Hoshi- Look who's back! I'm here again with Chap. 3 Thankies for helping me get started on this story, to all who have read. Let's move on.
I don't own HP (as usual)
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The next morning was fairly quiet. The twins came downstairs, ate their breakfast and went back to a room, working on more for Weasley's Wizard Wheezes. Ginny and Hermione were talking quietly in the kitchen, Ron and Harry were in another room, (maybe in the Drawing Room), and Tonks was in the kitchen as well, looking at the Daily Prophet.
She looked up from the paper and saw Lupin walk in.
"You want a cup of coffee, Remus?" asked Molly, looking at him.
"No, no thank you, Molly." said Remus sitting across from Tonks. "Ah, you look a bit better today."
Tonks looked up, hiding her blush, but her hair turned a light pink. "Oh- um..yeah..alittle bit, I think."
"I can't believe myself...I'm blushing again! He doesn't like you, Nymphadora! Ick, I called myself Nymphadora! WHY ME?"
She mentally kicked herself and took a sip of her tea that she had just poured.
Remus stared at her, "I wonder what's wrong..She's not acted like herself lately. Maybe that attack got to her." he thought and took a muffin that was on the table.
Mrs.Weasley looked at the two, "Are you both feeling okay?"
Tonks looked up,"Yes, I'm fine Molly, thanks." she said and got up, walking out of the room, soon being stopped by Mad-Eye.
"We need more information on what happened last night, Tonks." he said, looking at her.
She looked at him, her arms now folded across her chest. "Moody, I told you all I know. I don't know much more."
"We need to find out, who else was there." he said and they soon had the whole Order of the Phoenix in the kitchen again. Little did they know, the twins were using the Extendable Ears again so Ron and the others could hear what was going on as well.
"Now, what else do you remember from last night, Tonks?" asked Kingsley.
Tonks looked up and saw they were all staring at her, of course. "I told you. I don't remember alot. What do you want to know?"
They all looked at Mad-Eye.
"Who all was there?" he asked, his eye only turning to face Tonks.
"I told you, Mad-Eye. Nott was the main one I saw..Avery as well. Then there were a few others. What does it matter?" she asked, looking at him.
"It matters alot, Tonks." said Mr.Weasley. "The Death Eaters now know that you were in Diagon Alley, it might not be that easy to try to escape anymore."
She looked down, "But..I told you what I know! That's all I DO know! What else do you want from me? I told you that was all I remembered! I WAS KNOCKED OUT AFTERALL!" she yelled now steaming and glaring. Her hair had turned a dark red, the darkest anyone had ever seen it when she was angry.
"Why can't they all just understand? That was all I remembered! I was knocked out, and they don't get that.." she thought and looked around, they all stared at her. She felt her face pale and blush a small color into her face. Remus was staring at her in shock, as he hasn't seen her flip out that bad..ever. Heck, none of them had.
"Nymphadora, go lie down..you look ill." said Moody looking at her.
"Don-" she stopped and groaned, seeing his sharp glare at her. She got up and walked out, yanking at her hair as she did so.
"Do I not deserve to live or something? Do I have a death wish upon me already? I can't take this! I.." she got to the stairs and looked at the door. "I'm gonna leave..for awhile..a week atleast..but--where to go? I can go to the Leaky Cauldron..or..there's always Mum and Dad's.." she stopped, now looking down and pulling her coat on. "Guess..I'll wing it." she thought and shut the door behind her, walking out of #12 Grimmauld.
After about an hour of flying on her broom, Tonks soon winded up at the Leaky Cauldron. She walked in and looked around, seeing not many people in there, she went to the counter.
"'Ello, Tonks. What are you doing out of Grimmauld?" asked Tom as she sat down at the counter.
She looked up, "Just..trying to get away. Can I have a Butterbeer, Tom?" she asked and set down 3 Sickles.
"Sure." he said and took the Sickles and passed her the bottle.
Tonks nodded as thanks and took a sip, she sighed and leaned back in the chair.
"How's everything with the Order?" asked Tom in a low voice.
"Ick..It's hard, Tom. Really hard. I suppose you heard about me getting attacked?"
"Yes. Sorry to hear about it."
"I told them all about what happened, and they seem to think there's more to it." she said looking at him and then the bottle again.
A moment later, they heard thunder and lighting. Rain was hitting the roof.
"Eh,...it's raining again.." said Tom sighing. "That's the third time this week.."
Tonks looked out the window. "I..yes. It is." she nodded.
