What You Mean To Me

Pairing: HiccupXAstrid

Rating: M for Mature

Disclaimer: I do not own anything from HTTYD; not the movies, shorts, or series. I also don't own any of the songs I may or may not use. That being said, enjoy the story!

Chapter Three: Breakups

They hadn't even been on stage for five minutes after the opening and they were already sweating and had headaches from the noise in their room. The arena could hold four thousand ticket holders, plus security, staff, and vendors along the outside. It was set up in a giant oval and along the outside walls where section entrances were contained food, drink, and merchandise vendors along with bathrooms and officers in case of emergencies. Inside, the seats went all the way around in a horseshoe from the top to the bottom on floor level. On the floor, the stage was set up in the center back wall, then the rest of the floor made up standing area for front, middle, and back row. The stage itself itself led to backstage to all the workers, and then further back was a hallway leading to dressing rooms, hair, makeup, and more on that was out to the exit to alleyway that would get them on the bus before paparazzi and over crazed fans arrived.

The time was now 6:35pm, screaming fans awaiting the start of the show. Generally, the show would end around 10 and then any backstage winners would get brought back to meet the band for autographs, pictures, and general questions of curiosity for thirty to forty five minutes. After that the fans would be escorted out the main entrance while the band would start their shut down process of washing up, changing, and then finally getting back home by bus. Hiccup was having a hard time getting focused because of the mini fight that he was sure to escalate after the show was over with Heather. Also, he hated the fact the people who used to go to school with were the contest winners, and on top of all that: his father was here too, in charge of the security detail for the duration of the concert.

"Dusk?" came Toothless's voice in his ear piece, another thing the band had. A two channel radio and microphone setup. The two channels were to talk to his other band members, and then the manager who would relay messages to the crew. The microphone was for obvious reasons. "You good?"

"Yeah, I'm good. Sorry, got distracted for a second. Let's get this started,"Hiccup replied to him quietly, Toothless nodded to him as they all got to their positions and got ready. Hiccup took a step forward with with his signature smile the girls went crazy for, "HELLO ISLAND OF BERK!" he called out after making sure the switch was on for the microwave. The crowd erupted into applause and screaming of joy for the band. "Sounds like we got a lot of energy in here tonight and that's what we like to hear. You ready for a great show!?" he asked the crowd.

"YEAH!" they shouted back.

"Alright then, we got an awesome show set up for you! All you gotta do is enjoy it. That being said, let's kick it off with an oldie you all should know! Hit it!" Hiccup smiled wide as it began.

There were always two halves to the show, first half was a good mix of older songs from when they started four years ago, then there was an hour half hour intermission so the band could get a break and sit down, cool off and drink some water. The second half was newer things and never lasted very long. First half was from 6:30 to 8:15pm, then the thirty minute break until 8:45pm, then the rest of the show until 10ish, following that was doing pictures, autographs, and questions with contest winners, finally after all that: they could get changed and head home to sleep. This wasn't their whole day though-they'd been at the arena since 9am that morning making sure everything was set up properly, little practices, planning the order of songs to play. It was a lot of work to prepare for a concert but they managed to do it because everyone was on the same page and worked together.

The shows were always successful, in the beginning there were a few issues with crazed fans. During the most of the first half-even though he was performing, his mind was elsewhere. Like on Heather's and his relationship, and if it was going to last. He was getting to the end of his rope with her-he dealt with everything else but telling him he couldn't meet with the contest winners just because he knew them personally? They didn't even know he, as Dusk, was Hiccup. They knew him back then as shy, skinny, quiet, know-it-all teenager. Dusk, was nothing like the 'old' Hiccup. Dusk was confident, a joker, knew how to laugh, and have a good time. Not to mention he filled out a lot when he was about nineteen years old, a reason he thought Heather only wanted him for the sex, and being in the spotlight, maybe the money too because she was always hinting to things she wanted when they were window shopping-which then turned into actually shopping.

