Oh my good golly gosh i'm bored. Thanks to all who've reviewed and such. Your wonderful.
I dedicate this chapter to TheInfamousCaichie because likie all of us pervs she enjoys Kaoru and Hikaru 3 Even though this has little to none HikaKao love at all D: Awww I promise it'll get better!! (Maybe)
I don't own Ouran High School Host Club (if you didn't know)
I don't remember but I think this is the chapter with Kyoya. So if you don't like Kaoru being paired with everyone in the host club why are you still reading this? All he wants is loveeeee!! Lol, well no he's only paired with Kyoya and Tamaki... awww I gave away a plot twist D:
I was actually sitting in the library with Kyoya. We... Well he was doing research on what our newest cosplay should be. I sat there doing nothing. I just liked having someone with me.
Today we had a club meeting but me and Kyoya didn't go. Hence why we were in the library. I honestly didn't know why we were IN the library because he got internet in the club so why were we here?
"So what do you plan on doing with Hikaru?" Kyoya asked and I looked up at him. He wasn't paying any attention with eye contact but I knew he was really listening.
"I have no idea." I said softly. "I want him to know that we--" I stopped immediately. My face turned red and I sighed and looked down.
"Had your first time together?" Kyoya raised his eyebrow in a 'I knew all along' type face.
I was confused. How'd he know?
"....How did you--"
"--Please, don't try to underestimate my knowledge. Your attempts would be pathetic." He said sternly then turned to me smirking.
I sort of smiled back.
Tonight was different. I slept alone. When Hikaru walked into the room and laid on the bed, I made some excuse and left. I walked into the bathroom and grabbed a towel and used it as a pillow and laid on the bathroom floor and closed my eyes. The only thing I saw was the nightlight. It was about 10 at night and I missed Hikaru so much it hurt. I closed my eyes tightly so I wouldn't cry. It's his fault not mine... Or maybe it is. Maybe I shouldn't have fell in love with my own brother. Maybe then it wouldn't hurt right now.
"I love you Hikaru." I whispered and closed my eyes tighter and tried to go to sleep.
I woke up god knows when. It was a Saturday.
My cell phone went off. I looked down and it was a picture of Kyoya. I raised my eyebrow but opened it and pressed it to my ear.
"Hello?" I answered unsurely.
"Oh good so your up." He said and I pulled the phone away to discover he called me at 8 in the morning. My eyebrow twitched.
"Yes. Thanks to you." I grumbled.
"Well, I'm bored today. Would you like hang out?" He asked and I blinked. Why was he... Being... nice?
"Um.. Is anyone else--"
"Just me and you Kaoru." He answered my question without me asking it. I closed my eyes and nodded.
"Alright. I'll be over in a bit." I said finally and walked out of the bathroom and bumped into Dani.
"Master Kaoru, so you were in the bathroom." She said softly and I nodded.
"Yeah, things aren't going to well with me and Hikaru." I mumbled and she smiled.
"You need to talk to him about it." She said and I gave her a hopeful smile.
"Do you think you could do it for me?" I asked and she shook her head.
"Sorry Master Kaoru but Master Hikaru wouldn't openly talk to me about that stuff. Maybe you could get one of your other friends to do so." She said and slowly a smile formed. Kyoya!
"Thanks Dani! You gave me such a great idea!" I hugged her out of her surprise and dashed off.
I quickly got changed into casual attire and gave one last look at the sleeping Hikaru. I walked over and kissed his forehead.
"Hikaru... Even if you use me for your selfish reasons and even though you love Haruhi more than you do me... I'll always love you unconditionally. I love you Hikaru." I whispered and walked out of the room with a sigh. Good, now if I could only do that while he's up.
I walked out of the room and out of the house. I got into one of the limos and sighed.
"Take me to Kyoya's please." I said softly and he nodded and the car started moving.
When I got there to my surprise Kyoya was sitting on the steps waiting. He didn't even have his laptop.
I got out of my limo and walked over to him.
"You wanted to hang out Kyoya?" I asked and he glanced up at me and nodded.
"Let's go." He said and we walked to wherever he led us to.
We were in his room and it was pretty big. For some reason it made me miss Hikaru. I don't know why.
"So what are we going to do?" I asked and Kyoya started chuckling and turned to me.
"Have you ever wondered about me Kaoru?" He asked silkily. I tilted my head to the side.
"Kyoya, your not making sense." I was DEEPLY lost.
"Kaoru, you don't wonder how I'm always surrounded by beautiful women and don't consider one of them ever?" He continued and I slowly nodded.
"Kind of." I scratched my cheek. Was he actually going to let me in on a secret?
"Well that sucks for you, lets go get some breakfast." He said and my expression dropped and my eyebrow twitched.
Guess not.
I spent the whole day with Kyoya. We really didn't to much but it was enough to keep me from being bored. He was actually a pretty alright person to hang out with.
"Well, let's get you home shall we?" Kyoya suggested and we got into his limo. "To the Hitachiin residence."
"Thanks Kyoya. For hanging out with me today." I said and smiled and casually turned to my window.