All they heard was screaming from outside, a woman was holding her child crying and a man in a dark cloak stood before them.
"Don't touch us! Please! I beg you!" she yelled.
A young child clutched to his mother. The man smirked.
"Heh, begging won't help you..now..hand me the child..or perish."
"Please!" yelled the woman.
"Avada Ke--"
"Expelliarmus!" yelled Tonks as she walked out, she ran over to the mother and child. "Are you okay?" she asked.
The mother nodded and Tonks looked at her. "Go home, quickly."
Tonks turned to the cloaked man, "You have no right to attack innocents."
He smirked, "Heh, Nymphadora..You were attacked yesterday..you shouldn't be wandering around..alone." he said and got out his wand once more.
Tonks got hers out as well, still gripping it as rain came pummeling down on them. "How dare you try to attack a mother and her child.." she mumbled, her hair a dark color and barely visible in the darkness around them.
"You wanna die? Feel what it's like to die, Nymphy?" he asked smirking.
"I..Avery, I should have known." she said glaring up at him.
Avery smirked, "Who else would it be? Nott is with his family.."
"Heh, I would have thought Nott would be here, but I was wrong.." said Tonks trying to keep strong. She could normally out-talk them.
The rain poured harder, Avery raised his wand and Tonks did as well.
"I'm not afraid of you, Avery." said Tonks glaring, her hair a black and she blended in with the night.
"You should be..CRUCIO!" he yelled and Tonks dodged it.
"STUPEFY!" yelled Tonks and she soon looked around, "Lumos.."
Avery had gone. Disapparated.
Tonks looked up, seeing the rain pouring on her more and more.
"What's happening to me? If he hadn't left when he did..he would have gotten me.." she thought and got up.
She was slowly walking back to #12.
"How could I let my guard down from before? I mean..it may now be the past..but..it's still haunting me.." she thought as she reached #12. She knocked on the door and Ginny answered, she let her in.
"I'm not gonna do the verifcation thing. I know it's you, Tonks."
"Thanks Gin." she said and walked in, her hair now a mousy brown and she was soaked head to foot. "I'm gonna..go dry off and clean up."
Ginny nodded, "I'll be in the kitchen, Remus is in there too." she said smirking.
Tonks rolled her eyes as she headed up the stairs.
"Remus Lupin doesn't like me..I don't see why noone gets that." she thought as she walked into the bathroom, locking the door and taking off her coat.
"Maybe because..he does like you!" said a voice in her head.
"Eh, but..Remus doesn't..he said himself..that he couldn't handle it if we were together, that I'm TOO YOUNG and..it wouldn't WORK. Ick, I hate that." she thought as she started the water.
She stepped in and sighed, her head under the warm water and she shut her eyes. "What is wrong with me..I feel..miserable." she mumbled. Tonks looked down at her toes, and then she started to get out a few minutes later, the shower seemed to be only a few minutes long.
After about ten minutes (sorry if it seems to be moving fast) she walked out of the bathroom and headed downstairs. She was in her nightgown and she walked into the kitchen, hearing voices.
"Tonks, you're still up?" asked Molly, looking over.
Tonks nodded,"Yes. I just got back about half an hour ago."
Loo looked over, "I saw how wet you were. Hope you don't get sick."
"I won't. Trust me." said Tonks making a cup of Hot Cocoa.
Lupin walked in, looking at Tonks and Ginny and Molly walked out.
"Great. If they left, then something must be up." she thought as she took a sip of her hot cocoa.
"Tonks, can I talk to you?" he asked.
She nodded, "Sure. Go ahead."
Remus sat down and looked at her. "Nymphadora..I.." he stopped, knowing she didn't like her full name. "Tonks. I wanted to make sure you were okay. I heard you came in late tonight and it was raining.." he said, getting up alittle and putting a blanket around her shoulders.
"Ye-Yes. I'm fine. Thanks." she said looking away alittle.
"Tonks." he leaned down and his face was on her right side of her face. "I want you to be safe..be more careful."
She blushed alittle and nodded. "I will."
Remus nodded and left the room.
Tonks watched and blushed more. "I..he wants me to be careful?" she mumbled and got up, walking to the stairs. "Remus."
"What is it?" he asked, turning back around facing her.
"You..actually care about me?"
He blinked and nodded, "Of course, Nymphadora, you're my friend, and a great Auror. We'd be in trouble if we lost you."
She looked at him and then looked down, "So..is that all I am? Just an Auror? An extra fighter?"
