(BPOV)
I couldn't help myself but, get startled when Jacob touched me. I had been listening to an "Alexz Johnson" song and thinking about him because, every time I heard "2am" I thought of him. Was there anything worse than him seeing me with my eyes bloodshot and make-up trying not to stream itself on my face? I felt like I could crawl back into the hole I was in and stay there with the embarrassment that just washed over me. Why was he here and why did it have to be now? It was bad enough he probably my email but, did he really have to come here? Maybe he came to say that I was wrong to send him it. I looked into those perfect woodsy hazel eyes and saw his face form that smile that's so much my favourite, I knew then that maybe this night might not end with me crying myself to sleep again.
We sat and talked for awhile but of course, it ended with me flaying into his arms clenching his thermal as he spoke such reassuring words that reached my hearts and made my heart slowly begin to beat. My whole body tensed up when he said that I was his sweet and lovely Bella, not just Bella but his Bella. It meant that he does still care about me. I kept letting tears flow through my eyes and they began to sting like poison, as if I should stop but, I couldn't. I kept saying some stupid stuff to him, only to have him react, not defensively, but sweetly as if he knew I was saying them as if I was upset. I kept noticing him twitch and get comfortable with me in his arms as he put my head on his chest. The heartbeat, oh god that heartbeat, that I've been longing to here so bad finally sang it's stunning tune into my ears. I felt like I could just die right then.
I felt him wiped a few tears away and lifted my head up to his. We were now face-to-face and I couldn't help but let my breathing slow down considerably. What was he going to do? He had a look of determination for a second but then, it went fuzzy. I remember his woodsy hazel eyes move closer then, all of a sudden, he lips kissed mine. The second time was more of a passionate kiss and I gasped softly jumping backwards toward my pillows at the front of the bed. Why did he have to kiss me? Twice! All of a sudden he spoke because, I asked why but, this time it wasn't sweet as if we were lovers, no, it was as if I had hurt him for asking why. I saw him turn his back to me and began heading to the window. My heart stopped and for a split nanosecond, I felt it almost shatter because, I was going to watch him leave me. I couldn't let that happen because, when Edward did that, I was devastated and suicidal but, without Jacob, there'd be no reason to have my heart. It would go with him if he jumped out that window. I tried to muster up as much courage as a person could trying to explain but, all attempts where useless.
Before I knew it, I had lunged at the back of his thermal and drug him to the bed staring into those upset woodsy hazel eyes, smiling lightly into them. He tried speaking but, that was soon considered failed because, I leaned over and let my lips kiss his with more passion than I didn't know I had. When had I felt him kiss mine back when I retracted and turning me so I was under him, laying on the bed, my heart melt and my soul let a light glee of happiness. His kisses began to become more like we were lovers and that made me softly whimper into the lips of his perfect bronze thick lips on top of mine. I began to slowly forget how it turned out to us kissing but, I wasn't complaining. For the first time, I had warmth within me instead of the coldness I feel when Edward looks at me and kisses my lips. My only concern was if Edward came to my room and saw this happening, what would happen then? He would probably break up with me again and leave me for suicide like last time but, I didn't care right that moment because, I had my Jacob, my protective and caring Jacob.
I couldn't believe what I let my tongue do but, it had a mind of its own and its mind wanted to explore Jacob's mouth. What was I doing cheating on Edward with Jacob? The kissing became more passionate with our tongues intertwining with one another's and my right hand grabbed a hold of his hip pulling him closer to me as if we weren't already. My left arm was firmly under his arm holding his back and our bodies began to crush together. I felt his large warm hand rest on my chest and slowly moved downward as if not knowing what would okay with me but, anything right now would be okay. I just wanted to feel those fingers tracing my skin, lightly, slowly as he did when he first kissed me. There was nothing more that I wanted than to just feel his skin upon mine.
I let my free hand on his hip slowly lift his blackened skull thermal up his body as if it was a snake. I felt his lightly shudder when my hand touched his warm soft bronzed skin. His arms lifted up, as he sat on top of me and I reached over to pull his thermal completely off, throwing it carelessly onto the floor. But, the thing of it that caught my attention was that I didn't hear it slide on the floor. We never broke our lover kisses but, I did when I saw a shadowed figure standing in the midst of the corner of my room near the window. I, being startled, jumped and saw those piercing lime green eyes staring at me, at Jacob, at us. What was I going to do? My mind began to think of all the possibilities till I felt Jacob thrown off of me, across the room, making a rather loud thudding noise against the wall. Before I could blink, Edward was on top of me, holding me forcefully down onto my bed. I began to hold a whimper back in my throat feeling his excessively force on my body, I've never felt or seen him like this before.