first message.

19:05 From Bitch:

Is he there ?

19:15 From Bitch:

San answer me I'm calling you .

20:16 From Bitch:

Where are you ? We are having dinner tomorrow night. Guess who is coming?

20:19 From Bitch :

Santana! Why don't you answer your phone. Something bad happened ?

21:36 From Bitch:

Please tell me you didn't kill the boy.

21:37 From Bitch:

You did , didn't you ? And now you are burying his body aren't you ?

22:06 From Bitch:

CALL ME NOW !

" Jeez Quinn paranoia much ?" I looked up to see them both looking at Kevin hiding behind me.

" Oh right" I smiled and took his hand making him come out from his hiding spot and smiled at him.

" Kevin she is my best friend Quinn you can call her bi-"

"SANTANA!" Quinn yelled and glared at me , jeez this was going to be difficult.

"I'm your aunty" Quinn said sweetly, such a he didn't answer she looked at me silently asking if everything was okay.

I whispered to her "I told him yesterday about... you know" she nodded understanding and we both turned to see Kevin and Beth looking at each other.

"And she..." he looked at me "is my nice Beth, who knew the devil could have such a sweet kid " I said the last part looking at Quinn who just scoffed at me and looked at the little boy.

"She is your cousin" Blond bitch finished.

He looked at me for confirmation and when I nodded , he smiled with big eyes and said "I've never had a cousin before" it wasn't the first time he said something like that, a few minutes ago when we entered the grocery store and I asked him what he liked he asked with big curious eyes if he really could get anything he wanted and it got me wonder how the situation was with Liz, I hoped it wasn't that bad, the thought brought a brand new wave of pain , I wasn't there for him and now I didn't know what he had to go through , the guilt was eating me.

"There are some nice video games over there , you wanna look?" Beth asked him offering her hand at him to take.

He just looked at me.

"Hmm?"

"Can I go ?" I knew it would take a while for me to adapt to everything.

"May I" when the three of us looked confused at Quinn she said " It's may I go" still no answer from any of us "nevermind " she huffed.

"Amh sure go" he let go of my hand and took Beth's.

Quinn and I started walking without any destination in mind.

"And how is motherhood treating you ?"

I laughed softly "I don't know what I'm suppose to do most of the time"

The next day was Friday and Beth's birthday as usually we had family dinner and Saturday the party with her friends, no that I went to those , who would want to be in a house full of kids running everywhere. But this year was different cause Puck had told Kev about the party and he was very excited about it so I was forced to go, when he looked at me with that hopeful smiled I couldn't tell him no. That's why we were at the shopping centrum on the hunt of a birthday present.

Kevin was grabbing my hand like his life depended on it, I understood though were he came from was much smaller and I for sure didn't want him to get lost in the sea of people.

"What do you thing she'll like?" I asked him.

He looked up at me "flowers" I smiled cause he was such a sweet boy, always saying things I never expected a 6 years old to know "my mom said when you think a girl is pretty you should buy her flowers cause girls love flowers" he finished with a proud smile.

"So ... You thing she is pretty" I said before I saw his pick cheeks and started laughing.

At around seven we were knocking on my family's door.

Puck opened up the door and immediately gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek. He held his hand up for Kev to high five him.

"Hi buddy" Kevin smiled.

"Hi Pucky" Puck faked annoyances at hearing his words.

"Hey! It's Pucksaurs little boy" we laughed and he held the door open for us to walk inside and then closed it behind him. We were walking to the living room when I turned around facing Puck.

"What did Quinn made ?" I didn't wait for an answer "I hope she made enough of everything caus gosh I'm st-" I stoped talking when I saw he wasn't paying attention to me but to something behind me. When I turned around the words "holly shit" escaped my mouth before I could stoped them.

"Santana, Is that how you greet your parents" my mom said, I don't know why I was so surprised they always came for Beth's birthday, and Puck's...and Quinn's ...and mine. Money wasn't a problem for them. I shocked my head to clear my thought.

"Mami , papi " I said as I smiled and gave them both a one hand hug. But they didn't answered, their attention was on the little boy still holding my hand.

"Oh" Jeez, I wasn't prepare for that "amh..Kev this are my parents I told you about them you remember?" he nodded and smiled politely at them. I saw my parents looked at my confused waiting for an explanation.

"He is- amh well I think- he-" lucky for me Beth walked in saving me from having to explain things in front of Kevin.

"Hi barbie" we said at the same time and Puck and Beth laughed, my parents just looked confused at us.

"Happy Birthday" he said giving her the white rose he was holding with his free hand. I heard a few "aww" from my mom and Quinn who had joined us in the living knelt in front of him and kissed his cheek.