"Nymph-"
"Tonks, just Tonks, Remus."
"Tonks..I didn't mean it like that."
"Then how did you mean it, Lupin? Huh? T-" she felt tears brimming in her eyes. "I..I'm just a fighter..and extra weapon against the Death Eaters, am I right?"
Remus walked up, and tried to put his arm around her. "N-No. Tonks, listen to m-"
"NO! I've listened enough. You don't like me so why should I even try to hook up with you? I'm just a friend to you! And How we'd be in Trouble if you all lost me, You say that as if I die, then we all die!" she yelled and her voice was now hoarse, she got up and grabbed her coat and ran outside into the freezing rain, crying harder than ever.
Molly and the others watched, a few kids were on the stairs, some were in the other room.
"NYMPHADORA GET BACK IN HERE!" yelled Mad-Eye from the door.
Tonks hadn't looked back. She was running down the street, looking at the sky.
"I'm nothing! I'm nothing to the ORDER! I'm just a WEAPON! If they loose me, they loose EVERYTHING! The way he said it, it feels like that he can't do ANYTHING himself!" she thought and soon came to a park, sitting on a swing as the rain poured down, she looking at the ground.
"...Nymphadora..are you giving up?"
Tonks looked up, she then looked down, shaking her head and shut her eyes.
"Leave me alone.."
"C'mon Tonks, you can't be down forever.. I'm sure Moony didn't mean it. Not in that way, atleast."
"Sirius, you--How would you know? You're not even HERE!"
"I'm always around, Tonks..you know it. Now, go back to #12 and apologize to Moony for yelling at him."
"You're not my mother, or father for that matter, Sirius.."
"Nympy-Nymphadora.."
Tonks got up, she blocked her mind from him. "Shut up." she said aloud and sat back down on the swing.
"Tonks!" yelled Mr.Weasley and he ran up. "Tonks, you shouldn't have ran away."
Right behind him, were Loo and Kingsley.
"What happened exactly, Tonks?" asked Loo, behind down by her friend.
"Was it something Remus did?" asked Mr.Weasley.
"N-No..I..well.." Tonks looked down. "It's what he said.." she said looking at him.
"What did he say?" asked Kingsley.
Tonks motioned for Loo to move closer and she whispered it to her.
Loo looked at her. "Oh, Tonks, I'm sure he didn't mean it that way."
"I..I can't help it." she replied, shaking her head.
Loo pulled Tonks away from Kingsley and Mr.Weasley.
"Tonks, listen. Remus is a nice guy, he wouldn't want to hurt you..I..he may not show it, but he does care about you, even if it's not the way you wish for it to be." said Loo looking at her best friend. "Keep at it, He's not gonna be able to deny you for long. I know it." she said smirking.
Tonks cracked a small smile. "Think I should apologize?"
"I think we should get out of this rain, then you can apologize. Kingsley and Mr. Weasley had the right idea, going inside.." said Loo half laughing.
Tonks laughed and the two got up, walking inside and starting to dry off.
As soon as they finished drying off, Tonks pulled on her night robe and walked to Lupin's room. She knocked on the door.
"Enter." said a voice from inside.
Tonks opened the door and walked in, he was sitting on his bed, reading a book.
"Hello Tonks."
"Nymphadora, Remus." she said, smiling alittle.
He smiled just a small bit. "Nymphadora."
"Remus." she started, sitting down on the edge of his bed. "I'm sorry I snapped, I should have known what you meant, and I was foolish and didn't take it like an adult. I'm sorry." she said, looking at him and trying to hide her blush. She couldn't help but blush everytime she looked at him.
"Nymphadora..I didn't mean to make you ups--"
"No, Remus. It was my fault. I didn't realize...nevermind. I'm sorry. I'm just glad that we're not angry anymore." she said, getting up and heading to her room.
Tonks got in her room and lied on her bed, she sighed, looking at the ceiling.
"Way to screw today up, Tonks..let's hope tomorrow is better, with NO flipping out..I can't believe I flipped on Remus. Now he'll really think I'm a little child..though..since I apologized..maybe he won't think I'm nuts. Eh, but I'm still a clumsy, messed up Auror..oh well, tomorrow's another.. she yawned and shut her eyes. "Day.."
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Hoshi- I think that was the longest one yet. Hope you all like it. Sorry if it doesn't make sense at one part or anything. My head was pounding when I wrote this. Review and I'll see you in Chap. 4