He did care about her but he just didn't feel like she felt the same for him and it bothered him, they were going to have to talk tonight or tomorrow after he recovered from the concert. He was putting it on the top of his to do list for tomorrow morning. Everything so far in the concert was going as planned, they'd done a handful of songs and it was rolling up on time for intermission when they finished this one. He was exhausted and needed to sit down with some water and just close his eyes for a little while, maybe get an aspirin to deal with his headache before getting back on stage to finish off the night. The song ended after another few seconds as they all took a few breaths, the air conditioners were on but it was hot for them on that stage playing and singing with all the lights and pyrotechnics around them. Finally they'd be able to go sit down.

"Alright all you DR fans, we're gonna take a short break and resume in thirty minutes. Please enjoy the food, drinks, and merchandise, we'll see ya soon!" Toothless called out over the cheering, some of the lights came down as they made their way behind the closing curtain. Once behind the safety of it and their microphones turned off, removed from them, and set aside until they went back out-Toothless put a hand on his shoulder. "Hey, you alright?"

"Course I am...why do you think I'm not?" Hiccup asked him.

"You just look like you're not all here right now," Hookfang pointed out.

"Just not look forward to-" he was cut off by Heather hugging him tightly, then holding onto his arm with a bright smile as he rolled his eyes some. "Hey babe," Hiccup stated now-the others understood easily what was wrong after Heather showed up. "Catch up with you before we go back on," he added as he headed for his dressing room with Heather still clinging to him like a lost child.

(With Astrid & The Others)

"That was an amazing first half!" Ruffnut squealed happily, "And I can't get over what he did to you before the show started," she added as they were walking side by side with the guys behind them-they were planning to get something to eat until the show started again.

"It wasn't...that big. I'm sure he's done it to plenty of people before," Astrid blushed a bit looking off to the side.

"Oh yeah? And how many girls does he tell what their name means? Astrid means Divine Beauty! And he said you live up to it, he called you beautiful, girl!" Ruffnut giggled now. That was true too, he pretty much did. Eret scoffed now and crossed his arms over his chest.

"What's your problem?" Astrid asked him.

"You swooning over this guy," Eret huffed at her.

"I would be too if he kissed my hand and called me beautiful," Ruffnut remarked.

"You ain't my girl, I don't care what he does to you. If he touches you tonight backstage then I'm gonna deck him good. No one touches my girlfriend. I don't care how famous he is, you're mine." Eret stated firmly. Astrid stopped know as she faced him with narrowed eyes.

"I'm not a piece of property, Eret. I'm a person and I don't belong to you. It was just a little harmless flirting, you need to relax..." Astrid informed him.

"I'll relax when he keeps his hands off you," Eret told her again.

"And like you could touch him. His guards would have you face down on the floor before you raised your fist within six feet of him," Astrid crossed her arms over her chest now.

"I know he's your fantasy and all but could you maybe remember who you're actually with. You don't stand a chance with him, besides...he has a girlfriend. Hot too, I'd kill to have her in my bed." the other gasped a bit as Astrid's eyes widened slightly. "Hey, you said you wanted him for a night-so why can't I say I want his girl for a night? It's just a little harmless flirting, Astrid. You need to relax," he repeated her own words to her.

"I meant a night to hang out with him! Not sleep with him you asshole, I cannot believe you just said you'd take another girl to your bed if you had the chance. I've never been anything but loyal to you for the last five years and you say that to me? Gods. Yes, I think he's good looking but I'd never leave you to be with him if given the chance. I'm with you because I choose to be, I really can't believe you have so little faith in me. That you'd take another girl to bed if you had the chance too. You're always this way when it comes to any men around me. What's next, you think I'll sleep with Snotlout?" Astrid motioned to him.

"Is that a possibility?" Snotlout asked, Astrid punched him in the arm hard as he whimpered out a bit. "I'll take that as a no," he groaned slightly.