"Kaoru!" Kyoya yelled, trying to get my attention but it was to late.
"H-Hikaru?" He was walking with Haruhi. I quickly turned away and Kyoya looked at me with a blank stare.
"I'm sorry." I said kind of like a robot.
"...It's fine.." I pulled my legs to my chest and buried my face into my knees.
Then THE weirdest thing happened. Kyoya scooted closer to me and put his arm on my shoulder. It wasn't much but I leaned into him. Just to rest my head on his shoulder. But I was consoled. At least I had someone there for me. Even if it wasn't the love of my life.
The second I got home I said goodbye to Kyoya and went on a hunt for Dani. I needed to talk to her.
"Hey." I called out to the main maid of the house. "Where's Dani?" I asked and she shrugged.
"She should be somewhere Master Hikaru." I closed my eyes and turned my head.
"I'm Kaoru." I said softly and she looked slightly shocked.
"...I apologize Master Kaoru. You two just--"
"Look so much alike. I've heard it all before." With that I stormed off.
I'M NOT HIKARU DAMNIT! I'M KAORU!!!
I stormed upstairs and saw Dani. I was slightly relieved.
"Dani." I called and she turned to me. I almost started to cry. I wanted Hikaru!
"Oh Master Kaoru, do you need to talk to someone?" She asked and scurried over.
"I'm tired of being strong. I can't do it." I collapsed onto the floor and she caught me.
"Come on hun, let's go talk." She said softly and helped me to my feet and we walked to my room.
We sat on the bed as I tried to let out some things but then it got a bit more personal.
"...Well... Do you promise not to say anything no matter how bad it is?" I asked quietly and she nodded and held out her pinky with a smile.
"I pinky promise Master Kaoru." She said and I sighed and looked down blushing.
"Well... The other day he got really drunk, I was only slightly buzzed... But... We... We had sex." I started to slightly cry. "And then in the morning he didn't remember anything and he said obviously it wasn't important if he didn't remember! And then the OTHER day we had sex when he was drunk and I was completely sober. And he moaned fucking Haruhi's name!" I jumped up and threw something on the floor the first thing I could find. I started throwing a temper tantrum and I couldn't stop kicking, screaming and crying until Dani grabbed me roughly and pulled me in for a hug.
"I know your upset Kaoru. For now just let it out. I'll be here for you." She whispered and held me.
~~~Hikaru's POV~~~
"Well, later Haruhi!" I laughed and got a ride back to the house. Today was fun, I should hang out with her more often at those commoner's places.
I got inside and jogged up the stairs. I went to open my bedroom door but... It was locked?
"And the OTHER day we had sex when he was drunk and I was completely sober. And he moaned fucking Haruhi's name!" I stumbled backwards when I heard his cries and someone else was in the room.
"I know your upset Kaoru. For now just let it out. I'll be here for you."
I fell backwards completely. Against the opposite wall. My eyes were wide and they started watering. What kind of brother was I!?!?
I turned down the hallway and dashed off.
I'm the reason he was sad. The whole time it was me.
~~~Kaoru's POV~~~
I forgot how long I stayed in her arms crying for. My heart just ached and I wanted to be loved by somebody right now.
She made me lay down on the bed and she sat next to me and ran her fingers through my hair subconsciously as she hummed a sweet tune. Slowly my eyelids got more and more heavy. Until I finally fell asleep.
I don't remember when but sometime in the night Hikaru crawled into bed. My heart ached thinking about it.
He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close to him. My eyes opened quickly and I turned to him. He had the most emotionless face I'd ever seen.
"Hika--" He cut me off with a kiss. He pulled back and glared.
"Why did you lie to me?" He snapped and my features softened.
"What?" I asked slowly and he pulled away from me.
"Why did you lie to me Kaoru!?" He asked again and I blinked.
"About what, Hikaru?" I asked even though I knew damn well what he was referring to.
"About what happened when I was drunk." He said flat out.
"...Well...... Honestly Hikaru...... I...."
I can't tell him I love him. I've got to lie, again.
"I... I didn't want you to be embarrassed so I figured if you didn't find out then you wouldn't have having sex with your twin brother while intoxicated was on your conscience." Liar. Bloody Liar.
"Oh... I'm sorry for doing such an awful thing. I promise not to ever do it again Kaoru. Please forgive me." Hikaru begged and my throat felt dry.
But I want to do it again Hikaru. I just want you to know it's with me and I want you to be sober.
"I forgive you Hikaru." I whispered and turned my body to him to look at him smile. I hugged him and we cuddled closely. I missed holding him. It felt really nice. "I missed you."
"I missed you too Kaoru." He whispered gingerly in my ear. If only he knew HOW much I missed him.
If only he knew HOW much I love him.
If only he knew HOW much I want him with me.
If only he knew...
If only he knew...
That I'm in love with him.
If only...
But he doesn't and never will so, get over it Kaoru Hitachiin.
So I'll wait.
Nuuu, that wasn't the chapter with Kyoya. Next chapter I promise! ~_^
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