"Thanks Kev"

"Look what we bought you" he let go of my hand took off the little back pack he likes caring everywhere and took out Beth's birthday gift.

Beth smiled when she saw the xbox game,I think it was street football he said Beth liked it when they were looking around. "Nice!you wanna play ?" Kev nodded and the disappeared to Beth's bedroom.

"So.." I turned my attention to my parents when I heard my dad talking "care to explain?" I looked around us to see that both Quinn and Puck were gone. I guess I'm on my own.

Later that night when we were having dinner Puck asked with a teasing smirk.

"So..are you excited for the party tomorrow?"

"I am soooooo excited ! " I said facking enthusiasm "Ialmost feel sorry that I'll have to leave early, OH! Wait no I don't " I said more dryly this time .

"Leave early why ?" Quinn who was sitting next to him asked.

"I have a job interview"

"What ? Why ? You don't need a job, you HAVE a job" Puck was freaking out a little bit , it was funny actually .

"Calm dow Pucky , I can't work at a night club AT NIGHT, what about Kevin ?" at hearing his name the little boy looked at me I shocked my head no and he turned back to my parents and Beth who were talking about only God knows what

The rest of the night went peaceful , my parents loved Kev and he seemed to like them to, I couldn't ask for anything else. They weren't exactly happy that I needed to leave early next day. But since I usually didn't go at all , and I needed to leave for a job interview they didn't complain much. Kevin asked if he could stay and they were happy to say yes , but I did warn Puck though

"If I'm come back and he has a mohawk I'll rip off your head" I turned to Kevin "and you'll keep your head but you will be in so MUCH trouble, am I clear ?" he nodded fiercely, it was actually hard to contain the smile that was forming in my face. "Good" I knelt in front of him "that's my boy" I patted his head. "I don't think I need to say this but behave okay?"

"Yes mami" I froze when I heard him, the word sended chills through my body and my heart was bitting faster. When I didn't say anything he putted his little hands around my neck and and he cuddled me. I saw Quinn looking at me from behind Kevin with her disgusting sweet smile. I coughed and stood up, I patted his head one more time and left without saying another word but not before glaring at Quinn of course.

The next few days went pretty quickly I thought it was going to be hard take care of someone else than myself but to my surprise it wasn't. It wasn't easy either but Kevin was such a sweet little boy and it hurt my so much every time I saw his sad eyes, I knew he needed time to adjust and the lost of a mother isn't easy for anyone. We spent hours talking in bed about everything and nothing , I told him all the memories I had with Liz , or most of them actually, there were some I couldn't tell a kid,he loved talking about her , learning about her even when sometimes we cried ourself to sleep

"I'm so sorry Kev, I'm sorry I wasn't there for you" he was sobbing against my chest like he had done before.

"C'mom I got you something" I said standing up before we felt asleep like usually.

"A-a gi-gift ?" he asked between sobs.

"Yes" I said smiling

"But It-its not my birthday" he said more clearly.

"Oh you don't want it" I shrugged nonchalantly "Okay"

"NO! I want it!"

I took the big box from where I hided it the day before and saw his eyes grow impossible big , he looked like one of this Japanese manga were the character's eyes were almost as big as their head.

"It is sooooo big"

I putted it on the ground "open it up" the words hadn't left my mouth and he was ripping the paper off.
When he saw what was inside his eyes grew even bigger than before , I still don't know how that was possible.

I had seen him a few days before jumping in front of the TV playing a imaginary guitar when one of Aerosmith's song was playing and he seemed to be having fun so I got him a..

"You got me a guitar ?" he asked incredulous , I smiled and he looked back at the guitar still on the ground like he wanted to make sure it was still there after a few seconds of just staring at it he started jumping up and down yelling "I have a guitar" over and over again.

I tried to make him stop fearing he was going to wake up the whole Block but my "shhts" didn"t work and he didn't stop when I tried it with words "Kev calm down , you're gonna break something" but doubt I he even hear me.

"You want me to teach you a song" that got him to stop. I sat at the ground and opened up my legs for him to sit in between, I'm not exactly an expert but I did picked up something with Puck. It was an easy song Puck hag taught me years ago. I placed his little fingers on the right position from when I sat behind him. He got it pretty soon.

"Are you sure you haven't done this before ?" He giggled and shocked his head no.

"Well you're a nature talent. Now...let see if you can sing"

I'm damn sure that the people he hadn't woke up, with his jumping and yelling were awake now. But fuck them all I was teaching MY SON a song.

To be continued...