"I can't do this anymore, Eret. You're...way to jealous and insecure. I mean come on, you threatened to punch Dusk because he was being nice to me. You don't even trust me...and if you can't trust me then we don't need to be together anymore. I don't want to be with you, so...just go okay? I came here to have a good time, and you're making it miserable for me. I'm done...it's over." Astrid told him slowly dropping her arms to her sides.

"Really? You're gonna leave me over this?" Eret asked, Astrid nodded. Eret took off his backstage pass and threw it down at her feet. "Fine. See if I care. Bet you that nobody wants to be with your ugly, used up, non virgin body. But hey, no hard feelings. Find Dusk, least he thinks you're beautiful. Oh wait that's right, you don't have a chance with him." Eret grinned a bit, "Oh, by the way...I've been cheating on you for three months," then he walked towards the exit leaving Astrid in complete shock of what he said to her.

"Astrid, are you okay?" Ruffnut asked quickly seeing the tears forming in Astrid's eyes.

"I just...want to be alone for a little while. I'll...see you when the show starts again," Astrid replied as she wiped her eyes and moved back into the main arena area and got back to her spot after showing the officer her pass to be up there, he nodded and walked away. Astrid just sat in one of the metal chairs and covered her face in her hands, sobbing silently but it showed with her shaking shoulders. Of course unknown to her, a pair of green eyes was watching from behind the curtain.

'Why is she crying?' Hiccup thought curiously. He'd been watching her all night since the show started, she was smiling and happy-but now she was miserable. Hiccup always found her attractive back in high school but knew he stood no chance with her so he just ignored it, he hadn't seen her in four years until tonight and seeing her upset bothered him a little. Hiccup sighed as he went to his dressing room and grabbed a small pack of tissues before exiting the stage on the left by the stairs and walked in front of her quietly. "Hey, not sure what caused the tears-but I do enjoy seeing smiles and dry eyes during the shows," Hiccup said to her as he head snapped up seeing him there with a pack of tissues out to her.

"I'm...sorry. I'm loving the show, Dusk. It's amazing and my first one too. My boy...well, ex-boyfriend now said some hurtful things and I guess, has been cheating on me for three months so I just couldn't help it...I left him for being over jealous and insecure but it still hurts to know," Astrid sniffled a bit as she took the pack from him gently, "Thank you,"

"You're welcome. I'm not sure what happened but I can tell you this...no man is worth crying over. We're all idiots and do stupid things but the biggest fools are the ones who aren't willing to fight for the ones they love. If he walked away and didn't bother to fight back, he ain't worth it. Besides, you can't cry here. You don't want red, puffy eyes for the pictures later, do you?" Hiccup informed with a soft smile. "There's a million guys in this world, don't be upset just because one turned out to be a jerk. Just means he isn't the one, but I'm sure that you'll meet him one day. You never know when love will find you, so don't give up and never be afraid to take a chance. Keep fighting and it'll work out. You'll see," he added.

Astrid found a small smile as she wiped her eyes now and nodded. "Thank you, Dusk. You should write a song about it, telling girls that some guys just aren't worth it. Bet that would be a hit," she laughed a bit.

"You know-that's not a half bad idea. I might take you up on that. In the meantime, I do have a song that might help-hasn't been released yet," Hiccup chuckled a bit as he saw her frown slightly, "but because I think you need to hear it, we're gonna release it tonight," her eyes lit up with shock, "Don't tell anyone. Promise?"

"I promise," Astrid replied smiling. Hiccup nodded as he winked at her while he made his way back behind the side curtain. Astrid just sat there a moment holding the pack of tissues from Dusk-how had he known she was crying? Wasn't he backstage? Or was he peeking through the curtain to check on things in the arena? Either way, she was grateful to him. Just a few simple words and he made her feel better about the whole situation. Astrid tucked the tissues away in her pocket and just relaxed in her seat. There was only fifteen minutes left until it started again-she couldn't wait for the second half.

(Backstage)

"What was that all about?" Heather asked with her arms folded over her chest now, a less than pleased look on her face.

