Written for the Digimon OTP week. Digimon is not mine, nor is the title.
This story has nothing to do with Fifth Harmony's song, but it was my inspiration for the title.
Special thanks to Koukacs for being my beta! And please keep in mind that english is not my first language, nor hers haha.
Stargazer lily
I wish you were here
Where are you, Ken? Yes, I know – at Shimane. But where are you, that you're not here, with me? Is it because I left? Is it because I decided to study far away from home? It wasn't because of you, Ken. You know it. I think I needed distance, but now I know it wasn't true, or at least I know I was mistaken. I should have remained with you, with my parents. My sisters and my brother. I longed for independence, you've always known that. But… you're just so much more important to me. So.
I could enumerate the things that I miss about living with my family and being able to see you almost every day but I fear I won't have enough paper to do it. So, I'll just tell you a few.
I miss waking up to the snores of Mantarou on the middle of the night. I miss having to fight Chizuru for the right to use my own clothes –do you remember when she got all hippie-style and decided that my wardrobe was better than hers? The nerve!
I miss Momoe and her good advices, and even Chizuru and her horoscope-related advices.
You know we were always close, the four of us. And, as I longed for independence, I just didn't think of that. I wanted to care for myself, and myself only. I still don't think I acted egoistically, and maybe I would take the same decisions if I were to move out again. But, Ken… now what I miss the most are their flaws.
And I'm sorry, Ken. I know you didn't deserve this. I know I should have stayed for you. I don't know why I thought distance would be easy.
But I love you. You know that, right?
And I wish you were here. Please, know that as well.
Miyako