Three Months Later
Cold. I'm so cold. Why did they do this to me? Why did they wait for three months? I thought waiting in suspense was the worst part but... I was so wrong.
"Hey!" Cody's cellmate Christopher called out from the top bunk, "How are you?"
"F... f... fine," Cody managed to get out as he shivered.
"I told ya I couldn't do anything when it happened."
"I... know."
Christopher sighed, "I told you it would happen. I told ya to be ready."
Cody remained silent.
"How did the doctors treat you?"
"Okay... I guess."
"I heard those tests are embarrassin'."
"The guards... they could have... stopped it."
"Ha!" Christopher laughed, "To them you're just a screw up who murdered a young girl."
"I didn't... murder her."
"Whether you meant to or not doesn't matter to them, she's still dead because of you and that's all they see."
"They're not... all bad."
"No, not all of them. There's just not as many good ones."
Christopher jumped down off of his bed and knelt beside Cody's bed.
Cody, who was facing the wall, continued to shiver.
Christopher reached out and touched Cody's shoulder, causing Cody to jump in fear.
"Whoa! It's okay, kid."
"Don't... Don't do that... Please."
"Sorry," Christopher replied, "Turn around."
"Why?"
"Because... Just turn around, I need to tell you something important."
Cody slowly turned over, clenching his jaw so he didn't scream out in pain. "What?" He asked once he was facing Christopher.
"I get that you're scared shitless, and you can be as weak as you want to be when you're lying in your bed, but when you get out there you're gonna have to suck it up and get over this."
"How do... I do that?" Cody asked with tears in his eyes.
"Cause if you don't then they're just gonna fuck you again, and that time they won't leave you alive."
As Cody walked down the hallway with the guard most of the other prisoners were taunting him. Whistling at him, screaming his name, telling him how good he was and how good he looked.
Cody was escorted to a private room where Jerica was waiting. She was sitting down at a small table with two chairs. One for her and one for Cody. Once Cody was seated the guard left Cody and Jerica to themselves.
"How are you doing, Cody?" Jerica asked, knowing how stupid the question sounded.
"Is that a joke?" Cody replied. The dark circles under his eyes showed her just how long he had been without sleep. The fact that he looked as though he had lost over twenty pounds showed her how little he was eating. And after the phone call she got the previous day, she knew how emotionally disturbed he would become before his time in prison ran out.
"I'm sorry, Cody..." After a few seconds of silence Jerica cleared her throat and got straight to business, "I tried to get you transferred to a juvenile facility but the judge wouldn't do it. She said that you must serve all of your time in an adult prison."
"I agreed to the plea," Cody said in a monotone voice as he looked passed her at the white, cement wall.
"Yes, well, I shouldn't have let you agree."
"It was my choice."
"Cody, you are sixteen years old, you should not be in a prison with adult men!"
"I killed my girlfriend!" Cody said angrily, "I deserve this!"
"Nobody deserves what happened to you. We should have gone to trial, I could have won."
"No you wouldn't have and you know it! If we would have gone to trial then I would be stuck here for fifteen years instead of three. This way I get out sooner, and I get to serve my time in Massachusetts instead of California."
Jerica took a deep breath, "The men that... that raped you last night. They've both been sent to solitary for six months."
Cody nodded, "That's great," He said sarcastically, "Now I just have to worry about all of their friends and, six months from now, I get to see their beautiful faces again. I mean sure, they'll probably be so mad that they'll kill me, but hey, why should that matter?"
"How's your cellmate?" Jerica asked, changing the subject.
"He's fine."
"I made sure you got put with him because I knew that if you were safe with anyone, it was him."
Cody crossed his arms, "Yeah, he makes me feel all warm and cozy."
"Cody, has he done anything to you?"
"No, he has not done anything to me. He's a nice guy, considering he's a killer."
"You're gonna get through this Cody. You're gonna be okay."
Cody glared at Jerica, "You're not the one laying down every night to other men yelling out how they want to fuck you and make you an adult."
"I have to go, Cody," Jerica said with sadness in her voice. She got up to leave.
"Wait!" Cody called out, "Zack, how is he? Do you know?"
"He woke up a few weeks ago. He has to do six weeks of physical therapy then he and Carey will be back in Massachusetts."
"So... He's gonna be okay?"
"Yes, he'll be fine."
Tears formed in Cody's eyes but he refused to let them fall, "My mom, she doesn't know about... what happened, does she?"
"She hasn't been told yet."
Cody nodded, "Good. I don't want her to know. Make sure she doesn't find out."
"Cody, she needs to kn..."
Cody stood up, "No! I don't want her to know what happened!"
"Okay, I won't tell her."
"Thank you."
"Sure... Is there anything else you need?"
Cody thought for a second, "Do you know if Zack... remembers anything?"
"From what Carey told me, the last thing he remembers is driving to the party."
"Does he know where I am?"
Jerica sighed, "Yes, Carey told him a few days after he woke up. He was very upset... I'll be back to see you in a few weeks, okay? Just, hang in there."
"Easy for you to say."
"Why did you do it?" Cody asked Christopher that night.
"Do what?"
"Kill those people."
"Simple. I felt like it."
"Why aren't you beating the shit out of me?"
Christopher laughed, "Also simple. I don't feel like it."
"I'm serious. If I would have asked that question to anyone else here, I would be lying on the ground bleeding to death."
"Ten years ago I wanted money, bad. I was a druggie without my drugs or any money to buy them, so I went to a gas station with a gun that my dad had given me like three years earlier when I was fifteen. I went inside to rob the place and they said they only had ten dollars in the cash register. I didn't believe them. I knew they had probably pushed that emergency button that's under the counter so I had to hurry. They handed the ten dollars over but I knew they had more. I got so angry that I just shot 'em. A thirty-something year old man and his pregnant wife... I didn't know she was pregnant 'til after I shot her. Anyway, I went over to the cash register to get the rest of the money, but there wasn't anymore. They told me the truth... I killed them for ten dollars. I realized right then just how low I was. I waited for the cops to get there and I let them take me."
"So, you regret it?"
Christopher sighed, "Every second of my life... It's easier to get drugs in this place then anywhere else in the world, but once I got here I decided to straighten up. Get my shit together, you know?"
"Yeah," Cody replied sadly.
"You know what the funny thing is?"
"What?"
"The gun I used, I could have pawned and made a good hundred bucks off of it. Maybe even more."
They both laid in silence.
"What about you?" Christopher asked after a few minutes, "What's your whole story?"
"Ugh... It's a long story."
"Kid, we've got nothing but time."
I would like to start by saying I am a horrible, horrible person and you all have every right to hate me. I am so sorry it took so long to update but, and yes I am making excuses although they are all true, I was sick for so long (I still have a cough), I had to catch up on all my school work, all the holidays are coming up so fast that I'm feeling overwhelmed, I have SAT's to study for, I have a photography class I have to start preparing for, I had to clean my entire room (hadn't been done in a long time), and I have to find somewhere inbetween to eat, sleep, and take a shower (cleanliness comes first!). Anyway, I did write half of this chapter the other day, then I went to bed, when I got up the next day and looked at it I hated every word so I tried to think of a good chapter. I thought of this last night and I rewrote the chapter. It is completely different from how it was going to go, but I like this alot more.
I hope you guys enjoy and can forgive me! Please review.