"Lay off, Heather. Gods. You know, you've been really on my ass lately and I don't like it..." Hiccup stated. "I was just being nice, it's kind of what I do and last I checked, it was something you loved the most about me."

"I do but not to other girls, especially ones you know from high school!" Heather began to raise her voice as Hiccup covered her mouth and pulled her with him to his dressing room, ignoring his band mates and unofficial father's curious stares.

"Hey, we gotta get ready..." Zap reminded him.

"Yeah, yeah. I'll be right there..." Hiccup mumbled as he opened the door and walked in with Heather, then shut it. "What is wrong with you? Are you hell bent and determined to blow my cover of who I really am, need I remind you that you're under contract, Heather. Seriously, what happened to the girl I met two years ago?" he asked her with her arms crossed over her chest.

"I'm right here, Hic-I mean, Dusk...but why that girl? You kissed her hand, and just went out there to comfort her over a breakup. It's like you like her or something. People are gonna start thinking you're with her and cheating on me,"

"To be completely honest...I did have a crush on her back in high school. So yes, at one point I did like her. You know I can't stand seeing a girl cry, she was alone and needed someone to talk to and I was available to offer that. People know I'm with you. You never leave my side..." he retorted to her.

"Are you saying I'm clingy?" Heather huffed, appalled by what he said.

"Incredibly and I'm getting real tired of it. You're clingy, obsessed, and as of late, really annoying to put up with. You're always attached to me in some way or another: hands, hugging, on my arm, even having sex-seriously on the sex thing. You've wanted it almost every night since I got back. You never give me room to breathe, and now you're on my ass because I'm being something you fell in love with. Nice, kind, and caring. Really, Heather? I've asked you time and time again not to start this shit on show nights. I got enough to deal with without you suddenly having a problem of your own," Hiccup stated firmly.

"I'm sorry, baby. Let me make it up to you..." Heather said softly as she tried to kiss him but he turned his head from her.

"I don't have time for this. I have to get back out there for another hour or so. We'll discuss this later," Hiccup said as he moved to leave but Heather grabbed his hand.

"Come on, just a quickie. It'll help you relax..." she pressed reaching forward and locking the door.

"Heather, I said no. I'm not in the mood," Hiccup sighed. "And really, in the dressing room?"

"No one will know. We have fifteen minutes...please?" she asked again.

"For Odin's sake. No, Heather. No. Okay. No means no. I don't want to have sex with you right now, as a matter of fact...I don't want to do it at all with you. I don't want to be with you. I don't know who you are, but you're not the Heather I fell in love with two years ago. You changed and I'm not gonna deal with it anymore," Hiccup said as he unlocked the door and stepped out seeing Gobber, and his other friends there.

"Did you...just breakup with me?" Heather asked in shock. Hiccup sighed and faced her slightly.

"Yes. Yes I did. And it doesn't excuse your contract, so don't get any bright ideas about trying to go to the press to blackmail me. We're over, Heather. I'm done." Hiccup said as he passed the guard outside his room, "Please collect, Miss. Lanvik's passes and badges, anything that gave her access to me or near the band-then kindly escort her from the building. I expect her gone before the last song plays," he added and continued walking.

"Yes sir," the guard nodded as he put his hand out for the items Hiccup asked her.

"Hic, did you really just break up with her?" Toothless asked, Hiccup nodded. "What...did she do?"

"I don't want to talk about it right now. We got a show to finish in ten minutes," Hiccup stated moving to the spot behind the curtain so the crewman could place his microphone back on him.

"What will be the finale?" Stormfly asked.

"The One. The new one we finished back on Visithug three months ago and hasn't yet been released," he told them as they nodded and began to get ready. On time, at 8:45pm-they all emerged with their smiles and taking up their spots on the stage. It was almost over. Only an hour or so left to go, just the last few songs and then the backstage winners for a little while, then he could just take off for a while by himself to think. Hiccup knew one thing: when this was over-he was going right to the bar. It was going to take more than water or soda to relax him tonight.